1
Chen Yan and I are at the same table as Gao.
In the first semester of high school, the liberal arts and sciences were divided, and it was extremely awkward to say goodbye - I fell on the 800-meter track with Chen Yan's white moonlight Xu Wenwen and ate.
The difference was that she was carried by Chen Yan to the infirmary, while I got up with my own grinning teeth.
"Chen Yan, she really meant it!" The classmates next to me all saw it!"
When I limped to the door of the infirmary, it was these words heard outside the door, and I took a step, and the apology words that had been rehearsed for a long time were choked in my throat.
It was really not on my part that I let her wrestle, it was the girl on the runway next door who tripped me and I accidentally bumped into it.
"This Ye Ran just likes you, and I see that she is just jealous that you like me before she tripps me!"
My fist stiffened.
"There may be a misunderstanding here, Ye Ran should not have meant it." Chen Yan's somewhat helpless voice sounded in the room.
Xu Wenwen seemed to have dropped something on the ground, and her voice was also high: "Chen Yan, you won't like her if you speak for her now, right?"
My heart was raised to my throat because of Xu Wenwen's words.
"Little fool, is this jealousy?" Chen Yan's voice was tinged with a hint of pleasure and pampering: "How can you think so wildly?" She was just an ordinary classmate who could no longer be ordinary. Since you don't like it, I'll try to avoid contact with her in the future, so you can rest assured?"
I broke through the defenses fiercely.
Dragging a wounded leg, I ran out of the infirmary as if I were running away, and the pain in my feet seemed to be insensible, or diluted by the pain in my heart.
When I got home, I lay in bed and looped the single all night, tears flowing and drying and flowing.
After dawn, I made a decision to forget About Chen Yan.
But forgetting is too hard.
It was hard to control his fingers not to click on his social software, but his eyes were like radar, which could accurately capture his figure in the bustling crowd between classes.
What's even more outrageous is that even after going to the toilet and washing his hands and looking at the opposite teaching building, you can see him and Xu Wenwen snuggling up to each other.
During those hopeless days, I began to read books day and night.
This is probably the frustration of the love field, and the examination room is proud.
At the end of the college entrance examination, I was happy to come to the door.
One is that I played an extraordinary role in the college entrance examination, and the colleges and universities that I could apply for were lined up from my doorstep to France, and the other was that Xu Wenwen ended her ambiguity with Chen Yan and found a new boyfriend at the speed of light.
Whoops, Chen Yan is so pitiful.
I covered my mouth so hard I didn't make myself laugh.
At that time, the throbbing in my heart really made me understand that I had never forgotten him.
Chen Yan was like a wound that was difficult to heal, repeatedly torn apart every night in the middle of the night, deepened by time with one knife and one axe, and covered in blood every day.
But as long as I am close to Him, longing for Him, and pursuing Him with that wishful courage, my heart will feel stable and joyful.
Therefore, I still have no hesitation in applying to the same major as Chen Yan in the same school.
Sending him an umbrella on a rainy day, bringing him breakfast in the morning, occupying a seat in his library during exam week, drawing the key points for him in the final exam, and even making up the final homework for him all night...
I have been doing these things for two years, and little by little I have stained his food, clothing, shelter and transportation with my traces.
Eventually, he finally agreed to my confession.
It was his birthday that day, everyone had a little drink, just in the dim light of the box, he looked at me with confused eyes, and suddenly ticked his lips, Ye Ran, let's try it.
No one knows who he was trying to say this to, but I could clearly hear my own pounding heartbeat and affirmative answer.
This is the boy I've loved for so many years.
2
"Deadpool, the afternoon data is wrong, the manager told you to go to his office."
Sister Shanshan slammed a little the door of my head: Usually I do things quite reliably, why did I drop the chain at this juncture? The new manager of this project is very attentive, you will go in the brain to live a little, apologize well, should ... It's going to be all right."
After seeing that circle of friends, in just one afternoon, I was always careful and mistook a few data.
Should?
Remembering what my colleagues around me had to say about the new manager, I swallowed a mouthful of spit.
Recently, I followed Sister Shanshan on a business trip outside, and I didn't know anything about the personnel changes at the top of the company.
I only know that a few days ago, from the headquarters came a cold-faced manager who was "very turtle hairy", "obsessive-compulsive", and "indifferent and impersonal".
The new officer took office with three fires, and my little one was bumped into the muzzle of the gun.
Sighing, I walked into the general manager's office with a dead stride.
The manager was grading documents with his head bowed, and the smoke-gray suit was slightly open, revealing only half of his cold and noble side face. The black-gold pen spun around in his hand, his brow furrowed, and a trace of disgust suddenly appeared on his face, as if he were holding a piece of garbage in his hand.
