Rene Liu has changed.
In Zhang Aijia's interview program "Nian Nian Youth", Liu Reuying slipped her shoulders and had a tiredness that could not be covered on her face.
He also spoke softly and contentedly about family trivia:
After insisting on cooking a fish against the tiredness of watching her husband and children "cd-rok", she felt that it was worth it...
She said that many people think that Rene Liu should be single for the rest of her life and go to the mountains.
Now that she is married and has children, she is very unlike Liu Ruoying.
Indeed, she was like two people in front of her and she was like her in memory.
The Rene Liu, who was full of loneliness and obsessively sang "Crazy for Love", "Later", and "Love You Very Much", seemed to be gone.
Rene Liu, who has lost her "sense of loneliness", is completely ignored by everyone?
Have you ever thought about it, why is Rene Liu and "lonely" bound together?
Is Rene Liu, who is "no longer lonely", really disappointing?
She is a singer and a filmmaker.
But in whatever form, her loneliness permeates every work.
Let's start with the song.
Her tone is not the best, and the treble is sharp and unimposing, so most of her songs are not high.
It can be sung to everyone's heart only because the emotions are abundant and delicate.
Every time she sang, she always had a determined look in her eyes and an engaged look, like a whole person drilling into the song.
She laments the loss of her young lover in "Later":
How you remember me, with a smile or a lot of silence, has anyone made you not lonely over the years.
Who can't be stirred up by the grassy throbbing and the regret of not being able to go back?
She sang in "Love You Very Much" and "Fulfillment" in the selfless sacrifice in the love triangle:
I love you very much, and only when you have love can I be at ease.
The youth I have paid to you, so many years, in exchange for a thank you for your fulfillment.
Who doesn't get awakened to the obsessive state of mind of laughing and eating bitter melons for someone?
She voiced and sang the animated version of "Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai".
Liang Zhu guessed love from two small nothing, life and death separated, she was dressed in a red dress, only asked a light question:
Why, people, have the courage to fall in love at first sight?
Man, why, by touching life and death?
It is like unintentionally muttering in no-man's corner, but lifting a heavy weight to express the world's sighs, doubts, deep feelings and even helplessness about Liang Zhu and their love.
Let's talk about drama.
People are always a little nervous in love.
There were two classic "mad woman" images of that era.
One is Kinki, played by Zheng Xiuwen in "Lonely Man and Widow", a neurotic woman.
As soon as the mood is not good, I brush the toilet, throw it around, and I am extremely emotional at first.
The other is Wang Li, played by Rene Liu in "No Thief under the Heavens", a woman who loves crazy.
Unlike Zheng Xiuwen's externalized performances, Rene Liu conveys emotions, usually relying only on:
Eyes.
She often uses the soulless look in her eyes, taking the "fragile" as an atmosphere, passing through the screen and quietly spreading around you.
Let you clearly perceive the abstract word "infatuation".
In "No Thief in the World", when she learned that her lover was dead, Wang Li wept while eating.
The eyes look straight and hollow.
In fact, she endured grief for the sake of the fetus in her abdomen, and the quieter the more heave and intestines;
In "Double Pupils", Qingfang, who was divorced because her husband did not go home for a long time, was pushed in the door by her husband while taking a bath.
The eyes are just as light.
There is no blame, but only surprise and shyness, even with the expectation of re-cultivation;
In "Like a Year of Flowing Water", Ying, who accidentally went to work in Wuzhen, accidentally fell in love with the local librarian.
At that time, she had a fiancé who had been in a relationship for more than ten years, and lived in Taipei for a long time, 18,000 miles away from Wuzhen.
But when she was held by him, her eyes were confused.
It's like being poured into the soup of ecstasy, falling into a dream, and can't escape the indulgence of that moment.
Each of the above eyes, from different women's same love obsession.
But the roles she impressed Uncle Meat the most were not these, but the 30-year-old flight attendant played in a women's movie "20 30 40".
air hostess? Shu Qi used two "Non-sincere Do Not Disturb" to erect the image of a lonely flight attendant who fell in love with a married scumbag.
But Rene Liu only spent twenty minutes in this niche movie with three heroines, and it accurately hit my understanding of loneliness. Left an extremely lonely stewardess in my heart, many, many years.
As soon as she got off the plane, she spoke on the phone with three men.
A married man who loves but can't help it, a childish boyfriend who can't be separated, an ex-boyfriend who has not yet lost his feelings.
She and her ex-boyfriend Deser:
Sometimes one person sleeps, sometimes two people sleep, sometimes a group of people sleep together (on an airplane).
But the seemingly windy flow also shows her loneliness.
There is a lover, no true love.
Even if she was in the other person's arms after the pleasure, her eyes did not have a trace of grasp.
Emptiness, only endless emptiness.
When a person was renting a house, he also suffered an earthquake and suddenly had a fever.
When she screamed and hid in the corner of the table, alone all day long.
You know very well that she is helpless.
Or analyze the eyes.
