1. Show the past of Beijing: Beijing in July 1991, the blazing summer contains that fresh breath. Huang Qiuyan stood in front of the Civil Affairs Bureau, her face full of pain and helplessness.
On this day, she and her husband Jet Li officially dissolved their relationship as husband and wife, and their married life came to an end in the past few years.
Recalling the sweet moment when they first met, Huang Qiuyan couldn't help but burst into tears. At that time, she was fascinated by Jet Li's resolute and tenacious appearance and pure and kind inner temperament, but how could she have predicted that one day, they would completely part ways here?
After completing the relevant formalities, Huang Qiuyan set out on the way home alone, and Li Zhi's delicate and moving figure appeared in front of her from time to time, which made her anger and sadness reach the peak. She hated Lizhi's sinful role in this marriage.
Stepping into the house, the three-year-old eldest daughter Li Si immediately threw herself into her mother's arms, and the mother and daughter had innocent smiles on their faces. Looking at Li Si, Huang Qiuyan had mixed feelings in her heart, and her tears broke the embankment again.
As a single mother, Huang Qiuyan really can't raise her two daughters independently. Before the financial conditions allowed, she had to entrust the children to the loving and respectable mother-in-law Zhang Fenglan's house to live temporarily.
At the moment of parting, Li Si clung to the corner of her mother's clothes, crying and unwilling to leave, Huang Qiuyan couldn't cry, so she could only patiently persuade over and over again, hoping that her daughter could understand her distress.
2. Back in time to the present (May 2024): Li Si has entered more than 30 years, and he is still alone, full of doubts about marriage. Huang Qiuyan felt helpless about this and tried her best to help her daughter get out of the shadows.
Sometime in May 2024, Huang Qiuyan witnessed her daughter Li Siwan rejecting an excellent blind date, and endless sorrow suddenly surged in her heart.
Time flies, and the once pitiful little girl has grown into a mature woman, but those wounds seem to have never really healed. Huang Qiuyan asked the reason, and Li Si said bitterly: "Mom, I can no longer trust men, and I have lost confidence in marriage.
I can't imagine whether I can shoulder the burden of my family."
Those fierce and deafening words were like a heavy hammer, striking Huang Qiuyan's heart violently. As a great mother, she blames herself deeply for the decision she made when she was young, and her heart is filled with endless guilt.
It was her failed marriage with Jet Li that brought extremely painful damage to her daughter and seriously distorted her outlook on life and love.
Huang Qiuyan tried several times to come out, trying to explain and comfort, but thousands of words gathered between her lips and teeth, but she always became incoherent and unable to express clearly.
In the end, she strengthened her determination and decided to confess to her daughter that she and Jet Li had been in love with each other, hoping to help Li Si rebuild her confidence in love.
3. The gloomy moments in Li Si's growth: he was mercilessly ridiculed by others during his school years; being labelled as an "unpleasant child"; grandmother's comfort; Expectations for his father Jet Li were shattered.
Li Si grew up in the shadow of his parents' divorce since he was a child, and tasted the ups and downs of life. At school, she was often ridiculed and discriminated against by her classmates, and was called "an unpleasant child" and "a poor worm abandoned by her father".
These malicious remarks from his peers pierced Li Si's immature heart again and again.
Whenever he came home from school, Li Si would always throw herself into the warm embrace of her grandmother Zhang Fenglan and cry loudly. "Grandpa taught us to be kind to our parents, but why did Dad leave Mommy?" She asked helplessly.
Looking at the tears welling up in her grandmother's eyes, Li Si seemed to have found the answer, she hugged her kind grandmother tightly and cried until she was exhausted Since then, her love for her father Jet Li has gradually turned into deep resentment.
Grandmother Zhang Fenglan used her unique gentleness and thoughtfulness to soothe Li Si's wounded heart. She repeatedly explained to Li Si that although her parents are divorced, Jet Li still loves them deeply.
However, Li Si's inner trauma has been too deep, and her expectations for her father are now only boundless hatred.
Looking through Li Si's diary, we can really feel the grief in her heart: "Why did Jet Li become my father?" If I had an ordinary father, they might not have chosen to separate, and I would have had a whole family.
This is a child's simple yearning for a happy family, but it is ruthlessly destroyed.
