Story: President Bai Yueguang returned, and I broke up with bai for six years, but I accused Bai of true love

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1

When Gu Jingchen's news of the new joy reached my ears, I was counting a very messy account.

The message was sent by Shen Yuan, who had just returned from abroad and was completely unaware of the breakup between the two of us, and the words were all accusations and resentment against Gu Jingchen.

"Round, he and I have broken up."

This message was sent, she did not reply for a long time, I stared at the screen is typing for a while, and then turned off the phone to continue to sort out the accounts.

It was only a matter of time before Gu Jingchen had a new love, but I didn't expect it to be so early, as early as I broke up with him for only a month, and the news that he had a new relationship came.

It's ridiculous to say, I'm just a commercial object to him, no different from others, if I really have, it's just that I've been his only publicly acknowledged girlfriend for so many years.

The mobile phone ringing on the side rang, I thought it was Shen Yuan, after opening it, I found that it was Gu Jingchen's mother, I had a meal in my heart, I thought about it again and again, or took the phone.

"Xiao Qian, what happened to you and Jing Chen, how did the news on the Internet overwhelm you..."

After a few words, I cleared up the ins and outs of the matter, and he did not tell his parents about my breakup with Gu Jingchen.

I didn't tell Aunt Gu that I could understand, after all, my breakup with him was not only a matter between the two of us, but also the interests of our two companies, which was too complicated, and I didn't bother to explain and deal with it during this time, and I didn't tell my dad.

Before I figured it out, I could only reassure Aunt Gu a few words, and used the media to catch the wind and shadow to prevaricate, after all, the breakup was not my turn to inform his parents.

I thought about whether to call Gu Jingchen and ask, when the phone was about to dial out, I felt that it was too redundant, since others knew about it, then he must have seen it and would naturally deal with it.

Thinking of this, I put down my phone again.

Thinking about it, I still opened Weibo, the hot search for Gu's brother suspected of a new relationship hung high in the first few, I casually clicked on an article, which was accompanied by several blurry photos, and I could faintly see the girl's side face, thin and small, leaning on Gu Jingchen's shoulder.

Somehow, the scene looked familiar, and I didn't have the time or energy to research a photo that had little to do with me, and the work at hand was already scaring me.

Shen Yuan's messages one after another made my mobile phone suffer a series of bombardments.

It's nothing more than asking me what's wrong, why did I break up, where am I now?

Look, everyone who knows that I broke up with Gu Jingchen will have a long list of questions, and I believe that my dad will not be an exception, not only that, but probably even more!

So after breaking up with him, I temporarily didn't want my dad to know, I hadn't been home for many days, my dad thought that I and his dragon-riding son-in-law you and I nong, inseparable, I didn't know that I just found a small company, paralyzed myself with a lot of work, and didn't let myself have a chance to breathe.

The headache is very much, simply put the phone to airplane mode, out of sight.

That's right, because I like Gu Jingchen very much, like it for many years, and then in the end... Fruitless...

2

After a busy afternoon and all the work, I turned my phone back, and at that moment, countless missed calls popped up.

Gu Jingchen's name was impressively at the top, and he called me 26 times.

After thinking about it, he still gave him a return, and almost at the same time as he hit the past, he connected, and his low voice came from the other end, "Where are you now?" I'll pick you up. ”

He was so direct because he knew that I was different from other girls and didn't need to be coaxed.

In his eyes, I can be regarded as a very good marriage partner, not sticky internally, very decent on the outside, but so what, he is still very determined to break up with me.

I told him the address, but within ten minutes, his eye-catching car was parked in front of the company.

It was almost dark, and the last rays of the sun had fallen, so he opened the window and motioned for me to get in.

I habitually went to open the co-pilot's door, only to find that there was a girl sitting on it.

Almost instantly, I knew why Gu Jingchen suddenly broke up with me, why he gave the reason that he didn't like me, because the person he liked came back.

I've had the privilege of seeing the girl with him, in her high school uniform, leaning on his shoulder... I suddenly remembered the picture, and it was no wonder that I felt familiar.

