Two days before the shooting, Chen Youwei had just celebrated his 23rd birthday. As a young actor, he is constantly using actions to dissolve his limitations and use his small self to map the boundless world. The boy is using all his youth to write a story about growing up.
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Between the shootings, Chen Youwei has been praying that it will not rain, because he did not take a car today, and he came to the shooting site alone on a motorcycle. The venue was on the outskirts of the city, and he rode for more than an hour before arriving. The road was bumpy, he sat on the seat of his motorcycle, the sun shining on his head, the dust coming in, but in the howling of the wind, his heart was calm.
The decision to ride a motorcycle was made temporarily, and he could not ride a bicycle in the city, so he naturally could not let go of the opportunity. It was not only a simple trip, but also a self-honing by him. For a long time of riding, it is not enough to like it, but also to persevere. In Chen Youwei's view, "liking is a feeling, and persistence is a responsibility." The responsibility he insisted on was a promise about himself: to constantly adjust himself to the best state.
Fell in love with riding a motorcycle, initially because of its simplicity and purity. This is something that can be done by one person, using one's own body and mind, and examining the most basic control. Later, riding a motorcycle gradually became a practice. Riding on the car, his attention is all on the cooperation of man and machine, and there is no time to take care of anything else, reaching a peak state of concentration. So he rode along the way, and despite the harsh conditions, he still enjoyed it. Other things he needs to focus on, like cooking, are also becoming his hobbies.
But he is not completely unsettled, and like all young people who have just entered society, he will feel the pressure of the outside world. "I will worry that others who play my role do not like to watch, and I will care about other people's opinions," Chen Youwei said, "The point of anxiety is that I will compare with others." But this kind of anxiety only bubbles up in his daily life, and after the official opening, he will leave these emotions behind and focus on the scene in front of him. This is also part of the practice of how to focus on one's own cause in the noise of the outside world.
The cultivation experienced by Chen Youwei was not a difficult kung fu of suffering and hatred and never giving up until the goal was reached. It is a kind of adjustment that moves with the heart, and many times it is only a temporary idea. It's like the night before the shooting, he suddenly wanted to go downstairs for a run, and after running, he was sweating profusely, and he felt refreshed and comfortable. Exercise is also a way to control himself and achieve concentration, and he still feels enjoyed.
The relaxed practice made it easier for him to listen to his inner voice, and because he was focused, he could filter out the noise. And his heart seems clearer in the continuous observation, which is a sign of his increasing maturity. "I always feel that I know myself better, for example, every time I make a judgment, I know what I really think, what kind of perspective I am looking at things from." 」 He said. In introspection and tempering, time flies quietly, leaving a purer and more transparent Chen Youwei.
In the past six months, Chen Youwei has been staying in the crew. For him, the crew's life is more "easy". Easy to represent the law, constrained, do not have to think too much, do not have to spend time. And he never felt uncomfortable, because all along, he lived an easy life without too much burden, and he was naturally good at adapting. Every time he enters the group, he only brings a little thing, there are no special requirements for living conditions, and there is no special habit that must be satisfied. Empty hands also mean more to embrace. "I'm telling myself, try not to get into a habit and accept everything." Chen Youwei said.
In his world, acceptance is originally divided into active acceptance and forced acceptance. New and interesting things will naturally take the initiative to accept, and what is forced to accept is some bad things: criticism, accusations or rumors. But now, the line between the two is slowly disappearing. He found that the things he was forced to accept actually left him with the imprint of growth in a sense. He will convince himself to take the things that he originally resisted receiving and take it all as ordered.
He was in an open state, which was very different from the past him. He self-evaluates as a very "stubborn" person, while stubborn people tend to pay too much attention to themselves and are less receptive. But after opening up the self, more and more people and things are included in his vision, and he is no longer entangled in some right and wrong that should not matter. This change is implemented in some small things in life, before, he would cling to not wanting to wear makeup, but slowly, he began to feel that everything was acceptable.
This places higher demands on his ability to self-regulate. And he found that the trick to self-digestion and regulation is to calm down and think intently. So he became more and more obsessed with those moments of concentration. He also summed up the law of meditation: "Concentration is the only way to be single-minded, and concentration is to be quiet." A trip taught him that too. Before his birthday, he went to the Sichuan West Plateau. In the magnificent natural scenery and the rushing journey, he has a new sense of life. "We need to be more arrogant and arrogant, to maintain reverence, but at the same time not to be so inferior."
An open-minded attitude helped him find more resonance. In his view, resonance is the same frequency as other people's ideas, the feeling of empowerment. In that instant, he felt like he was being cared for. This boosted his self-identity and allowed him to discover more friends and partners. And the foundation of all this is based on a brave heart that is ready to accept the unknown.
After "Actors Please Take Place", Chen Youwei's state has changed a lot. According to his own account: "I'm not in such a hurry, there are a lot of things I'll wait, wait a little longer, think about it." "He's no longer in such a hurry, he doesn't want to get a definitive answer, he cares more about what the process is like and what he's going through." It's a sign that I'm not in a hurry. ”
He was in no hurry to test his growth. "When people change, they can't see themselves," he said, "and I don't know if I've grown taller or taller, whether my heart has widened or narrowed." "But he knew he was moving forward, leaving behind the big moments he had been through. In those acting clips in the show, although he never had such a relaxed and happy period again, he still walked out of these moments and continued to explore. Saying goodbye to the past is not difficult for him. Some people's farewells are very warm, and some people will cling to them, but Chen Youwei is always indifferent. "I'm sure I'll see you again."
What will happen in the future, he is not in a hurry to find out. He always said that he was lucky because he was in awe and gratitude for what was coming. And what all this contains concretely, he prefers to slowly understand it. Maybe it's a smooth road, maybe it's a setback, but he's ready to experience it. It is precisely because of the calmness of the future that the answer is less important.
In the process of waiting for an answer, many people may fall into confusion. If according to secular standards, the mark for judging whether a person is confused is to see whether he has a firm goal for the future, then Chen Youwei is always in confusion. In past interviews, he was asked if he had similar goals or plans, and he had difficulty answering. Of course he would have the idea of doing something because he was a very motivated person. "But that's not the goal, that's the desire." Chen Youwei clearly distinguished the difference between ideals and desires, and he did not want to directly obey his own wishes, but wanted to find a clear ideal.
"Am I confused?" Chen Youwei asked himself. The answer he got was, "I'm not confused. "When you really feel lost and have no choice, it's often because you don't know exactly what you want." And I have a lot of things at the moment, I should do them one by one, there is nothing to be confused about. For Chen Youwei, who finished the interview, what he had to do now was to ride home on a motorcycle. Before the sun set completely, he rode on his bike and said goodbye to the staff.
After getting rid of the confusion, Chen Youwei paved a more open and clear path in front of him--just need to put aside distractions and concentrate on doing the things in front of him, and the things he was waiting for would surely arrive as scheduled. Of course, this is not easy to do, it requires people to be focused, calm, and pay their determination. As a forerunner on this road, Chen Youwei is striving to have these qualities. The practice of the youth continues. This practice involves grinding, acceptance, and dialogue with the self, but it is all worth it because it points to a solid and bright future.