Wrong love is an indescribable feeling

Life is a journey, and only when you stop one day will you find that you have experienced so many landscapes.

Sit back and reminisce about the unrealistic fantasies of the past, and a precious meeting.

Knowing her, I actually attended the funeral of my second uncle, she was the niece of my second aunt, and she was not related by blood.

On the way to Chongqing, I was with my fourth uncle, as well as another niece of her and my second aunt.

The four of them went to Chongqing, my second uncle's home, the specific location I have forgotten, it was December 2012. Get out of the countryside.

Then the family was pressed in Chongqing, her surname is very special, the surname hei is called Shujuan. Together, it is called Hei Shujuan (pseudonym, but her surname is really a bit strange, I will not mention it here). It always feels weird to scream. But she was beautiful, and it seemed like I always wanted to see her more.

I was three years older than her, and she also joined the work, working at Xi'an Railway Station, and she bought our train tickets, but I gave her our ticket money directly.

To be honest, they all come from the countryside, and although they participate in the work, it is not easy to live in the city.

I'm married, she has a boyfriend, she hasn't seen her before, but this funeral, it's the first time we've met, she's shy, but she's very pretty, her skin is very white, and she doesn't feel like a northerner.

More like a southern girl, but the height is the size of the north, the body is very thin, but very coordinated.

Among the four of us, that is, the two of us graduated from college, so there are many common languages in communication.

So the two of us sat together and talked about the difficulty of fighting big in the city.

There were not many people attending the funeral, that is, several of our main relatives, the eldest aunt flew from Shandong to Chongqing, and the eldest of the third uncle's family rushed from Beijing to Chongqing.

The sister-in-law passed from Guangdong. It can be said that everyone is scattered everywhere, and the funeral is so sad, and looking at the two brothers of the second uncle's family.

After the incident passed, I returned to Xi'an, because I often traveled for business, I had an acquaintance of her at the train station, and it was much more convenient for me to buy train tickets.

I was always embarrassed to bother her, so I invited her to dinner.

Invite her to dinner, not alone, but call her boyfriend along. According to my relatives, I am also considered a mother's family.

Everyone knows each other, and she will tell me some troubles, such as her boyfriend's family rejecting her as rural. Seems a bit downbeat.

The boyfriend's family is on the railway system, so in terms of income, it is obviously much higher than their family in the countryside.

It seems that when it comes time to talk about marriage, Hei Shujuan's family does not ask for much dowry.

It can be said that it is quite small, and the dowry of eight thousand yuan is not a lot. However, the man's family is still disgusted and wants too much. I remember that at that time, the bride price in Xi'an was basically about 30,000.

She ran to me and cried and asked me what to do. I didn't know what to say for a while.

Persuasion, she married in the past I am afraid that she will suffer, persuade to separate, for a while I can not say, she is very beautiful, I can not bear her to suffer that sin.

She looked at me, her eyes red, after all, we had known each other for a long time, and the two of us sat under the roots of the city wall, a pot of fragrant tea, and I slowly poured it on her.

Then he said, "Don't cry, if you really like him, then he likes you too, you can try to change him, so that after marriage, you may not necessarily live with your parents." ”

"But then his parents will come over often."

"What about your boyfriend's attitude?"

At this point I had to ask her boyfriend's attitude, only to see her sigh and say, "Very vague, it seems to be more towards his mother's side." ”

"Then what do you think of him, I feel that his appearance is also average, just a train driver."

"What else can I see, his family is all railway system, his parents are leaders, and I."

Before she could finish speaking, I stopped, sighed, and said, "You're thinking about your future, you need help, right?" ”

She nodded, and at this point I fully understood that her mood had been considered, and she had a self-motivated heart from school in the countryside and in the city.

It seems to take root in the city, and then to surpass the former small hair, to be higher than them, it seems that in the countryside home neighbors, will also be the children who have gone out of school to make comparisons.

Who's in the city and how. For example, she came out in a good unit, and what he used to go to school. It's all comparison.

It also puts a lot of pressure on the children who go to school in the city, which is also the reason why many rural children are admitted to school and do not return to the countryside.

Everything understood, and at this time she looked at me for a long time and seemed to feel my mood.

So he said, "My aunt is also, with such good resources as you, she will not introduce them to me." ”

Her words stunned me, and I looked at her slowly, only to see that her face was red, but she was looking into my eyes. It seemed that at this moment she was looking at me with spring in her eyes.

The two of us did not hide from her, but I shook my head and said to her: "You look at me well now, in fact, I was also very confused when I graduated, everything was spelled out, I gave up my job in the hospital, came to the big city, although I bought a house, but I was also scared." I can get there. ”

She knows me very well now, and the two of them communicate more and more, and time passes slowly.

The pot of tea was also tasteless, but I looked at the time and prepared to send her back. But she didn't want to, meaning that she just needed to release her depression today.

And she thought of me as a friend to talk to. It's also a friend with a relationship.

She didn't go back, which made me feel helpless, and because there were colleagues in the unit dormitory, I couldn't take her over.

There was no way but to arrange a room for her, and my house was in Xianyang, and I usually lived in the dormitory if I was busy.

A hotel was arranged for her, and when I was ready to leave, she disagreed and asked me to stay and chat with her.

Looking at her attitude, I also felt that she seemed to have a sense of anger at this time.

But this feeling was very bad, I just wanted to shake my head, but then she hugged me and kissed me.

The brain has a feeling of suffocation, and the time and space are somewhat confused. At this point I seemed to have returned to the adolescent impulses. Pretty ridiculous isn't it?

She doesn't seem to think there's anything wrong with her, she always feels like she's missed me, and now she's going to get back the missed me, even if I'm married, maybe it's wrong love, I understand.

Winter has passed, spring has come, the earth has revived, everything has springed, and in the fields, the old cattle have slipped with their plows and begun to work hard in the fields. Appears natural and harmonious, a field ink painting.

Sow the seeds of hope and look forward to the autumn harvest season.

An impulse to make a mistake of love, a memory-making release of feelings. In the end, she chose her boyfriend to marry. It seemed that she did not feel indebted to him.