[This content is an adaptation of a short fictional story, please watch it rationally, and do not sit in the right seat]
Speaking of the past in 78, Peng Ye still recalls tears in his eyes, that year, he was only 18 years old, although he was dark and thin, but he was still tall, and he had just enlisted in the army from a poor mountain village in his hometown.
On the last day before leaving, Peng Ye couldn't hold back the throbbing in his heart anymore, and wanted to confess to Jiang Nan, who was still in love with the lesbian table, hoping that she could wait for him to come back.
He mustered up the courage to go to Jiang Nan's house. I saw Jiang Nan sitting in the shade of a tree reading a book, a strand of hair hanging a little messily on his forehead.
Seeing Peng Ye coming, Jiang Nan showed a shy smile and asked jokingly, "What, should you be looking for me to borrow a homework book and copy my homework again?" ”
Peng Ye's heart "thumped" and jumped, even his breathing became heavy, and his mind was also a mess, several times over the years to prepare for being able to open his heart to Jiang Nan, but he finally lost his courage.
After a while, he stumbled and said the sentence: "Jiang, Jiang Nan, I, I'm going to be a soldier, you, can you, wait for me to come back?" After speaking, Peng Ye was so nervous that he lowered his head and played with the hem of his shirt, and his ears were red.
Jiang Nan was obviously a little surprised, and then covered her mouth with her hand, a little embarrassed, and then, she ran into the house quickly, and soon took a brand new book of poetry and carefully handed it to Peng Ye. "Come, take this book, and when you take a long vacation from the barracks, you have to let me see your 'poetry' works!"
Peng Ye took over the collection of poems like a treasure, he couldn't believe his courage just now, and actually said those words to his favorite Jiang Nan, Jiang Nan's promise of "waiting for me" surged in his heart, and the whole person seemed to fall into a trance of intoxication.
At this moment, how Peng Ye hoped that time would be frozen at this moment, so that he would always be intoxicated in Jiang Nan's shy eyes, but the military career was about to open the cruel door to him, how could he allow him to have half of his superfluous selfishness, he clenched the poetry book in his hand, solemnly gave a military salute to Jiang Nan beside him, and turned around and left without looking back.
Since then, Jiang Nan's figure has been deeply imprinted in Peng Ye's mind and has become his last consolation in his arduous military career.
On the endless Gobi Desert, in the lonely and long sentry post, he would silently take out the book of poems and reminisce about the scene that Jiang Nan handed him at that time.
The days of garrisoning the frontier are lonely and long, whenever night falls, the fire is full of soldiers who miss their hometown, Peng Ye will take out the book of poems given by Jiang Nan, and read it silently, he looks at the mottled oil stains and smoky traces on the pages, and recalls the scene when Jiang Nan carefully handed the new book of poems to himself.
A beam of warm sunshine will bloom in Peng Zhi's heart, so he picked up the pen and wrote his first letter to his family on manuscript paper next to the poetry collection, which was a love letter engraved with homesickness and great care for Jiang Nan.
"Dear Jiang Nan,
When you read this letter, I was already stationed on the Gobi Desert......"
Early the next morning, he couldn't wait to deliver the letter to their only postman, begging him to deliver the letter to Jiang Nan himself.
In the days that followed, Peng Ye kept writing letters to Jiang Nan, and he wrote everything he saw, thought, and experienced the battle into the letter, as a way to talk to Jiang Nan, but Jiang Nan was like a dumb person and never replied to his letter.
At first, Peng Ye thought that Jiang Nan was obstructed by his family, or he was embarrassed to reply because of his shy personality, but as time went by, watching the letters he sent accumulate more and more, Jiang Nan's silence began to become heavy and incomprehensible.
One day, Peng Ye counted and found that he had written nearly 36 letters to Jiang Nan, but he didn't wait for a reply, so he wrote a thousand-word letter to Jiang Nan with great sadness, which was full of questions and criticism.
"Jiang Nan, I really don't understand why you don't want to reply to my letter once? Have you found someone else? Or are you just a soldier from a poor background to me? I wish you could give me an explanation. ”
This time, Peng Ye paid double the postage and sent the letter through the fastest channel, but after waiting for several months, Jiang Nan still had no news.
Since then, Peng Ye's heart began to be shrouded in melancholy, panic and helplessness, but he and Tian still fulfilled their duties as soldiers, but his old face was full of sadness, and the comrades-in-arms around him shook their heads and sighed incomprehensibly when they saw his sad appearance.
Just when Peng Ye's pain and anxiety were about to reach their peak, a sudden news turned his whole life upside down.
