January 2021 has passed, and I always think about writing something to commemorate 2020. But I don't know how to start.
I remembered watching "Spiritual Journey" with friends some time ago, which had a line: "When you want to live, the spark has been ignited", the spark is not a personal talent or life goal, but a special substance that lights up life and stimulates enthusiasm for life. Share the spark moment that lights up my life for you, and the people in the same way can encourage it. So it shouldn't be too late to pick up the pen now, right?
2020 was the most extraordinary year of my life. At the beginning of this year, the sudden outbreak of the new crown epidemic made the negative energy of family and friends around them explode, causing people to panic, and I believe that the vast majority of people have been seriously negatively affected. I'm the same, I opened a restaurant in a university town and made Korean food.
January was the student holiday, and at first I wasn't in a hurry, but I thought it would be over soon. But who knows that two or three months of students have not yet started school, and then the school is also closed, seven months of time, I can't hold on to the funds in my hands, the store closed. The store that I had worked so hard for three years went out of business when it was a little better. I felt like I had nothing. At that time, I felt very uncomfortable, like my own child, you watched him grow up and said that it was gone.
It wasn't certainly the worst, the worst thing I talked about for four years was my boyfriend who was gone with a little girl. People say that career love double harvest, I am good I am a person with two riches. I don't dare to tell my family that such a special period is also to increase their troubles. Have you ever realized that when we were young and when we were students, we encountered difficulties, the first time was to talk to our parents and let them help us solve it, but when we were alone away from home, away from our parents and friends, running alone outside, we encountered difficulties, and when we picked up the phone and called our parents, we always wanted to say and stopped saying, "It's okay, I'm doing well, I'm not short of money." ”
In my decadent two months, I was restless, insomnia and dreams, always a little unwilling to think straight, every day except for the toilet I was nestled in bed, playing games and playing mobile phones, not watching the news, not paying attention to the dynamics of friends, completely isolated from the world. I don't know what to do next, I can't see the light in the dark future.
Once I slept for two days in a row (probably insomnia continuously, sleepy to the extreme), probably because my dog's rice bowl had no dog food, and it was so hungry that it couldn't stand it, it opened my bedroom door, jumped on the bed, tore my clothes to wake me up, and hummed and dragged me outside, and I remembered that there was a living creature in my house. If it weren't for the fact that I still had a dog around, I wouldn't have bothered to eat and go out.
I looked at the doubt and grievance in its eyes, looked at the empty dog basin in front of me, and I held it and cried: I am hungry too... Suddenly I felt that there were still people who needed me, and I was not very useless.
It was a little overcast that day, just like my mood, and I was out for a walk with my dog, walking along the side of the road, when suddenly a ray of sunlight poured down, and I looked up to see the light trying to pass through the thick clouds and shine down. Looking at the dog next to me, its nose just touched the small wildflower on the side of the road, choked by the pollen, and it was running towards me with its tail wagging.
At that moment, I suddenly felt as if my heart was open, suddenly open. What obstacle is there that cannot be overcome? Big deal to start all over again. Life may not have much meaning, but it is worth living. Surviving the trough, ushering in the peak of the rise. I hugged the dog that ran over and said, "Go, I'll stew ribs for you tonight!" ”
The spark moment in life is the light that can survive in some cracks. It is not terrible to encounter difficulties, it is terrible to be decadent. If you are in a bad mood, go out for a walk, if you are not in a good mood, find more friends to chat, and then go out to take a trip to relax your mood. Pack up and calm down, and then go and find a solution. Don't shut yourself up like me, lock yourself up in a small dark room. Go out more and move around more, maybe which person and which thing, which thing and which scenery, instantly open your heart knot.
Difficulties are temporary, life is long, and we can start from scratch without a career. The lover is gone, indicating that he is not your destiny, striding forward, believing that the fate is waiting for you not far away. When you work hard and ignite your dreams, this is the "spark" moment in our lives. After seeing the dark clouds shrouded in a glimmer of light, this is the "spark" moment of my life, what is your "spark" moment?
What is your dream in 2021? Let's have a wonderful "Spiritual Journey"!
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