Somewhat embarrassed to withdraw my hand, I sat in the back seat.

"It's Sister Li Qian, hello, my name is Qin Ya."

"In my absence, thank you for taking care of Achen."

In two sentences, she was sworn to sovereignty.

Qin Ya's voice is soft and sticky, the person looks thinner than in the photo, and the appearance is not amazing, but it is cute. In short, it is a completely different type from me, it turns out that this is the person That Gu Jingchen has been thinking about for so many years.

"Originally, I wanted to find a suitable opportunity to talk to my parents, and now I have been photographed by the media, but now is not the time."

"My mother can't accept it now, wait a while, let her have a time to accept."

Gu Jingchen gave a good plan, after all, he needs to appease his mother, and I, need to maintain the cooperation between our two sides, there is no need to be very stiff.

I glanced at Qin Ya, and it was obvious that when Gu Jingchen said these words, her emotions were not right.

Obviously, Gu Jingchen also noticed that he was a little confused, and panickedly looked for a tissue to wipe Qin Ya's tears, this was the first time I had seen him like this.

Maybe it's because I never cried in front of him.

"I'm sorry, Yaya, just give me a few more days, and when the time comes, I'll give you a beautiful wedding."

"No, Ah Chen, I'm not good enough, I can help you like Sister Li Qian, I don't care..."

These words Gu Jingchen was obviously very useful, the pain on his face was overflowing, and I watched them in the back seat like a movie, and I didn't know that my fingertips were pinched into the flesh.

"Gu Gongzi, are you done, in front of your ex-girlfriend, you are not afraid of irritating me, your little girlfriend is so weak, you are not worried that I can't help it?"

Gu Jingchen snorted coldly and opened his mouth to me in a sarcastic tone, "Isn't Miss Li the same, sharing a room with other men, and when you flirt with your eyebrows, do you put me in your eyes?" ”

"Gu Gongzi doesn't like me, even if I look at other men, even in front of you, you won't be angry."

"Li Qian, you are so short of men?" The atmosphere dropped abruptly.

Fortunately, Qin Ya's brow frowned a little, as if he heard some filthy words, he pulled at Gu Jingchen's cuff, "Ah Chen, don't say it..."

Gu Jingchen's tone instantly became gentle, "Good, listen to you." ”

"If the two of you don't have anything else to do, I'll go first, after all, as Gu Gongzi said, there is a lot of lack of men, and there are several waiting for me to go to the appointment."

After saying that, I opened the car door, and Gu Jingchen opened his mouth in disgust, "Tomorrow I will go home with me, first explain it to my parents and calm them down." ”

I turned back to Gu Jingchen and raised an eyebrow, "I have no problem, but you, first appease your little girlfriend." Qin Ya's face is not good-looking, no woman can accept it, her boyfriend and ex-girlfriend are still a couple in front of outsiders, even if it is a superficial relationship.

Gu Jingchen's car flew away, and at that moment, I almost couldn't stand, it didn't matter in front of him, the wind and clouds were just my elaborate disguise.

Crying and begging him is not something I can do, even if I love him to the bone.

The hand could not stop trembling, looked through the street lamp, the place where the nails were pinched, there were deep marks, some bleeding, just now did not feel pain, now, the wind blows, into the bone pain ...

3

Don't want to drive, just walk home, fortunately the road is not far, the neon on the street flashes with various colors of light, the city is bright and beautiful, even if it is dark, it will not be hidden.

Seeing the small couple who occasionally held hands on the side of the road, I suddenly remembered Gu Jingchen's little girlfriend, to be honest, I admired her, and I could still firmly grasp a man's heart after leaving for so many years.

In fact, Gu Jingchen and I also had a very pleasant time, and at that time, his heart also accepted me for a moment.

Gu Jingchen and I met at the freshman meeting, and he and I were both freshman representatives.

Undoubtedly, he and I are counted as the kind of people who are very bright in the crowd, and the education he received since he was a child has made his whole person emit a kind of eye-catching light, even if it is a handsome face and slender figure, wherever he goes, he can attract the side eyes of a large group of little girls.