My hand shook for a moment, as if I had become the document in his hand.
On the table was his nameplate, General Manager Gu Yang.
Gu Yang?
The name flew through my head, and I inexplicably felt that the name was somewhat familiar. But before I could think about it, Gu Yang slightly raised his head and looked at me.
It was a very Sven handsome face, rimless glasses pressed between the bridges of the nose, behind the lenses was a pair of slender but beautiful eyes, very suitable for his aura, Sven was full of sharpness.
"Hello General Manager, I'm Ye Ran." I bowed my head weakly
"Ye Ran, huh?"
Strangely, I felt that the new manager did not seem to be as cold as the colleagues described, and the tone of his speech was even called... genial?
Throwing away the ones in my head that were not, I took the lead in bowing my head and admitting my mistake: "I'm sorry general manager, it was my negligence that led to data errors, and I will try my best to bear the losses caused to the company." I also asked my manager to give me another chance, and I will be more careful in the future and will not make similar mistakes again."
Unexpectedly, Gu Yang smiled, like a lazy cat: "You said you were willing to bear the company's losses?"
As a humble social animal, I nodded my head with difficulty.
"2 million."
2 million?
I was shocked by a marmot.
Seeing that I had been holding back for half a day without speaking, Gu Yang also narrowed the smile on his face: "Do you think that your current job is too condescending for you?"
I shook my head into a rattle.
He continued: "I have read your resume, and at a young age, I have a lot of high gold awards, which is worthy of a sentence of excellence. I've also looked at your plan a few times and have my own ideas, which is fine. On the other hand, the work you have now is really boring and complicated, and some of them are not worthy of you."
"Well, starting tomorrow, you'll be in charge of the Renewture project with Zhang Shanshan."
yes...... yes?
I was confused by the development of the story.
"Unwilling?" He looked up at me slowly, and crossed his hands on the table: "As long as you do a good job here, the 2 million compensation will not need you to pay... Anyway..."
Before I could finish hearing him say this, I scrambled to say yes, "Manager, I'm willing, I'm too willing."
He ticked the corner of his mouth and picked up the unfinished words: "I lied to you anyway."
Me: "..."
Being a leader is different!
3
Renewture's project is difficult and time-bound, and it's a tough nut to crack.
After two days of spinning, I opened my mobile phone, and the chat record with Chen Yan was still stuck two days ago, the day Xu Wenwen ate the back grass.
Suddenly, my fingertips froze and stopped at Xu Wenwen's newly updated circle of friends.
"This morning I casually said that my appetite was not good, and I didn't expect to eat someone's own Longjing shrimp at noon!" Too considerate, right? It's been two years, but I didn't expect you to remember my favorite dish (expression of love and love)"
The accompanying picture is a very appetizing Looking Longjing Shrimp Bento.
I shook my hands and clicked on the picture, zooming in.
I don't know if it was intentional or unintentional, but in the photo there is a pair of men's hands in the mirror, slender fingers, and a watch I gave to Chen Yan on the wrist.
My heart felt like it was suddenly caught, and I couldn't breathe.
Chen Yan had never cooked a meal for me.
I know he has a fetish for cleanliness and doesn't like to be fishy, so at most I asked him to wash a vegetable when he offered to help.
I always joked that his hands were born to play the piano and were not suitable for this kind of rough work.
Whenever that happened he would laugh and rub my neck: "Or is my girlfriend hurting me?"
Now think about it, how can all the hands still be divided into high and low?
My paws are not born to cook.
Now that I am reluctant to use it, I will exchange it for others, which is really infuriating.
Half tentative and half expectant, I sent a message to Chen Yan: "Today, Sister Shanshan's boyfriend brought her a love bento, and the shrimp in Longjing are so fragrant."
After the message was sent, I turned on the phone tone to the maximum, and then picked up the work in hand and continued to work overtime.
Waiting from the thin western mountains to the moonlight, Chen Yan finally replied with the message: "Want to eat?" I've ordered you takeout, so you'll remember to eat later."
Seeing this news, I felt like I had been sucked out of all my strength, and my heart was hanging high and fell to the ground.
The phrase "but I have a seafood allergy" in the chat box was deleted by me word by word, and I couldn't help but wonder if he would feel guilty and remorseful if he received this message.
guilty?
The word flashed through my mind, and a crazy thought suddenly caught my mind: If I was hospitalized because of his Longjing shrimp allergy, would he redistribute his attention to me because of his guilt?
The more I allowed myself to dispel this ridiculous idea, the more arrogant the idea sprang up in my head.
