In 278 BC, 57 years before qin and the world, familiar with the historical trend but already saw the fate of the inevitable collapse of the countries, at this time the god of war Bai Qi led the black-clad army to attack the capital of the Chu state - Yingdu.
No one noticed the lonely figure on the banks of the Miluo River, the cloak was scattered, describing the withered, desperate Dr. Sanlu walking alone, and the sentence between his lips and teeth was: "The whole world is cloudy, I am alone, and everyone is drunk and I am awake." It was not until later, when Tai Shigong revisited the old place, after having a conversation with him through time and space, he wrote down the famous "Biography of Qu Yuan Jia Sheng Lie".
Since then, the martyrdom of the literati jumping into the lake seems to have become a symbol...
In 1927, after writing that "in the past fifty years, only one death is owed, and after this incident, there is no further humiliation", the master of traditional Chinese studies resolutely decided to throw himself into the Kunming Lake of the Summer Palace, and now the most widely recited in the world is his book "Words and Sayings in the World", but Mr. Fengbone can not be seen again...
Time and space rotate, and tragedy inevitably occurs in the autumn of 1966, when an old man wandered for a long time on the shores of Taiping Lake in Beijing's West City, and finally embarked on the same path as Qu Yuan and Wang Guowei, plunging into the cold lake water.
If I had the opportunity to return to the scene of history, I really wanted to stop them, just like the miluojiang fisherman dissuaded Qu Yuan, although the ending was irreversible, but I could understand their miserable hearts, what kind of humiliation and suffering they had, making them give up their most precious lives. I even thought that they could be like Qian Qianyi at the end of the Ming Dynasty, complaining that one sentence of water was too cold, and then throwing themselves into a different world.
Unfortunately, if they did that, they would no longer be them.
It was also the autumn of 1966, on the shore of Taiping Lake in Beijing's Xicheng City, the old man's body had been fished to the shore by the staff, and the documents in his pocket clearly told everyone that his name was Shu Qingchun, perhaps we were too unfamiliar with this name, and he had another name that we were familiar with- Lao She.
Yes, it is the old she who appears in our school textbook, "Winter in Jinan" seems to be still circling in memory, the fresh air of "Grassland" is still flowing in a passage in memory, and the little Fuzi in "Camel Xiangzi" is probably still helplessly lamenting in the middle of the novel...
But the gentleman has left us forever, and the distance between us has become a life and death that can never be seen. When his only son Shu Yi rushed to the scene, he could not believe his eyes, his father did not leave a single word in front of the door, involving the topic of his own departure, many years later recalled the picture of that year, Shu Yi vaguely remembered his father asked his mother, whether the family's money can cope with daily expenses, after hearing his mother's answer, Shu Yi seemed to remember his father said: "That's good." ”
It was a very ordinary autumn morning, and my father went out as usual, but he did not want this separation to become a farewell. Shu Yi stared at his father's corpse with tearful eyes, the ancient capital autumn had always been desolate, but he did not feel much, his father's cold corpse was motionless, he called his father thousands of times, confirming that his father could no longer give him a warm response, he remained silent.
He could not forget the strength of his father's warm palm caressing the top of his head, just right; he could not forget his father's ardent expectations of him, if he did not have the talent to engage in literary creation, he might as well learn a craft to make a living, even if it was a carpenter or a coachman.
Later, he was admitted to a university in the Soviet Union, majoring in wood hydrolysis and synthetic materials. The father was very happy, and everyone praised his son for having a good time. How happy he and his sisters and sisters were at that time, only this moment, the family was torn apart. Do you understand the feeling of living in a life that everyone admires since childhood, and then falling into a trough in an instant?
Originally, his father was a People's Artist, and after the advent of 1966, the title of People's Artist was stripped away and he became a rightist who was bullied by everyone. His father was born into the late Qing Dynasty, and his grandfather died in a struggle with foreigners, so his father did not taste a superior life since he was a child. Thanks to the help of well-meaning people, his father was able to enter the academy to study, and the talented him later obtained a place to study abroad at public expense, and his father first went to England.
Later, by studying his father's life, he understood that it was a life experience that was extremely important to his father. In Britain, he came into contact with the famous British writer Hardy, and his father said that Hardy had a great influence on his creation, and "Lao Zhang's Philosophy" had some meaning of learning from him.
After returning to China, my father was busy with official business for many years and had little time to spend with his family. When it comes to his father, everyone calls him a writer, and because of his influence, everyone in school and company inevitably respects him.
But when his father left, he left as a "sinner", and at that moment he understood that the original Shu Yi had to change his posture and live again, and continue to pick up his tail and be a man. He lived cautiously, as cautiously as Lin Daiyu had entered the Jia Mansion for the first time, lest he make a wrong move and be caught by someone.
Some seeds will inadvertently sprout in the mind, like curiosity about the father. He had not read much of his father's writings before, and his understanding of him was only about life and the call of his father. After sitting in front of his father's corpse for a day and a night, he unconsciously became curious about his father's spirit.
What kind of soul, under what circumstances, would make such a choice? He quit his job and devoted himself to the study of his father, and the more he studied, the more he discovered his greatness. In order to avoid suspicion, from the perspective of research, he often called his father Mr. Lao She, the purpose of which was to tell everyone that in his research work, he had always been conscientious and selfless.
Later, he found the last straw that overwhelmed the strings of his father's life, in such a crazy era, when truth, goodness and beauty were extremely trampled, conscience had long become a rare luxury in the world. Writers Haoran and Cao Ming have publicly criticized Mr. Lao She, and later Cao Ming personally visited his mother and confessed his sins to her mother.
Haoran never openly admitted his mistakes, on the contrary, he felt that he was not at fault, and it was Mr. Lao She's family who committed the mistakes. It is said that the relationship between Mr. and Mrs. Lao She was extremely bad at that time, which caused him to be in a bad mood, which led to the subsequent tragedy.
Alas, in heaven and earth, people are like ephemerals, why should they cling to inherent paranoia and regret for life? It is better to be frank and frank, laugh and look at the world, and not travel leisurely, but the world can't see through the threshold of fame and fortune.
Hopefully, the tragedy will not be repeated in future history...