Birch Grove
Today is October 24th, the birthday of Yan Hengxian's brothers, and I only found out in the evening. His brother came back from Fuyang, and I called Up Changhong to come from hushu and the three of them to have a barbecue at the door together. After today, the Hengxian brothers will be 33 years old.
There was no wine table where he was, it was cold and silent, I was not good at drinking and did not like to be lively, and the three of us talked about many past events and regrets. Brother Heng Xian's life is a good wine, friends always give people the feeling of being alive and full of vitality, after drinking he will always go to grab his friends' words, argue and talk loudly with his friends. He always had an inexhaustible strength in his body, he was warm-hearted, loyal and loyal, and inserted knives into the ribs of his friends.
If he were still here, today would have been a great table of people who would have gone to drink his wine. To be honest, he should have been the one who would have been most willing to let me attend, but I don't know if he would have called me. Because, he knows that I never spend my birthday outside, and I don't like to be too noisy, and now no one will worry about it. Never remembered his birthday, this time it made me unforgettable! It is very strange that the three of us are drinking wine, talking about brotherhood and the impermanence of life, on the wall of the barbecue restaurant, but suddenly for unknown reasons "click" a little, and then the lights in the store are suddenly bright and dark, and there are several other tables of customers sitting in the store, do not know what the reason is. After waiting for a few minutes, I said half-jokingly that it might be that the Hen hsien brothers were coming back to see that we wanted to drink at the bar. The owner told us to move to the next room to continue eating, at 22:40 we ended home, asked the boss that it had been repaired, just now it was the outside fire line and the zero line to build iron burned. We pay the bill to go, ask how much money the boss lady opened her mouth and said 480 yuan, give 470, Changhong asked why it is 470, the boss lady said to give you cheap. We felt unlucky and ended up paying $468...
About 13 years, I was working on a farm in Lishui, in May of that year we looked for strawberry seedlings everywhere, drove through the lake and happened to see him spraying strawberry seedlings in the field, and then asked him if he had any seedlings to sell, how much was a tree... Our friendship and friendship began at that time, and later when I didn't understand growing strawberries, I asked him to let him help often, and found that he was very warm and frank, and he had a very good impression of him. In 15 years we disbanded the farm, gave him some farm things, and also gave him a lot of boxes of strawberries, and the photos and text on the boxes were taken and written by me, and he continued to use our name, Five Star Farm, as his own name for Strawberry Farm.
Hengxian brothers hometown is Guizhou Liupanshui people, 17 years old first from guizhou hometown to Wenzhou a factory to make glasses, and then to Zhejiang Jiande his sister to learn to grow strawberries, Jiande is the hometown of strawberries, planting strawberries is a technical job, the general Zhejiang people do not teach outsiders, is to teach will not be fully taught. When I met him, I should have been growing strawberries independently for only a year or two, when his mother was still helping him. In Linquan, Fuyang, his sister hugged me and said that her brother was the most miserable, and others still had someone to help him, he was a person who didn't even have a straw to help, his life was very short, and his life was too bitter and pitiful. We drove two cars to Fuyang, eight friends went to see the place, can't believe it is such a shallow place, a car of seven people, even his wife and daughter can escape and climb out of the car, as far as his father and son did not save life, is this life? He also knew that the road to heaven was lonely, so he took his 6-year-old son with him and left a young daughter to give his wife a companion and not to live too tired.
It was all late, we couldn't believe it, it was all men in their 30s who went, and several people were sadly shedding tears. I don't know what's going on, but I'm surprisingly calm and rational, and when his sister hugs me and cries, I can't say the taste in my heart. We burned a lot of paper money where his father and son had an accident, hoping that his father and son would no longer be poor and the road.
Fuyang to Nanjing to drive five hours, I arrived at home nearly 2 o'clock in the morning, not sleepy at all, lit nine sticks of incense for him, sat at the desk can no longer hold back the tears in his eyes. There is only one sister in my hometown, no brother, before I always felt that there was something to call Xiao Yan, he would always spare no effort to appear and do a good job in the first time. So, my parents, uncles, brothers-in-law, cousins, cousins, and many other leaders, comrades-in-arms, and fellow countrymen all knew him. Often joke with him, Boss Yan is incredible, Boss Yan is a philosopher, Boss Yan is bullish... He would always laugh out loud and laugh, and also joked that there was food to eat with the boss, and the boss said that he would fight wherever he wanted...