Looking at the white jade-colored Longjing shrimp in the bento box, I buried my head like a demon and rolled the shrimp into my mouth one by one.
But the faster you eat, the more empty your heart feels.
Looking back on these years, I was like a moth to a fire, always chasing in the direction of Chen Yan and not daring to stop, just to become a match for him in everyone's eyes. But now that I've become good enough, good enough, why doesn't he like me?
My nose was sore and a tear fell into the bowl.
"Why are you crying?"
Sister Shanshan, who had just finished talking to her boyfriend, saw me hanging her head as soon as she came in, and as a result, as soon as I looked up, because of allergies, my face was red, and I was scared of Sister Shanshan and took two steps back.
Then my hand was grasped tightly by someone, I looked down at the hand, a man in a suit and leather shoes was twisting his eyebrows and staring at me with hatred, and the tone of his voice was fierce, so fierce that I hit a nerve: "Ye Ran, seafood allergies still dare to eat, don't die?"
Being murdered by a man, I had a moment of clarity in my mind.
When I saw the person standing in front of me, my legs were not soft, and I directly came to a five-body throw, and my upper body was straight up and threw it on the ground.
Gu Yang did not expect me to suddenly become difficult, take a step forward to catch me, and then... Then my head just threw myself at his crotch...
4
When I woke up again, I was lying straight in my hospital bed with my boss lying on top of my bed.
Gu Yang was quietly leaning against my bed with his eyes closed, his hair was a little messy, and his glasses were taken off by him and set aside, revealing the faint dark circles under his eyes.
The morning sun beat softly between his eyebrows and lips, and his long eyelashes were plated with a faint layer of gold.
"Awake?" How does it feel now?"
The voice of the doctor who rounded the room was a little loud, and Gu Yang seemed to be woken up.
He first moved his fingers, then slowly raised his head, his eyes were not open, and he sat up stupidly, his already cold face full of raw love.
I couldn't stop laughing.
Gu Yang was awake at once.
The decadence and confusion on his face was swept away, and he picked up his glasses and put them on, covering his long narrow, sharp eyes.
I laughed twice and looked at Gu Yang flatteringly: "Manager, thank you really yesterday, I feel better now." Your work is important, or you can go back to work first, I can do it alone."
"Go back?"
Gu Yang sneered twice, and raised his right foot, which was wrapped up like a severed limb: "So how do you let me go back?"
"Manager, if not, I'll hire you a nurse so you can be more convenient."
"No, just teach me a lesson."
"Huh?"
Gu Yang's thin lips evoked a sneer: "Remind me that if there are any employees in the company who deliberately eat seafood and enter the hospital in the future, don't go to the fun, it is easier to directly let her crash to the ground."
How did he know I was eating seafood on purpose?
This thought flashed through my mind, and I was immediately squeezed out by the feeling of "Manager Gu is so gentle".
I had tears in my eyes: "Manager, I didn't expect you to be so good, even if I don't care..."
Before I could finish my sentence of "make cattle and make horses", I saw gu Yang take out a thick stack of design drawings and tools from his universal briefcase and put them on the bedside.
I swallowed the words in my mouth and looked at him in disbelief: "Manager, this is not for me, is it?"
A hint of anger appeared on Gu Yang's face, as if he was really angry: "You think of me like this?"
Looking up again, Gu Yang was looking at the design drawings with a cold face, his good-looking brows furrowed, and the impatience and impatience visible to the naked eye.
"Cough cough..." I felt very guilty, and tentatively asked: "Manager, there are so many design drawings, anyway, I am idle and it is okay, or I will review it with you?" 」
"Huh." He sneered.
Then I turned around and quickly put a stack of design drawings on the small table on my bed: "There's labor."
I accepted the blueprint.
The expression on Gu Yang's face was finally rainy and sunny, and he was sitting on the edge of the bed in a happy mood and calling: "Two pieces of skinned egg lean porridge without green onions, one fruit salad, yellow peach and sydney pear... Don't worry about the eggs, send them to the city hospital 501."
As soon as Gu Yang sat down, I couldn't help but say, "Manager, your taste is like me, and I like to order it."
"Really?"
Gu Yang revealed a sneering smile: "That's really a coincidence, I used to know a little sister, these are her favorite foods."
"Huh?" I was stunned, not knowing what he meant by that.
"Forget it."
He shook his head in approval, reached out and unbuttoned the neckline, revealing a faint tooth mark: "Little fellow, do you still recognize it?"
bub?
Memories deep in the brain were awakened, and a cold and arrogant teenager walked out of the July rain curtain with an umbrella. His hair was stained with petals that had been knocked out of the yard, his pale face was still covered with rain, and his left hand pinched my face and exclaimed, "Little fellow, you can actually fall asleep in the flower bed."
