The documentary "Where Does Shirley Make You Feel Uncomfortable?" It's been almost a year since it aired on MBC in September.
Even after Sydney's death, the film was so controversial in the half month or so that MBC had no choice but to cancel its network rerun.
16 years ago, as an excellent trainee representative of SM Company, 11-year-old Cui Shirley participated in the company's 10th anniversary celebration, and she stood at the forefront of the popular Oriental Shenqi Boy Band, C position, and the only girl.
She smiled innocently, as pure as an angel—like a child chosen by God, with infinite scenery.
14 years later, after being subjected to great controversy and insults, she was alone in her own house, ending her 25-year-old young life.
The phrase "I will live seriously" once seemed like a dream-like existence.
Since then, there has been no "peach" in the world.
So, what terrible encounter did this beautiful girl, who all looked exceptionally beautiful, go through before giving up on herself in her best years?
Cui Shirley's "collapse" probably began when she was 20 years old, yes, in 2014.
At that time, Shirley launched her third album "Red Light" with the group, and the title song meant to stop for a while and rethink the meaning of life.
In the same year, she also co-starred in the costume action movie "Pirates" with Sun Yizhen and Jin Nanyao; in addition, she also brought her first starring work on the big screen, "Fashion King".
But none of these career successes seem to fill her inner thoughts, because on her 20th birthday, her wish was: "Go to the nightclub, drink beer, and have a boyfriend." ”
Thirteen days after the release of the movie "Pirates," SM confirmed that Choi Shirley was in a relationship with Choi Zi, a member of the South Korean hip-hop group Dynamic Duo.
In fact, this news has a long history, the relationship between the two was filmed by the media in 2013, but SM has been denying it.
Born in 1980, she's 14 years older than Shirley — for this man, Sherry tried to quit the f(x) group, but in 2014, she stayed and released a new album.
Maybe it is to break the impression of people in the past, or maybe it is really to live out the self, and Cui Shirley, who is in love, has completely released herself.
She posted couples showing affection, going in and out of entertainment venues, and hoping to get her own income control from her mother... From the dress, she is no longer satisfied to make a pure vase and begins to embark on the road of sexiness.
The image of the "national sister" gradually collapsed: in 2016, she went on vacation in Switzerland, during which she posted photos of herself on social platforms, and was found by netizens not wearing underwear.
For a time, the topic of "Cui Shirley is crazy" rose up: netizens stood on the moral high ground, constantly outputting: "too debauched", "simply self-destructive future", "like a wise Z", "disgusting and vulgar"...
In the face of the bad comments of netizens, Cui Shirley timidly asked in a later interview: "What did I do wrong?" ”
The first person to have a fierce struggle with this is not her, but her boyfriend Cui Zi, whom she has always wanted to love and protect.
Men began to propose breakups several times, leading to Cui Shirley's suicide attempt in early 2017.
Her relationship with Choi Zi finally came to an end in March 2017, when South Korean media reported that the two had ended their relationship.
But compared to what her boyfriend lost, Cui Shirley lost more:
At that time, she had quit the f(x) group, and she was hidden by the agency; in addition, the most painful thing was that her mother and brother also broke off relations with her.
"I don't see the future and I don't know what's going to happen in the future. It seems to have been protecting hard, busy with self-defense. Even if you are tired, no one can listen. It was as if the world was left with the feeling of being alone. ”
At that time, she could clearly express her feelings, how could she be "crazy"?
Along with the topic of "Choi Shirley is crazy", there is also the "she has become the playW of the Korean official Y" - people really can't combine the former "peach on earth" with the protagonist of this rumor.
Born in Busan in 1994, Choi Shirley's parents run a small restaurant and she has two older brothers.
Despite being the only daughter in the family, she did not enjoy the slightest favoritism.
Because she has been quite beautiful since she was a child, It seems not surprising that Shirley entered the entertainment industry.
At the age of 5, she had a car accident and the neighbor who witnessed everything later recalled:
"The little girl was very strong, and the car was dragging her, but she tried desperately to tear off the clothes that rolled into the curtains and finally got rid of it."
