On July 23, 2016, a tiger bite incident that shocked the whole country occurred at The Badaling Wildlife World in Beijing.
Zhao Jing and her mother both fell into the tiger's mouth, her mother died on the spot, and Zhao Jing was sent to the hospital for rescue.
Four months later, Zhao Jing shaved off her long hair, wore a mask, and appeared on Liaoning Television's "There Is a Protagonist", becoming the only protagonist on the show who did not show her face.
Zhao Jing described the moment when she was taken away by the tiger in a cold and trembling tone, and when she talked about her mother, her tears soaked the mask.
The tragic situation of the rest of his life, as well as the pain of losing his beloved relatives, exchanged for Zhao Jing not sympathy, but insults and ridicule. These voices still envelop Zhao Jing's life to this day, becoming scars that are more difficult to erase than tiger scratches.
Martin of "Have the Lead Character" asked her: "If you didn't break the rules and get off the wildlife park without permission, would all this still happen?" ”
Zhao Jing was silent for a moment and then said, "I'm at fault, so I can scold my mother any way I want, but please don't scold my mother." She is just a woman who knows that it is impossible, but still wants to save her daughter from the mouth of a tiger. ”
Time back 5 years. Zhao Jing's parents came to Beijing to see her, stayed for more than 20 days, and had planned to return to their hometown.
Zhao Jing's husband suddenly proposed to drive to Badaling Wildlife World for a walk, which is the only place in the country that can contact wild animals at zero distance.
Zhao Jing remembered that her mother was very timid, and usually saw slightly older dogs who were very afraid. That day in the back of the car, as soon as she saw the beasts coming and going outside the window, she shrunk the whole person into a ball.
The car drove to a small road, and Zhao Jing was a little motion sick and wanted to drive herself. Before entering the park, they signed the "Regulations on Entering the Park", one of which is that the park is dangerous and it is forbidden to get off the park halfway.
But Zhao Jing remembered that the visitor's manual said that they could get off at the transit lounge area. She glanced out the window of the car, and saw no signs telling them where they were, but there was silence all around, not to mention the beasts, not even the shadow of a bird.
"Maybe this is the rest area." She pushed the car door open as she continued to look, and then trotted all the way to the driver's seat.
The red car behind them made a harsh horn sound, and Zhao Jing glanced at the car, thinking that she was complaining that she was blocking his car.
But the loudspeaker became louder and faster, and Zhao Jing vaguely felt that something was wrong, and suddenly a sharp wind sound in his ear broke through the horn. She felt a sharp tearing pain coming from her legs and stomach, and then fell to the ground with a force that almost crushed her. She saw in the afterglow that the tiger was coming at her with its bloody mouth wide open.
At the moment of consciousness, she saw her mother jump out of the car, rush to herself like crazy, and then be thrown down by the tiger in front of her.
It was pitch black in front of her eyes.
Zhao Jing woke up after lying in the rescue room for two days, and saw that she was full of syringes, and the itching sensation spread on the wound made her feel that there were countless ants crawling on her body.
The hospital had already considered this situation and put on a pair of plastic gloves that could not be taken off in advance.
As soon as Zhao Jing saw her father coming, she immediately asked her mother what was wrong. Her father stroked her hair and told her, "Mom is awake, but she is still very weak, you take care of yourself first, and I will take care of her side." ”
Because her jaw was bitten and deformed, Zhao Jing's speech became very difficult. She pursed her cracked lips and begged her father to let her talk to her mother for a video, even for 10 seconds, as long as she saw that her mother was okay.
The father's eyes sank, "There is a rule in the ward that mobile phones cannot be used. He immediately turned around and dragged his back out of the ward.
For the next half a month, my mother got better day by day in my father's words.
On the day she was discharged from the hospital, her father came to her bedside. She saw that the hair on her father's forehead was all gray, and her dry lips had been pursed for half a day, opening and closing, and finally when he opened his mouth, he said: "Jingjing, your mother she..."
As soon as her father's words began, Zhao Jing broke down because she was crying too much, causing the wounds on her face to crack again. Only then did she know that when she was pressed to the ground by a tiger, her mother died on the spot in order to save her.