Memories and reality coincided, and my eyes widened: "You are... Big Fat Brother?"
5
The big fat brother is not fat, and even very thin, as for the name big fat, it is a cheap name that his grandmother specially asked for.
Gu Yang's skin color in the impression has been sickly pale for many years, his expression is cold, he does not care about people, and he likes to sit in front of the window and read and write.
Although I think he is cold, I can't stand that he looks good, and I can't help but go to him to get close to him, and I don't touch a nose of ash in front of him.
When you hit a wall, don't worry, forget it in a few days, and follow him to offer hospitality.
However, at that time, in addition to being good-looking, Gu Yang also had a rather practical identity for me - an egg-eating tool man.
Whenever my grandmother forced me to eat the egg yolk, I would run to the opposite side of the corridor and knock on the glass of Gu Yang's room, waiting for Gu Yang to open the window inexplicably, and then quickly shoved the egg yolk into his mouth.
"Well... You..." He frowned at me, his thin cheeks bulging like an angry hamster.
"Don't throw it up."
I covered his mouth and secretly threatened him, "Or I'll tell your grandmother about the medicine you secretly dumped!"
Only then did he swallow the egg yolk with humiliation.
Habits are a terrible thing.
Gradually, Gu Yang seemed to have become accustomed to being an egg-eating machine.
Every time I knocked on the windowsill, he stuck his head out with a cold face, and although his expression was fierce, his body honestly opened his mouth to eat the yolk I handed over.
"One last time." He gritted his teeth and glared at me.
"Got it, got it." I pretended to be obedient and nodded, but I only thought about how he looked so good when he was angry.
In those carefree times, Gu Yang and I were like two small trees growing in the courtyard, growing savagely in the vigorous summer.
I'm savage.
He grows.
When I was 8 years old, Gu Yang was in adolescence, like eating pig feed, a meal that grew like a pig's feed, and one winter was actually a head taller than me.
Probably because of exercise, the body is much better than before, and I will no longer take medicine bowl by bowl.
As he leaned against the long railing to drink water, I could faintly see the shallow muscular lines under the hem of his clothes that had been lifted by the wind.
Everything was going in a good direction, but to my dismay, he was getting better and I could no longer threaten him to help me eat egg yolks.
"You've eaten everything before!" I stomped my feet in grievance.
Gu Yang avoided my hand in disgust: "Ye Ran, read the third grade, do men and women understand it?"
I stubbornly put my hand out again, "I know, but you are not an outsider, I can be very close to you."
Gu Yang's movements seemed to pause, stared at me for a moment, suddenly ticked the corners of his mouth, and smiled narrowly: "Then how are you going to kiss me?"
I narrowed my eyes, "Isn't it still a kiss to give you egg yolks?" I don't give to ordinary people."
"That's not counted."
Gu Yang bent his legs slightly, and his eyes were at eye level with me, and a pair of peach blossom eyes looked at me with a ghost: "Well, after you kiss me, I will eat an egg yolk, how about it?"
My mind turned twice and I asked, "Where's the kiss?"
He licked his lips, and the knot in his throat rolled up and down: "You can kiss wherever you want, your face can be, anywhere else... You can also."
I nodded, and the teenager said, "I see, you want to take advantage of me!" My mom said bad kids like that."
"Take advantage?" Gu Yang looked me up and down, raised an eyebrow, and without knowing what to think, he suddenly smiled and pointed to his face.
"I'll ask you, do you want me to take advantage of this bad boy or eat egg yolks?"
"You're so despicable." I learned the way the heroine of the TV scolded him with her tender teeth open, and made him laugh again.
"Well, Miss Ye, who we are not afraid of heaven, will not be afraid?" He looked at me sarcastically.
Although I am young, I have not watched soap opera idol dramas, which is a typical human high-quality male courtship behavior.
The perfect girl will not let go of every handsome guy who comes to the door.
While he was still triumphant, I tugged at his collar and took a hard bite at his mouth.
"You... You you..."
Probably not expecting that I would really kiss it, Gu Yang took two steps back violently, looked at me with a look of surprise, unconsciously raised his hand to touch his warm lips, and Gu Someone, who has always been clever, did not say a word for half a day.
After that, I never saw Gu Yang.
At that time, he had already entered high school, his health was getting better, and there was no need to go back to his hometown to recuperate.
I let out a long sigh, and finally I was alone with all the yolks.
I didn't stay at my grandfather's house for long, and within half a month my father took my grandparents into the city with me.
The somewhat melancholy and timid summer and the young man with the sharp eyebrows were left in the compound with the dust and sand rolled up by the car, gradually turning into a gray back in the gap of time.
