Today' small mention
Have you ever been obsessed with a man? Add a time limit, a lifetime? What about adding another condition and not letting him know? I love you, it has nothing to do with you, what a sad affection!
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Synopsis
In the late winter of 1948, a man on his 41st birthday received a thick letter from a dying woman telling a lingering love story that the hero of the story knew nothing about.
The story begins 18 years ago: a girl falls in love with the writer who lives next door when she is 13 years old. Later, the little girl moved elsewhere because of the family's troubles, but she could never forget the writer who used to live next door. A few years later, the little girl returned to her original residence as a student, reunited with the writer, and dedicated her first night to him, but the writer had no impression of the little girl who had once lived next door. After the two had sex several times, the writer left because of the incident and said that he would contact her as soon as he returned, but he has not heard from her since. The girl finds herself pregnant in desperate waiting, and because of her love for the writer, she decides to give birth to the child. After the child was born, life became more and more difficult, and in order to let the child live a superior life, she had to rely on the rich man to fall into the dust and live a life like a social flower.
A few years later, she finally met the writer she had loved for many years again, and the two had another night of joy, but the writer still did not recognize her. A few years later, the child died of typhoid fever, and the girl wrote the past in a letter and sent it to the writer.
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A word or two
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A crush that loves and can't
From the first time they met at the age of 13, she had only him in her eyes— the famous, handsome scholar, the seductive, passionate and affectionate man.
The 25-year-old R is dashing and charming, talking elegantly, like a warm light, illuminating the girl's wet life. Since then, she seems to have been hit by magic, deeply attracted to R, and plunged into a crazy crush.
The girl looked at the other side countless times through the peephole in the door; in the dead of night, she kissed the doorknob that R had touched, and even picked up the cigarette butt he had smoked.
But this crush has always had an irrevocable deviation.
For girls, the pursuit of love is nature, but she should not be obsessed with a crush, preferring to be miserable in the fantasy rather than take a step forward in reality. After all, what she did was just to move herself.
Attachment is confusion, and confusion is not enlightened. For people and things, once obsessed, there is no way back, only one way to go to the black.
There is always no me in your eyes
According to the time node, the girl and R have experienced each other three times, the first time she, obsessed with waiting for him downstairs, even if there is a man who is very good to himself, he still can't resist him, every time will be forgotten by R, even if she reminds her so clearly at the last time, only to say "I have loved twice", he still just treats her like an ordinary lover and can't remember her.
After reading this letter, for a long time, I could not calm the anger in my heart, why after a man does not love a woman, the woman will be in pain, and try everything to get back the man who left.
In my opinion, if you don't love, you don't love, why should I save it? You want to break up, divide and divide, who leaves who is not the same life? After all, the love that is forced to come back is no longer what it was, so why bother?
When you love each other, you are wholehearted, and when you don't love, you turn around. Allow for a period of sadness, without unnecessary entanglement. Life is without love, and there are thousands of reasons to make your life better. If you don't care about yourself, no one really cares about you.
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Good excerpts
"They play with love like a toy, they boast about their love experience, like a boy smoking his first cigarette and being proud."
"And in my mind, love is my supreme passion—so I dedicate to you all my feelings, all my whole heart that was tight and tight and constantly rushing outward." 」
"But you don't feel anything about it, like you have a pocket watch in your pocket and you don't feel its taut clockwork." This clockwork is secretly counting your hours for you patiently, counting your time, and accompanying you in its inaudible heartbeat, and you only glance at it once in its multi-millions of ticking seconds. ”
"There is nothing more terrifying in the world than being in a crowd and living alone."
"You will not understand, at this moment, in your home, the past years are like a torrent, the split head covers the face rushed down to me, my childhood, my dreams, my whole life is here, this is a door that I have looked forward to a thousand times, and now I have stepped in, and I am embraced by you, this is my dream, a dream that has finally become real, and will not disappear when I wake up. ”
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Next issue is coming soon
Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
I often hear the name of this book, and my friends have recommended it, so I take the opportunity to do the public account to read it.