My name is Li Tiezhu, and I am a soldier in the army. From an ordinary soldier, he rose step by step to the position of company commander. But behind the promotion in the army, there is a sad past that makes me sad.
That year, I had just enlisted in the army and met Xiaohua from the same village. She was simple and kind, and we fell in love and soon became relatives. At that time, although our lives were hard, we depended on each other and lived happily.
As I got better and better in the army, my position also rose step by step. On the night I was promoted to company commander, I met a woman who made my heart flutter, her name was Bai Li. Bai Li is young and beautiful, full of charm, she has taken a fancy to the power in my hands, and I am also bewitched by her beauty.
That night, I came home and saw Xiaohua busily tidying up the house. She asked me, "Tiezhu, are you happy to be promoted today?" and I replied perfunctorily, "Happy." But I thought about Bai Li's bewitching figure in my heart.
Since then, I have started to date Bai Li frequently, and I have become more and more cold to my wife who is a bad chaff at home. Xiaohua noticed the change in me, but she kept holding back, hoping that I would change my mind.
Until one day, Xiaohua said to me, "Tiezhu, I'm pregnant." My eyes widened and I was momentarily overwhelmed. At this time, Bai Li said to me: "Tiezhu, you get a divorce, I will help you find a better job." ”
I was torn between the fact that my wife was pregnant with my child and the seductive power and beauty of a woman on the other. After a fierce ideological struggle, I decided to abandon my wretched wife and pursue a so-called better life.
When I told Xiaohua about this decision, she burst into tears and asked me, "Tiezhu, do you really want to abandon me and the child?" and I said ruthlessly, "Yes, I have already decided." ”
On the day I went through the divorce procedures, the troops suddenly received an order to go to the front. I was shocked, thinking of the uncertainty of life and death on the front line, thinking of the crime of abandoning my wife who was a bad chaff, and I began to regret it.
The war-torn front line has made me deeply realize the preciousness of life. In the dead of night, I think of Xiaohua, of her kindness to me, of my crime of abandoning her.
Finally, the war ended and I returned to my hometown. And Xiaohua has already taken her children to remarry others. I found her and wanted to apologize to her, but she said to me, "Tiezhu, you go, we can't go back." ”
I departed gloomily, filled with remorse. Today, although I have power and status, I have lost my most precious family and love. In the dead of night, I think of Xiaohua and the unbearable past. All of this was my own doing.
Life is like a dream, and the years are rushing. I hope that all soldiers can cherish the happiness in front of them, and not be like me, waiting until they are lost to regret it.
The days passed like water, and the remorse in my heart grew day by day. The position of company commander is no longer as attractive to me as it once was. Whenever I see the laughter and laughter of my comrades-in-arms reuniting with their families, the loneliness and pain in my heart come like a tide.
One day, I was walking alone on the path of the camp when I happened to hear a familiar and friendly laughter. I followed the sound and saw a familiar figure - it was my former comrade-in-arms, Zhang Qiang. Beside him, a lively and cute little boy was running around laughing and laughing. Seeing this scene, my heart swelled with sourness.
Zhang Qiang noticed me and greeted me warmly: "Tiezhu, long time no see! This is my son, Xiaohu." I forced a smile and responded, "yes, long time no see." Little Tiger looks so cute. ”
During the small talk, I learned that Zhang Qiang had been discharged from the army and lived a plain and happy life. He asked me, "Tiezhu, what about you?" I heard that you were promoted, how about it?" I smiled bitterly and replied, "I was promoted, but I lost more." ”
That night, I was lying in bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep. I remembered the days with Xiaohua, those simple and beautiful times. Suddenly, a thought flashed through me: I want to make up for my past mistakes, at least, I want to let Xiaohua know that I really regret it.
Early the next morning, I began to inquire about Xiaohua's whereabouts. After some hard work, I finally found her current address. It was an ordinary house, full of flowers and plants in front of the door, full of life.
I stood in front of the door, took a deep breath, and plucked up the courage to knock on the door. It was Xiaohua who opened the door, and she looked even more haggard than before. A hint of surprise flashed in her eyes at the sight of me, but she quickly regained her composure.
I stammered, "Little ...... Little flower, I ...... I'll come and see you. Xiaohua said coldly, "Is there anything wrong?" I said sincerely: "Xiaohua, I know I'm sorry for you, but I really regret it." I want to make amends for the mistakes of the past and give you and your children a good life. ”
Xiaohua was silent for a while, and then said, "Tiezhu, you can go." We're doing well and don't need you to make it up. I said eagerly, "Little flower, I'...... I am willing to spend the rest of my life to compensate you, please give me a chance. ”
At this time, a childish voice came from the house: "Mom, who is talking?" Xiaohua turned around and said, "Xiaohu, go back to the house." Then she said to me, "Iron Pillar, do you really want to make amends? Then you will leave our lives and let us live in peace." ”
I was stunned, I didn't expect Xiaohua to make such a request. I left gloomily, but there was more determination in my heart: I want to prove with practical actions that I truly regret it.
Since then, I have been focusing on philanthropy and helping those in need. Whenever I see those happy family scenes, I think of Xiaohua and Xiaohu, and silently pray in my heart that they will live happily.
