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My name is Lin Wanting and I come from an ordinary rural Chinese family. When I was a child, I always felt that our family was the happiest, my father was a carpenter, my mother was a virtuous housewife, and I was the pearl of their palms. Although our family is not wealthy, we live happily, and the harmony and happiness of our family have always been praised by the neighbors.
However, this happiness did not last long. I remember when I was thirteen years old, my father became irritable and suspicious, yelling at my mother, sometimes even ignoring my presence, and his words were full of anger and threat. I don't understand why Dad is like this, but I know that this atmosphere has a very bad impact on our family.
"Dad, what's wrong with you?" I asked cautiously, disbelieving my eyes, this was not the kind father I once knew.
"Nothing!" Dad replied angrily and slammed the door hard, scaring Mom and I into too much of a voice.
I looked at my mother, and there was helplessness and fear in her eyes, and I had never seen her so distraught. I tried to comfort her, but I didn't know what to say.
This became more and more frequent, and I gradually realized that there was something wrong with the family, and the problem seemed to be my father. I began to feel like I was caught in a whirlpool out of which I couldn't get out. At home, I became more and more silent, afraid to make a sound, for fear of annoying my father. At school, I became more and more withdrawn, refusing the offers of my classmates and always staying alone in the corner.
I tried to ask for help, but every time I mentioned family problems, my father would threaten me with cruel eyes and words, so that I would not dare to say any more. Mom chose to be silent, she always endured everything silently, and I could see that she was overwhelmed by the pressure of the family.
"Wanting, why aren't you happy?" My classmates began to notice the changes in me, and someone asked with concern.
"Nothing, I'm just a little tired. I always use a smile to hide my inner anguish, and I don't want others to worry.
However, my inner turmoil grew heavier, and I began to wonder if I had done something wrong at home that caused my dad to become like this. I tried to be more obedient and sensible, but my father seemed to be more and more indifferent to me, and even stopped paying attention to my existence.
"Mom, doesn't Dad like me anymore?" I once plucked up the courage to ask my mother.
"No, baby, Daddy loves you, it's just that he's been concerned about something lately. My mother stroked my hair, her eyes full of helplessness and distress.
However, I didn't know what secrets were behind these things, and I didn't know how it would change me.
Dad's violence became more and more frequent, and every time my mom and I heard his footsteps coming home, we couldn't help but start to tremble. That day, I heard their arguing in my room, and I couldn't help but feel a wave of fear in my heart.
"Where else do you want to run?" Dad's voice was full of anger and threat.
"I just want Wanting to live a stable life!" Mom's voice trembled, and I knew she was defending me.
"She's my daughter, I'm in charge!" Dad's voice grew fiercer.
I heard my mother's cry, and my heart was like a knife, and I knew that she had been wronged, but there was nothing I could do. I tried to comfort her, but I couldn't break through the invisible wall and make my dad hear.
As time went on, the atmosphere in the home became heavier and heavier, and I gradually developed a feeling of helplessness and hopelessness. I began to look forward to leaving this home, away from this torment.
Finally, one day, I made a decision. I decided to leave this home and pursue my dreams, away from this place where I felt bound and miserable. I know that this road is full of unknowns and challenges, but I am willing to face it because I believe that only by staying away from this home can I find my true self.
In the middle of the night, I secretly packed some bags, wrote a short farewell letter, and quietly left the house. Walking in the night, I felt a sense of relief and relief, as if I had broken away from under a heavy mountain.
"Wanting, where are you going?" My mother found out where I was and cried out in horror.
"Mom, I just want to get out of this place and pursue my own happiness. I tried to comfort her with a calm tone, but deep down I was filled with fear and uneasiness about the future.
Mom's eyes were full of tears, she took my hand, choked up and said, "Wanting, you have to remember that no matter what happens, Mom will always be by your side." "
I gently held my mother's hand, tears blurring my eyes, but I knew I had to leave this place and follow my dreams, no matter how difficult the future might be.
I turned around and left the house and set out on my own journey. I don't know how difficult the future will be, but I believe that as long as I persevere, I will eventually usher in my own sunshine.
After leaving home, I embarked on a long and lonely journey. I don't have a permanent place to live and work temporary jobs to make ends meet. Every day is a challenge, but I try to stay optimistic and strong.
However, despite my efforts to forget everything in the house, images of my father's violence and my mother's helplessness always lingered in my mind. I began to doubt my choices, and I began to doubt whether I would be able to escape the shadow of my family and find true happiness.
"Wanting, what's wrong with you? Something doesn't look right. A well-wisher asked with concern.
"It's okay, I'm just a little tired. I replied with a forced smile, but I couldn't calm down.
I began to think about the possibility of going home, but every time the thought came to my mind, I felt a deep fear. I don't know what will happen when I get home, and I don't know if I'll be able to face my father's violence and my mother's helplessness.