There's a scene where she hysterically finds a married man to force the palace and smashes his car—
Looking back at him, his eyes seemed to say: It is better that we fish dead nets.
With just one look, Rene Liu interpreted a woman's paranoia in love to the extreme.
Like the strange boy in the MV of her famous song "Later".
No matter how hard the girl pulled, she was not moved.
Crazy for love, it is paranoia.
Paranoia is a threat, but it is also loneliness.
On the one hand, she ignored love as soon as she encountered it, and innocently waited for the other party to respond equally:
Want to ask you dare to be as crazy about love as I am?
On the other hand, it coldly holds the pessimistic plan of "being lonely for a lifetime":
I think I'll be lonely all the time, so lonely for the rest of my life.
The more lonely people she sings, the more extreme people she sings.
If it's just a work, it's just a human design.
Different from the current popular planners, in that era, Rene Liu and the "sense of loneliness" binding, is a real sense of truth.
Rene Liu herself is full of loneliness.
Her parents divorced and she was brought up by her grandparents.
When I grew up, my love life was always full of love and bitterness.
She first became affectionate with her mentor.
When she was in college, she met her master and became her assistant.
Master named her "Milk Tea":
Milk tea has the aroma of milk but is not as greasy as milk, and the lightness of tea is not as astringent as tea, so milk tea can be drunk for a lifetime without greasy taste.
Master also wrote songs for her, and the songwriting was arranged.
At that time, Rene Liu was preparing her first album and had already prepared more than a dozen songs.
But I just couldn't find a suitable title song.
One day, Master took the guitar to the recording studio and tailored "Crazy for Love" according to her personality and emotions:
I came from the spring, and you said in the autumn to be separated.
Say well not to grieve for you, but how can the ending be unharmed.
The eloquent lyrics are matched with the melody on the tip of the heart, and the "you" in the song seems to be talking about Rene Liu.
Rene Liu, who always carries the sadness of a young girl, has come from an unknown place and entered the hearts of the public.
Since then, Liu Ruoying has become red and has become a queen of heaven.
At the first concert, she invited her mentor, but the people did not agree, saying:
Shut up my ass.
But just when Rene Liu sang "Crazy for Love", he came.
Rene Liu asked him for a hug in surprise and disgust.
He refused, and Rene Liu could only ask for help from fans:
Are you helping me beg him?
Rene Liu said she had only seen Master wear the suit twice.
Once at his wedding, once at my concert.
After that, Master began to deliberately alienate her, avoiding her for two or three years.
He knew that Rene Liu should not be entangled in love without a future, and she should become a diva.
It wasn't until she released a new album that the two finally appeared on the same show.
Rene Liu knelt down on one knee and presented the album, but he reprimanded:
This is an album you exchanged for blood and sweat, how can you easily give it to others.
Rene Liu immediately cried.
I don't know if he thought about it:
Master to her, how can it be someone else?
Master sang "Kite" to Rene Liu:
Because I know that you are a little child who is easy to worry about.
Rene Liu was out of control again, laughing and crying.
Finally, Master said:
You have your dreams, I have my business to do.
I'm not done yet, and you're not going to move me.
Wherever you go, it's none of my business.
I'll be the kind of dad that you'll never find.
I would never do the kind of dad who asked his children if they wanted to come back for dinner.
You won't find me, goodbye.
She came from a divorced family, but he wanted to be her father who she couldn't find—
Good for her.
— You've flown so high, you've really fallen, and I can't pick it up. Can't pick up...
—Pull the line to know where it is, you didn't fly the kite.
The kite seems to be some kind of imagery between Liu Reuying and Master.
Later, Rene Liu's "Love You Very Much", the first album without the participation of the teacher.
The title song of the same name also uses the imagery of a kite, and the interview mentioned above, like a kind of echo:
I love you very much, so I am willing, do not tie you up, and fly to more happy places.
This feeling, in the end, is like a kite breaking the line, gradually drifting away.
Later it was Huang Lei.
She and Huang Lei cooperated in "Night Running", "April Day on Earth", and "Like Water Years", and rumors spread.
Once, Zhang Aijia and Li Xinjie also ridiculed them on stage.
Huang Lei said at the press conference of "Like Water Years":
Between Rene Liu and me is the fourth kind of feeling besides love, family affection and friendship.
It is even rumored on the Internet that Huang Lei once called Rene Liu before getting married:
If you don't agree, I won't settle.
What is the fourth feeling?
Unspeakable feelings.
Later, Liu Reuying became the spokesperson of Wuzhen, and she described her feelings for Wuzhen as if she were expressing a kind of "unspeakable":
This place is very similar to my feelings of past lovers, some lovers even if they are not together, but the emotions that have been there are always there, and the beauty left behind will not change.
Later, this "unspeakable" accompanied Huang Lei's marriage and became "silent":
They no longer intersected, not even microblogging.
Rene Liu said:
Perhaps the cruelest thing in the world is not love and hate, but rather passing each other and forgetting each other.
Pounce, and pounce again.
But what is the scales all over her body, lonely she always picks up the burned feathers and continues to search.
