1. Indulge in the reminiscences of the past
At night in Beijing, there has never been a real sense of tranquility.
The never-ending sound of speeding cars, the occasional barking of dogs, and the passionate music of nearby bars all show Song Jia that the land she lives in has always maintained endless noise and turmoil.
Song Jia sat quietly by the window, looking through the single-glazed glass to the few flickering lights in the building opposite. Her vision seemed distant and deep, as if she had traveled through the bustling city and reached those old days.
Indeed, she was full of endless longing for the future, and resolutely set foot on this land to chase her own dreams.
Song Jia unconsciously gently stroked her slightly curly long hair, revealing a self-deprecating smile. How could the once energetic and romantic self have predicted that he would be in such a difficult situation today? She glanced down at her phone, the empty text message box, only a few harassing calls from unknown numbers were ringing constantly.
That's right, now she is unknown, with few friends, only those with ill intentions are still harassing and pestering.
"What kind of mistake did I make?" Song Jia muttered in a low voice, and her eyes gradually dimmed.
Thinking of this, Song Jia took a few deep breaths of air, trying her best to suppress the guilt and struggle in her heart.
2. The love of the world that was revealed
Song Jia still vividly remembers that it was a sunny afternoon, and she and Zhang Li agreed to meet at a secret small café in Sanlitun.
At that time, she was still young, with long soft curly hair, bright eyes, white teeth, and her profile was like a beautiful painting in the sunlight. Zhang Li, on the other hand, has entered middle age, his hair is slightly thin, his clothes are plain, and although he is tired, he still exudes an elegant temperament.
The two looked at each other and smiled, as if the whole world had lost its color at this moment. They look at each other affectionately, as if they have telepathy with each other, like a couple in love.
"Song Jia, let's break up......" Zhang Li suddenly spoke, with a little helplessness in his tone.
Song Jia was stunned for a moment, and the smile on her face gradually stiffened. She instinctively sensed something was wrong, so she chased after her and asked, "Why?" Don't you ......? ”
"Yes, my wife already knows about our relationship...... Zhang Li lowered her eyes and said with some guilt, "she felt very painful and decided to divorce me......
Song Jia's heart was instantly occupied by intense fear and panic. As a famous actress, she naturally knows the irreparable consequences of having her intimate feelings made public.
However, something unfortunate happened - a group of intimate photos of her and the director who had already cultivated Zhengguo behaving in a café were secretly taken by the paparazzi and quickly spread on the Internet, sparking a heated public discussion.
In the photo, Zhang Li hugged Song Jia's waist tightly, and the eyes of the two were intertwined, as if they had merged with each other. Judging from their expressions, they are more like a young couple in love, rather than a "married director" and a "popular actress".
The storm of public opinion hit Song Jia like a beast, and she could no longer escape. The overwhelming doubts and condemnations poured in like a tide, and she was labeled as a "third party" and "junior", which caused her reputation in the entertainment industry to suffer a heavy blow.
What's worse is that Zhang Li's wife also came out in person and publicly expressed her dissatisfaction and accusations against Song Jia, completely exposing their private life between them.
Faced with such tremendous pressure and controversy, Song Jia fell into deep self-doubt and painful struggles......
3. The difficult years of studying in the theater
In the storm of public opinion, Song Jia finally realized how unforgivable her behavior was. She can't help but recall the hard years when she studied at the Shanghai Theater Academy.
When she first entered school, she didn't know anything about acting, and in the eyes of her classmates, she was just a northeastern girl with a bold personality and a lot of mouth. Her pompous performance in the entrance exams made her a thorn in the side of her tutors, and she was seen as a student with "no development potential".
And she herself did not regard learning acting as an important task, and spent her days doing nothing and wasting her time.
One day, however, she happened to witness the scene of her classmates' rehearsals: everyone was fully engaged, fully engaged in the characters, and even the smallest expressions and movements were vividly depicted.
Song Jia was moved by this persistent pursuit of art, and was greatly shocked and inspired in her heart, she began to reflect on her arrogance and indulgence, and decided to change her mind and start again.
Since then, Song Jia's attitude towards her studies has changed dramatically, showing a completely subversive change! She is like a hungry lioness, studying with her mentor day and night, even if she forgets to sleep or eat; At the same time, she also actively consulted with her classmates around her, showing a humble and studious spirit.
After unremitting efforts, she finally won the precious opportunity to star in the TV series "I Don't Want to Go" in her second year of college, and became famous in one fell swoop.
However, just as Song Jia's acting career was gradually emerging, her cooperation with the famous director Wang Jing in the costume drama "Hibiscus Out of the Water" brought her an unexpected surprise - she met the senior Chen Long who made her meet late.