As the years passed, I grew old. One day, I received a letter with a recent photo of Xiaohua and Xiaohu. In the photo, they are smiling happily. In the letter, Xiaohua wrote: "Tiezhu, thank you for letting go back then, allowing us to live a peaceful life. Now, you can have peace of mind. ”
Looking at the photos, I burst into tears. I know that I have finally been forgiven by Xiaohua. And I will also go through my life with this forgiveness.
The years have carved marks on my face, but the remorse in my heart has never been healed. Philanthropy has become the focus of my life, and I find solace in helping others.
One day, I came to a remote mountain village where an educational aid project was being carried out. I looked at the innocent smiling faces of those children and thought of Xiaohu. He used to be a concern in my heart, but now it has become a pain that I can't touch.
During the project, I met an enthusiastic volunteer, her name is Lin Jing. Lin Jing is a gentle and kind girl, and I am touched by her love for children. We often discussed together how to better help these children, and her kindness and enthusiasm gradually warmed my cold heart.
One day, Lin Jing said to me, "Brother Li, why are you always so melancholy? I was silent for a moment, then slowly recounted my past, including my betrayal and remorse for Xiaohua.
After Lin Jing listened, she was silent for a long time, and then she said: "Brother Li, everyone makes mistakes, but the key is to learn to forgive yourself. You've made up for the mistakes of the past, and now it's time to let go of the past and give yourself a chance to start over. ”
My eyes widened, looking at Lin Jing, and a warm current surged in my heart. Over the years, I have lived with guilt and self-blame, but I have never truly forgiven myself. Lin Jing's words made me suddenly brightened.
Since then, I've tried to forgive myself and accept my past mistakes. Together with Lin Jing, I built a new school for the children in the mountains. Watching those children happily study here, I finally felt a long-lost peace in my heart.
As the days passed, my relationship with Lin Jing became closer and closer. She became a light in my life and gave me hope again. However, I know that in my heart, the positions of Xiaohua and Xiaohu can never be replaced.
One day, I received a letter from Xiaohua. In the letter, she said that Xiaohu has grown up and become an excellent young man. She told me that Xiaohu often mentioned me and wanted to know what kind of person his father was.
Tears welled up in my eyes, and I knew that I had to go and see Xiaohu. I said goodbye to Lin Jing and set out on the road to Xiaohua's house alone. It was a familiar and unfamiliar path, and every step was in my heart.
When I stood in front of the door of Xiaohua's house, Xiaohu opened the door. He was tall and handsome, with the shadow of a small flower between his eyebrows and eyes. I held his hand tightly, tears rolling in my eyes.
"Xiaohu, I am your father. I said it with difficulty.
Xiaohu's eyes were full of surprise, and then deep longing. He dragged me into the house, and Xiaohua was there, with tears in the corners of her eyes.
We sat in the living room and talked for a long, long time. I told Xiaohu about my past, my mistakes, and my remorse and efforts over the years. Xiaohu listened very carefully, and finally he said, "Dad, I forgive you." ”
At that moment, the stone that had been pressing on my heart for many years finally landed. I know that I have received the most precious forgiveness. And my life will also open a new chapter because of this.
Time flies like a white horse, and the relationship between me and Xiaohu is gradually deepening. We used to walk and talk together, and he told me about his life, his dreams. I found that Xiaohu not only inherited Xiaohua's kindness, but also tenacity and bravery that I had never understood.
One day, Xiaohu and I were walking in the mountains, and he suddenly asked me, "Dad, what have you been doing all these years?" I looked him in the eye and said sincerely, "I am doing charity and helping those in need." ”
Xiaohu nodded, was silent for a while, and then said, "Dad, I want to do charity with you." I looked at him in surprise and asked, "Why?" Xiaohu smiled and said, "Because I want to help those in need, just like you." ”
I looked at Xiaohu and my heart was full of emotion. I shook his hand and said, "Okay, we're together." ”
Since then, I have been involved in charity projects with Xiaohu to help those in need. We visited mountainous areas, disaster areas, and provided assistance to those in need. In this process, I have seen Xiaohu's growth and my own changes.
One day, when Xiaohu and I were visiting the mountains, we encountered a flash flood. We are trapped in a cave with no certainty of life or death. At the moment of life and death, Xiaohu held my hand tightly and said, "Dad, we have to live together." ”
I looked at Xiaohu and my heart was full of determination. I said, "Xiaohu, we want to live together, we want to do more good things together." ”
After some hard work, we were finally rescued. Since then, my relationship with Xiaohu has become even closer. Together, we face the difficulties of life and pursue philanthropy together.
As the years go by, Xiaohu and I have gone through many ups and downs together. We grow together and face life's challenges together. In this process, I deeply realized the value of family affection and understood the meaning of life.
Today, I am old, but my heart is full of gratitude and satisfaction. I am grateful for Xiaohua and Xiaohu's understanding, Lin Jing's company, and everything life has given me. I know that although I have had regrets in my life, there have also been good ones.
In the last moments of my life, I looked at Xiaohu and my heart was full of pride. I know that I have passed on my love to him, and he will pass it on to many more people.
Life is short, but love can be eternal. I am grateful to everyone in my life for the love and care they have given me. I know that although I have had regrets in my life, there have also been good ones. And all this will become the most precious memory of my life.