Taking a nap in the morgue, Yu Hua said: Death is a cool night

"Death is a cool night."

In an interview, the writer Yu Hua mentioned this verse of Heine.

Yu Hua's parents are both doctors, and he has been wandering around the hospital since he was a child.

On a hot summer afternoon, he woke up from the grass mat in a sweat and sneaked into the morgue opposite.

He found it extremely cool in the morgue, so he lay down on the clean cement bed, and he felt extremely cool.

He said that the morgue at that time was not death for him, but happiness and a good life.

Later, he read Heine's poem, "Death is a cool night," and suddenly felt that his state of mind was understood by his predecessors.

I remember when I was a child, I was afraid of the night, but I was not afraid of death. Death in the hearts of the children seems to be just an unknown distant place.

Therefore, the kindness of those who "loved ones have gone far away" can easily work in the young mind.

But when you grow up, these warm kindnesses can no longer comfort the painful parting of life and death.

The scars brought about by the departure of life can only be washed away by the passage of time, but they can never be erased.

Except for the male protagonist in "The Outsider", he is an exception.

From the death of his mother, the cessation of the spirit, the funeral, the burial, it seems that he is really like the title of the book, he seems to be an outsider.

Mechanically participating in the ceremony, without tears, with a bleak look but without sadness.

But he knew clearly that his love for his mother was incomparably strong and real.

In the face of this true feeling, others are outsiders relative to this love.

They can't understand. They (or everyone outside the novel) are convinced that only outward manifestations of pain can express deep inner emotions.

But the male protagonist can't do it.

People thought he was cold-blooded, so in a later case, he was justifiably executed.

He also gladly accepted his own death, and there was no pain or sorrow.

So does he love himself?

This is a question that no one can answer.

I thought of the five hundred dead soldiers who followed Tian Heng at the end of Qin, and I thought of the Buddhist allusion of cutting flesh and feeding eagles.

It seems that the contempt for death is a combination of courage and wisdom.

Yasunari Kawabata, who won the Nobel Prize in Literature, once said in 1962: "A wordless death is an infinite life." ”

He did what he said.

Ten years later, he chose to commit suicide with a gas pipe in his mouth. No suicide note was left.

When a person does not dwell on a problem repeatedly, the problem no longer becomes his problem, and at the same time, the opposing side of the problem gradually becomes prominent.

The opposite of death is life; the opposite of night is day.

The next line of Heine's poem: "Life is a sweltering day." ”

But I feel even more that when a person can feel the coolness of the night, he can face and accept death gladly. The day of his life is most likely not sweltering.

It's interesting.

The more fulfilling a person is during the day, the more solid he is at night.

The more interesting experiences a person has in his life, the more self-satisfaction he has, the more at ease he becomes when he dies.

Therefore, after doing a good job of a "loyalty" word, five hundred soldiers went away with the field; and when a good "good" word was done, the Buddha gave up his mortal body.

The solution to fear never seems to be to solve the fear itself, but to do a good job of "filial piety" when serving relatives and a good "faith" when serving people.

The fear of "loss" will be self-defeating.

According to this principle, any uneasiness and anxiety may wish to go to their opposite and find a solution.