Before reading this article, we sincerely invite you to click the "Follow" button, which will not only allow you to easily receive the wonderful articles we have prepared for you in the future, but also allow you to exchange ideas and share insights with us at any time when you are swimming in the ocean of reading. Every click and comment is a great encouragement to our creative passion, and it is also the source of our continuous progress and innovation
My name is Li Ming, I am 27 years old, and I am an ordinary office worker. Although he looks average, his personality is not bad, and he can barely make ends meet at work, and his life is very dull. It wasn't until that year that I met her that my life changed drastically.
It was 20 years, the whole social atmosphere was quite open, and people did not have much prejudice against the ambiguous relationship between the opposite sex. In big cities, it is very common for young people to fall in love and have a crush on their colleagues. In my company, there have been cases like this from time to time.
At first, she and I had an ordinary relationship as colleagues, but later due to work, the two of us gradually got to know each other and the contact became more frequent. Slowly, an ambiguous spark ignited between us, and I began to think about her differently.
Her name is Zhang Xue and she is a new employee in our department. Good looks, outstanding temperament, and excellent work. As soon as she arrived, she became the target of many of the company's male colleagues. I was also attracted to her beauty at the time, but I just treated her as a normal friend of the opposite sex.
"Hello, I'm the new Zhang Xue, it's nice to meet you. She said to me, gently and politely.
"Hello, I'm Li Ming, we will be colleagues in the future, if you don't understand anything, just ask me. I responded with a smile.
Zhang Xue nodded slightly, revealing a shy smile. Her movements are very elegant and generous, giving people a sense of intellectual beauty. I also responded with a smile, trying to be as natural as possible, not wanting to look like a pervert.
In this way, Zhang Xue and I became colleagues and friends. Sometimes we work late and we have a few conversations. Slowly, I noticed that she seemed to give me something different. Maybe it's my delusion, or maybe she's releasing some ambiguous signals intentionally or unintentionally.
"Hey, I've worked hard overtime today, do you want to go have a drink together?" Once, Zhang Xue took the initiative to ask me for a drink.
"Okay, it's just time to relieve your fatigue. I readily agreed.
I pretended to be calm, for fear of showing a nervous look. Zhang Xue was smiling, looking very natural and casual.
"I've been so tired from work lately, I really want to find a boyfriend and relax. While drinking, Zhang Xue said suddenly.
"yes, it's too stressful to work life. I chimed in, thinking to myself the meaning of her words.
Zhang Xue took a sip of wine, and her face flushed slightly, which looked particularly tempting and moving. I felt like I couldn't take my eyes off it.
And so, for many nights afterward, we would drink and talk in private. Zhang Xue sometimes deliberately sits very close, and even has some intimate small movements in her limbs. I could clearly feel the femininity that emanated from her, and it almost drove me crazy.
I knew we couldn't go on like this, but once I got into her charm, I couldn't help myself. A few times I even fantasized about crushing her under me and taking possession of her roughly. Fortunately, I still have a shred of sanity, so I didn't do that kind of excessive thing.
But it was clear that I had completely fallen into this ambiguous situation, and I couldn't extricate myself. I fell in love with this woman and with every detail and breath that emanated from her.
"Li Ming, isn't it a bit too much for us to go on like this?" One night, Zhang Xue suddenly said.
"We know it's wrong, but why can't we control ourselves?" She looked at me with a dull look in her eyes.
My feelings have never been more complicated. On the one hand, I know that we are wrong to do this and will cause harm to each other. But on the other hand, how could I let go of my love for her? My heart was torn violently in two contradictory thoughts.
Zhang Xue lowered her head, as if in painful thought. I clenched my fists and trembled slightly. At this moment, both of us were plunged into unprecedented contradictions and pain.
Zhang Xue didn't respond, she just looked at me blankly, her eyes full of pain.
"Why are you doing this to me? We're just ordinary colleagues! You're hurting me by doing this!" She finally burst out, tears welling up in her eyes.
I was speechless and could only stand there in a daze, watching her sad and weeping, feeling self-blame and guilt like never before.
I began to reflect on what I had done. At first, I was just attracted by Zhang Xue's beauty and regarded her as a target that I could conquer. Later, she may have released some ambiguous signals intentionally or unintentionally, and I naturally thought in that direction.
In this way, the relationship between us slowly deteriorated. I lost my mind and indulged in the femininity that emanated from her. And she seemed intent on seducing me, perhaps out of boredom or something else.
However, this is ultimately wrong. We hurt each other and hurt our respective feelings. I began to hate my weakness and lust, and I hated my fallen soul.
I covered my face in pain, tears streaming down my eyes. I know that I am not worthy of a good girl like Zhang Xue. I'm sorry for her, and I'm sorry for myself. This ambiguous relationship between us must end here.
"Zhang Xue, I know that I hurt you, and I sincerely apologize to you. This relationship between us, I also know is wrong. So, I decided that from now on, we would just be normal colleagues and nothing else. "
Zhang Xue seemed a little surprised, but then nodded, revealing a look of relief.
"Li Ming, have you been thinking about anything lately? "The owner asked me once.
Ever since I broke up with Zhang Xue, my heart has been in trouble. I loved her so much, I wanted to possess her so much. However, it is all taboo and wrong. The ambiguous relationship between us will only bring pain and hurt to the two of us.
I began to reflect on my own life and how a person should treat feelings correctly. I realized how frivolous and superficial my previous attitude towards feelings was. I indulged in carnal desires and neglected the responsibility and respect that should be due in relationships.
