Looking back and feeling in his later years
On a quiet afternoon in January 2022, Mr. Wang Xingjun, who was over the age of six, sat quietly in the study alone, his eyes leisurely cast on the white snowflakes scattered outside the window, and the memories that had long been sealed in the depths of his heart instantly came to his heart.
Although he is enjoying a full and happy old age at this moment - a smooth career, filial piety of his son, and harmony with his relatives, he can never forget the love and marriage experience he once spent with Guan Mucun.
Mr. Wang Xingjun gently picked up an old photo on his desk, which was a sweet wedding photo of him and Guan Mucun in their youth. In the photo, they are smiling brightly, their eyes clear and full of longing, as if they did not foresee the twists and turns and hardships of the years ahead.
Although the edges of the photograph have been slightly yellowed, Mr. Wang Xingjun can still clearly recall the past.
"If I had been more mature and stable, would I have been able to save this marriage?" Mr. Wang Xingjun couldn't help but sigh, and the scene when he broke up with Guan Mucun once again appeared in his mind.
He deeply felt the impulsiveness and willfulness of his youth, and his lack of tolerance, patience and understanding, which eventually led to the breakdown of the marriage.
Mr. Wang Xingjun gently stroked the side face of Guan Mucun in the photo with his fingers, and his eyes showed deep nostalgia and regret. Although they are fine now, he will inevitably regret some of the decisions and ways they were handled.
However, thankfully, even if fate separates them, in each other's life journeys, this marriage has bloomed with incomparably dazzling brilliance and has become an eternal and beautiful memory.
Acquaintance and love in the 80s of the last century
Mr. Wang Xingjun's thoughts gradually returned to the early 80s of the last century, which was the good time when he and Guan Mucun first met.
In 1983, under the strong recommendation of his mentor Jin Yonglin, Mr. Wang Xingjun was fortunate to participate in the filming of the song and dance movie "Bright Moon on the Sea". Although he was born poor at that time, with his own efforts, he had become an unknown rookie actor; And Ms. Guan Mucun, as a well-known actor of Tianjin Song and Dance Theater, has long been a well-known mezzo-soprano singer.
At first, the young Wang Xingjun had a lot of admiration for Ms. Guan Mucun, who was six years older than him and had already achieved a certain amount of success. However, with the deepening of cooperation, Ms. Guan Mucun's kindness, thoughtfulness, tenacity and unyielding qualities gradually touched Mr. Wang Xingjun's heart.
It was a silent night, the starry sky was shining, and Wang Xingjun mustered up the courage to tell Guan Mucun about his little-known bumpy life journey. He spoke very calmly, but the grief hidden in his heart did not diminish at all.
Wang Xingjun, from an extremely impoverished area in northwest China, whose father died at an early age and his mother had no one to take care of him, took on the responsibility of raising him and other siblings on his own.
What is surprising is that Guan Mucun, who has always been respected by Wang Xingjun as a senior in the industry, has also suffered such an unfortunate fate. When she was 10 years old, her mother died, leaving her to live with her brother.
His father had also suffered unfair treatment, and when Wang Xingjun confided in his suffering, the kind-hearted Guan Mucun couldn't help but burst into tears, revealing deep pain.
"It turns out that she is also a person who has similar life tribulations as me!" Wang Xingjun was full of emotion in his heart, and he had a sense of closeness to this colleague he once admired.
The hearts of the two unconsciously became closer, and they had a deep resonance and dependence on each other.
In this way, a deep and affectionate love quietly bloomed during the filming of "Bright Moon on the Sea". Although there are various criticisms and doubts in the outside world, Wang Xingjun and Guan Mucun's feelings for each other are so pure and firm.
On October 1, 1984, they held hands and entered the palace of marriage at the Beijing General Political Guest House, opening a new chapter in their lives.
What's even more regrettable is that not long after my mother was discharged from the hospital, their originally warm home suffered an extremely terrible fire, and all the items in the home were instantly turned to ashes.
When night fell, her mother dragged her tired body and picked up some broken cotton from a distance, when she walked into the home where the war had just been extinguished, the bleak scene in front of her made her unacceptable, and she lay down on the cold ground for a while, tears of pain could not stop flowing, in the face of such a desperate situation, the strong mother still said firmly: "No matter how difficult it is, we must live bravely!" On that cold and biting winter day, the figures of the mother and son looked so thin and weak, but they were full of tenacity and unyielding spirit.
As time went on, her mother couldn't raise her four children on her own, so when Wang Xingjun was nine years old, she chose to restart a family with a colleague. However, this stepfather is not a good stubble, he is always dictive to Wang Xingjun and his younger brother, disgusted that they eat too much, and even quarrels over a little bit of food.
