My name is Zhang Xiaomei, I am 35 years old and I am a housewife. My husband, Li Ming, is 40 years old and works for a company. Our married life has always been very happy, we love, know and cherish each other. Until last year, Li Ming's physical condition began to deteriorate.
"Xiaomei, I'm sorry, I let you worry about it. Li Ming said dejectedly.
"It's okay, as long as you treat it well, everything will be fine. "I tried to smile, but I was actually full of worry.
Li Ming is the love of my life, how can I watch him suffer from his illness? I am determined to raise enough medical expenses for him to make him better, no matter what. Although there is a long way to go, I am full of expectations for the future, and I believe that as long as we are together, there is no hurdle that cannot be overcome.
In order to treat Li Ming's illness, I began to raise medical expenses. First I sold the car, and then I started taking care of the house and preparing it for sale.
"Aunt Zhang, your house is well decorated and maintained, and the location is also good, I will give you an estimate. Mr. Liu, an intermediary, said enthusiastically.
"Then I'm sorry for you, I need to sell the house quickly. I said anxiously.
Over the next few days, I cleaned the house from the inside out. Looking at the walls of my home, my tears are rolling. But for the sake of Li Ming, I can give up everything.
On the day I was about to move, I went to the company to deliver food to Li Ming, thinking that at least let him have a good meal. But after waiting for a long time, Li Ming did not appear. I called him and no one answered. Just when I was anxious, I saw Li Ming and a young and beautiful girl walking down the path from a distance.
My heart felt like it had been pinched hard, and my body trembled involuntarily. Li Ming and the girl were talking and laughing intimately, and they didn't notice me at all.
"Li Ming, why are you here?" I asked loudly.
Li Ming and the girl were startled, looked at each other, and were speechless.
"Y-Why are you here?" Li Ming stammered.
"I'm here to bring you food, but I didn't expect you to fool around here with me and Xiaosan!" I yelled hoarsely, "Aren't you terminally ill and need to be treated? I have already sold my car and even my house in order to raise money for your medical expenses! I didn't expect you to cheat!"
Li Ming lowered his head, embarrassed. And the girl was so frightened that she stood to the side and trembled.
"I'm sorry, Xiaomei, I, I was wrong. Li Ming said weakly.
Tears welled up in my eyes, and I collapsed to the ground as if I had been drained of my strength. My heart is bleeding and my love is being desecrated with all the rage. I loved him so much and would do whatever it took to do anything for him, but he broke my heart so much. My heart was filled with anger, sadness, and despair, and I felt that I would never be able to forgive him again in my life.
That night, I was alone at home crying. My heart was filled with anger and sadness, but there was nowhere to vent. I began to think back to the bits and pieces of Li Ming and me, how we met, fell in love, and got to where we are today. I loved him so much, trusted him, and treated him as my everything. But he hurt me so badly, cheated and betrayed our love.
My heart is like a crumpled piece of paper, and I can't straighten it out anyway. The love-hate clash in my heart, and I was almost torn apart by this contradictory emotion. I can't wait to cut off all relations with Li Ming from now on, but I can't bear to let my relationship go down the drain for so many years.
"I'm going to be pissed off by that bastard!" Xiao Zhang said angrily, "Xiaomei, don't be too sad, I am my best friend with you." "
"But I really love him. I choked up and said, "I have taken out all my savings, even the house, just to treat him." I didn't expect him to break my heart like this. "
"Then do you want to divorce him?" Xiao Zhang asked.
"I—I really don't know what to do anymore. "I fell silent.
Since I bumped into the cheating, Li Ming has been in a slump and has been immersed in self-blame and guilt all day long. He avoided me and ignored me. Occasionally, when he meets me, he is also tight-lipped and never talks about cheating.
One day, he mustered up the courage to come to me and wanted an explanation and an apology.
"Xiaomei, I'm sorry, what happened that day was purely my confusion, don't take it too seriously. He lowered his head and choked up.
"You explain, what's going on?" I said coldly.
"It was Wang Fang who took the initiative to seduce me, and I didn't hold it for a while. You know, I've been in poor health and in bad spirits lately, so I've been confused by her for a while. But I'm really just lost for a while, you are the love of my life, and I swear that I will never do such a hurtful thing again!"