Chen Long is one level higher than Song Jia, has a gentle and elegant personality, and is a typical Sven student. Song Jia was deeply moved by his tolerance, thoughtfulness and carefulness, and the two quickly fell in love. However, just when everyone was looking forward to their love blossoming, the ambitious Song Jia suddenly regarded this relationship as an obstacle to the development of her future career, and resolutely chose to break up with Chen Long, and left the Northeast to pursue a broader dream in the capital Beijing.
Indeed, it was from that time that she embarked on a life journey that was closed behind closed doors and resting on her laurels.
Fourth, the road of single-mindedness
"What a sight to behold!" Song Jia laughed at herself bitterly, her fingers involuntarily tapped lightly on the table, and her heart couldn't calm down for a long time. Looking back now, she has long been mired in the quagmire, even after the relationship with Zhang Li who intervened in other people's marriages was made public, she was condemned by public opinion, she still went her own way and did not repent.
Not long after her "love affair" with Zhang Li ended, she unexpectedly became entangled with the popular rock singer Xie Tianxiao. Initially, the two were just ordinary work partners, but as time went on, Song Jia began to let the musician go unchecked.
Xie Tianxiao was married at the time, and his wife was a gentle and kind ordinary woman. She tried many times to persuade Song Jia to stop interfering in their family life. However, Song Jia turned a deaf ear to this, and instead turned a blind eye to his wife's pain under the pretext of "free love".
At this juncture, Song Jia and Xie Tianxiao fell into a passionate and inextricable romantic love. Their affection and love are like glue, almost inseparable, but in the end, because Xie Tianxiao's wife exposed the truth, they had to regretfully separate.
However, it is thought-provoking that such a meddle leads to a deeper self-destruction! Song Jia is still blindly confident and deep in the abyss of self-righteous mistakes. Soon after, a similar tragedy was repeated – this time by a brilliant producer, Huang Shaofeng.
In the face of Huang Shaofeng's wife's severe accusations, Song Jia was indifferent, and even turned a blind eye to the pain of others under the pretext of "freedom of love". This behavior of hers is undoubtedly a blatant challenge to morality and ethics, and it is jaw-dropping.
Looking back on herself during that time, Song Jia deeply realized that the behavior of blindly pursuing personal selfish desires is actually an irreparable and pathological addiction! She becomes more and more ruthless, completely ignoring the basic professional ethics and moral bottom line that she should have as a public figure and an actor.
Fifth, the current situation of emptiness and loneliness
Time flies, time flies. Song Jia looked back on the past and found that the "old loves" who had been entangled with her had long since drifted apart, and now she was lonely, full of endless emptiness and loneliness in her heart.
She couldn't help but recall the vigorous "love of the world" with Zhang Li back then, when she bravely pursued true love and was supported and appreciated by some people. However, as she intervened in the married lives of others again and again, those who had once praised her gradually distanced themselves from her and no longer supported her.
What's even more ironic is that even her superb acting skills, which were once unique in the entertainment industry, are now dimmed in the eyes of the audience. Many film critics mercilessly pointed out that Song Jia has "failed", and her beauty and talent are still no match for her bad character and bad behavior after all.
Song Jia looked around the empty room, as if she saw a microcosm of her life: except for a few simple and simple pieces of furniture, she could not find anything else. Her phone lay quietly on the side, never ringing.
"What kind of mistake did I make?" Song Jia covered her face helplessly, her voice trembling.
However, you can't turn back the clock! She can only endure the bitter fruits of all the mistakes of the past: her house is ruined, her career is slipping, she has few friends, and her fans have left her.
Many people her age now have happy families, thriving careers, and the comfortable lives she once dreamed of. In contrast, his own situation is particularly tragic.
6. The desire to rediscover one's inner conscience
Song Jia turned around and left the window, sighing deeply, her eyes flashing with her determination after suffering a heavy blow. At this moment, she finally realized the conscience that had been hidden deep in her heart - success is not the whole of life, and maintaining inner innocence and moral code is equally important, if not more precious.
Indeed, how could she not know how harrowing the choices she had made along the way? At the beginning, she was innocent and just confused by the temptation and prosperity of the entertainment industry, blindly pursuing fame and fortune, which eventually led to today's predicament.
Song Jia took a deep breath and tried her best to calm herself. Yes, she was already in a desperate situation, but she wasn't going to give up.
She decided to start anew, to make up for her mistakes with dedication, to save her reputation with practical actions, and to warm the world with kindness. She will actively participate in public welfare undertakings to help those in urgent need.
Song Jia took a deep breath again, and her face was filled with hope again.