6
Only now did I finally understand why Gu Yang had such a good attitude when he first saw me.
Thinking about this, I still feel a little weak.
"Finally remembered?" I thought Miss Ye had forgotten a lot and forgotten me cleanly."
I was not convinced.
He has been gone for more than ten years, the male eldest eighteen has changed, and he is now defeated by this Sven... Sven is elegant and elite in the industry, I don't recognize it.
But after all, I didn't recognize him first, and I could only put aside my own sophistry first.
I honestly bowed my head and confessed my mistakes.
Gu Yang buttoned the buttons of his shirt slowly and methodically, and when he was about to cover his teeth marks, he said leisurely: "When you bite, you bite, but after biting, it is not right to turn your face and not recognize people."
I nodded my head like a garlic, "This is really a scumbag."
He changed his tone and looked at me with a smirk: "In the same way, if someone accidentally kisses someone else, shouldn't they also be responsible?"
I laughed twice, this is to calculate the old account together.
Seeing that I didn't speak, he looked at me thoughtfully.
At the end, he chuckled, "I haven't seen you in all these years, but you've changed a lot."
He looked at me, tilted his head slightly, and smiled evilly: "It's ugly."
I:??
He looked relaxed, and even sat there a little lazily, but the tone was unspeakably serious: "Ye Ran, you have to remember that you are you, and you don't need to wronged yourself in order to cater to others." People who like you, even if you wear your grandfather's big pants, will like you."
After a pause, his voice suddenly became low, as if grinding against my ear, and he said word by word, "I think you used to be weird and cute."
The grievances and sadness I buried deep in my heart were all ticked off by his words.
Like a lonely mute in the wilderness, meeting someone who doesn't need words to understand her.
He smiled and told her that you are the best baby in the world.
"You all know..." I feel a little humiliated, after all, I am really a bit humble in this relationship.
"All right." He wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes with his fingers, "Why do you still cry your nose as much as you used to?"
The ghost made God worse, and I suddenly thought of my colleagues saying that Gu Yang was doing a good job in the head office, how could he be transferred to us in a good manner?
I vaguely guessed what it was for, but my heart was extremely conflicted, I didn't dare to believe it, but I was looking forward to it, and after expecting it, I felt distressed.
In the end, I still didn't ask anything out.
7
When Gu Yang's secretary, Sister Lisa, opened the ward with breakfast and looked at me in the opposite moment, the scene was really a little awkward.
Still Gu Yang had seen the world, and very calmly walked over to take the breakfast in Lisa's sister's hand.
But in this way, Lisa and I are even less calm.
"Manager, your feet?"
Oh, gu Yang's severed foot is half injured?
However, he did not have a half-hearted look, slowly and methodically ripped open the loosely wrapped gauze, pointed to the band-aid on the ankle and said calmly: "Although the wound is not deep, it is faintly tingling, I have been weak since I was a child, and it is understandable that the doctor is cautious."
I burst out laughing.
Perhaps the atmosphere at that time was too beautiful, or out of some selfishness, I took a picture of the hearty breakfast, and specially revealed my hospital gown, and sent a circle of friends: "The breakfast in the hospital is really delicious."
Within a few minutes, my phone vibrated, and what was displayed was indeed Chen Yan's chat box.
I happily opened the news, and I saw Chen Yan asking me, "Who are you with now?"
I don't know why I opened the picture, and found that when I sent the photo, I accidentally sent a photo of Gu Yang's tie into the mirror.
To say not to be disappointed is a lie.
I laughed self-deprecatingly, Ye Ran, Ye Ran, he can't see your sick suit, he can't see you in the hospital.
A tie with only one corner in the photo can make his alarm ring.
I even had a terrible guess in my mind, Chen Yan might be with Xu Wenwen now, maybe now have breakfast together, and then judge her.
"There's no one else, just the big brother in the bed next door."
There was a long-standing "Typing" display over there, and it seemed that he was ashamed that he didn't care about me in the first place.
"How did I get sick?" Is it better now?"
Obviously, I should now take advantage of his guilt to add another fire to him and tell him what I had conceived a thousand times in my head last night, after all, that was my original intention to venture into seafood.
But at this point, I suddenly felt that my actions last night were really stupid.
"I've been so tired lately, just take a break."
Chen Yan's news this time came back quickly: "Don't be too strong, rest well in a few days, I will come to see you in a few days."
I didn't reply to him, and my intuition told me he still had something to say.
After a while, he sent a message again: "The qingshu cup competition is almost the deadline, so try to send me your design manuscript in these days."
The Qingbao Cup is a design competition with a high gold content in the industry, whether it is examination or work, Chen Yan is in urgent need of such an award with high gold content.