I think I am not a person of the world with him, at least not a class, his family background is not news at school, and the gu company brothers who can be counted in city A have added a lot of topics to him.

I am different from him, he has a favorable environment when he was young, I can be regarded as a "rich woman" who is halfway out of the house, but it is only when my father has improved in running a factory in recent years, and I have come into contact with these so-called "high society".

But I have a face.

Since I was a child, many people have praised me for my good looks, and my best friend Shen Yuan said that I had a beautiful and aggressive face, but I was a character who could not be stirred up in a big rock and smashed water.

Shen Yuan is my best friend, but she is different from me, she is somewhat similar to Gu Jingchen, the family is superior, like a little princess.

When Gu Jingchen went up to speak, Shen Yuan whispered to me below, "Looks handsome, except for my brother, he is the most handsome one I have ever seen, unfortunately, I heard that he is more careful..."

Shen Yuan's brother I have seen, and Gu Jingchen is not a type, they, one is a gentle and humble prince, the other is an arrogant young master who is untamed.

I nodded, looking at Gu Jingchen above, A little distracted, until I called my name to let me go to the stage, I did not come back. As he passed by, he looked at me and smiled at me.

I could feel that the laugh was not a well-intentioned hello, but a very aggressive laugh.

After the ceremony, Shen Yuan couldn't wait to drag me to visit the campus, but was stopped by Gu Jingchen who came up.

"Li Qian, let's have a coffee together in the afternoon, this is my phone."

Grasping the note in my hand, I was stunned for a moment, and Shen Yuan pulled my clothes, "People are gone, are you stupid?" ”

"Xiao Qian, I feel as if he wants to chase you, but this kind of playboy still don't provoke, after all, I still want to leave you to my brother..."

The note in the palm of his hand was grasped and grasped until it was a little wet, Gu Jingchen, really a proud person, as if he felt that no girl would refuse his overtures.

4

Indeed, I did not refuse.

Admittedly, his attraction to me was great, whether it was appearance, family background, or other aspects.

"Li Qian, be my girlfriend."

Before the coffee was served, he said it, and I was a little amused, "So direct? ”

"If you could give me a rose in front of the dormitory, maybe I would consider it."

This kind of childish thing, in my opinion, Gu Jingchen is disdainful of doing, love at first sight is too outrageous, and it may be appropriate to see the color.

Who knows, that night, he sensationalized the entire girls' dormitory building, and overnight, most of the schools knew that Gu Jingchen had laid roses on the floor in front of the dormitory building.

Shen Yuan tugged at my sleeve and looked down from upstairs, "Xiao Qian, his position is also too big!" ”

I put on my coat and went downstairs, and he saw me smile and handed me a rose in his hand, "Here comes the rose." ”

It's not that there were no boys who gave me roses, on the contrary, I received a lot, a big bouquet, a trunk, and even like him, paved the floor, but, in fact, all I wanted was that one.

Naturally, I was with him.

Like other couples in college, we would roll the road and walk together on the playground, and when I wore somewhat explicit clothes, he would spoil me and take off my coat for me...

Later, I thought about it, maybe it was these subtle things that were too many, so that I couldn't forget, missed into the bone, and the pain went through my heart.

I love him very much, so I will not refuse him and give everything to him, I have no half hesitation and regret.

At that time I really believed that he and I could go to the end.

"Xiao Qian, do you know, the smell of your body, very good..." Deep down, he lay on my neck socket, his ears were grinding, and the delicate kiss fell, causing me to shudder...

"Xiao Qian, I will always be good to you..." I reached out and hugged his back, made up my mind, and kissed it...

During those days, I had a very happy time with him, at least, I felt so.

He even took me to see my parents, even though his mother felt that my wealth was not worthy of his son, and even felt that I was with Gu Jingchen in order to let Gu Take care of the business.

But these things are not a problem for me, and accompanying Gu Mu to several cocktail parties has greatly changed her impression of me.

I did not play a small superior environment, but I also did not have the pampered temper of those rich ladies, and I would not hold the shelf, those wives were coaxed by me to be very happy, exaggerated a few words, Gu Mother naturally felt very faceless, shopping often pulled me.