Brother Hengxian is a very grateful person, he respects me in his heart, and every time he drinks, he is afraid that I will tell him that he is out of shape and scolds him. He once told his family and friends that knowing me was the luck of his life, and that I was his nobleman. At that time, I also listened to laughter and laughter, and I didn't take it seriously. Now, when others are gone, I suddenly feel like I am missing something very important in my life. Unexpectedly, this is a farewell! This farewell made me deeply feel that I was already as close as he was to my brother, but I didn't cherish it so much and have a clear perception before...
"Double Eleven After the Winter Solstice"
Today's winter solstice, the weather is suddenly cold, and it is raining outside.
According to the custom, every year before The Double Eleven, I would call Heng Xian and ask him to organize people and cars to come to my house to support. He was once appointed Commander Yan of my Strategic Support Force. November is the busiest and most tiring time for him to grow strawberries, every year he will come, and he will call a lot of his brothers, ponies, little chu, little ginger, big men... I don't know how he organized it, but in short, at first many people didn't know me, and he could call people over to help and cheer.
From October 20th to now, twenty days, The wife and daughter of the Hengxian brothers, as well as their mother and sister are still waiting for compensation in Fuyang, this is a long process, so that many people are suffering in pain, the other party will send them with 80,000 yuan of funeral expenses, there is a kind of disguised bullying and rogue, once the so-called brothers have become no money, it is a big deal to let an old farmer in his fifties go to jail. Everyone was very sad and indignant, lamenting why the Hengxian brothers wanted to surrender, why they wanted to go to Fuyang, why they didn't choose a good place or a good person's home accident. Now that there is nothing, what should be done later, what can be done?
I never thought about life and death, and I never felt that the people around me would suddenly leave. Occasionally, when I looked up at the couch in the study, I remembered that we used to chat and drink tea together a lot, and I also scolded him for not shaking his legs. Remembering the epidemic that year, we were isolated at home, and he sneaked into the community to send me his own vegetables and chickens. He respects me and I hope he's okay. I have a bad temper, and I usually dare to talk about him and scold him to a real friend, and sometimes I don't give him any face.
Before I met him, I always thought that I was very young, and I always thought that it was Xiao Zhou, a young man in the eyes of others. I started my business in 13 years, when I was 33 years old, which was a hurdle in my life, and the Hengxian brothers did not cross this hurdle at the age of 33. I became the eternal "boss" in his heart. The boss's name, no matter how much they called, I never felt the real meaning. Only now do I know that weight and responsibility. Since leaving the agricultural road, I also started a new plan, and the Hengxian brothers gradually did not have much contact, at first I did not think that I would be in contact for so many years, it became the most important imprint in my life, I only remembered that "Zhou Boss" and "Brother Zhou" were the first to be called out, and then, many people followed suit, fortunately, there were so many brothers who could get together to help deal with some important things behind him.
The Hengxian brothers have been good wine all their lives, serving people righteously, like to help, are anxious to be difficult, and have a bad temper, but they are warm and active to talk around. He always lived in material poverty, but he was extremely rich and heroic, he had many friends, and he was familiar with himself. Therefore, he is also a vigorous and windy person in the strawberry circle. Over the years, he has taken me to know many brothers he knows, Zitang, Changhong, Chu Lei, Xiao ma, big man, little Jiang... These years were his hardest and most embarrassing time, he couldn't say it, he used to talk about it, he choked in front of me, he said that if the boss wasn't for the child, he didn't want to live, it was not interesting. Once while drinking at his house, once when he was drinking tea at my house. I know his suffering, I know his suffering, although he has not spoken of it, but it is also a mental journey that I have experienced, because it is a man who has nowhere to vent and only one person to carry, and the man's tears turn into wine, into the cold rain and snow outside the winter solstice house.