Before Xu Wenwen could turn back, the two of us agreed to participate together, and I had 10,000 expectations for co-creation with him.
Until now I just thought it was more like a piece of evidence.
A piece of evidence that he didn't love me.
The first time there was no message from Chen Yan, I sent him the design draft and quickly pressed the mobile phone screen and threw it aside.
8
The night was about to sink, and the cloud of fire on the edge of the sky was gradually fading.
Putting down the work in my hand, I stretched out a big stretch and prepared to order a takeaway and eat two bites.
Because of the absurd farce of the previous allergies, the progress of the Renewture project has fallen a long way, so these days I basically work overtime in the company to draw pictures.
Considering my body, Gu Yang also planned to give this project to someone else, but I refused.
The project deadline is just around the corner, and a temporary substitution is equivalent to abandoning the project.
I don't want him to fall for the first time he comes to the company. Not to mention, everyone has to pay for their mistakes.
Just when I was considering whether to eat yellow braised chicken rice or teppanyaki beef brisket rice today, Chen Yan's news jumped out.
Looking at the small chat box, I suddenly realized that I hadn't contacted Chen Yan for a week, and I hadn't even thought of him at all.
It's a really bizarre feeling.
Click on the chat box: "Xiao Ran, are you feeling better?" Let's have a meal at the Western restaurant I often go to tonight."
Not a question sentence, but an affirmative sentence.
"I'm going to work overtime tonight, so I'm not going to eat."
It didn't seem to anticipate that I would refuse, and after about two minutes, a phone call came.
"Xiao Ra, have you been busy lately?"
Chen Yan's voice is still so good, like a clear spring, but I can hear his subtext: Busy enough to even have time to eat with me?
I don't know why I was so calm and even a little wanted to laugh, but the truth is that I did laugh: "It's really a little busy, how, miss me?" 」
As soon as I said this, I could feel the person on the other side of the phone obviously breathing.
Because I would never have asked him such a question before, I had always been so well-behaved, considerate, understanding, and not asking for anything in return, and as soon as he turned around, I was there, no blame, no resentment, just full of joy.
"We don't seem to see each other in a long time?" You haven't been in touch with me much lately."
Contact you?
What do you do when contacting you?
I laughed self-deprecatingly, I'm not an uninteresting person.
"No way, it's too busy, aren't you?"
The atmosphere between the two people suddenly became tense, and after a long time, Chen Yancai said, "Next month is our anniversary, and when the time comes, let's have a good meal."
I agreed, said "busy first" and hung up the phone.
After hanging up the phone, I suddenly felt relaxed, as for which easy I could not say, I felt that I could live without Chen Yan.
I didn't have time to think too much, and my eyes were immediately drawn to the design drawings on the table, and I drew the drawings bitterly.
I don't know how long later, a clear voice interrupted my drawing movements.
"After work, send you back." Gu Yang stood in front of my workstation and knocked on the table.
These days, as long as I work overtime at night, Gu Yang will stay with me to work, drive me home at night, come and go, and I have gradually become accustomed to working overtime with him at night.
As soon as I looked up, the lights in the manager's office were always on, and I felt solid in my heart.
"Let's go."
I simply cleaned up the table and caught up with him with my bag: "Manager, I have a place to design a plan..."
He paused, looked at me sideways, and was a little helpless: "It's time to leave work, can we not talk about work?"
"That's okay too."
Without taking a few steps, Gu Yang said, "And the title of manager is too raw, I applied for a different title."
I thought about it for a moment and whispered, "That... Big Fat Boy?"
Gu Yang: "..."
"Didn't you like to call me brother before?" Now let's call another sentence to hear?" He spoke unhurriedly, looking at me with a bit of disgust, his eyes full of smiles.
I just wanted to jump up and scold him when the elevator door slowly opened.
Not far from the elevator, with his back to the elevator, a tall man was lazily leaning against the glass door, still holding an unburned cigarette in his hand. The cigarette butts inside the ashtray were covered with a layer, and a faint smoke was still emitting.
Hearing the sound of the elevator, the man turned back, revealing a good-looking and familiar face.
It's Chen Yan.
I didn't expect him to wait downstairs in the company, which was really unexpected.
When he saw the two of us, Chen Yan's eyebrows wrinkled inaudibly, and then slowly stretched out, reaching out and pinching the cigarette.
9
"I was a little uneasy to hear that you were working overtime, and I thought about coming over and picking you up."
With a smile on his face, Chen Yan walked over with long legs and swore sovereignty and wrapped me tightly in his arms. Then he pretended not to care and turned to look at Gu Yang and asked, "Who is this?"
