Chapter Thirty-Seven: Beautiful Solitude

Being able to have such a spiritual communication with Lu Bo can make us say to each other the appeal to love that has been suppressed in our hearts for a long time, can I and Lu Bo interpret our respective views and definitions of love in such a close space, and can we both openly and honestly say the sincerity of our love for each other?

Such honesty, such frankness, and such purity make the relationship between me and Lubo as easy and happy as a pair of wrongdoers who once had a grudge because of a misunderstanding, and have been untied!

I often say to myself, "I am truly grateful to God for taking care of me!" Can I be accompanied by Lu Bo on the road to study in a different place, in fact, the status of our two families is not equal, Lu Bo really does not have to pay so much for me? Lu Bo is a very handsome and beautiful man, both family and personal conditions are the envy of the category.

I understand how many of my classmates have crushes on Lubo, and Lubo is also very clear. How many times of temptation, how many times of hinting, Lu Bo's state of being from one to the end made me moved, but at the same time there will be a hint of bitterness in the comfort. Whenever I encounter such a thing, I don't know how to say or do it? I know how deeply Lu Bo loves me, and I know even more how pure Lu Bo's loyalty to me is, and just by being able to come to the South China Sea from the riverside to accompany me to read, it can already prove everything.

Or when Lubo first appeared, I could say that it was a burst of ecstasy! What does seven years of away from home, seven years of study, mean for me as a person who grew up in a family without affection? To tell the truth: I was so happy when I heard the news of going to school, but when I thought of being alone in a different place and insisting on seven years of study, the gap in my heart was still quite large.

However, I could not say this to anyone at that time, even if it was Tong Tong, the best sister of my comrade-in-arms of the same year, still could not. Because at that time, I was the only soldier in the whole military region, a soldier who was guaranteed to go to school. At that time, I knew my mother's inner feelings very well, and only my mother could read my inner entanglements at that time.

I have counted when I have been crying since I was a child, and in the first few days before leaving, I almost left myself alone in the bedroom and was silent, thinking about the growth experience from childhood to adulthood, thinking about the way I watched other children of the same age playing outside when I was practicing, thinking about the pain of every toe standing like a steel needle, watching the deformation of my feet and molting and thick cocoons again and again, touching the two obvious scars on my knees, I would be sad and cry.

I don't know why I was born in such a family, why I had such a strict and strong father and mother, why my only sister had just turned thirty years old, and had a well-behaved and sensible son and a happy family would die. Coupled with the baptism of smoke and smoke, after my sister's absence, Tong Tong's companionship and righteousness have just made me find some sisterhood or lack! But because of my excellence, because of school, I have to say goodbye to this.

I often cry when I think about it! This is what I often say: "Don't envy anyone, because behind every aura is accompanied by the bitterness of growth!" "All this makes me unable to find the answer, this feeling makes me so miserable, it is better to live than to die!" When I was young, I was thrown around by my parents due to the needs of work, and the migraine sequelae of returning from the front line of the old mountain were just repaired by my relatives and comrades-in-arms. Now I have to accept loneliness again because of my excellence!

Think my head is big! It is often when I think of headaches that I have to control myself and stop thinking about these bitter and helpless things. With the expectations of the people of the motherland, with the trust and entrustment of the commanders and comrades-in-arms of the military region, with my feelings of emptiness and helplessness, with the farewell of my relatives and the words of my comrades-in-arms, I, the most lovely person in the motherland, have embarked on the road of studying in the South China Sea with great enthusiasm and full of ambition, which makes everyone envious.

What I didn't expect was that Lu Bo appeared on the first day I reported to school, and it was with my comrades-in-arms shining on the scene, and what surprised me was the arrival of my aunt, so that I could enjoy the warmth and care of home again in my life! Lu Bo's company day and night made me forget the troubles of different places, so that I could continue my study in a warm and relaxed state. The care of Secretary Bao and Counselor Zhu for me and Lu Bo is even more intimate as comrades-in-arms and brothers!