I looked at Li Ming's eyes full of pain and remorse, but I couldn't completely let go.
The derailment was hit by me, and Wang Fang, the junior, was also frightened. A few days later, she came to me and asked for my forgiveness.
"Sister Zhang, I also feel guilty about what happened that day, because I was greedy for the flesh for a while, and I did something sorry for your husband and wife. Wang Fang lowered her head and spoke sincerely.
"Do you know that I have taken out all my savings and even sold my house in order to treat Li Ming? I said coldly.
"Sister Zhang, I was wrong, please forgive me. I promise never to do that again. Wang Fang wept bitterly and spoke incoherently.
I looked at her and felt nothing but disgust. It was she, the villain, who completely destroyed our family and left me with heavy mental trauma.
After experiencing Li Ming's derailment, my heart fell into an unprecedented contradictory struggle. On the one hand, my love for Li Ming has been shattered, and his betrayal has made it impossible for me to fully trust him anymore; On the other hand, our relationship for so many years made me reluctant to leave him like this.
I struggled with everything, figured it out several times and then regretted it. Eventually, I made up my mind and called my best friend, Xiao Zhang.
"Xiao Zhang, I'm really confused now, I don't know what to do. I choked up.
"Xiaomei, in my opinion, Li Ming is too uninteresting. You have already paid such a big price for him, and he even went out to find Xiao San, it is simply not as good as a pig and a dog!" Xiao Zhang said angrily.
"But, after all, we have been in a relationship for so many years... I retorted weakly.
Xiaomei, you have to live for yourself once, don't always sacrifice yourself for others. Xiao Zhang persuaded, "I support your divorce and start a new life from scratch!"
Xiao Zhang's words made me suddenly enlightened. Yes, I have already given too much for this marriage, why should I let myself struggle?
In this way, I made up my mind to divorce Li Ming!
"Li Ming, there is no need for us to be tense anymore. I calmly said, "Your cheating broke my heart, and I can't trust you anymore." So, I decided to divorce you. "
"Xiaomei, don't be like this!" Li Ming was startled, his face turned pale, "I know that I was wrong, I swear I will never do this kind of thing again!
"You've ruined our relationship with your own hands!" My voice trembled a little, "I have taken out all my savings to treat you, and even sold the house. But you actually went out to find Xiao San behind my back, what do you say is this?"
"I'm sorry Xiaomei, that was really my confusion for a while, I swear never again... Li Ming pleaded, tears welling up in his eyes.
"That's enough, Li Ming! No matter how much you swear, it won't help. I said categorically, "I've made up my mind, let's get a divorce." "
"Xiaomei, think twice, have our years of relationship been wasted like this?" Li Ming shouted in despair.
"It's you who ruined this relationship with your own hands, don't throw the pot at me!" I said coldly.
Looking at Li Ming's helpless appearance, my heart was joyful. It was he who desecrated our relationship with his own hands, and I was finally free. From now on, I will start a new life and no longer be tormented by the pain of the past.
Just when Li Ming and I were about to divorce, a sudden change completely changed my determination.
One Saturday morning, I was doing laundry at home when I suddenly received a call from an unfamiliar number.
"Hello, is it Ms. Zhang Xiaomei?" A serious female voice rang out.
"I am, may I ask what's the matter?" I felt a little uneasy in my heart.
"I am a nurse in the hospital, and your husband, Mr. Li Ming, is in serious condition, please come over as soon as possible. "
"What?" I was startled, and the clothes in my hand fell to the ground, "Why did he suddenly get worse?"
According to the results of the examination, his cancer cells began to spread rapidly, and if he did not have surgery and chemotherapy in time, he could not have survived. The nurse's tone was solemn.
After hanging up, I sat down on the couch, tears streaming down my face. Although Li Ming betrayed me, after all, we have been in a relationship for so many years. If he leaves like this, I will regret it for the rest of my life.
Guilt, self-blame, hesitation, all kinds of complicated emotions stirred in my heart. What should I do? Do I insist on a divorce or forgive him? I was deeply troubled.
For the next few days, I was in a trance. I began to reflect on my life values and explore the truest thoughts in my heart.