I know that in such a circle, love is not supreme, because of family interests, so there are many sacrifices to be made.

Gu Jingchen put his arms around me and praised me, "My daughter-in-law is very powerful, so good-looking, and so good at doing things." ”

Gu Jingchen usually says to me that I am not shy, except when I call my daughter-in-law, I will blush every time.

He teased me every time, "Anyway, sooner or later you will shout, now let you get used to it." ”

It wasn't until much later that I understood that affection and love can also overflow on the surface without coming from the heart, and loving this kind of thing is also very wonderful to pretend.

5

A cold wind blew and I was much more awake. Only then did I realize that the red light in front of me did not know how many times it had been green.

When I was about to get home, I saw a familiar figure downstairs, fingertips flickering.

He also noticed me, and in some panic he snuffed out the cigarette and waved it in the air with his hand.

"Xiao Qian, you're back."

It was Shen Yuan's brother Shen Yu, and speaking of which, I had some relationship with him before.

At that time, the trouble was not very pleasant. Shen Yuan kept saying that he wanted to leave me to his brother, and said that he was cut off by Gu Jingchen halfway, and he was really angry.

But at that time, I really didn't think that Shen Yu would like my type, the girl he liked should be the kind of bookish, elegant and gentle, anyway, it wouldn't be my sleek and sophisticated.

But at the beginning, he and Gu Jingchen had a big fight because of me, Shen Yu lived in the hospital for a week because of this, Gu Jingchen was not much better, his nose was blue and his face was swollen, but he was wronged and asked me to give him medicine.

I asked him why he was fighting with Shen Yu, and he only said, "Who let him worry about my daughter-in-law?" ”

I sighed, "I only think that Shen Yu is a brother, moreover, people may not like me, you beat people like this, let me how to tell Shen Yuan." ”

Gu Jingchen no longer spoke, but just drilled into my arms, "I'm all hurt, you still say this..."

Later, Shen Yu went abroad, and I didn't hear from him for a long time, until half a year ago, when he came back.

The last time I met him, it was the day after I broke up with Gu Jingchen, he was a new designer in the company, and when I met him, I knew that he was an old acquaintance.

It was also from that time that the good feelings he showed made me realize that I should stay away from him, after all, he was Shen Yuan's brother, and some words were difficult to say. I happened to be looking for a new job, and since then I have rarely contacted him and made excuses for his offers.

"Please let me go up and sit down?"

"Okay."

When I entered the house, I asked him, "What do you want to drink?" ”

"It's all right."

When I came out with a pot of tea, Shen Yu smiled, "You can still make tea, I remember that you used to hate drinking tea the most." ”

Making tea is because Gu Jingchen often participates in cocktail parties, so I learned to make a variety of teas, anti-alcohol, stomach nourishing...

"Taste it."

"Well, it's delicious!" Shen Yu never skimped on his praise.

"Xiao Qian, Yuanyuan told me, you and he really..."

"Yes, broke up." I took a sip of tea and said the clouds were light and the wind was light.

"Xiao Qian, I have something I want to say to you... In fact, a long time ago, I was..."

The door was suddenly opened, and Gu Jingchen appeared drunk at the door, interrupting Shen Yu's words.

He staggered over to Shen Yu and sneered, "Shen Yu... I haven't seen you for a long time, but I remember my daughter-in-law coming to my house, right..."

"Gu Jingchen!" I shouted, and he walked toward me with drunken eyes, "Daughter-in-law, don't be angry..." Before he could finish speaking, he collapsed on the sofa.

"Xiao Qian, he..."

"Brother Shen, you go back first, I'm sorry, I'll solve it myself, next time please eat."

"Well, call me whenever you want."

After Shen Yu left, I looked at Gu Jingchen nestled in the sofa, a little helpless, this house was before the two of us lived together, after the breakup he left, even things were confiscated, the password lock I did not change the password.

After Shen Yu left, I had a big head, Gu Jingchen, Gu Jingchen, why do you always have to do this, after each injury, you still have to give me a faint light.