I began to hate my weakness and indulgence. How can a man be so depraved, how can he hurt a simple girl so much? I am so ashamed of myself.
I sat alone on a park bench, staring at a small boat on the lake, my eyes glazed away. My heart is tormented like never before, I am reflecting on my life and hating my past.
After some careful consideration, I finally found the right path in life. I realized that each of us should respect ourselves and others. It should not be bound and manipulated by the desires of the flesh, but treat every relationship with noble sentiments.
We are all equal individuals and should all be respected. Whether it is a friendship between a man or a woman, or a romantic relationship, it should be based on mutual respect. We should not hurt others, and we should not hurt ourselves.
Only in this way can we live a happy and fulfilling life and truly feel the beauty of love. I am determined to turn over a new leaf from now on, to treat feelings with the right attitude, and to respect everyone.
This time, I paid too much for the lesson. However, it also made me truly understand the meaning of life. I will cherish this opportunity to start anew and be a new person.
Since then, my life has returned to its former peace. Zhang Xue and I are still ordinary colleagues in the company, but there is no longer any ambiguous relationship between us. I worked hard and lived a well-behaved life.
Sometimes, when I think of the ambiguity between me and Zhang Xue in the past, I feel a sense of sadness. But soon, I'll pick myself up and move on. Because I know that the relationship is doomed and will not come to fruition.
We young people are often blinded by the desires of the flesh and do things that hurt nature and reason. But as long as you can learn from it, you will definitely be able to move on to a new path in life.
This experience has taught me so much. I learned to respect myself and I learned to respect others. I understand that the relationship between men and women should be based on mutual respect and should not be manipulated by carnal desires.
Each of us should treat our lives and feelings with noble sentiments. Only in this way can we live a happy and fulfilling life and understand the true meaning of love.
In a person's life, it is inevitable to encounter such and such temptations. However, as long as you can maintain a noble personality and a firm will, you will be able to avoid making mistakes and live a bright and upright life.
I know that I still have a long way to go in my life, and there is still a long way to go. I will use the right attitude and be cautious about every relationship. I will do my best to respect everyone in my life.
For her own her, treat this relationship in the right way.
I believe that as long as you can reflect on yourself at all times and treat life and feelings with the right attitude, you will be able to live a happy and fulfilling life. Those mistakes and regrets of the past, as long as we can learn from them, will definitely become a stepping stone to happiness.
Just when I changed my past mistakes and started anew, life also opened a new page for me. One day, a new employee came to the company, her name was Zhao Yun.
Zhao Yun is beautiful and very enthusiastic and generous. We quickly became friends. Unlike my superficial infatuation with Zhang Xue before, this time I sincerely regarded Zhao Yun as a close friend.
"You're such a brave man that you can make a mistake like that. Zhao Yun said, "I admire your courage and determination. "
"It was a painful memory. But it doesn't matter, everyone will grow and get better. I said with a smile.
Looking at Zhao Yun's clear eyes, my heart was unprecedentedly calm. I know that I have completely shaken off the gloom of the past and embarked on a new path in life. Zhao Yun gave me the feeling that it was like a breath of fresh air, which made my soul pure and noble.
Zhao Yun patted me on the shoulder gently, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of her mouth. I smiled too, feeling as if more than half of the burden had been lifted from my heart. We just looked at each other and smiled, and the atmosphere was warm and friendly.
Since then, my friendship with Zhao Yun has grown deeper and deeper. She is like a clear stream in my life, nourishing me at all times, keeping me noble and upright.
With Zhao Yun's close friend, my life has become more fulfilling and happier. We often discuss various issues in life together, encourage each other, and grow together.
Gradually, I found that I had an indescribable feeling about Zhao Yun. But this feeling is completely different from the superficial fascination I had with Zhang Xue before. I sincerely respect Zhao Yun and regard her as the most important confidant in my life.
I know that Zhao Yun has given me unprecedented strength and courage. It is precisely because of her presence that I can completely leave the haze of the past behind and embark on a new path in life.
In this way, with Zhao Yun's company and encouragement, my life has become better and more fulfilling. I worked hard and worked hard to get closer to my dreams. Occasionally, I will go outdoors with Zhao Yun to enjoy the beauty of nature and talk about my spiritual experience.
Once, we sat on a park bench and watched the sun set. I suddenly remembered the wrong relationship between me and Zhang Xue in the past, and I couldn't help but sigh.
"If that hadn't happened, I would never have been able to grasp the true meaning of life for the rest of my life. I sighed.
"All the past is a ladder for a person's growth. The important thing is that you have learned from it and are back on the right path. Zhao Yun said softly.
I nodded, relieved. Yes, although I did make some mistakes in the past, it was because of these tribulations that I was able to truly grow and understand the meaning of life. And Zhao Yun is my biggest support and strength along the way.
I looked at Zhao Yun, her side face shining against the setting sun, looking so beautiful and moving. I couldn't help but shake her hand, and she shook me back, with a happy smile on her face.
In this way, in the sincere friendship of friends, I found the meaning and value of life. I will use the right attitude towards everyone and everything in my life. I believe that as long as you can reflect on yourself from time to time and treat your feelings with noble sentiments, you will be able to live a happy and fulfilling life.
There is still a long way to go in life, but as long as I am accompanied by a close friend like Zhao Yun, I will definitely be able to walk this life well. Those mistakes and regrets in the past will only become my stepping stone to happiness. A better life is just around the corner.