In such a harsh family environment, Wang Xingjun gradually formed an inferiority, sensitive, and withdrawn personality, endured discrimination and ridicule from the people around him, and was under tremendous pressure in his heart.
Fortunately, however, Wang Xingjun is not useless, and he discovers that he has an amazing talent for art. He is good at singing, good at acting, and even played the leading role in the revolutionary model drama "Outwitting Tiger Mountain".
In 1973, after watching a drama called "Sailing Ten Thousand Miles", Wang Xingjun ignited a strong dream of being an actor in his heart, which brought him unprecedented shock and encouragement.
4. Contradictions in married life
In 1984, Wang Xingjun and Guan Mucun entered the palace of marriage hand in hand and started a new journey in life. However, real life is always full of twists and turns, and the newlyweds soon find themselves in the midst of the difficulties faced by ordinary families.
In fact, both of them are in the rising stage of their careers, each shouldering heavy work tasks Guan Mucun is studying hard at the Central Conservatory of Music, while Wang Xingjun is running between the three eastern provinces and the West Eighth Road, frequently participating in various film and television dramas In 1987, they have been married for more than three years, but there are very few good times that can really be spent together.
"As the saying goes, family members get together less and leave more, but it is actually the norm of life." When that moment came, they comforted themselves so much. However, with the birth of the eldest son Guan Tianyuan in 1988, the focus of the family has shifted, and the seeds of contradiction have quietly taken root and sprouted at this moment.
Wang Xingjun, a kind and straightforward man, hides deep feelings of inferiority and impulsiveness in his heart. The troubles of life and the hard work of raising children often make him fall into a whirlpool of anxiety and anger, and it is difficult for him to control himself.
Whenever something unsatisfactory happened, he always roared loudly at Guan Mucun, and even sometimes resorted to violent means, so that the gentle and virtuous Guan Mucun had nowhere to turn for help.
Guan Mucun, a shrewd, capable and considerate woman, poured all her sincerity and sweat into this family, and almost did her best. However, the heavy pressure of real life still made her feel endless disappointment and helplessness.
The couple's personalities gradually developed a chasm, and their living habits also diverged, and the contradictions continued to intensify, and finally came to the brink of breaking up in 1990.
On the day of the divorce, Guan Mucun left the only property to Wang Xingjun, and he took his son Guan Tianyuan to Beijing alone to seek new development opportunities. Wang Xingjun stood in the empty room, staring at the scattered divorce settlements, his eyes revealing a deep sense of loss.
Six years of married life came to an end.
5. The course of their respective lives after divorce
The breakdown of a marriage does not mean the end of life. After divorcing Guan Mucun, Wang Xingjun devoted himself to the development of his career. As a professional actor, he is conscientious in the field of film and television, starring in and participating in many excellent film and television masterpieces, such as "Strange Sound" and "Silk Road", etc., which has won high praise from the audience and industry insiders.
At the same time, Wang Xingjun also gradually broadened his career territory. He successively entered the directing department of Beijing Film Academy and the history department of Nankai University in Tianjin for in-depth study, and won a postgraduate degree from Nankai University in 1995.
From an actor to a director and screenwriter, his enthusiasm and dedication to film and television art can be seen.
In 2000, Wang Xingjun went to the United States to participate in cultural exchange activities with his two films "Silk Road" and "Amanisha Khan", which he starred in and directed by, and received enthusiastic responses and wide praise from audiences at home and abroad.
Among them, the epic masterpiece "Silk Road" directed by Wang Xingjun himself won the prestigious American "Film Person of the Year Award", which is undoubtedly the best proof of his outstanding talent and unlimited potential! Another film, "Amanisha Khan", won the honor of China's "Film Government Award".
Wang Xingjun's outstanding talent and infinite potential have naturally attracted the attention of many people in the industry. A world-renowned American performing arts conglomerate had the foresight to hire him for the important position of artistic director and director.
At the same time, Wang Xingjun also co-founded a film and television culture company with his friends in beautiful Sanya, Hainan. Since then, he has traveled between China and abroad, shooting film and television productions on cameras, as an art consultant, screenwriter and other roles, contributing to the film and television industry.
Time flies, time flies. However, even when his career is booming, Wang Xingjun is still often worried about his son Guan Tianyuan in his heart. Although after the breakdown of his marriage, Guan Tianyuan chose to live in Beijing with his mother Guan Mucun, Wang Xingjun always cared about this filial and sensible child.
In his spare time, he travels across the ocean to Australia to visit his son, who is studying there.
Looking back on the relationship with Guan Mucun, Wang Xingjun is always full of emotion. Although this relationship did not come to fruition in the end, Guan Mucun once gave him sincere love and warm care, and those precious memories will always be engraved in his heart, full of endless gratitude to her.
If he could start all over again, he would definitely cherish the people around him even more.