"Hello everyone, my name is Zhang Xiaoming and I am 25 years old this year. To be honest, my relationship with my sister has always been complicated. "I looked at my sister lying in the ward, and I had mixed feelings.
"Xiao Ming, come over and accompany my sister. My sister said weakly.
I walked over to her bed and sat down. "Sister, why are you hospitalized again this time?"
"It's still a recurrence of the old disease. My sister sighed, "The doctor said that my situation was not very optimistic this time. "
The doctor walked in, "Miss Zhang's condition has worsened a lot than last time, and we have done our best." "
My heart suddenly became heavy, "Is there any other way?" "
The doctor shook his head, "That's all we can do, and then it's up to her own constitution." "
I looked at my sister's pale face, her eyes were dull and her whole person looked weak.
When I was discharged from the hospital, my sister took my hand and said, "Xiao Ming, you have to take good care of me when I am discharged from the hospital this time, I may not be able to recuperate well alone." "
I felt a deep dilemma in my heart, and taking care of my sister was a heavy burden for me. But looking at her pitiful appearance, I reluctantly agreed: "Okay sister, if there is anything to tell me." "
My sister smiled and seemed to let go of a big stone in her heart.
"Sister, don't worry, I'm here. I smiled and comforted her, but my heart was full of apprehension.
I helped my sister tidy up the bed and table, and she seemed to be fine, but I knew she was sick.
My mother also came, she looked at me and said, "Xiao Ming, you have to take good care of your sister, she is pitiful, and she will count on you in the future." "
I nodded, and secretly slandered myself: You will do this, and put all the blame on me.
My father also told me again and again to be filial, to serve my sister well, and to take care of everything. I knew in my heart their good intentions, but they clearly treated me like a servant.
Just when I was in a struggling mood, my friend Xiao Wang called: "Dude, are you going to eat a boxed lunch together at noon?
I couldn't help but be moved, I hadn't had dinner with my friends in a long time. But when I turned around and saw my sister's appearance, I hesitated.
In the end, I still promised Xiao Wang: "Cheng, let's go together at noon." "Anyway, my sister doesn't need me to be there all the time, I think.
A week later, my sister's condition suddenly worsened. The doctor said to me with a solemn face: "Miss Zhang's condition is not very optimistic, her organs are starting to fail. We did our best, and the rest depends on her own physique. "
I looked at my sister lying on the hospital bed, her face was pale and her breathing was becoming very difficult. My heart was filled with self-blame and guilt, if I had taken better care of her, maybe her condition would not have gotten worse to this point.
Mom and dad also rushed to the hospital. As soon as I entered the ward, my mother shouted at me like thunder: "You wicked handicapped! Your sister is critically ill and you are eating, drinking, and having fun outside, do you not take her to heart at all?"
As soon as I was about to explain, my father slapped me in the face: "Incompetent thing! You can't even take care of your sister, what kind of man are you?"
I was trembling with anger, but I couldn't help but fight back. My mother hugged my sister in tears, and said bitterly: "Sister, you are so unlucky to give birth to such a useless brother." "
Being accused by my parents like this, I have mixed feelings in my heart. I did hang out and have fun while my sister was in the hospital, but I also did my best to take care of her. But my sister's condition was getting worse little by little, and I was blamed on myself.
I swirled the question over and over again, but I couldn't find an answer that convinced me completely.
In this way, my sister's hospitalization period was delayed again and again. I was watched by my family and couldn't go anywhere. My sister sometimes makes trouble unreasonably, mocking and scolding me in every way.
"You're just a useless thing, idle all day long! Sister, I'm so pitiful, but you don't even have the heart to take care of me!"
"Do your best? What did you do? Go out and mess with your friends who drink and meat? Sister, I'm so unlucky to give birth to such a conscienceless brother as you!"
My sister's words were like a sharp knife, piercing my heart again and again. My anger was finally ignited, and I slammed the door out.
While wandering the streets, I received another call from Xiao Wang: "Dude, let's go to a boxed lunch together at noon?
My saliva is dripping. My sister's hurtful words still echoed in my ears, and I was in a terrible mood. I was imprisoned in the hospital by my sister like this, living a prison-like life, and I would really go crazy.
"Okay, okay, I'll go over now!" I didn't hesitate to say yes.
At noon, I feasted on a roasted lunch, feeling as if I had been reborn. Xiao Wang looked at me gobbling up, and asked puzzledly: "What's the matter, buddy, you look so hideous?"
I told what happened during this time, and Xiao Wang praised me: "You can really bear it, if I had left my sister in the hospital, I would have left my sister in the hospital a long time ago." "
I smiled wryly and nodded, thinking that this lunch box was my temporary freedom, my hope for survival.
I was shocked, and what I had just eaten felt like a piece of lead had fallen into my stomach. I didn't have time to think about it, so I pulled my leg and ran to the hospital. Along the way, my mind was full of my sister and the hurtful things she had said to me.
Did I really do something wrong? What would I do if my sister died like this? 10,000 question marks swirling in my mind.
When I finally arrived at the ward, my sister's eyes were closed and the doctor was resuscitating her. I rushed in like crazy, grabbed my sister's hand, and wept bitterly.
With that, she closed her eyes forever.
I sorted through my sister's belongings, looked at her photos, and replayed the last moments of her life over and over again in my mind. I hated my decision, I hated that I had chosen those boxed lunches instead of being with my sister.
These troubles swirled around me and made me almost crazy. I was in a lot of pain, but there was nothing I could do.
