The life of an ordinary person, no matter how good it is, is also a peach blossom fan, breaking the head, blood splashed on the fan, just add a little bit of dyeing into a peach blossom on it
——Zhang Ailing, "Red Rose and White Rose"
In Changsha for almost fifteen years, I like the fireworks here, get used to life here, and everything is like soaking into my bones.
Changsha does not have spring and autumn, winter and summer are the norm, this is what the locals said shortly after coming to Changsha.
At that time, I didn't think so, and when I was in college, I went home at the hottest time every year, and only after graduation did I really feel what it was like to alternate between winter and summer.
I still remember the first year of graduation, running for work every day, when the roommates in the same dormitory had their own choices, most of them went home, and I relayed to them the heat wave of Changsha in the tone of people who came over.
The ground was piping hot, the air was like a big steamer, and in it, the whole person was slimy, and I wanted to take a bath eight times a day.
After the summer, every time it rains, the temperature increases sharply by a few degrees, and at this time, I always fall into an unrealistic fantasy: like winter looking forward to summer, I hope that winter will soon come.
I said to my friend: "It's still good in winter, it's cold again, good gangsters can add clothes, what can I do in summer, my clothes are stripped or hot, I can't wait to peel off the skin." ”
He nodded his head in agreement as he did last year, and I looked at me in a trance, and now he was saying exactly as he did last year, and the years were like this, and the days had passed like this for more than ten years.
We found a tea shop to blow the air conditioner and began to reminisce about the days we worked together in September 2010.
At that time, I was able to endure hardships, do laboratory analysis, need to work three shifts, every two hours to go out to pick a sample, especially at noon, wearing a mask to go out once, after coming back, sweat flowed into the mouth, salty, and the taste of blood is almost the same, the eyes are also sweaty, can not open the eyes, but also do not feel unable to overcome, sometimes even feel that the days pass quickly.
Back to the rental house at night, a few people hit the floor, there is no fan, covered with sheets too hot, do not cover mosquitoes on the bite, late at night, a large group of people downstairs play cards all night, whirring, very noisy, originally hot sleep can not sleep, this is even more difficult to sleep.
When I can't sleep, I always think: "When can I have a house of my own, and I can blow the air conditioner and sleep comfortably?" ”
A person, when he is 20 years old, is not crazy, this person is not out of breath, and when he is 30 years old, he is still crazy, and he is also not out of breath
- Qian Zhongshu
At that time in 2010, I didn't understand Much Changsha dialect, saying that I could understand 20% of it.
After work, I can quickly understand most of it, but I still can't say the whole sentence, and I will only jump out word by word.
At that time, I changed to an electrical company to work.
It is the hot summer, the peak season of air conditioning sales, the friend's mentality was once very unstable, always said to go back to the northeast to escape the summer, in fact, is to lose confidence in the future, rent a house to eat there is little left, college graduates did a job that they are not interested in, people are poor and short-minded, and more and more lack of courage.
Many times, especially in the hot summer months, my friend and I chose to be silent.
Silence does not mean that there is nothing to say, on the contrary, there are too many words to say, but unfortunately no one to say.
In my junior year of high school, there was often a book selling pirated magazines and some tutorial books at the entrance of the school.
At that time, I liked to read some idle books, including a magazine called "Talk", which mostly told the story of emotion, it was a young teenager, infinite yearning for love, this kind of nutritious story became a snack after learning.
In fact, many times, life is destined to be good in high school, especially the moment of the college entrance examination, but at that time, I couldn't understand what school you went to, which city you went to, and everything you experienced was the result of the previous choices.
And what people of our age experience is sometimes quite magical.
50 years later, there is a social disease that has not been cured for a long time, and the reason is that there is less medicine, which is common sense
—— Murong XueCun
When we were growing up, MLM and success studies have always accompanied us like ghosts.
Around 2000, the eldest brother of the second uncle's family worked as a security guard in Beijing, and later entered a pyramid scheme organization, where he met my sister-in-law.
When he was still obsessed and still excited to be a lecturer, the eldest sister-in-law retreated, and then my brother also came out, and now his life is very ordinary.
In 2004, the eldest brother's younger brother worked in Singapore, and he has always been a very frugal person, reluctant to eat apples, drink alcohol, and smoke, just like five good young people.
Two years later, I went home, after a break of half a year, I also entered a pyramid scheme organization, and a month later, I video chatted with me in the Internet café, mouthed a river, told me how to make money quickly, and asked me if I had five sons in my life, and asked me what sons I had.
I was confused about this, and he explained it in detail, it turned out to be "the car, the house, the wife, the children, the ticket", after listening to it, I was greatly inspired, but I still had no interest in joining his great idea, let alone going to put it into action with him.
I'm afraid, is this the original taciturn person? No.
I even thought that even if he went to Changsha, I would not see him, he made me feel strange.
After a long time without contact, he finally woke up, but all the money earned by Singapore's five years of labor dispatch was lost, and he cheated a lot of relatives and friends.
Later, he went to a factory in Suzhou, got married last year, lived a good life, had a girlfriend, and the days went on like this.
Each of us is actually walking according to what we think is the right path, but when we walk, we deviate, the fate of life is very different, it is not easy to talk about not being happy with things or being sad with ourselves, there are so many temptations from the outside world, there is not enough concentration, and we have stepped into the abyss by taking a wrong step.
The weather is too hot, the memory is not clear, just like this, anyway, tomorrow I have to pick up the spirit to go to work.