I fed him some tea, and he drilled into my arms vigorously, "Daughter-in-law, daughter-in-law, don't you want me, I'm wrong, I shouldn't make you angry, are you okay?" ”

"Gu Jingchen, you can see clearly, I am not Qin Ya!" A cup of herbal tea was spilled on his face by me, and he regained some consciousness, and when he saw the person in front of him, he sneered a few times.

"Li Qian, I just broke up and dated him, and now I'm taking him home, why, so lonely, lack of men?"

"Yes, I am very lacking, unlike Gu Gongzi, who is attentive and consistent."

"Wasn't it with your girlfriend you and me just now, how come you drank too much to come to me, and went wrong?" Or, your girlfriend can't satisfy you and thinks of me? ”

Li Qian, you are really a, and are you like this with other men?

"Gu Jingchen, it is you who said that it was you who broke up, it is you who can't forget the ex, even if I am entangled with more men, I have no half relationship with you, in your eyes, am I Li Qian not like this, there are means, there is a heart, there is a lack of men, huh!"

"Li Qian!"

He suddenly approached and pressed me against the corner, "Lack of men is it, I give it to you!" ”

6

The smell of blood filled my entire mouth, and I bit Gu Jingchen's tongue.

"Oh, what, other men can, I can't?"

"Li Qian, if you want a man, I will give you money, don't you just have a few contracts, I give you, half a million at a time is not enough, signing a contract is not enough, ah!"

His words were hard to hear, hard to hear that I wanted to run away.

"Gu Jingchen, we have broken up."

"Li Qian, what are you with me for, my identity?" Your family's business? Your desire to conquer? He was a little excited, ran to the room and turned over the diary, and slammed it on the table, "So the six years together are all for your father's business, for your strong desire to conquer, so even if you don't climb into my bed, you will climb into someone else's bed like this, right?" ”

"Gu Jingchen, what about you, what are you for?"

I suddenly understood that after all these years, I had always been a woman with a purpose in his heart, and the truth was so, I had no excuse.

"I know that my father has negotiated a lot of contracts and taken a lot of benefits because of our relationship, so why did you provoke me?"

"It's just because at the new birth ceremony that year, I sprayed perfume with the same taste as Qin Ya, didn't I?"

It was such a stupid reason, let him look at me more, let us have so many years of involvement, Qin Ya like him, the same concentration, in the car, I smelled that smell for the first time, even if I never used that brand of perfume after graduating from college.

After all, in the four years of college, Gu Jingchen gave me countless bottles of the same perfume, even if I didn't like the taste so much later.

"Gu Jingchen, they are all adults, you use me as a stand-in, I use you as a ladder, and we don't owe each other."

I said this almost tremblingly, he used me as a stand-in, I knew it a long time ago, but I was paranoid that I would always be a substitute.

As for me, because of him, I met a lot of friends around him, and my dad was also thriving because of his relationship. Originally, my purpose was not pure, at the beginning, his attraction to me was only so, who let, in this game of feelings, I played the wrong chess, accidentally moved, so that I could not retreat.

"Good one doesn't owe each other!"

The door was slammed shut, I almost fell to the ground unsteadily, picked up the diary, and casually turned a few pages, all of which were nothing more than the temptation and pinching of Gu Jingchen at the beginning, and the back was blank, that is because I found that I seemed to have some different feelings for him.

I didn't dare to write any more, because I never worried that Gu Jingchen would see this, I was afraid that he would see my weakness.

I have always thought that my meaning in this world should not be given such a pure thing as love.

He chose this reason to break up with me, it was nothing more than more at ease, but his pride did not allow it, and some people played with him, even if he did not pay his heart. Two don't owe, how good. To keep him safe for the rest of his life, this diary can be regarded as a completion of his mission.

7

I thought that if something like this happened, Gu Jingchen would not come to pick me up to meet his parents, but he still arrived.

In the car, he didn't say a word to me.

It wasn't until he got out of the car that he took my hand, and tenderness returned to his eyes, as if we hadn't broken up yet.