As time passed, Li Si's emotional state became more and more unstable, and his personality became more and more irritable, and even his beloved grandmother could not be spared. In her mind, the word "father" was a taboo, and the slightest mention of it would trigger a strong anger in her.
Whenever he sees the warm and harmonious family of his father Jet Li, his mother Li Zhi and their daughter on the TV screen, Li Si's whole body will tremble with nervousness, and his expression will be as stiff as a stone.
She longed for her father's deep love, but unfortunately, Jet Li never extended a friendly hand to her.
Li Si had repeatedly and warmly invited his father to be intimate, but each time it ended in failure, in exchange for his father's cold and distant rejection.
Fourth, the difficult situation of Huang Qiuyan's life after the divorce: she was once homeless; rely on the sympathy of friends to settle down; Later, he made a living by teaching himself beauty techniques.
The breakdown of Huang Qiuyan's marriage with Jet Li brought a heavy blow to her life. When the dust settled in the divorce proceedings in 1991, she was given only a house with huge debts as compensation for the division of her property.
Due to her desperate financial situation, she could not afford to continue to repay her mortgage, and her only shelter was eventually forcibly repossessed by the bank and auctioned.
Huang Qiuyan, who was in trouble, was once unable to meet even the most basic living conditions. She had to enlist the help of a helpful old Chinese lady, whose generosity allowed Huang Qiuyan and her two daughters to temporarily take refuge in a damp, dark, and harsh basement.
Li Si distinctly remembers that every time he went to visit his mother, he had to carefully navigate through the narrow staircase, and the air was filled with the suffocating smell of putrid moisture. She stared at her mother's rough calloused hands, at her mother's tired face, and once again suffered a great trauma in her heart.
Since then, she has developed a deeper resentment towards her former "heroic father" Jet Li.
Not only because his betrayal and abandonment deeply hurt the mother and daughter, but more importantly, the endless pain he brought to them made their lives even more difficult.
Huang Qiuyan, who suffered a major blow, with the enthusiastic support and encouragement of her friends, with perseverance and determination, taught herself beauty skills and gradually became an excellent beautician. With a stable income, she was finally able to rent a relatively small apartment, ending her long-tormented wandering life and returning to a normal life trajectory.
However, the shadow of childhood has left an eternal scar in the hearts of Huang Qiuyan and her daughters. Whenever they see those warm family pictures, they can't help but feel deep envy and nostalgia.
Fifth, Li Si saw that Lizhi's family was happy, and he hated his father's coldness and remembered the trauma caused by the divorce.
Time is like an arrow, and it is 2024 in the blink of an eye. In this sunny May, 29-year-old Li Si stood in front of the TV screen and once again witnessed the happy scene of harmony and joy between his father Jet Li and the Li Zhi family.
When the camera showed the delicate and moving faces of Li Zhi and his daughters one by one, Li Si's body couldn't help but tremble slightly, and his expression instantly froze. How she longed for Li Zhi and her precious daughter to receive such affectionate care from her father, but she and her sister Li Taimi never got half a point.
The pain in his heart was like a wound that had been brutally torn apart, making Li Si uncontrollably tear up tears. She once warmly called out to her father many times, expecting to receive even a trace of care and love from him.
However, every attempt ended in failure, in exchange for Jet Li's cold gaze and resolute answer.
This wound, which has been buried in her heart since she was a child, haunts Li Si day after day like a devil, so that her soul can never be redeemed. She hated her father's neglect and betrayal of her and her sister.
What's even more indignant is that Jet Li not only abandoned them with his own hands, but also dedicated all his love and love to the Lizhi family without reservation.
Recalling those lonely and helpless days, Li Si still has palpitations. She still vividly remembers that her mother was so poor that she could not meet even the most basic living conditions.
At that time, with a loving heart, they were taken in by a good family, and they lived in a dark and damp room to endure hardships. At that time, his father lived a prosperous and comfortable life surrounded by wisdom.
Such a world-wide difference and deep pain were carved into Li Si's heart like a soldering iron, and could not be easily erased. As time passed, her resentment towards her father lessened, but the painful memory remained with her, becoming a shadow in her emotional world.
It was precisely because of the heavy blow brought to her by her parents' divorce that Li Si had a deep fear and boredom of love and marriage. She once confessed to her mother: "Mom, I no longer trust men, I no longer believe in marriage, and I no longer believe that I can shoulder the responsibility of a family."