When you go and criticize a person,
Please remember that not everyone has your superior conditions.
"The Great Gatsby" begins with this sentence.
Remember this phrase before reading this story.
#1
The sun in the Sichuan Basin is hot and hot, and people's arms are hot.
Luo Yucui straightened up, supported the sore waist pole, and looked at the way home with his hand blocking the sun.
By lunchtime, her mouth was dry and peeling, and her clothes were sweaty and painful.
After thinking about it for a while, she decided not to go home and wait until it was dark and cool.
……
Because she knew that when she returned home, what awaited her would be another round of verbal abuse and cold eyes, and if her husband was unhappy, she would be accompanied by a punch and kick.
Rather than this, she would rather take it in the field and enjoy a moment and a half of peace.
Shaking the crop leaves and dirt from her clothes, she sighed and went to sit down in the shadows at the edge of the field to rest.
Looking up at the white clouds in the sky, she wondered: How did life come to this?
Where did the string of laughter that hung on his lips go when he was young?
Under the bright and dangling sun, she only felt bitter.
#2
When Luo Yucui first married Xue Gang, she was only in her early 20s, with thick and shiny hair.
Combed into two large braids, walking behind the ass swinging one after another, lively fish tail like.
People are not white, but they are strong.
When she put on the red wedding dress, she and his mother cried.
Her eldest (father) instructed her: In the past, she worked more and talked less, and her in-laws were no better than their mother's family.
It was no better than her mother's family, and after marrying someone, she soon realized it.
First of all, the mother-in-law often pointed out that the mulberry scolded the locust, saying that the stir-fried vegetables served in the kitchen did not see meat, only vegetables, and the mouth was consumed.
Luo Yucui knew that he was talking about her, but he didn't dare to speak back.
Xue had just begun to speak for her, and her mother-in-law was even more unforgiving.
The mother-in-law's mouth was fierce, and she tried to endure it.
The two in-laws lived at night, and Xue Gang was physically strong, making the bed rattling for half a night.
In the morning, the mother-in-law spilled a basin of foot-washing water on the door of her bedroom: where did the fox come from, making the house unclean.
Luo Yucui blushed to the root of his ear.
#3
At night, he secretly talked to Xue Gang about the action lightly, and Xue Gang slapped her: This also has strength, what does it mean?
She didn't dare to say it again, so she had to suffer it herself.
As I suffered, my stomach grew bigger and smaller one after another.
Every time a cub is born, the mother-in-law will first go to the middle of the doll's leg to take a look.
Then there was a scolding: This broom star that has not appeared, let me cut off the Xue family and break the incense.
When she gave birth to her third daughter, the midwife had not yet left, and Xue Gang entered the house and slapped her.
The moon was not finished, and at night, Xue Gang wrapped up again, scolding and grinning while moving: Your belly is also too indisputable.
Luo Yucui grievance: I gave birth to three, my eldest and my mother have just passed away, let's regenerate slowly.
Xue Gang's temper came, and as soon as he pulled her hair and dragged her to the ground, he came up with a kick and punch.
"If you can't give birth to something like a son, do you dare to speak?"
The next day, the mother-in-law took her to find the "fairy girl" in the village and calculate when she would be able to give birth to a son.
Xian Gu closed her eyes and shook for a while, opening her eyes, her expression frightening.
"You have done too many sins in your past life, and in this life you have been entangled in wrongs, and sooner or later you will be killed by unjust ghosts."
The mother-in-law immediately got the explanation and called: What a broom star.
#4
Shortly after returning home, Luo Yucui was diagnosed with a heart attack.
The family was poor, coupled with the saying of "unjust ghosts asking for their lives", the mother-in-law, her father-in-law, and Xue Gang sat down at night to discuss.
"Sooner or later, it will die, the money will not be spent on her, and the money will be wasted."
"When she dies, gang'er will have to ask for money to marry a new daughter-in-law, and the cost is not small."
Luo Yucui was thus arranged by a few words to arrange his next fate.
However, as long as she does not die for a day, she still has to do it.
The heavy and rough work of the family was lost to her Luo Yucui, and when the mother-in-law saw it, she took her eyes and ripped off her flesh, which hurt like a knife.
"Illness and death are death, exhaustion is also death, it is better to die early, and it is better to die early and live early."
Soon, Xue just started running around on a blind date.
When the mother-in-law and Xue Gang were dressed up cleanly and dressed like guests, Luo Yucui knew that they were going on a blind date again.
She was happy to let them go out so that she and her daughters were the only ones in the house who could talk together.
Children are also less scolded.
She also wanted to die, but where did she die?
Luo Yucui looked at the third elder who had just learned to walk, and he couldn't bear it: she still had a mother if she didn't die, and when she died, she was afraid that she would be sold.
Thinking about it, Luo Yucui's tears fell.
"When is this day a head?"
#5
I stayed up until the following spring.
It was an exceptionally cold spring.
Luo Yucui's body was getting worse every day, and every time she saw her busy in the field.
The village women who passed by were talking for a while.
"Why isn't she dead yet?"
"It is also a matter of suffering to live like this, but it is better to die."
"Pathetic."
"Pity her three daughters, alas."