When she was in the fifth grade of elementary school, she participated in the SM Korea Junior Selection Conference and won the first prize in the appearance group of the junior group, and then joined SM as a trainee.
Subsequently, at the celebration of sm's tenth anniversary, he stood in the C position and blew out the candle:
The scene at that time was really like a princess living in a fairy tale, and the first time people saw this girl, they would say, "Wow, what a beautiful child!" ”
In September of the same year, she appeared in the costume historical drama "Potato Nursery Rhymes", playing the childhood Princess Shanhua.
The staff at the time commented on this: "She was very smart, she was not timid at all when she first entered the set, she knew what to do to make the director happy." ”
The following year, at the age of 12, she made a cameo role in the plot reversal drama "Vacation" starring Oriental Shenqi, and even played a daughter in the action movie "Punch Girl" - now it seems that Cui Shirley's star path is really smooth.
But in fact, did she get the same amount of happiness and happiness?
Apparently not.
Because she became famous as a teenager, little Shirley must make a trade-off between her studies and career.
Because she has not yet completed her studies, she has to get up early to go to school every day, and then enter the company's practice room immediately after school at 3 p.m. - SM Brokerage has a very strict assessment system for all trainees.
Every week, everyone has to compete in a talent contest, and Cui Shirley is no exception.
In the days when she was a trainee, she held the doll given by her mother every day to fall asleep, and in addition to the various pressures of studying, she could not take good care of her own life.
Growing up, she smiled at the camera in The Truth Shop and said:
"I've been working since I was very young, there's a lot of pressure on my shoulders and I'm always scared. I do what others have asked me to do, but I don't know why. At some point I began to realize: Why am I doing this? I guess those clothes didn't suit me. ”
But, no one cares.
In 2009, Choi Shirley officially joined the Korean pop dance group f(x) and debuted as a singer – this is because, at the age of 15, she has grown to 1.7 meters and can no longer find a child star role suitable for her.
In the first year of their debut, they successively released their debut single "LA chA TA", as well as the title song of the single album "Chu~"... For a time, it attracted a lot of attention.
In 2011, f(x) released its debut regular album "Pinocchio", and its title song won 8 titles in many music programs in South Korea, and its career reached its peak.
And Shirley in the group, is also the one who is popular, SM agency took a fancy to her popularity, and also won the film and television rights of the idol love drama "To Beautiful You" for her in 2012.
But all this scenery, she did not want very much.
In 2017, after breaking up with Choi, she also came up with the crime movie "Real" starring Kim so-hyun, which also won the first place in the real-time pre-sale list of Korean films.
The following year, Ms. Cui starred in her last solo reality show, The Truth Store, a show about her own daily life in which she opened and operated a pop-up shop.
In this show, Cui Shirley expressed her thoughts very truthfully, repeatedly saying:
"I don't see the future, I don't know what will happen in the future, it seems to have been trying to protect, busy defending myself... Even if you say you're tired, no one can listen, as if you're alone in the world. ”
But in exchange for what?
Netizens responded to her statement, and the first reaction was: she was selling miserably: "As an actor, there is pressure, why don't others say it?" ”
"I was at her house that day, and she was horribly low and didn't say a word, but neither of us spoke."
Afterwards, her friend recalled the scene.
Her parents are said to have been unhappy with her decision to quit f(x) because they thought "the sexy path that her daughter embarked on, contrary to the cuteness of her childhood, is a disgrace".
In mid-2019, Cui Shirley uploaded a video of an eel on social platforms, which once again caused controversy.
Eventually, people came to the conclusion: "This girl was 'broken' and mentally broken. ”
But as soon as she turned around, she smiled and said in the interview: "Friends from the audience, journalists, please love me a little";
He will also say to fans at his own performance activities: "I will live seriously..."
However, these similar "distress signals" have not been accurately and effectively conveyed to people's hearts.
In the end, this peach-like girl fixed her life of only 25 years old forever at 3:30 pm on October 14, 2019.
The day before this moment came, she was also encountered by netizens shooting a commercial.
This is undoubtedly a sad story, and now we can only say one thing:
In the next life, do the ordinary Choi Truth, goodbye, dear Shirley.