However, when I was at my most helpless, an unexpected opportunity gave me the courage to start over. I met a kind old man who saw my predicament and decided to help me get back on my feet. He gave me a temporary place to live and also helped me find a stable job. With his help, I gradually regained my confidence and began to believe that I could create a new life of my own.
"Wanting, you are a brave girl, no matter how difficult the future may be, I believe you will be able to overcome everything. The encouragement from the old man warmed me so much that I decided to cherish this opportunity and strive for my own happiness.
I started working hard to improve my skills in the hope that one day I could find my dream job and live a stable and happy life. I also re-established my social circle and made some like-minded friends who gave me a lot of support and encouragement.
However, despite my efforts to change my life, the shadow of my family always lingers. In the dead of night, I always think of my father's violence and my mother's helplessness, and my heart is filled with endless guilt and guilt. I don't know if I should go home and face the memories that once made me feel hopeless, but I also don't know if I'll be able to escape these problems forever, until one day, an unexpected opportunity forces me to face it all again.
In the years when I lost touch with my family, I had been wandering in different cities, looking for a life for myself. I have been through countless hardships and struggles, but I have never given up hope for the future. However, no matter where I went, no matter how much effort I made, the shadow of my family always haunted me, preventing me from being truly happy.
Until one day, I received a mysterious letter telling me that my father had passed away and that I needed to go home to deal with his estate. I was shocked by the news, and I never imagined that I would ever return to my hometown again and face the memories that once made me feel hopeless.
I hesitated for a long time, but finally decided to go home to see my father's legacy and put an end to my past.
When I returned to my hometown, everything became strange and familiar. The streets were full of people as if they had nothing to do with me, but every corner carried memories of my childhood. I don't know if I've made the right choice, but I know that I have to face the past before I can really start a new life.
"Lin Wanting, is that you?" A familiar and unfamiliar voice broke my silence.
I looked up and saw a middle-aged woman standing in front of me, her eyes full of surprise and joy.
"Mom?" My voice trembled, tears blurred my eyes, and I couldn't believe what was in front of me.
"It's me, it's me, my child!" My mother threw herself into my arms with excitement, tears welling up in her eyes.
I was a little confused by this sudden hug, but my heart was full of warmth and touch. The warmth of home that I had been looking for for many years turned out to be right in front of my eyes.
"Mom, what's wrong with you?" I asked anxiously, seeing the tears in my mother's eyes.
"You're finally back, how I miss you!" Mom sobbed, her voice full of excitement and emotion.
I was so overwhelmed by my mother's emotions that I couldn't stop crying. I've been alone on my journeys for years, but now, I've finally found the warmth of home.
We hugged each other and cried, feeling each other's warmth and comfort. Although there are too many regrets and helplessness between us, at this moment, I just want to take my mother into my arms and let her feel my deep love for her.
We sat down at home, and my mother brought me a bowl of hot chicken soup, and she had a relieved smile on her face as she watched me eat with relish.
"Wanting, are you having a hard time outside?" Mom asked with concern.
"Mom, I'm all right. I soothed my mother's mood and didn't want her to worry.
"You know, no matter what happens, you can come back to me, and I will always have your back. Mom's voice was full of firmness and warmth.
I looked at my mother with emotion, and my heart was filled with gratitude and guilt. For years, I had been chasing my dreams, ignoring my mother's loneliness and helplessness. Now that I have finally returned to her, I have decided to cherish this warmth and love.
During the few days at home, my mother and I lived together and shared the moments of our lives with each other. I told her about what I had seen and experienced outside, and she told me stories and legends about my hometown. We listened to each other, shared with each other, and gradually, we became closer and stronger.
However, during these quiet days, I couldn't help but think about my future. I knew that I couldn't rely on my mom forever, I had to take responsibility for my own life. So, on the day I left my hometown, I promised my mom that I would work hard to live up to her expectations of me.
"Mom, I'm going to miss you. I hugged my mom tightly and tears flowed down my face.
"Wanting, you must take care of yourself, remember to come back to see me at any time. My mother stroked my hair, her eyes full of reluctance and affection.
I turned around and left the house and set out on a new journey. I know that the road ahead may be full of difficulties and challenges, but I also believe that as long as I persevere, I will eventually usher in my own sunshine.
I glanced back at my hometown, and my heart was full of emotion and reluctance. This is where I grew up, where I originally dreamed, and now, I'm leaving here to pursue the bigger sky.
However, I know that no matter where I go, the warmth of home and my mother's love will always be with me and become my motivation and courage to move forward.
I silently made up my mind and embarked on a new journey. No matter how much wind and rain lies ahead, I will move forward with determination, because I know that the warmth of home will always be there, waiting for me to return.
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