01
I remember when I was a child, it was a hot summer night, and the air was full of knowing cries. Grandpa shook the fan, with a paper cigarette in his mouth, his eye sockets collapsed, and layer after layer of smoke circles blurred his bark-like face. Inside the room was a loud cry, and then the door "slammed" open, and the aunt ran out crying.
"Where are you going, Dead Nizi!" The grandmother in the room screamed and scolded, and the aunt did not return. That night, the air was very hot, the tile room was silent, no one spoke, and occasionally grandma's sigh could be heard.
Early the next morning, the family saw a letter on the table: "You have never ignored my ideas and insisted that I drop out of school and marry." Since I am so unimportant in your eyes, I will go. I'm leaving this home and never coming back! ”
After reading the letter, Dad quickly accompanied his grandparents to the station. However, there was no figure at all. After returning home, the grandparents scolded and grinned: "I have the ability, dare to go directly, well, then die outside!" ”
A few days later, when her grandparents were full of despair, the aunt made a phone call, less than two minutes, and only said that she had found a place to live, and also entered the factory, without worrying.
Since then, the aunt has only contacted occasionally, saying that she can earn hundreds of dollars a month, enough, and then hurriedly hung up the phone. Every time I could hear Grandma sighing in the room, Grandpa not saying a word, sitting on the doorpost smoking cigarette after cigarette.
02
No one knows how the aunt is doing, grandma wears shoes that seem to never end every day, and washes tofu noodles that seem to never be washed.
Finally, one day, Grandpa, who rarely spoke, caught fire and shouted at Grandma, "Just you can!" You're greedy for that little bride price!" After scolding, he patted his ass and squatted at the mouth of the river, looking at the village hair.
The aunt got married 3 years later. That night, my aunt called: "I got married two months ago, and now I'm pregnant." Grandma's hand holding the phone tightened, her face was stunned, and then she laughed. Thanks to getting married and pregnant, the phone call was a little longer. At that time, I didn't understand why my grandmother was so happy, because I hated my aunt, hated her for leaving, hated her for making my grandparents quarrel constantly.
After finishing the work at hand, Grandpa suspended his tofu stall and prepared to go to see his aunt. At that time, I didn't know what a green-skinned train was, only that Grandpa had to ride for nearly 20 hours. Before leaving, Grandma stuffed all the native eggs laid by her chickens and the newly picked vegetables from the vegetable garden into Her Grandfather's flat shoulders.
Before getting on the train, Grandma pulled the corner of Grandpa's clothes and instructed, "You should talk well when you see your relatives, and don't blame Ernelle." "Got it, it's very instigated." Grandpa replied, carrying a large bag and a small bag in both hands.
A week later, Grandpa came back with a big bag and a smile on his face. He took two suits of colorful clothes and stuffed them into his grandmother's hands: "Oh, I bought it for you, and this food, said to be a nutritional product." He also took out a piece of fresh stuff and gave it to me: "Come, your aunt bought you a school bag, and a skirt." ”
I looked at the school bag with the Sailor Moon printed on it, scoffed, and threw it on the back room bed.
03
After that, as soon as the home phone rang, Grandma rushed over. The quarrel between grandparents seems to be less, and the topic of daily discussion is whether to prepare more bed quilts and whether to prepare doll clothes, because the aunt said: "When the child will leave, come back to see." ”
Fast forward 5 years. Grandpa's back was bent like an arch bridge, and Grandma's head was full of silver hair. The aunt also fulfilled her promise and returned with her uncle and cousin, whom she had never met. They brought a lot of packages filled with new clothes, nutritionals, all for us.
I stood behind the door, watching them chatting, watching my great aunt and uncle smile with all kinds of greetings, watching my grandmother take my cousin's hand expectantly, laughing and saying, "Call Grandma, call Grandma." And the child quickly withdrew his hand and ran to the back of the aunt in fright. I saw the unconcealed loneliness on Grandma's face.
