[This content is an adaptation of a short fictional story, please watch it rationally, and do not sit in the right seat]
My name is Xiaomei, 50 years old this year, since I was a child with a poor family, at the age of 18, in order to reduce the burden on the family, I married a young man who worked in the city, I was holding a passion, I wanted to change my fate with my own hands, but I didn't expect that people are not as good as heaven.
A few years after marriage, that kid cheated, leaving me alone at home and pulling two children, I couldn't swallow this breath, I drove him out, and worked hard to pull the two children up, but who knows, God still can't fulfill me.
Later, in order to give my children a complete home, I married three men one after another, but none of them were anything good, either cheating, or gambling and drinking, and abusing my family all over the body, I have never been treated well by men in my life, and I don't expect to get any happiness from them.
Over the years, I have worked alone, and I have worked a few temporary jobs to barely make ends meet. Although my grandmother and aunts often miss me, I really don't have the face to go back to my parents' house, and I haven't been back for 23 years.
Until the other day, I was boiling a pot of cold vegetables when there was a sudden knock on the door......
That afternoon, I was burning a pot of cold dishes by the stove, ready to eat it in the evening, when suddenly there was a knock on the door, "Who is so anxious?" I walked over with a frown, and as soon as I opened the door, I was stunned by what I saw.
It turned out that my 87-year-old grandmother personally led my three aunts to the door of my house, my grandmother was wearing a white cotton jacket, gray hair, old face but bright eyes, she was holding on to crutches, and when she saw me, her face suddenly bloomed with a long-lost smile.
"Mei'er, grandma has finally found you!" Grandma said excitedly, her eyes were red, and the aunts were holding a plate of hometown dishes, and they all showed happy expressions.
"Grandma..... Grandma, why are you here? I was stunned on the spot, I had mixed feelings, I had never been back to my parents' house for 23 years, for fear that my family would see me so down, but I didn't expect them to come to the door first.
Grandma grabbed my hand, tears flowing: "Grandma has been thinking about you all these years, do you know how many times Grandma has cried for you at night?" After you got married, you didn't hear from you, were you bullied by others? ”
My tears are also rolling, I can't explain it clearly, my aunts welcomed me into the house, patted the dust on my body for me, and comforted me in a whisper, grandma dusted her tears, and said earnestly: "It's okay, grandma came to see you just to cook for you, ask if you are doing well, and tell grandma if you have any hardships in the future, don't carry it alone." ”
In this way, 23 years of unfamiliarity are gone, and in the face of the love of my relatives, my inner defense line was instantly broken, and tears rained down.
After my grandmother and aunts entered the door, the house suddenly became bustling and lively, they took care of themselves in my rental house, as if they were their own territory, the aunts put the hometown dishes they brought on the table one by one, exuding bursts of fragrance, and grandma shook her head and sighed at my sloppy living environment.
"Mei'er, is that how you live? The room was cold, and the tables and chairs were in disarray," Grandma said sadly, dusting off a stool.
I smiled wryly, and the guilt for my grandmother came up again, for so many years, my family has neglected me like a sinful seed, but I am self-inflicted and self-inflicted.
"Grandma, I'm sorry, I.... I was so ....." I choked up, incoherent, and my grandmother quickly sat down beside me, took my hand and patted it gently, her kind eyes shining on my cold heart like a warm sun.
"Silly boy, grandma doesn't blame you, I just want to see you, see how you are doing, you never came back to see grandma after you got married, I think badly......"
I lowered my head and was about to explain, but was interrupted by my aunt, who had already put the sauerkraut, bacon, and home-brewed rice wine brought from my hometown in front of me.
"Mei'er, taste the taste of your hometown brought to you by your aunt! It's your favorite food. I was stunned, tears rolling in my eyes, but my family's thoughts about me have never diminished after 23 years.
Looking at the familiar hometown delicacy in front of me, I can no longer hold back the sourness in my heart, for 23 years, I am like a poor relative who is wandering outside, living an undignified life in the eyes of outsiders, but my family's thoughts about me have never diminished.
I fell to my knees with a thud, crying bitterly, grandma and aunts were startled by me, and hurriedly helped me up, I grabbed my grandmother's hand, tears flowed down: "Grandma, I have no eyes, delaying your worries for so many years, I.... I've never been treated by a man in my life. ”
I talked about how shocked and helpless my first husband was when he ruthlessly abandoned me and my two children for the sake of the mistress, and then I talked about how shocked and helpless my second husband turned out to be a complete liar, who ate up all our family's savings and abused me.
Scenes of pain flashed in my mind like a marquee, I couldn't stop hating and blaming myself, grandma and aunts you comforted me every word, but I was already crying breathlessly, like a homeless poor worm.