In this way, I spent long days and nights in self-doubt and guilt. Until one day, I made up my mind to live for my sister and start a new life.
I found my parents and bowed solemnly to them: "Mom and Dad, I'm sorry, it was my mistake. I should have taken better care of my sister instead of coveting my own pocket all day long. Please forgive me. "
My parents were touched by my sincerity and realized that their previous accusations against me were biased. My mother hugged me and said in a choked voice: "Xiao Ming, you are also a young man, how can you be trapped in the hospital all the time? If my sister is here, she must also hope that you can live your own life." "
Dad patted me on the shoulder and said, "Okay, okay, let it pass." From today onwards, you have to be brave enough to start over, for your sister, for yourself. "
Since that day, my life has changed dramatically. I quit my old job and started doing what I loved. In the dead of night, I would take out a photo of my sister and miss her when she was alive.
"Sister, look at it, I'm having a good time now. I said to myself in front of the photo, "Although you are gone, I have always kept your expectations in my heart." I will try to achieve it and live a free and happy life. "
In the photo, my sister smiled slightly and seemed to nod her head to me. My eyes couldn't help but moisten, but I also felt relieved like never before.
"Dude, I heard you've been doing what you love lately, that's awesome!" Xiao Wang called me, and his tone was full of joy.
I smiled, "yes, I'm finally able to do what I want to do and live a free life." "
"That's great!" Xiao Wang said sincerely, "You have gone through so many hardships, and now you have finally ushered in a new beginning, I am happy for you." "
I nodded, looked out the window at the blue sky and white clouds, and suddenly felt that the future was bright. Yes, I want to live my life well and realize my ideals and ambitions, as my sister said.
I took a deep breath and walked out the door with my head held high, ready for a new journey in life.
Looking up at the twinkling stars in the night sky, I sighed deeply. The road of life is not always smooth sailing, and each of us will encounter tribulations of one kind or another. The key is whether we have the courage to face them and draw strength and lessons from them.
I was deeply saddened by my sister's death, but her words also made me realize the true meaning of life. Each of us should pursue our own ideals and happiness instead of being bound by the expectations of others. Only by living our own lives can we discover the true meaning and value of life.
I took a deep breath of the night breeze and prayed in my heart, "Sister, I will work hard to fulfill your expectations and live a free and happy life." May you also find a moment of joy in the heavenly spirit. "
The stars are shining, and my life has just begun. I will be brave enough to embrace the future, to pursue the meaning of life, to live the life I want.
When my parents saw that I was so determined, they had to give up. They finally let go and let me run free.
"Damn, why am I so incompetent?" I snarled at the computer and slammed my fist on the table.
Just when I was about to give up, Xiao Wang came to visit me. He patted me on the shoulder and said, "Dude, you're working hard for your ideals, and now you're giving up halfway, isn't that a pity?"
I was stunned, Xiao Wang's words were like a basin of cold water, watering up my lost heart. yes, how could I just give up? This is my dream career!
Until one day, I received a call from the publisher informing me that my work would be published as a book. At that moment, my heart was filled with infinite joy and pride. I threw myself on my knees, tears welling up in my eyes.
On the day of the book's release, I invited Xiao Wang and his parents to go with me. When I appeared with the book printed with my name on it, both my parents and Xiao Wang were deeply moved.
With tears in her eyes, my mother said excitedly: "Xiao Ming, you have finally done it! You have followed your ideals and created beautiful works with your own hands." If your sister were here, she would be proud of you. "
Dad hugged me, his tone full of relief: "Son, I'm sorry, we didn't support you in pursuing your ideals before. But you have proved yourself with your actions, you are a man with courage and perseverance. "
Xiao Wang laughed and patted me on the shoulder: "Dude, you finally succeeded! Look, your dream is in your hand, you grabbed it with your own hands." You're not easy!"
I burst into tears, and my heart was filled to the fullest. Yes, after several years of hard work, I finally used my own strength to create my own work. This is the dream I have been pursuing, and it is also my sister's greatest expectation.
In the dead of night, I stood alone on the balcony, staring at the starry sky. My mood was so calm that it was as if the whole universe was smiling at me.
I took out a picture of my sister and said to it, "Sister, have you seen it? I have finally done it! This is the ideal I have been pursuing, and I have finally achieved it with my own strength." "
In the photo, my sister seems to be smiling at me, and her eyes are full of kindness. The corners of my eyes couldn't help but moisten.
"Thank you, sister. It was your words that gave me the courage and strength to get back on my feet and follow my dreams. I muttered to myself, "I'm living a free and happy life now, just like you said." You must be proud of me, right?"
The night breeze blew slowly, bringing a cool soothing. I seemed to see my sister's figure appear in front of me, and she held out her hand as if to hug me.
"Sister, I will continue to work hard, and I will use my words to create more wonderful works. I firmly said, "I will follow my ideals all my life and live a free and wonderful life." This is your greatest expectation and my best wish to you. "
The stars were shining brightly, and my mind was calmer than ever. Yes, I have finally found the meaning and direction of my life, and I will continue to walk and never stop. Because I understand that this is my sister's greatest expectation, and it is also my solemn commitment to myself.
In everyone's heart, there will be an ideal and dream lurking. Some people are forced to bury it deep in their hearts for the sake of life, and they never dare to pursue it again. Others are brave enough to pursue it, even at a hard cost.
The death of my sister had left me disoriented, and I began to wonder if I should still pursue my dreams. But my sister's words woke me up, and she wanted me to live a free life instead of being troubled by her illness.