I was a little uncomfortable with him: "When I was a child, my neighbor's brother was also my boss."
"Brother?"
Chen Yan's voice was a little dangerous, and he suddenly smiled again: "Qingmei Bamboo Horse?"
I don't understand why Chen Yan suddenly went crazy, but his vaguely revealed vinegar and possessiveness made me scratch my head.
Doesn't he like Xu Wenwen? How suddenly I cared about me.
"It's not a green plum bamboo horse, it's just growing up together, it's not as much as your deep affection for her."
Gu Yang sneered at each other, a mouth as if it had been quenched with poison, but there was still a gentle smile on his face.
If you don't know the awkward relationship between Chen Yan and me, you still think that he is a gentle big brother who loves his sister.
"Since your boyfriend is here, I'll go first." Gu Yang said this to me, but before he could hear my answer, he turned and left, seemingly with a sneering smile on his lips.
If Chen Yan had been willing to pick me up from work in the past, I would have been happy to jump up and down with my mouth rattling.
But now, I can't bring up the slightest interest in talking.
However, Chen Yan said a few words to me for the first time, and when he saw that I was really not very interested, he also stopped talking.
Both men were shrouded in eerie silence along the way.
When I got out of the car, I said "thank you" and was about to open the door, but Unexpectedly, Chen Yan suddenly came up and kissed me lightly on the face.
I was stunned.
Either disgusting, or no feeling, like being licked by a dog, no heartbeat and no shyness, if you have to say, maybe the doubt will be a little more.
Maybe seeing that I wasn't paying attention, Chen Yan suddenly pinched my chin and gestured to kiss me, and I subconsciously pushed him away.
"What do you do?"
He licked his lips and smiled a little coldly, "I waited downstairs for five hours at your company, only to see you come down with other men." If I don't come, are you going to ask him to send you home?"
I was amused by him: "I have known Gu Yang since childhood, and I know him very well, why, you don't send me home or let others send him?"
"I was busy and didn't have time."
He said this with obvious lack of confidence.
I smiled slightly, "Busy? So why aren't you busy cooking for Xu Wenwen? Why not be busy when accompanying her to the amusement park? Why am I busy when I am sick? Pick me up when I'm busy after work?"
Chen Yan's face at this moment could really be described as wonderful, and he asked me with a somber face, "How do you know?"
I suddenly lost my smile, "You don't think I'm going to send someone to follow you, do you?"
Turning on the phone, I turned xu Wenwen's mobile phone over to him one by one, and pretended to be surprised: "She won't set it up only you can't see it, right?"
Watching his face become more and more gray, I did not feel relieved, nor did I feel happy, but a little sullen and uncomfortable.
After a long time, I spoke faintly: "Chen Yan, let's break it, you, you don't deserve me."
I really felt tired.
The feelings that occupied my heart for so many years finally gradually disappeared under the grind of the years and became a chicken feather.
After saying that, I opened the car door and got out of the car without turning my head back.
10
The next step-by-step life was every day, there was no pain in my heart, there was no hysteria, and my breakup with Chen Yan was like a natural occurrence, and it did not stir up a little storm in my heart.
I began to accept Gu Yang's daily pick-up and drop-off service, eat with him after work and watch movies, and sometimes he would invite me to his house for dinner with a large family.
I knew that Gu Yang could have cooked a good dish, and he was also worried about what I used to cook for Chen Yan.
But when I felt guilty that it was me who came forward to take the handle, he pretended to send me out with words like "Princess Yuanyu Kitchen".
Princess Yay!
My heart is sweet.
Every minute and second with Gu Yang, I felt very relaxed, I put back my David shirt and small white shoes, bounced on the court to bring him water, and was teased as an eighteen-year-old pure college student.
My parents were even more impressed with him, thinking that it was a great thing that a pig of my poor breed could arch such a good cabbage.
Renewture's project our team did a very good job, and on the day Gu Yang went to the headquarters to celebrate the celebration, I also successfully turned right and officially opened the office romance.
One day a month later, when Gu Yang was socializing and leaving work alone, I unexpectedly met Chen Yan on the first floor of the company.
Maybe I really didn't love him, and I even calmly greeted him.
He was much haggard and had lost a lot of weight, he seemed to have drunk some wine, he didn't look very smart, his eyes were staring straight at me, and he said a little childishly, "I can't contact you, I can only wait for you here."
I suddenly remembered that I had blacked out all his contact information the day I was with Gu Yang, and asked very calmly, "Do you have anything to do with me today?"
He didn't reply to me and stared at me for a moment.
"You've changed, is that what you are?"
"Chen Yan, we have broken up, if nothing happens, I hope you don't bother me in the future, my boyfriend will be jealous." 」
"You're together?"