Song, drama, life.
Although the carriers are different, she is always alone and carries a lonely courage to rush forward.
The lonely process of growing up was her youthful madness.
It's also our youthful madness.
In those years, she was lonely, reflecting on the lonely us, forming an intertextuality.
When teenagers don't know the taste of sorrow, we are trapped in ignorance and youthful confusion.
Groping on my own, growing up step by step.
Fortunately, when we met Rene Liu, we no longer felt alone.
When we were young, from her songs and plays, and from her tianhou era, we first came to know an emotion called "love".
Ignorantly perceive heartbeat, sacrifice, fulfillment, helplessness and regret.
At that time, like us who were overwhelmed, she was defeated by loneliness many times and did a lot of childish and crazy things.
Go to Paris to relax, a person tearfully shoots himself vCR:
At my age, there is still a little bit of impulse left, and a little bit of courage, to do something like this.
I don't think it will happen again.
There won't be anymore.
What's the matter? She was on the street, and when she saw someone, she held up a sign and asked:
What is love?
After asking for a long time, I still don't understand.
She also sang "Later" at concerts to sing herself out of control, collapse, and cry.
Is she out of shape like this?
Do it? Silly?
Why we never feel.
Synchronous sorrow, synchronous panic.
She is lonely, she is lonely us.
Lonely, she comforts us who are lonely.
In that issue of "Nian Nian Youth", Rene Liu collected individual bullet screens and posted them on Weibo.
There are two articles that accurately summarize what Rene Liu is to us.
It means the supremacy of feelings, it means our entire youth.
Speaking of which, why has Rene Liu become synonymous with "loneliness"?
She always does things that most people think are not cost-effective after weighing the pros and cons.
She repeatedly fell in love with people she should not love, and she disregarded the world's eyes with an iron heart, and even thought of giving up her career for this reason.
In "Remembering Youth", Zhang Aijia asked her, if you go back to the past, do you choose career or feelings.
She replied decisively:
affection.
Unlike most people who make different choices, she certainly seems lonely.
Dare to be different from most people, she must be lonely.
We are more like those who were once "newborn calves are not afraid of tigers".
Later, we were no longer led by the teacher and collectively learned a text.
Instead, they have to go their own way and find the answer alone.
She once laughed and groaned that "being single forever is also a kind of bravery":
You're willing to be single and brave, right?
Think about it
You're sixty or seventy years old
For example, I have been thinking about it for two days
If I hadn't been married in my life
Who will you eat Chinese New Year's Eve or seventy years of age?
She also cried and told Zhang Aijia:
I don't want to grow up.
Zhang Aijia said, you are almost old, do not want to grow up?
Haha, the same.
At that time, we were always inexplicably worried about the future, and we were always whimsical.
And then later.
Rene Liu has not been lonely all her life, nor can she never grow up.
She married and had a baby.
And those of us who listened to her songs and watched her movies also grew up.
There are more and more people around us, relationships are becoming more and more complicated, and we are not alone.
But not being alone doesn't mean not being lonely.
Results-oriented work thinking occupies the brain, and rigorous data in meetings does not allow us to easily get on the head.
But learn to be rational, but also learn to be indifferent.
We've changed.
But has Rene Liu changed?
In fact, it was her, and the loneliness on her body did not disappear.
After marriage, she and her husband often slept in separate rooms.
Sometimes, when you go out together, you go to different theaters to see different movies one by one to the left and one to the right.
He will also take advantage of his business trip or her husband's business trip to restore the wayward eating habits of singlehood:
Eat three meals of instant noodles, pizza, and dumplings.
Today, her pattern of getting along with her husband is like what she sang when she was younger in "Traveling Apart":
Respect each other's decisions and keep the peace in love.
Falling in love is an exercise that wanders through freedom and intimacy.
Others are speculating that their marriage is not compatible, but she enjoys it, and maintains a certain loneliness in order to defend the ease and sensitivity in her heart.
And us?
It was just wishful thinking to parased the "loneliness" of her youth on her.
But there is no longer time to look at themselves.
Don't dare to be lonely, don't dare to be sensitive, don't dare not grow up, don't dare to be immature.
I don't know if you've seen her live version of "Later" on b station.
When she cried on stage until she couldn't control herself, she couldn't think of it.
This crying video will turn into a wishing pool.
It will turn into a memorial to regret.
The barrage of bullets is full of the most delicate emotions in people's hearts.
Later later.
We have finally learned certain precious human emotions in solitude, such as...
love.
But we prefer to brush the barrage of Rene Liu, who is crying in the video.
But no longer have the courage to express it to that person.
During her pregnancy, when she was not biologically alone, Rene Liu wrote a book:
"Dare to be alone in your arms".
Look, she's still not afraid of being different, she's still not afraid of being alone—
She was never afraid of being alone.
Rene Liu has not actually changed.
And what about us?
If we cross the youth, but lose our loneliness.
Throw away the fiery heart that dares to be different from others——
It is not Rene Liu who disappoints.
It's ourselves.
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