Amid the clamor of the crowd, Luo Yucui survived to the height of summer.
As soon as the weather warmed, Luo Yucui felt that he was getting better again, and suddenly he had some bright confidence.
She felt that she would stay up for more than a decade, until her daughters grew up.
However, after all, man's calculation is not as good as heaven's calculation.
Just entered June, Luo Yucui, who had been sick and crooked but never had a cold, had a cold.
My nose was stuffed and I was sore and weak.
She decided to go to the village health station.
#6
The little doctor at the health station is a nice person and knows her family situation.
I chose a cheap pill for a total of 8 yuan.
Luo Yucui rummaged through her pockets, 6 yuan, she only had 6 yuan.
The little doctor smiled and said, "It doesn't matter, it is important to treat the disease, take the medicine to eat first, and then bring the money over later." ”
Luo Yucui stood stunned for a moment, bowed, nodded, and left.
Back at home, it was a good day to see the scorching sun.
She dragged her feet and moved to the house, trying to take the flat burden to carry the grain to the yard to dry.
However, the valley that day was particularly heavy, and she tried several times, but she couldn't pick it up and couldn't stand up.
Neither the man nor the mother-in-law is at home, and may have gone out on a blind date again.
She thought about it, walked to the neighbor's door, and asked the powerful big brother to help.
"Cheng, I'll come and help you when I'm done with my own grain."
The eldest brother agreed.
After a while, the neighbor's eldest brother came to Luo Yucui's courtyard and shouted that no one should respond.
Entering the hall, Luo Yucui fell to the ground, the corners of his mouth foaming with white foam, and a room smelled of pesticides.
pungent.
The eldest brother didn't look good and rushed out to call people.
When the eldest brother found the car and came back, he found that Luo Yucui did not know when, struggled back to the bedroom, and drank the remaining half bottle of pesticide.
After all, people are not rescued.
Luo Yucui died like this.
【Lemon Auntie Spicy Review】
Such stories seem far away from us.
Actually, it's not far away.
My aunt went out of the countryside and came home 3 years ago, and my mother told me about the small hair she grew up with before.
One family had two older sisters, and after marrying into a neighboring village, they bore their husbands two children, one son and one daughter.
Her husband worked in other places, found a little third, and broke two of her ribs in order to force her to divorce...
Her diploma is not high, her mother's family is not prosperous, the property and money are in the hands of the in-laws, she has no way to go, she can only endure.
One read a college, had a high heart, returned to the place, and became an older leftover woman.
In order to avoid the family's urging for marriage, she hastily married a one-armed second-married man, more than ten years older than her, loved to drink, and beat her when she drank too much.
The mother's family favored sons over daughters, and all resources were tilted to her brother, and no one stood up for her except to persuade her to be patient.
Coincidentally.
Luo Yucui's fate is the epitome of countless rural low-income women.
Sexual assault, domestic violence, husbands with a third party, cold violence, mother-in-law discord, giving birth to girls... And so the contradictions erupt more intensively on them.
Don't they want to go?
I think, but I have no academic qualifications, no resources, and at the same time, I am burdened with the false accusations of a heavy patriarchal society.
In rural areas, material resources, living space, and monotonous life are the norm of their lives.
The family became their main battlefield.
It is their main source of value.
It is also the place where they care most, rely on it the most, and invest the most.
If you encounter setbacks here, it is easy to completely deny yourself. Coupled with other stimuli, if you are not careful, you will not be able to open it.
In the case of no way to appeal and weak resistance, it eventually leads to the road of self-extinction.
In an episode of "One Seat", Fei Lipeng released a suicide big data.
▲ 1995 - Suicide rate in China: 1995-1999, from "One Seat" Fei Lipeng's speech
From the chart above, we can see that the suicide rate in rural areas is 3 times higher than in urban areas.
Moreover, the suicide rate in women is much higher than that in men.
Fei Lipeng explained: "The most controversial thing is this, the number of suicides among women in China is a little higher than that of men, about 20%. Any foreign experts oppose this data, saying that you must be wrong, and domestic experts are also opposed, because at that time, the data on suicide rates in any country was 3 times that of men and women. ”
There is nothing wrong with the data.
However, in China's heavy patriarchal society, the fate of women at the bottom is mostly damaged and insulted.
Lu Xun once said in the article "About Women": This society has squeezed women into all kinds of slaves, and all kinds of crimes have been imposed on her head.
These charges, in turn, exacerbate the tragic fate of women.
Fortunately, now that social and economic development and the process of urbanization are accelerating, rural women are gradually pouring into the city and going to the city to work, and rural women have a new identity and status, and have a broader living space and living choices. To some extent, it alleviates the problem of family conflicts for women.
It is clear that over the past 30 years, China's suicide rate has gradually decreased.
(Source: Tiger sniff article, China's suicide rate has plummeted in 30 years: the suicide rate of rural women has fallen the fastest)
They are like grains of sand, silently lurking in the sand sea of the times, occasionally waiting for the wind to blow before they are lifted up and seen.
XiaoYi sincerely hopes that the wind of civilization and modernity will blow all over the country and into the countryside, bringing more expectations and changes to these women.
As living beings, they should also have the power and opportunity to pursue freedom and happiness.
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