Wang Chen: A dream

There is always a gap between fictional novels and movies and reality.

The novels and movies she loves are always tragic. She always said, where are there so many perfect things in reality? After a hundred turns and a thousand times, those who should be reunited will still be scattered, but those who should be reunited may not be reunited. Yeah, there are few women who can be as rational as she is. When a rational woman meets a rational man, then friends can't do it.

But when you meet a sensual man, it's different.

She met him on a mobile phone chat app. Although she is not busy at work, she is not keen on virtual social games, and usually he talks to her, and she loves to ignore it. Later, she made a boyfriend, and she got along not salty. On National Day, she and her boyfriend planned to go to Tengchong, Yunnan For a while. When booking the ticket, her mobile phone rang, he asked her where to go on National Day, she said to go to Tengchong.

He said again, then I will go to Tengchong to find you.

She said, neuropathy.

In Tengchong, she and her boyfriend planned to stay for five days. At first, it was also according to the plan, walking around to see, and on the fifth day, the two broke up. The reason is that when her boyfriend was taking a shower, the mobile phone rang, and when he looked at the telephone display, the other person's name was: wife. She smiled, and when she left, she was not remorseful or sad. All tragedies must be borne by themselves, and you cannot blame others for being evil, but only for being too stupid.

She didn't fly back to the airport immediately and wander the road. Before he could take a few steps, her cell phone rang and he harassed her again, saying he had arrived in Tengchong. Today is no better than in the past, there is a person who is willing to talk to herself is also good, she made an appointment with him, and then afraid that her boyfriend would find herself to say something useless, so she turned off the phone.

When she got to the place, she saw him and was shocked—it was her colleague. After working for several years, they saw each other every day, but they didn't say much. On the phone app, they said a few words sporadically, and she didn't want to know what the other person looked like. Now when he saw her, she was very embarrassed, and when he was ready to turn around and leave, he stopped her.

He was already a man of his own age, and she did not expect that there were men in their thirties who would be like teenagers, who they liked but did not dare to say, but did some gentle games, and insisted on it for a long time. Maybe he really liked himself, she thought. For a few moments, she was very moved, like going back to her girlhood.

But after all, it was just like, she was no longer a girl.

In Tengchong, she had a very good few days with him. Walking together, taking pictures, drinking, chatting, and holding hands and hugging. But for her part, she wasn't going to start another relationship all over again in the moment of the breakup. She had spoken very clearly to him, but he didn't mind. Her story with him, probably like that, was just beginning to end.

When she returned to the company, she treated him like a stranger as before. What she thought was that for so long, she had never wanted to know him, which could only mean that she was not interested in him. She always treats people so rationally, although even then she can't avoid being plotted against, such as the person who has become an ex. Later, he transferred to her department and had more opportunities for contact.

That year, at the department's year-end party, a female colleague confessed to him that he had rejected him. He said he had someone he liked, but no one had heard of any girlfriend. Probably because of this incident, the female colleague began to think that he liked men, and many people thought that he liked men. Only she knew, not so.

Later, she took the initiative to ask him out once. She told him to find a girlfriend to live well, because the pressure on him by the company's gossip was too great. He joked that it doesn't matter, everyone thinks so, then go along with everyone's meaning, find a boyfriend, girlfriend, absolutely not. She asked why, and he said that everyone said that marriage was a grave, and there were not a few people who had done things hastily, but he did not want to, and the person he wanted to marry must be the one he loved deeply.

Before leaving, she said a harsh word: You die this heart, we will not be able to do this in our lives. After saying that, she left without turning her head back, but she didn't know his expression, didn't know his reaction, didn't know the sadness of his inner turbulence as if to put him to death. Yes, she didn't know, she wouldn't know for the rest of her life. But who in this life hasn't uttered a few harsh words? She always consoled herself with that.

She had always felt that he was too simple, a man in his thirties, and still thought like he had been a teenager. In fact, what she wanted to say was: he was very naïve. But what can be done? Everyone has their own lifestyle, and if he feels that this is the way to live up to this life, it may not be good. After that, she never asked him anything again.

He still maintained the habit of talking to her on the chat app, and she still maintained a very low response rate, so that he suddenly did not contact her for a while, and she did not notice. It was one day a few months later, when he was handing out wedding invitations at the company, that she thought of something in a trance.

Yeah, what reason did he have to wait for her all the time?

But why was she so upset the moment she got the invitation and looked at him? It was as if something particularly important had been snatched away by someone else, but hadn't she always thought it wasn't important at all? Didn't she always feel like a particularly rational woman? Still is...... In the dictionary of love, there has never been the word "reason"?