Zhao Jing offered several times to see her mother's last side, but her father refused, saying to her: "Don't look, you will not be able to stand it." ”
On the day of the funeral, Zhao Jing rushed to the front, and she saw that her mother's face had long been unrecognizable, and it had been pieced together into a wax figure. Her feet were soft and she knelt on the cold tiles.
She looked at her mother's cold and mutilated body and tried to say "I'm sorry," but choked up.
The father always looked at his wife's pictures in a daze, sometimes sitting all afternoon.
Whenever she saw this scene, Zhao Jing thought desperately, "Even if my mother is willing to forgive me, I can't forgive myself." ”
In fact, she is not the only one who does not want to forgive her.
Since being sent to the hospital for rescue, Zhao Jing's family has been busy and haggard, and it has been more than twenty days since she was out of danger and was allowed to be discharged. When she opened her mobile phone, she found that she had just escaped from the tiger's mouth, but she had been pushed into another blood basin.
"I quarreled with my husband and got out of the car in anger, but the tigress still couldn't beat the real tiger."
"This woman is Xiao San, and the one in the car is his lover."
If you say that such a comment as "self-inflicted" only makes her feel simple sadness and guilt, when she sees words such as "little three" and "quarrel", her hands are shaking more and more, and even the mobile phone is unstable.
Suddenly she saw a shocking face, and she "wow" and fell on her father's sunken chest. That was exactly what she looked like when she was taken to the hospital for rescue, and at this moment it has spread throughout the Internet and attracted hundreds of millions of onlookers.
One day Zhao Jing's child fell ill, and the hospital she went to happened to be the one she went to when she was rescuing. Before she reached the hospital gate, many reporters from squatting spots noticed her and rushed up to her.
The security guard at the door ran out to drive people away: "Go away and walk away, the hospital is not allowed to take pictures!" ”
Zhao Jing was furious and questioned the security guard: "Since the hospital is not allowed to take pictures, how can you take photos of me when I was rescued, and still spread my photos everywhere?!" ”
The security guard looked at her and smiled, "Where do we dare to shoot you, you are so powerful, the tiger can't bite!" ”
Zhao Jing was so angry that she picked up the child and left.
That night, the news of the "Zhao family doctor's disturbance" spread throughout the Internet, forcing the hospital to immediately come forward to refute the rumors.
The zoo leader found Zhao Jing for the second time after the accident, and unlike the last time, their attitude of kindness was different, this time their expressions were cold and they looked like routine.
Zhao Jing picked up the agreement they had left on the table, and only at the first glance did her face change - "the accident is fully responsible for the tourists."
She resisted: "It's my fault that I neglected to get out of the car, but you don't have any responsibility at all?" Even if you are equipped with a high-pressure water gun, my mother will not be bitten alive! ”
The people in charge of the garden did not pay attention to her. After they were gone. Zhao Jingcai saw the accident judgment report presented by the Yanqing government on the Internet, which impressively wrote that "there is no safety management problem in the '7.23 tiger bite accident'".
With a "buzzing" in her mind, Zhao Jing felt that she was a murderer who had been officially sentenced, and the target of the murder was her mother.
With the help of her lawyers, she found many omissions in the management of the zoo, such as the lack of buffer facilities such as power grids and trenches in the wildlife area, the lack of notices in the buffer zones of the transit area and the danger zone, and the lack of corresponding emergency measures after the accident.
In December, Zhao Jing decided to sue the zoo, including 80 percent of the treatment fees, as well as follow-up plastic surgery fees, totaling 1.56 million.
As soon as this news came out, the Internet once again set off a crusade against her: she was taken away by a tiger for her unruly, and now she has to use her mother's death to make a profit.
Zhao Jing cried and retorted, "How much money you lose can't be exchanged for my mother!" When the court judged me to bear full responsibility, I was fully responsible, and I was held as much as I was liable. Is it because of my fault that I don't even have the right to a just outcome? ”
No one heard her voice, and public opinion spread from the Internet to her side.
In the forum of her hometown, someone uploaded her household registration information, which showed her residential address, work unit, etc. at a glance.