"I'll just say, those reporters on the Internet are catching the wind and catching shadows, and if you are well, I will be relieved."

"Xiao Qian, auntie and the designer talked well, in the afternoon to design a wedding dress for you, the engagement will be selected in the next month, the aunt can wait to hold the grandson."

"Auntie, I'm sorry, I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint you."

"I can't marry Jing Chen."

Gu Jingchen held my hand and tightened it suddenly, but I still pulled my hand out.

Gu Mu's face was in disbelief, "Xiao Qian, what do you mean by this?" ”

"I don't want to get married, auntie, I just want to make it clear to you and my uncle this time, I'm sorry I can't be your daughter-in-law."

After saying this, I ran out, and Gu Jingchen chased out three or two steps, "Li Qian, what do you mean, I'm not telling you, first appease my mother, and then..."

"Whatever, marry Qin Ya in and throw me away, I'm also a human, Gu Jingchen, I don't want to be dumped by you again and again, the case of cooperation is withdrawn, I will explain it to my father, the rest, you and your aunt make it clear, it doesn't matter, just throw dirty water on me, this is my last time, do this for you."

"At the beginning with you, my feelings were not pure, disgusting to you, I'm sorry."

"Although you used me as a stand-in, you don't need to apologize to me, because I knew early on that I chose to be with you because I felt that you were very suitable for me, nothing more." 」

"Gu Jingchen, you will not meet people like me again, the mind is not simple, the work is smooth and sophisticated, I believe that Qin Ya is not such a person, so I wish you happiness."

Gu Jingchen, when I could no longer restrain my love, I had to choose to leave.

With that, I walked out without looking back.

When I got home, my dad no doubt began to interrogate me about what happened to the photos on the Internet, why the phone call was not answered...

"Dad, don't force me, I'm done with Gu Jingchen, do you understand?"

"Qianqian, this is not a joke, our family and Gu family have several cases in follow-up..."

"Dad, I've brought you enough for so many years, and now, can you give up those things for me once?"

"Qianqian, I..."

"Dad, have you ever cared about me, I didn't have a mother when I was five years old, but in half a year, you had a new love, did you take care of my feelings at that time?" Later, you let me learn piano, let me learn to dance, let me learn to socialize, let me find someone to rely on, help the development of the company..."

"But have you ever thought about it, I also want to be clean, not mixed with the world's love for others, I also want to be loved!" Have you ever loved me, Dad, you love me who can bring you benefits, not Li Qian! ”

"Qianqian, what nonsense do you say, how can Daddy not love you, you are so beautiful, who is willing to not want you, besides, are you quarreling with Jing Chen, men, especially in his circle, there are a few single-minded, it is not up to you to rely on your means ..."

"Dad, I said it very clearly, I broke up with him, he dumped me, he didn't love me, your daughter's face, no matter how beautiful it is, you understand!"

I was a little hysterical, from childhood to adulthood, my father told me how to survive in this circle, until I really mixed into this circle can be like a fish, I found out that I am not me, I will please anyone, but I will not please myself.

No one really cares about me.

In the end, I was still alone.

8

I changed my phone number and changed the place where I lived.

After taking half a month's leave, I rarely went out in the new house, and even Shen Yuan asked me not to go out.

She said I would get moldy sooner or later, so I wouldn't, at least, every day at noon, I would sit on the balcony and bask in the sun.

I thought a lot during this time, Me and Gu Jingchen, at the beginning, whose purpose was not simple, it was originally a love of mutual use, what to talk about winning or losing?

The diary was turned back and forth several times by me, and now it seems that it was quite good at that time, at least at first I just regarded Gu Jingchen as a suitable marriage partner.

I never thought I could love purely once, I couldn't, I couldn't do it, I seemed to have lost the ability to love someone bravely. In my perception, as long as others can't detect your love, they can't hurt you.

If my mother is still here, she will probably tell me how to love someone correctly.

For more than twenty years, I never knew how to love someone, perhaps because no one really loved me since I was a child...

Meeting Gu Jingchen is the most real light in my life, even if it is broken later, even if I know the result early on, I am willing to eat it.