Chen Yan seemed a little unacceptable, looking at me with red eyes and a dumb voice, and the blue stubble showed that he was a little embarrassed and paranoid: "Xiao Ran, how can you be with him, don't you like me?"
Before I could speak, as if he was afraid to hear my answer, he said to himself, "I don't believe it, how can you suddenly dislike me after so many years?" Are you still minding Yawen' affairs, I can explain. Those dishes were not made by me, they were taken out by herself, and I just watched her eat alone with her... I've made it clear to her that I'll keep my distance from her in the future, and I won't..."
"Chen Yan, I want you to understand that keeping your distance from the opposite sex should not be a bargaining chip to save an ex-girlfriend, but something that a boyfriend should have done." Do you know what I used to envy Xu Wenwen the most? I envy her usual words can make my boyfriend put in his heart for so many years, I envy her as long as she hooks her fingers to get the heartache and care that I can get a hundred times a thousand times, I envy that she always has a way to make my boyfriend speak for her unconditionally, to defend her, to believe her, what I want is always just a unique favor, not pity, not guilt, but love."
He was silent for a long time, and then suddenly he let out a bitter laugh: "Today is our anniversary, you promised to eat with me, we used to spend together every year."
I looked at him in silence and didn't speak.
"The work we collaborated on won the first prize, which is our common honor, and I wanted to share it with you for the first time, although you may not care..."
I said expressionlessly, "The medals and prize money haven't done anything wrong, I still care a lot."
But I don't care about you, Chen Yan.
But he still looked up at me reluctantly, his eyes stubborn and a little pleading: "Do you really not love me?"
I looked into the distance and smiled slightly, "This time I really don't love, Chen Yan."
When did you start not liking him?
Did he start when he saw Xu Wenwen's circle of friends, or did he start with his indifference to my illness?
Is it because of the accumulation of disappointment day after day, or the lonely wait that is too long to see the end?
Or from the very beginning, my obsession with him was just an opening for the emotional venting of adolescence, a reluctance to be desired by a young man, and a regret that he had not been able to become the enviable self?
I do not know.
The memory seems to go back to the high school party, I sat downstage and looked at the stage that did not belong to me, looking at Chen Yan shining on the stage.
The smooth and pleasant note floated out of the stage and became a long line, and together with my shy admiration, it was tightly wrapped around my heart for so many years.
But fortunately, I finally reconciled with myself.
I no longer humbly crave the love of others, because I believe that the one who loves me will always appear.
Just like the lyrics, if you really like it, even if two people have their own orbits like planets, he will be willing to cross the layers of obstacles and come to my trajectory.
Because he didn't want me to be humble at all.
11
Didi...
Suddenly, a dripping sound caught my attention, and I looked for prestige, and was surprised to find that it was Gu Yang's car.
Soon, after parking the car, Gu Yang's long body gracefully got out of the car and walked toward me, and I smiled and greeted me: "I'm not going to socialize, how did I come over?"
Gu Yang glanced at Chen Yan beside me lightly, and then set his eyes on me.
"I want to come with you."
The four words were concise and concise, and I felt warm and melted in my heart, and I smiled and smiled, without the slightest regard for the feelings of Chen Yan next to me, he was just an insignificant person to me.
Now Gu Yang and Chen Yan were standing face to face, high and low, and I only felt how blind I was once.
"Ra, let's go."
Gu Yang lovingly put his arms around me and prepared to walk to the car, but I stopped him.
"Wait, there's still something to fix."
Looking at Gu Yang's confused look, I smiled and took his arm to soothe him.
Chen Yan looked happy when he heard this, as if he thought there was another chance, and looked at me expectantly.
"Xiao Ra, are you..."
"Forgot to tell you, later with you to participate in the Qing shuai cup is not for you at all, this award I paid no less than you, so, whether it is a trophy or a bonus, I hope you can cash in as soon as possible." 」
I said expressionlessly, but when I looked at Gu Yang, my face was much softer.
"After all, I also need to get a promotion and a raise with an award, and then save myself a dowry."
When I said this, looking at the happy smile on Gu Yangjun's face, I blushed unconsciously.
Chen Yan: "..."
This time, it was Chen Yan who was completely desperate and seemed to be unable to stand steadily.
Who knows the next second, Gu Yang said solemnly, "Wife, the dowry is too troublesome, or I will get into it."
After a pause, Gu Yang said with great significance, "I like to eat egg yolks, especially the yolks left over from the egg whites after you eat them."
Seeing Chen Yan's appearance of almost pouting, I couldn't help but laugh.
Sure enough, on the loss, it is still a big fat boy cow.