We used to talk to each other about the life we longed for, and he said that he liked to ride a motorcycle, travel around, be free, and like to listen to the wild and fast roar. He said that after the strawberries are planted this season, he can think about buying a house, settling down in Nanjing, and giving his wife and children a happy and warm nest. He also said that in the future, he will have the opportunity to go to his hometown to drink self-brewing that is no worse than Maotai, to eat XiaoGuo's soybean milk fritters in Qingdao, to drink Beer and prawns from Qingdao, I said that in the future, I will have the opportunity to go to Qiandao Lake, to Jinggangshan, I will go to Huizhou to Huangshan to live for a while every year... I once told him that when he got old, he would buy it in a neighborhood not far away, and when his children grew up and went far away, we could take care of each other.
To tell the truth, I feel guilty that I can't really help the Hengxian brothers, because his most difficult time is also the stage of my continuous hard work and trial and error in society, he is a person who pays attention to everything from the heart and always pays attention to me, and is the person who really hopes that I can start my grand ambitions as soon as possible. I didn't go home during the Spring Festival this year, he accompanied me to deal with a very important thing, he sent me, picked me up three days later, although he was very busy, but when he saw me, his eyes were full of concern. At the beginning of the new year, I personally sat in Dongshan to direct the takeover, so busy that I didn't even have time to shave my beard, and he encouraged me that everything would become better for me, and it would be better, and some things would be solved. He was often so poor that he didn't have ten dollars left, and I had told him several times not to grow strawberries, and to follow me to express or sell, and he was definitely a good material. He said he respected me and didn't want to do things together, for fear of affecting feelings. He said that when the children grow up, they will consider transformation. He says he likes to focus on a cause and likes to go all the way to the black. I don't know, can he perceive it now, has he ever regretted it? All this may be fate, this is his destiny, no one can change!
Although these days are busy, but several times in the middle of the night to wake up, may also be a dream to vaguely remember or do not remember what he said, as if to remember his smile. We went to have a barbecue, and the lights flickered on and off. I sent an article commemorating him, but WeChat can't pass, others just can't see it, but it can be forwarded through headlines. Coincidentally, recently, my work and career have been like divine help, long-term indecision, difficult to deal with, and now it seems to have become smooth. I don't know if the brother in the spirit of heaven is really blessing or still blessing me, helping, sincerely wishing me well.
Every time I can think of his sincere smile, his wild laughter ringing in his ears, remembering the last time he called me, remembering that he secretly flipped through my circle of friends and forwarded the photos of us eating together three years ago to his circle of friends, without saying a word, as if it was a one that had just gathered, and as a final farewell as our brothers!
Animists remember the sudden death of the big wolf dog he once had, a few months before, and I believe he was very sad. Last year, I told him that the majiaqiao land was not good for feng shui, which was very unfavorable to him, so he moved out as soon as possible. Who knew that this phrase had become a proverb and had become an infallible opportunity!
Everything will pass, and the deceased will gradually fade into time. They say that whoever it is, except for great men, will be dusted and returned to earth in 50 years, and no one will ever mention it again, as if they have never been in this world. We are all very ordinary people, from distant rural areas, no background, no special talent, gathered in a big city like Nanjing, because of fate, we can meet and know each other very sincerely and frankly on a journey, which is a rare fate for everyone, is the most precious piece of wealth in life.
Writing this article, I am still without gold, still unpaid, and feel a loneliness that I have never had before. Double Eleven, I have a new group of interesting brothers, they also like to call me the boss I am no longer too worried, because there are them - Liu Lei, Chen Hewen, Wang Ruicheng, Zhao Lei...
When we are alive, we are like a small tree and a small grass in the forest, no one knows who, no one can remember anyone. Ordinary people live and have not been vigorous. Dead, but even more quietly. You are like a firefly with a faint light, coming to this world to illuminate a road of relatives and friends, you fly hard, all the way to the best of your ability, when everyone is accustomed to it, your light that has flashed, that with your bitterness and tiredness, sorrow and joy, in the flying wind, suddenly disappeared in the autumn and the lush forest... Maybe in a short time, no one will remember the little firefly, the father and son who once planted strawberries...
Maybe others will forget, but I believe that we can always remember, because we will all eventually become a firefly, flashing a weak light, flying around in the world, and sooner or later that light will be extinguished.
Hengxian brothers, winter solstice, the ancients are used to remember and sacrifice the day of relatives, may there be a goodbye in the next life, we are still brothers, in the next life you still love to drink, but also shake your legs, I will also be loud and fierce scolding...