Tongtong's behavior in the South China Sea has added another heavy stroke to my original happy life. The successive appearance of Yan Dong and Assistant Zhao, and the appointment of the consultant position of Youcheng Group, have allowed me to learn a lot of valuable knowledge in the field of learning and practice, and I have learned a lot of valuable knowledge that I can never learn in school books. Yan Dong's mother rescue and care! Let me regain my mother's love in a different place! The participation of the cultural and labor troupe, the favoritism of Commissar Yang, the gift of Xiaoming and Bai Ben's off-road vehicles, all of these things, without Lu Bo, without Lu Bo's South China Sea reading, such treatment, such a happy life, I can not and can not enjoy.

The higher my dad's position, the more ordinary my life is, and the less privileged I am! Everything here exists because of Lubo's appearance. I really don't know how to thank Lubo for everything he has done for me? Don't know what I'm going to do to really think for Lubo?' Perhaps it is precisely because I live in the responsibility, in the acceptance of Lu Bo's care and gifts, I will unconsciously have the mentality of repaying gratitude, and I will always maintain a brother and sister relationship with Lu Bo.

Of course, at this point, I am also very grateful to Lu Bo for his understanding and cooperation with me, and it is this sense of responsibility that drives me to have such a family affection. Will there be a realm of thought that thinks about each other together? Will we ignore our original relationship? Will this neglect lead to the creation of our common illusion? I know very well that Lu bo will not have such an illusion, and if there is, it can only be too true and too sincere to love me, because of the sincerity and understanding of love! Do you have to create artificial illusions for yourself?

I have thought more than once about living with Lu Bo after graduation, but such a thought can disappear in an instant, because I am worried that after a long time, Lu Bo will not be with me because of responsibility, and I have to admit that Lu Bo's love for me is very real. But because of this, I also hope that Lubo can have the most loved in the world! Be able to live happily ever after!

Maybe it is for this reason, or maybe it is such an idea that has been working in the subconscious, each other has never thought of owning and possessing each other, the only thing that comes to mind is to think for each other, to pay for each other, and hope to make each other happy through their own efforts! So the relationship between the two of us will always be maintained, maintained in the scale of brother and sister's affection...

Just like coming to Zhanjiang to stay in this villa hotel, I don't know if it is Lu Bo's advice or coincidence, such a room structure is most suitable for me. After dinner, Secretary Bao said that he wanted to visit the night view of Zhanjiang, and of course we would always agree with this proposal! Because I made dinner, the task of cleaning up the dishes naturally fell to Mrs. Bao and Mrs. Zhu.

We all changed into casual clothes, and before we set off, Mrs. Bao told me that we wanted a group of three women to be in front and the male soldiers to be in the back. Secretary Bao and Staff Sergeant Zhu didn't say anything? But Lubo said no? Because only he knew my instinctive reaction, especially outside in unfamiliar circumstances, Lubo feared that I would be frightened by the nervousness. Secretary Bao immediately said: "Or Lu Bo thought clearly, two people in a group, the same three teams of six people, going out safely first." ”

After such a formation, it was still the same as the arrangement of the motorcade, Secretary Bao and his wife were in front, I and Lu Bo Central, Zhu Staff Officer and wife broke off. Not far from going out, I saw an old woman spreading egg cakes, and I looked at Lu Bo and said, "I want to eat egg cakes, and Mrs. Bao said: Shanshan, are you not full?" Lubo said: Don't you know her yet? Snack King, no matter how full you eat, it is no problem. ”

Lu Bo said as he took out the money and walked toward the old woman, at this time he only heard the mother-in-law say: "Girl, do you see how considerate and careful your husband is to you?" I looked at Lu Bo and smiled and said: Mother-in-law, are you okay? When my mother-in-law heard me say this, she hurriedly grabbed my hand and said: Good, good, good child! Mother-in-law I have sold quiches for so many years, no one has ever greeted me like this? The mother-in-law knows at a glance that you are a good child and educated, so she will say this to you, and the mother-in-law will send you an egg cake. ”