"It's all my bad life, I am destined to not be loved by men in this life! If it weren't for the sake of the children, I'd rather ..... I'd rather live alone for the rest of my life! I cried bitterly, and my hands clutched my grandmother's arm, for fear that they would leave me again in a while.
Grandma's face was full of distress, and she took me into her arms, hugging me like she did when I was a child when I cried, "Silly child, have you ever thought about how much grandma and aunts have missed you all these years?" You are the only concern of grandma's old bones. ”
Grandma hugged me and said earnestly: "Mei'er, you have been great since you were a child, and you can hold up a piece of the sky alone, but grandma, as your relative, is always concerned about you." ”
My aunts also came forward one by one, hugged me, comforted me, and in this warm embrace, my heart seemed to be opened little by little, and the grievances and pain I had borne for 23 years had burst like this.
"Grandma... I'm really not a good granddaughter, let your old bones worry all the year round, I.... I was so broken by those bad people that I decided to make a clear break with my relatives," I sobbed in a low voice, and finally confided in my heart.
It turned out that the reason why I didn't go back to my parents' house this year was because I was shameless to face my grandmother and family, I was too hurt by those negative men, so I had a fear and disgust for men and marriage, I married four times, but I never tasted happiness, causing me to gradually lose confidence in family affection.
But in the warm embrace of my grandmother and aunt, I realized how paranoid and withdrawn I was, because over the years, they had been thinking about me and trying their best to find my whereabouts, while I closed myself in the cage of survival, and stood by my relatives.
"Grandma, I'm too stupid and paranoid, I just feel your love......" I cried bitterly, and finally completely opened the gap between the past 23 years, grandma and aunts, you comforted me every word, and burst into tears.
On that day, our family hugged each other and cried, as if we had finally broken through the prison of life that had plagued me for 23 years, and the uncomplaining love of my grandmother and aunt rescued me from bigotry and self-isolation.
After crying, we were much more relaxed, grandma took out a handkerchief to wipe my tears for me, with a kind smile on her face, "silly child, let it pass in the past, grandma only hopes that you will be happy and healthy in the future, and you must tell your family what is going on." ”
The aunts also persuaded one after another: "Yes, Mei'er, you still have a long future, don't let yourself suffer this kind of sin again, we will often come to see you, cook for you, chat with you, you have to learn to let go, live a good life." ”
I nodded, and my heart slowly lifted the burden, these years, the love of my family is as vast as the ocean, and I am only blinded by my own fear, resulting in the inability to appreciate the strength of this strong family affection.
Seeing my expression, my grandmother clapped her hands happily and said, "Okay, good, you should be so positive!" Grandma introduced you to a good job and had a stable income in the future. ”
In this way, with the enthusiasm of my family, I lit the flame of hope for a new life for the first time, and my grandmother and aunts also said that they would come to see me often next time, so that I would never be alone again.
They never broke their promises, often came to visit me, to supplement the nourishment of family affection, sometimes my aunt brought the hometown freshly made bacon, bad hairy belly, we sat together to eat melon seeds and chatted about family life, sometimes it was my grandmother holding my hand, let me talk about the recent situation and work, they are like just the right gentle drizzle, warming my parched heart.
Grandma also introduced me to a job as a cleaner, although the income is not high but it is stable, I began to have my own life rules, I have a head, I don't know when, I began to habitually tidy up the room on the weekend, looking forward to the arrival of my family.
One day, while cleaning my room, I stumbled upon a stack of letters and photos, which were photos of me and my family before marriage, and everyone had happy smiles on their faces, and I was so excited that I almost lost my legs and fell to my knees.
It turned out that my family had written me countless letters over the years, but I missed them in a daze, and I cried bitterly holding the photos, finally realizing how lonely and self-contained I was, and if I hesitated any longer, I would have completely missed out on this warm family.
Just when I was feeling guilty, my grandmother suddenly pushed the door in, and when she saw me holding the photo with tears in her eyes, she hurriedly helped me up: "Mei'er, grandma understands your distress, but let the past pass, the most important thing now is that you still have grandma and aunts by your side, you are not alone." ”
I nodded, obedient like a child who had done something wrong, and since then, I have begun to learn to let go and forgive the past, the haze of marriage has passed, and the love of my family is still as warm as ever, and now I am no longer the same person I used to be, I have become more sunny and positive, and I look at life with a more sober eye. [Moon]
[This story is purely fictional, the people and things in the story are fictional, the purpose is only necessary for the description of the plot, easy to read and understand, if there is any similarity, it is purely a coincidence]