Twenty-five years ago, Uncle Mai's family only had three tapes, Meng Tingwei who belonged to his mother, Tong Ange who belonged to his father, and Fan Xiaoxuan who belonged to me.
On the spring evening of 1998, Fan Xiaoxuan went all over China with a "health song", and everyone remembers this female singer from Taiwan.
She was beautiful and lovely, and her small body was full of great energy, just like Zhang Shaohan now.
After the Spring Festival Gala, the heart that "wants to move" is still "exploding" after all, and the pure and beautiful girl you think is actually a completely rebellious woman, she fell in love with tattoos and hit the lip nails.
Under the tremendous pressure of the outside world, Fan Xiaoxuan lived out herself and no longer wanted to become a well-behaved woman.
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In 1977, a bar singer named DD gave birth to a little girl at the age of 18, and the little girl's father was only 19 years old.
This DD, with a charming voice, her voice is sexy, but in the bar, she never wears revealing clothing.
DD loves to sing and run all kinds of games, but these are not what she wants, because she has to earn money, a lot of money, to support this little baby girl.
At an ignorant age, the father of the baby girl had no sense of responsibility, he was still a child himself, and he did not have the financial ability to support the mother and daughter, and finally the two chose to divorce.
Whenever he recalls this incident, DD's heart seems to be full of mixed feelings: he is also a child, what responsibility do you let him bear? Just go.
Since then, DD's mother has become her strongest backing, "It doesn't matter, we can raise children."
During the day, Fan Xiaoxuan followed her grandmother at home, and at night, her mother went out to run a night show to earn money to support the family.
When she was a child, Fan Xiaoxuan was very obedient, often sitting next to the TV and not moving, and her grandmother was also wondering: Why don't you even go to the toilet?
Perhaps thanks to her genes, Fan Xiaoxuan has been very talented in music since she was a child, and her mother and grandmother are fully supportive, she learned piano at the age of seven and flute at the age of nine.
The mother hopes that her daughter can take this road, even if it is not good, it will not be hungry.
Fan Xiaoxuan in childhood may understand that it is not easy for her family, she is studying very hard, and even at the age of 12, she can try to compose her own music and fill in the words by herself.
In the days of bitter haha, in 1991, there was a turnaround, Fan Xiaoxuan was favored by a brokerage company, and the musician Li Yaming felt that this little girl was so cute.
But the partner had a different view: the girl was so small, and the baby was fat, and she looked stupid.
After consultation, the company decided to shoot an advertisement for chewing gum, and the heroine was Fan Xiaoxuan.
Also because of this advertisement, Fan Xiaoxuan became a celebrity and also appeared in major MVs as a heroine.
Later, she timidly released the first album in her life, but she was still in a state of confusion, fan Xiaoxuan did not dare to do so, and could not let go.
By the second album, she found her confidence, and the songs "Talk to Yourself" and "Your Sweetness" both sang the girl's state of mind and were very popular.
Later, the producer saw Fan Xiaoxuan's talent and asked her to sing the theme song for "Doraemon" and "Cherry Pills", but she did not expect to completely rewrite her fate.
These two songs were also included in their own albums, and Fan Xiaoxuan became the "children's song queen" and the "little witch" of the country after promotion.
All this went smoothly, which surprised the 18-year-old girl, and after the album sold a million copies, she joined hands with Xie Xiaodong on the stage of the Spring Festival Gala, and a "health song" was popular all over the country.
Everyone remembers the little girl with the big bow.
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Later, the company saw the trend and talked to her, and there were two ways to go:
First, it can continue the previous cute girlish style; second, full-time singing children's songs.
Fan Xiaoxuan struggled incomparably inside, knowing that there was a volcano in her heart, but what kind of cute little girl did she want to pretend?
Once upon a time, when she heard the "Health Song", she was so annoyed that she even avoided walking away.
She wanted the whole world to know that I wanted to be me, not the little girl in the pink bow.
After the Spring Festival Gala became popular, Fan Xiaoxuan was immersed for a long time, and when she reappeared, everyone was caught off guard.
Inch, lip nail, tattoo, guitar. Exaggerated like a little sister, it is completely different from Fan Xiaoxuan in the hearts of the public
But she was happy because she was herself back.
On the new album "Darling", a total of five singles were recorded, but the sales were so dismal that it was lamentable, and Fan Xiaoxuan didn't care: as long as someone listened.
Mom reminds you: You will lose a lot of listeners, and the company will be very painful, and in the end, both sides will be lost.
Yes, I want mine, the company wants the company, who wants whom? Why is it so entangled?
At this time, her good friend Lin Weizhe comforted her: don't think so much, have confidence in yourself, don't be afraid.
Subsequently, she left the agency and created alone, with no audience, only questioning. Gradually, she suffered from depression, frequent insomnia, and even thought of suicide.
During this time, it was his boyfriend Zhou Junwei who accompanied him, he left his work, accompanied him day and night, and also studied psychology.
A rose every day, help Fan Xiaoxuan warm the bed, all kinds of chicken soup for the soul. Gradually, she came out of the haze, but she chose to give up on the boyfriend who had taken care of her.
Fan Xiaoxuan said that she was a bad girl, and Zhou Junwei was simply too good to be worthy of him.
Until 2007, Fan Xiaoxuan formed her own band, 100% band.
A guitarist named Alan is very similar to her, loves rock and roll, likes tattoos, and is so outrageous.
The two quickly lived together, and Fan's mother and friends felt that Fan Xiaoxuan must be crazy.
But she herself knew it all: only this man knew himself and appreciated himself.
Later, Fan Xiaoxuan made a surprising move, both of them adhered to the "Dink family" concept of life, she directly cut off her own uterus, and said lightly:
In my life, there are no two things like marriage and childbearing.
It took more than ten years, she finally broke through herself, in the show "Strange Life", DD said to her daughter on the other end of the phone: I did not support you before, will it be too late to talk about it now?
Fan Xiaoxuan responded with tears: "It will never be too late for you to give me, because I need it very much."
Today, she has the support of friends and family, and also gained the support of a circle of movie fans, in 2010, with the encouragement of Zhou Xun, she played the little palace girl hiding behind Zhou Xun.
In 2019, Fan Xiaoxuan starred in the TV series "Drunken Dreamer", in which she was cool and handsome, like the once "rebellious" her.
epilogue
Maybe when you are young, you hope that someone can understand you, but when you are so young, you meet people who understand yourself, and you find that it is not so important to understand or not to understand.
Because of their own life, after all, they have to come alone, are you right?
Author: Liu Shu
Edit: Wheat