I hurriedly said, "Mother-in-law, you have been very hard to stand here for a day!" I can't do this, if you really feel happy, just put away the money and take good care of your body in the future! "After saying goodbye to my mother-in-law, we still continued our theme, walking. At this time, Secretary Bao asked me: "Shanshan to tell the truth, if you just want to say one more word, I will immediately go and buy more." I said: No, I won't let you do such a thing, even if you buy all the leftover quiches left by your mother-in-law today, it will only help for a while and will not help for a lifetime, and the cup of water will not solve any problem...

I have said that I have my principles and bottom line in dealing with people, and things like this should be based on helping others for pleasure, and helping others is based on the state of feeling happy when you help others, which is a willing, pure personal dedication. Therefore, such an act cannot be achieved with the help of others! I know very well that I am not a savior, I can only do what I can do! Neither embarrass yourself nor make others helpless...

The only thing I could do at the time was to pay the price at the time of my mother-in-law's insistence on giving, and complete the process of this purchase relationship. At this time, Mrs. Zhu asked me: Shanshan can see that the words you just said to your mother-in-law are very sincere and sincere, just like the way you talk to your aunt at home. Truth be told: if you don't ask? I wouldn't have thought of it, but I felt the same way after you asked. But I didn't expect that such an ordinary greeting would make my mother-in-law so happy! It is not surprising that I will send you an omelette to eat, but for my mother-in-law, it is her hard work, and she is grateful to you! ”

Secretary Bao also said: "Shanshan's words can only have such an effect if they are spoken from your mouth, because you are sincerely revealed, so everyone will be moved to hear it!" Especially when my mother-in-law said that she had not heard such a greeting in so many years, I couldn't help but feel a pang of bitterness in my heart! I said: Yes, I feel so sad! Don't know what the mother-in-law's children do? At such an old age, I still have to sell along the street, think about it is really not a taste! Therefore, those of us should really know how to cherish and grasp! ”

At this time, Secretary Bao said: "Shanshan, what are you going to talk about next time you go to Yan Dong Company for training?" I said: Why are you asking this question? Secretary Bao said: If you can, I would like to listen to your training, and I said: Is it easy to do? Lu Bo bought me a voice recorder, and when the time comes, will it be okay to put it on you? Secretary Bao said: No, that feeling is not as good as the effect of on-site training! I said: Well, we've almost walked out of two stops, after going to the bus stop to see the route, find a car with more people to go up, each of you must remember the whole process from the moment you start to step on the door to the time you get off the train, and when you go back, I will tell you about my training topic. ”

Lubo looked at me and said, "By bus? I said: Yes brother, take the bus? Lu bo said: Then you have to listen to me, I said: Can I get in front of you? "When I got to the bus stop, as I said, we waited for a slightly more crowded car, we went up in turn, when we got on the bus, we saw that there were relatively many people on the bus, not even a seat, I saw Secretary Bao, they frowned a few times, I let Lu Bo look at their embarrassment, Lu Bo only cared about protecting me, because we never took the bus, and this kind of crowding made us very uncomfortable and awkward.

I couldn't help but be happy when I looked at each of them, fortunately, only two stops arrived quickly, and after getting out of the car, Secretary Bao said, "Shanshan, are you teasing us?" I said very seriously: Secretary Bao: Have you ever made such a joke with you after seeing me for such a long time? Who asked me what topic I would train next time I went to Yan dong Company? Who is clamoring to listen to my lectures? And you have to listen live? Secretary Bao said: Shanshan, I can't think of what materials the bus will provide for the training? I asked him: Do you want to hear it? Secretary Bao said: Say, is it a drink or a food stall? I smiled and said, "How about going back to the room and opening a bottle of red wine?" ”

When I said this, I had already turned my body to the front of Lu Bo, and Lu Bo smiled and beckoned to me, I knew that at this time, I had no choice but to obediently send my forehead! After returning to the second floor, I went to the kitchen to make a few small dishes, opened a bottle of red wine, and began my pre-training lecture.