In this way, he suffered until the seventh year, and after sales in 1985, Peng Ye was arranged to change jobs and work in an auto repair shop very close to his hometown.
When Peng Ye really stepped on the train back to his hometown, he was surrounded by an unprecedented excitement, he only felt that this time he returned to his hometown, he must ask Jiang Nan to understand in person, and pour out the grievances and depressions in his heart in the past four years.
So, running all the way for a few days, Peng Ye quickly rushed back to his hometown, and as soon as he got off the train, he couldn't wait to rush to Jiang Nan's house, but when he finally found Jiang Nan's house out of breath, what he saw was just an empty old house, which looked dilapidated.
Neighbors told him that since Jiang Nan died of illness a few years ago, their family has not lived here, most likely because they have seen things and thought about people, and Jiang Nan's parents also have a certain responsibility for this.
Peng Ye's mind "buzzed", and his whole body seemed to have been hit hard, and the blood in his whole body was almost coagulated. He felt the world spin around, and he sat down on the ground with tears streaming down his eyes.
"How so? Why didn't I know anything about it? Peng Ye was grief-stricken, and at this time, a neighbor came over and couldn't help but shed tears when he saw Peng Ye's appearance.
The neighbor sat next to Peng Ye and slowly talked about the scene four years ago.
It turned out that Jiang Nan had indeed received all of Peng Ye's letters back then, and none of them had been left behind, but every time she wanted to reply to Peng Ye, she would be severely reprimanded by her parents, wanting her to marry the son of the factory director of the next county, and I don't know when the poor soldier would have to wait.
Poor Jiang Nan also secretly wrote a draft of the reply letter again and again, but in the end it was always torn apart when her parents found out, Jiang Nan cried every time, but she could only swallow all kinds of grievances, how could she not want to marry the pot-bellied prodigal.
But later, Jiang Nan became ill, depressed, and breathed for a while, and died on a snowy night, which made Jiang Nan's parents regret it and moved away from this sad place.
When Peng Ye heard this, he felt like he had been hit in the heart, and the whole person sat on the ground motionless, he looked at the neighbor blankly, his lips trembled and he wanted to say something, but he couldn't say anything anyway.
All this came too cruelly, just when he thought that Jiang Nan had forgotten him and disliked him, he never expected that Jiang Nan had always loved him deeply.
Peng Ye recalled that when Jiang Nan handed him the brand-new collection of poems, it was clearly a face of shyness and shyness, how could he be indifferent to himself as others said? Thinking of Jiang Nan once wrote countless drafts for himself, just to respond to his thoughts, but he was robbed of this opportunity by the cruel reality.
Thinking of this, Peng Ye couldn't hold back the pain in his heart anymore, and immediately cried out with a "wow", the cry was heartbreaking, as if all the grievances and pain in the past seven years had been vented.
However, no matter how painful he was, Jiang Nan had left this mortal world forever after all, and the marriage between the two was cut off.
After a night of calm thinking, Peng ambition felt something and decided to find a new way out for his life. So, he slowly picked up the book of poems given by Jiang Nan, and carefully packed it into the box he carried with him along with some letters that had not yet had time to be sent from Jiang Nan's house.
"I'll take you with me and move on." He looked at the contents of the box and said, "No matter where I am, I will never forget the friendship I had with you." ”
Subsequently, Peng Ye dragged the heavy box to the auto repair shop arranged by the army, and started an ordinary life, he was immersed in the daily intensive work, only in the dead of night, he would occasionally take out a collection of poems, nostalgic for the sweet memories with Jiang Nan.
Gradually, time flies, and a few years later, under the urging of his parents, Peng Ye finally married a woman who is very good in all aspects, and has a son and a daughter.
The husband and wife respect each other like guests, which can be regarded as ordinary happiness, Peng Ye fulfilled the responsibility of a husband and father, and ran this small family in his own way.
In this way, until the twilight of life, Jiang Nan's figure has long been fading away in Peng Ye's memory, but whenever he is alone, he always misses the pure love with Jiang Nan back then, and that simple and beautiful friendship has become an indelible bright color in his life.
Later, whenever someone asked Peng Ye about his experience when he was young, he would smile slightly: "It's just an ordinary little thing, it's just that he was ignorant when he was young." But he never mentioned the plot between him and Jiang Nan to outsiders.
In his heart, that precious love has been burning forever, glowing with light and heat, and will never be extinguished.
Until one day, when he closed his eyes on the last journey of his life, he seemed to see Jiang Nan when he was young still standing under the tree with a blushing face, waving goodbye to him.