Every day, as soon as she opens the window, she will hear her next-door neighbors talking about her: "She may be able to change the suite if she gets compensation." ”
When you take your children to school, you can always hear someone not far away "educating" their children: "The mother of the family in front of you was eaten by a tiger, and if you disobey, you will call the tiger to bite you." ”
The incessant taunts made Zhao Jing once trance and become extremely sensitive. That year, at the Spring Festival Gala, Jiang Kun told the cross-talk "New Tiger Mouth Escape", and she thought that she was taking her encounter as a terrier.
The most sad time for her was that she sent a lawyer's evidence collection in the group of relatives, hoping that the relatives would help forward it.
A cousin scolded: "Your aunt was killed by you." ”
Since then, every New Year's Day, Zhao Jing has worn a mask and returned to her hometown to visit her father alone, and after reading it, she left alone.
Under the pressure of huge public opinion, Zhao Jing resigned from the unit.
With a child at home for a year, she felt more and more like a parasite. When looking for a job, as soon as she was taken off her mask, the interviewer's eyes, which had been scattered, immediately opened wide.
Every time she encountered this situation, Zhao Jing would explain: "I had a car accident..."
After a pause, she said in a very calm tone, "If you mind, then I won't delay everyone's time." ”
After constantly hitting a wall, she found a job in a project application for a small company.
Because she was far from home, she needed to get up very early, walk through a section of Tiangeng Road to wait for the bus, and had to run around for more than 10 hours a day. But this kind of busyness is a long-lost happiness for her.
But even such happiness cannot last long. One morning, she was carefully applying concealer to the scars on her face when she suddenly received a WeChat message from the company: "I'm sorry, because of the scars on your face, we still think you are not suitable for this job." ”
Zhao Jing rolled up the lid of the concealer, looked at herself in the mirror, smiled bitterly, and thought that she was still recognized.
Gradually, she gave up the idea of going out to find a job and bought books to prepare for the HR qualification certificate at home. She thought that after three or five years, when this matter was completely gone, she might be able to return to this world and live her own life.
However, when the tide of public opinion swept in, the right to return to life was no longer in her hands as a contemporary.
Recently, someone cut the video of her crying and repenting on "There Is a Protagonist" into a short video and put it on Douyin, each segment can attract hundreds of thousands of clicks, plus thousands of comments:
"People who don't follow the rules are the most immoral!"
"The tigress is no match for the real tiger!"
Admittedly, Zhao Jing got out of the car illegally and was an imperfect victim.
But for many people, the imperfect victim is precisely the most perfect catharsis. No matter how long it has been, feel free to take it as needed, step on her pain to the moral high ground, and enjoy the pleasure of going with the flow with the most mean and sharp words.
Plastic surgeons once told Zhao Jing that because the stitches of the wound sutures were too thick, if the wound was to be repaired, the old wound must be re-incised, and then diluted with a laser after healing, and the whole process would last for more than half a year.
However, more difficult to heal than the wounds on the face are the wounds on the heart, because they are repeatedly cut every moment.
Today's Zhao Jing, still inconvenient to show her face, her part-time job at home is to mark the Part of Speech for English words, earning dozens of yuan a day.
Most of the rest of the time, she spends tidying up her room because her mother loved to be clean when she was alive. When the room was cleaned, she felt that her mother was back again, and her heart would be a little calmer.
But this calm never lasted long, and when the voice of insults swept over the ears and the gaze flashed back to the mind, the heart was doomed to a storm of chaos.
On the program of "There is a protagonist please", the psychology teacher Lei Ming once said to Zhao Jing: "The most important thing in your life is not that your mother forgives you, but that you forgive yourself." ”
Fast forward 5 years, perhaps even Lei Ming did not expect that the most important thing for Zhao Jing is not only her letting go of herself, but also the world's letting go of her.
Criticism should not be reduced to an outlet for catharsis, and accusations should stop at discussing things on the spot, which is respect for facts and more compassion for the deceased.
After all, when a mother who is usually afraid of even a dog rushes to the tiger without hesitation, all she thinks in her heart is that the child can continue to live happily in this world.
Some sources:
"Rumors about the tiger cannibalism incident, you know a lot of it is fake", People's Daily, 2016-08-03
"There is a protagonist please", 2016-11-30;
Cold and Warm Life, 2017-01-03;
Author: Jiang Elm
Editor-in-Charge: LightLy
Curated: Blue Orange