How come you're still here?
Why are you still here?
How do you come if you don't succeed?
How comes the success If you don't go away.
You're such a goddamn pesky.
You are a damn nuisance.
Bad feeling of failure.
Abominable feeling_failed.

To make sure I can break all your spells,
In order to make sure I can break all of your spell,
I faced any difficulty and refused to bow my head.
I refuse to submit to any hardship.
I swear
I swear ,
My real life has to conform to my fantasies.
My real life needs to be much closer to my fantasy.
I have a lot of control.
I have much control.
freely
freedom,
Freedom to choose things and feelings.
freely to choose it literally and metaphorically