Shen Yu called me a lot, his thoughts, I guessed seven seven eight eight.

But I still very politely called him Brother Shen, let Shen Yuan help me tell me that I really don't want to fall in love now, and gradually, he probably understood what I meant and stopped contacting me.

But what I didn't expect was that one day, Qin Ya's phone would call.

"Li Qian, I want to talk to you."

She sat down in a white dress and pulled out a plane ticket, "I still decided to go abroad, and I wasn't happy when I came back." ”

Her decision made me confused, Gu Jingchen waited for so many years.

"Li Qian, you look really beautiful."

Her sudden praise did surprise me, and then she laughed at herself, "I really feel inferior compared to you." ”

"There is no need."

"Achen's parents like you very much, you can socialize freely at those cocktail parties, no matter what happens, you are an indifferent expression, as if no one can control your emotions, which makes me feel that my self-made wisdom in front of you is very unsuccessful." 」

"Miss Qin, you don't have to do this, the things I can do, you will do the same in the future, but what you have I will never have in the future."

"Li Qian, you are so clever, why did you trap yourself as soon as you encountered Gu Jingchen's affair, do you really want to understand, or do you not want to think?"

"Do you really think that Ah Chen loves me?" Do you really think Achen broke up with you because I came back? ”

I didn't speak, Qin Ya smiled bitterly at herself, "Actually, no, I came back a year ago, and at that time I looked for Ah Chen, but do you know what he said?" ”

"He said he had put it down, and he had already lost the picture..."

"When I left him to learn to dance, I thought dance was more important in my life, but after all these years, I still can't forget him."

"I didn't want to talk to you about these things, I wish you were as far away from him as possible, but every time he got drunk, he shouted at you."

"I even thought, anyway, you and he have broken up, no matter what, he can't be around me, but I can't lie to myself, when I'm not in front of you, he never touches me, he makes no difference between me and strangers." 」

"I don't know what went wrong between you that made him come back to me, but I know he doesn't love me anymore."

"Li Qian, go and see him."

I didn't speak until Qin Ya left for a long time, and then I took the cold cup of coffee and drank it.

It was ridiculous that these words actually came out of Qin Ya's mouth.

9

I was a little distracted, and walked back in a trance, but I saw Gu Jingchen crouching in the doorway.

He heard the movement and looked up at me, "You moved, I've been looking for a long time, I don't have your phone, I can't find you..."

Half a month has not seen, Gu Jingchen haggard a lot, the green stubble looks like it has not been scraped for several days, and the smell of wine on his body is very heavy.

I took him in and made tea for him to drink.

He opened his mouth hoarsely, "Xiao Qian, I was so panicked, you were so determined that day, I was really panicked, I almost lost you." ”

Gu Jingchen's transformation surprised me, I don't know if it was because of drinking wine, his words were extraordinarily much.

"Xiao Qian, I was wrong, I shouldn't have broken up with you, I shouldn't have flipped through that diary, I just, suddenly afraid, do you really love me in the end?"

"Actually, the next day, I went to look for you, but I saw you and Shen Yu staying together, and I thought... I'm sorry..."

"I'm too impulsive, I shouldn't use Qin Ya to anger you."

"Gu Jingchen, it doesn't matter."

"But I don't seem to love you that much anymore."

Love can't help temptation, and can't help but break up.

"Gu Jingchen, do you really love me, or can't you let go of the person who has been with you for six years?"

"If a diary can really make you break up, then our love is too fragile." 」

"There are so many ways to solve the problem, why did you choose the most cruel one?"

"At the end of the day, you just want to test me with a breakup, to test how deeply I love you."

"And I never dared to test, because I never dared to believe that you really loved me."

In love, the person who feels loved will have no fear and dare to do such a tempting thing.

"Xiao Qian, no, I really love you, I just care more and more, why do you always act indifferent!"

President Bai Yueguang returned, and I broke up with the stunt for six years, but I accused Bai of true love

"Even if I pull Qin Ya and be very intimate with her, you won't be angry, as if you have nothing to do with you."

"I say something ugly to you, you always put yourself in a very low position, why, you show that you don't care..."