On the one hand, my self-esteem is something I can't let go of. Li Ming personally desecrated our relationship, how can I forgive him? But on the other hand, if he really left like this, I will regret it for the rest of my life. After all, we have been in a relationship for so many years, and he used to be my favorite person.
I stayed at home all day, fidgeting and having trouble sleeping. Sometimes I would suddenly burst into tears, and then I would suddenly become indifferent, and my whole person would fall into confusion and numbness.
Finally, on a sleepless night, I called Zhang and told him about my troubles.
"Xiao Zhang, I'm really struggling now. Li Ming is critically ill, what should I do?"
"Xiaomei, people make mistakes, the key is whether he truly repents. You have to see what you really think in your heart. Xiao Zhang said earnestly.
"But how can I forgive him if he broke my heart?" I choked up.
"Xiaomei, have you had a relationship for so many years, and it was so in vain? And Li Ming is now critically ill, do you just let him die?" Xiao Zhang persuaded.
After a few days of struggle and reflection, I finally made up my mind to forgive Li Ming, let go of the pain and hatred of the past, and give our feelings a chance to start over.
I'm glad I made that choice. If I had rested on my laurels and insisted on divorce, then we would have wasted all the pearls between us, and we had wasted so many years of affection. What's more, if Li Ming really passed away like this, I will regret it for the rest of my life.
"Xiaomei, you, why are you here?" Li Ming obviously didn't expect me to come to see him.
"You idiot, you're dying, of course I'm going to come and see you. "I pretended to be angry, but my eyes were already moist.
"Xiaomei, I know I was wrong, and you have the right not to forgive me. Li Ming lowered his head and looked gloomy.
"Fool, I'm here to forgive you. I sat down on the edge of his bed and shook his hand, "Let's start all over again, okay?"
Li Ming was stunned, and after a long while, tears finally burst out of his eyes: "Xiaomei, thank you, I swear I will never hurt you again in this life!"
I looked at him with mixed feelings. The key is to have the courage to be tolerant, understanding, and persistent. I decided to let go of the past, trust Li Ming again, and give our relationship a new start.
Under my careful care, Li Ming's condition was finally on the track of recovery. Although the road to recovery is tortuous and arduous, as long as we are together, there is nothing that cannot be overcome.
"Xiaomei, I really don't know how to thank you. One day, Li Ming held my hand and said earnestly, "If it weren't for your tolerance and care, I might have died like this." You are an angel sent from heaven to save me. "
"You idiot, we are husband and wife, so we should support each other and trust each other. I smiled and said, "You just need to take care of your body and take care of me in the future." "
Li Ming nodded, his eyes firm and warm.
In this way, with our joint efforts, Li Ming finally recovered completely. He got a job again, and we moved into a new home and started a new life.
Sometimes, when I think back to the hardships of the past, I can't help but feel a lot of emotion. Yes, the road to marriage is bumpy and bumpy, and it needs to be maintained and cherished by both parties. Thankfully, we eventually went through all the hardships and the relationship became stronger.
After Li Ming recovered, we moved into a new home and started a new life.
"Xiaomei, we can finally start again. Li Ming said happily, "I swear that I will love you well and spoil you in this life!"
"Then you have to keep your word. I joked with a laugh.
The new home is decorated with a special touch and is full of warmth. We took matters into our hands and kept this home in good order. Every day after work, we would do chores together, chatting and laughing. In the evening, we will hold hands and take a walk in the community to feel the afterglow of the sunset.
Everything is so beautiful, so ordinary, and so hopeful. It was as if we were back on our honeymoon as newlyweds, and we cherished and cared for each other.
Sometimes Li Ming would suddenly hug me and whisper in my ear, "Xiaomei, we finally survived." From now on, let's live a good life and grow old together, okay?"
I would nod my head, my eyes moist. Yes, we were finally able to start all over again and start a whole new life.
No matter how difficult the road ahead is, as long as we are together, there is nothing that cannot be overcome. I believe that with our tolerance and perseverance, we will be able to overcome all difficulties and move towards a better future.
This is life, there is no smooth sailing, but as long as we tolerate and cherish each other, we will be able to overcome all tribulations. We must work together for this family and light up every corner of life with love.