I first asked them how they felt after taking the bus, and Mrs. Bao said, "Aaaah! Shanshan, you know, how long have I not taken the bus, you must be more ruthless to find a crowded one to get on, I just want to find a seat, the rest can not think about anything. Mrs. Zhu said: I was thinking that Shanshan would definitely have her intentions in letting us take the car, but I wanted to find a seat like Mrs. Bao. Staff Sergeant Zhu said: Maybe it is the reason why we rarely take the bus, I also instinctively began to find a seat after getting on the bus, what is the meaning of the Shanshan bus? ”

I turned my face and asked Secretary Bao, "How's it going?" The topic was proposed by you, tell me how you feel, right? Secretary Bao said: Is it okay to tell the truth? I said: Do you still want to tell lies? Secretary Bao said: Don't hide from you Shanshan, I will regret going up, seeing that you are laughing and giggling there, I thought you were teasing us? Or maybe it's because you're tired of making dinner and feeling tired. ”

I took a sip of red wine and said, "Why should I think about it from the moment you get in the car, all the way to the whole process after getting out of the car." This is actually the same as the process of a person looking for a job or doing a job, we just got on the bus in a selective situation, which is like a new person looking for a job at the same time between several companies, we get on the car for a very clear purpose, because I want to tell you about my training topic to Yan Dong Company...

So we are on the premise of choosing this car to come on. When a new person is looking for a job, if there are several companies to choose from, he will choose a company to go to work with personal purposes or needs, as we just did. In fact, you are all right, that is, after getting on the bus, you want to quickly find a seat to sit down, and as long as you find a seat, because you just got on the bus, the seat is difficult to meet, unless the people around you will get off immediately, just have a position to sit for you, but the probability will be very small, it can almost only rely on luck...

Whether it is in front or behind, in short, as long as there is a position, we will not think about the quality of this position, and we will immediately sit on it. It's like a newcomer who has just arrived at the company, because it is a new person, and he wants to have a seat in the company through his own efforts and as soon as possible. We think further down, after finding a seat is not stable, if there is a better line of sight and light in the car than where you are sitting now, imagine if you would instinctively want to adjust the seat?

At this time, the thoughts and actions are the same as the mood of the new person after becoming a regular employee of the company. Once he regularizes, he thinks of adjusting his current position, which is promotion, because promotion means a salary increase. Back to the topic of the bus, we are constantly adjusting the seat, that is, we want to sit more comfortably in the short distance of the bus, and the continuous adjustment of employees is to find the right job and the best job as soon as possible in the effective time of the company's work, and everyone's desire is started from shallow to deep.

Therefore, there will be a lot of material in life that is worth excavating, and it is worth learning from us! So as to find out the material that is meaningful to yourself for your work and life. On top of this, imagine if the bus we're on today is the last bus and there are a lot of people, and if you can't get on this bus, you're going to have to walk two hours, but this last bus is often the most crowded.

Because everyone knows that this is the last train, it doesn't matter how many people are on this last train at this time? Everyone waiting for the car will desperately squeeze into the car. This is like some people waiting for the rice to be cooked, no matter what kind of work, as long as there is a company that will receive it, they will not think about how to treat it? As long as you can pay your salary on time, even if it is a few days late, after a period of time, you can think of doing the right job.

Therefore, as a company manager, you should seriously understand the effective coordination between new recruits and incumbents, fully tap everyone's ability, look at each employee fairly, for your employees do not have a far and near distinction, only the ability to distinguish between the size, and truly maximize the function of each person's work ability in your department. That's what I'm going to tell you about the bus. ”