After staying for three or four days, the aunt was leaving, and Grandma still stuffed the bag full of eggs and various greens to them, and took her cousin's hand and smiled: "Call Grandma, call Grandma." The grandson still withdrew his hand, hugged his aunt's neck and shouted, "Go, go." After Grandpa took them to the entrance of the village, he stood there, smoking his cigarette.
After that, the aunt did not come back for a long time.
04
After a few years, Grandpa became seriously ill. Skinny as a wood, he lay on the bed and hung his last breath: "I want to wait for Ernelle, I want to wait for her." Not long after, the aunt rushed back.
She fed Grandpa his favorite noodle soup, and Grandpa seemed to suddenly get up in spirits: "I'm sorry for you and your mother." The aunt did not speak, but silently fed Grandpa noodle soup, wiping the corners of his mouth from time to time. In the end, Grandpa still didn't make it through. That night, the great aunt cried in the spiritual hall.
Two or three days after Grandpa's death, the aunt stuffed Grandma with a thick wad of money, said some greetings, and left. Grandma stood at the entrance of the village quietly wiping away tears.
After that, the family was still in contact with the aunt intermittently. Knowing that she had added another daughter, Grandma wanted to cut through, but she couldn't do it, and her body didn't allow her to go thousands of miles to visit like Grandpa. And the aunt is also busy at work, she said that she is under pressure to build a new house for her children... She said a lot of helplessness, did not have time to come back, I hope we can understand. Grandma or forgive, gave the aunt 5,000 yuan, which is one of the few savings of grandparents.
The next time I saw my aunt was in front of My Grandmother's spiritual hall. After her parents made dozens of phone calls to her, she rushed back and knelt there crying. I stood behind her and looked at her silently.
I still clearly remember that after dementia, my grandmother always called her aunt's name to her mother, and every night she would shout at the village gate on crutches: "Er Ni'er, Er Ni'er." The aunt will never know, and the most Grandma said before she died was: "I'm sorry Ernell." "And the pair of shoes that were made were all in the cupboard, and they were chewed by the rats and were reluctant to take them out, saying that they would wait for Ernie to come back and wear them."
All of this, the aunt did not know, perhaps in her heart, only remembered decades ago, the night of leaving home, the scolding of grandparents.
05
After the death of my grandparents, my aunt never came back. Perhaps, she felt that her only concern was gone; or perhaps she did not have much attachment to this mother's family.
When it comes to my aunt, my father is reluctant to talk about it, until I grow up and don't know what happened.
It turned out that the grandparents had some preference for sons and daughters. In fact, it is not possible, but I don't like my aunt very much. Dad has two younger sisters, but the eldest aunt is not as well received as the father and the younger sister-in-law. The aunt did not perform well in school, the family was poor, and her grandparents only let her drop out of school, and also told her a family affair. The eldest aunt ran away from home in a fit of rage.
Every family has a difficult scripture. We can't meddle in the affairs of their previous generation. But if we had given each other a chance at that time, we might not have the results we have today. Of course, I can't ask my aunt about this, for example, she doesn't regret it now, and she misses those close relatives.
When my father said that my aunt was coming to my wedding, I was a little shocked, after all, I didn't even remember what she looked like. My aunt came back two days early, and after a brief chat, she went to rest.
On the day of my marriage, my aunt sent me out of the family. Before leaving, she secretly stuffed me with a red envelope. I shoved for half a day, and she shoved it into my pocket and said, "Hold it, I haven't bought you much in the past few years, and my aunt can't stand you." ”
Subsequently, my aunt hugged me and got into the car with the relatives.
At that moment, I couldn't hold back and ran to the bathroom and cried. I thought of my grandparents, of how much I missed my aunt when they left, and of the estrangement I had been away from my aunt for so many years. But that hug seemed to dissolve everything.
Is there really such a deep hatred between close relatives? I don't know. However, if you are really wronged, really sad, and really regretful, it is better to give each other a warm hug. After all, this hug has really been missing for each other for too long.