"When I first started with you, I admitted that I was trying to get rid of the pain of falling out of love, and during that time, I had a lot of relationships, but after being with you, I never touched anyone else." 」

"You don't have anyone's shadow, I really love you, Xiaoqian."

"But when I saw what was written in those diaries, I was thinking, after all these years, have you never really loved me, and are you really only interested in being with me?"

"I admit I was wrong, I shouldn't have broken up with you, I shouldn't have tested you."

"But I was thinking again, why did I break up with you, and you only said one good?"

At this moment, I suddenly felt very sad, an unprecedented sadness, his temptation of me was a manifestation of his love for me, and my forbearance was used as a chip for not loving.

Gu Jingchen can never see the wound behind me, because he always wants me to face him, and I can never see Gu Jingchen's so-called affection, because I never dare to think that he really loves me.

10

What a sad two people, I suddenly found that in the six years we were together, we did not see the real other.

How beautiful are written in those hegemonic novels, in other words, at this moment we should be ice-free, but that is an illusion, this is reality.

I have a face empty, and no amount of education I received later can make up for the inferiority in my bones, I lack love, so I dare not love, and I dare not show love to others, I am afraid that after showing too many weaknesses to others, I will not be able to extricate myself.

So I never asked Gu Jingchen if he loved me, because I didn't dare. He told me to break up, and I never wanted to keep it, because I felt that since I didn't love, I should at least retain my dignity.

And Gu Jingchen, he never lacks love, nor does he skimp on love, and it is reasonable to think that loving a person is to show it, that is, to be jealous of the other party, which is right.

So he tempted over and over again.

After all, he and I are not the same people in the world after all.

Just as when I was ten years old, when my father was qualified for the first time to go to a banquet in high society, he took me with him.

I looked at those children wearing beautiful clothes, their hands and feet were very elegant, on the contrary, even if I wore the same clothes, I was also very cowardly, this is the inferiority carved in my bones, even if I tried my best to hide and learn to please everyone later, I could not forget those.

"Gu Jingchen, thank you for loving me."

"At least for the first time, I really felt what love is."

I did not reunite with Gu Jingchen.

Maybe for him, I stayed with him for a long time, just to soothe his youth. Or maybe his usual sense of superiority makes him feel to me that he's not that special, he doesn't get the enthusiasm he wants. That's why he never forgot me.

But I'm really tired of this way.

Use lies to verify love, even if the verification is successful, the lie or lie, or will become a thorn, that thorn, called distrust.

I have long felt that Gu Jingchen is an immature person in his bones, for love.

And I, again, am a person who is too mature, one can't see clearly, one can see too clearly.

"Xiao Qian, I will wait for you, this time I want you to know, there is no temptation and distrust, only my love for you."

These are the words that Gu Jingchen said to me before getting on the plane.

I said, watching people study abroad, I also want to experience it, after all, for more than twenty years, I don't seem to have lived for myself once.

Regardless of the final outcome, at least, I have been seriously loved.

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Canada is really a beautiful city, I've met a lot of new people and had a lot of experiences that I didn't have before.

I began to learn slowly, no longer hiding my emotions, showing smiles and tears in front of others, which is also a kind of growth.

There's a lot of maple forest here, and I love sitting here and watching the maple leaves fall.

"Hello, can you leave a phone?" I looked up, a handsome Chinese boy, a little shy, looking like a college student.

"No, you can't!"

I suddenly turned around and saw Gu Jingchen standing behind me.

"This is my daughter-in-law, and the famous flower has the Lord!"

"Excuse me!" The boy ran away shyly.

"Who told you I was here?"

"Guess what, maybe I'm in love with you."

Shen Yuan's message came at the right time, "First of all, I am not a traitor, but Gu Jingchen asked me all day where you are now, I am too annoyed, just happened, my father has a case to cooperate with them, you know, hehe! ”

"This time when we first met, hello, my name is Gu Jingchen, can we have a coffee together?"

"By the way, I brought a rose." (Original title: "Qing Qing with the Wind Candle to Comfort the Disabled Year")

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