Recently watched a video, brushed to an episode of the documentary "The Human World", which introduced the daily life of Alzheimer's patients.
Alzheimer's disease is known as a disease that has been separated since life, which is what we call "Alzheimer's disease".
In three seconds, there is a person in this world who has been diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease.
I think of an Oscar hit film called Still Alice, which was also an Alzheimer's film.
It mainly tells the story of Alice, played by Julian Moore, at the age of fifty, about to usher in the most abundant stage of career and family, and could have enjoyed life, but suffered from early Alzheimer's disease, her and her family's experience.
As a professor of linguistics at a university, she is the revered founder of the school in the eyes of her colleagues. It was the husband who was "the most beautiful and intelligent woman in life". Three adult sons and daughters are emotionally backed.
As the disease progressed, her memories, thoughts, and emotions slowly faded... Alice lost everything important in her life.
In the process of treatment, her family has always been warm and accompanied, but for a patient, the most difficult thing is how to get along with herself.
In a later public speech, Alice accurately stated the psychological state of Alzheimer's patients:
Yes, when the foundation of a person's foothold — his family value, his social value, his dignity — slowly collapses, what is left of him...
From the previous witticisms, golden sentences come and go, to slowly and often words to the mouth, unable to say, and finally exhausted to spit out a word.
With the degradation of memory, the language ability she was most proud of gradually lost, can not be recovered, and at the same time lost is the ability to take care of herself, and a person's self-esteem.
After everything is lost, the saddest thing is that there is no ability to even commit suicide.
"I'll probably forget tomorrow, but it still means a lot to me to speak here." It reminds me of the ambitious self of the past, the charismatic self that is proficient in verbal communication. ”
What is lost is always the most missed, and for Alzheimer's patients, only the "present" is what they can grasp and the most meaningful.
Julian Moore's road to sealing the horns can be described as a god blocking the killing of the god Buddha.
With the role of Alice, she won all the "Best Actress" awards that year, including the Oscars, Golden Globes, and Screen Actors Guild Awards.
It is said that this film was filmed in dozens of days, and under the premise that the plot, scenes and production are very simple, it is not an exaggeration to say that Sister Moore only supported the entire drama with one force.
"The performance of the external release is easy to be felt by the public, and the accurate introverted performance is the criterion for testing whether an actor can be called a drama bone."
The film chronicles several typical phases in the alzheimer's patient's journey, from the initial fading of memory to the eventual loss of self-care.
When bad things happen, the average person goes through five stages of psychology —
Denial - anger - looking for false hope - depression - and finally accept reality.
In each stage of experience, Sister Moore has played her acting skills of "forbearance and restraint" to the extreme, and the occasional emotional outburst or two is particularly distressing.
Here are a few scenes to feel the "goddess's acting skills" again:
At first, she just found that her memory was somewhat degraded, and she forgot to speak, ran and got lost... Such a small situation.
Over time, the degradation of this memory becomes more and more severe.
She couldn't remember the names of her sons and girlfriends; she couldn't even find where the bathroom was at home...
What is particularly difficult for her to suffer is the mental pain -
"i wish i had cancer.", in her eyes, cancer is at least a "recognized" disease in the world, and people with cancer can seek medical treatment "with honor".
With Alzheimer's, she felt ashamed, and she was afraid of the strange eyes that others would throw at her, as if she were an idiot.
In the final speech of the film, In the face of the Alzheimer's patients who are also encountered with her in the audience, Alice finally transcends.
She "forgot" the past from pain and denial, and began to accept and return to peace again.
i'm not suffering. i'm struggling.
Faced with misfortune, whether to struggle or depression, Alice made her choice.
At the end of the film, Alice, whose body and appearance are much worse than before, in the company of her young daughter, struggles to understand the words of others, and her expression is dull.
People with advanced Alzheimer's disease have a childlike innocence that is a new day for them every day.
It's one of the cruelest and most romantic things in the world.
If one day, the person with memory loss or Alzheimer's disease is me, how do I deal with myself?
Even if it doesn't happen to me, there's a good chance it will happen to the person closest to me...
Worth pondering.