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Text: Old dreams of a deserted city
Edit|Old Dream of a Deserted City
Preface
In the complex entertainment industry, Chen Jin can be called a clear stream, and her style of acting is completely different from that of most practitioners.
She resolutely refuses commercial endorsements, rarely accepts media interviews, and stays away from all kinds of variety shows, so that at a time when many people are keen to create topics and increase exposure, Chen Jin is so low-key that many viewers don't even know her name.
Despite this, Chen Jin's achievements in acting career cannot be ignored, she has cooperated with well-known directors such as Feng Xiaogang and Zhang Yimou, and participated in widely influential film works such as "Tangshan Earthquake" and "The City is Full of Golden Armor".
In the field of TV dramas, Chen Jin also left a deep imprint, she played the mother of the heroine Su Mingyu in "It's All Good", and played the mother of the little grandfather Qi Heng in "Do You Know If You Should Be Green, Fat, Red and Thin", and won the reputation of "mother professional" with her excellent acting skills.
However, Chen Jin in real life is in stark contrast to her image on the screen.
The actress, who has played the role of a mother many times in the play, has not actually experienced the stage of motherhood in her life, not only has she not been married, but she has never even been in love.
Chen Jin is almost demanding of herself, and many years ago, dissatisfied with her body image, she made up her mind to carry out strict weight management.
According to the actor in the same crew, Chen Jin almost does not eat staple foods such as rice in his daily life, and there is only one peach on the daily menu.
In the face of the concerns and persuasions of the people around her about her extreme diet, Chen Jin was resolute, and the sentence "What's wrong with eating peaches, you look at the monkey" skillfully responded to all the doubts.
This minimalist diet pattern was not only strictly implemented by Chen Jin during the filming, but also adhered to it for a full 20 years even in a non-working state, ingesting only a cup of black coffee and a peach every day.
In addition to maintaining strict self-discipline in diet, Chen Jin is also meticulous in other details of life.
She once reached a consensus with her brother and decided not to marry or have children for life, and agreed to take care of each other in her old age.
However, this seemingly firm vow was put to the test about 20 years ago, when Chen Jin was involved in an affair with a married man, which attracted widespread attention from the outside world.
Now, Chen Jin has entered the age of sixties, and she candidly shared her inner world on a show.
She revealed that she often woke up from her dreams in the middle of the night, trembling with a deep fear of death.
Such a confession can't help but make people wonder if Chen Jin has some remorse for his past choices, especially his vow to meet his brother for the rest of his life, in the face of old age and the impermanence of life?
【1】
A maverick girl in the army compound, influenced by her mother, loves rags and performances
Chen Jin, a woman who grew up in an intellectual family, her father was a knowledgeable university professor, and her mother was an active drama actress on stage.
It is particularly worth mentioning that Chen Jin's parents both have military resumes, and this special family background makes Chen Jin's childhood almost entirely spent in the military compound.
In this big family, Chen Jin is not an only child, she also has an older brother named Chen Zhun.
Due to the heavy work of his parents and the fact that he is often busy with his respective positions, the young Chen Jin is mostly with his brother Chen Zhun as his companion and faces the bits and pieces of life together.
When Chen Jin was still young, her parents sent her and her brother to a long nursery school.
Such childcare facilities usually gather children in the compound, who study and play together, forming a relatively closed circle.
However, the Chen Jin siblings are different in such an environment.
They are alien to the other children in the class, having no interest in the games and toys that the children are passionate about, but instead immersing themselves in their own little world and having a different hobby.
Especially Chen Jin, her personality is independent and unique, in stark contrast to the children's preference for new clothes at the same age, she prefers shabby clothes, and even the newly bought clothes have to be deliberately patched before wearing, this peculiar aesthetic preference is rare among children at that time.
Chen Jin's maverick personality may have been subtly influenced by his mother, who is a drama actor, to a certain extent.
Under the influence of her mother's art, Chen Jin developed a strong interest in the performing arts from a young age, and this interest grew with her and eventually became an integral part of her life.
Whether it is the unique preference for shabby clothes or the love of performing arts, it has left a deep imprint on Chen Jin's growth process, shaping her unique personality and pursuit.
【2】
The rise of the road of acting and the sparkle of gold
With a passionate pursuit of performing arts, Chen Jin resolutely applied for the Shandong Art Institute, while her brother Chen Zheng chose to major in photography.
In the face of a pair of children embarking on the road of art, the parents did not hinder them, but gave them full understanding and support, and they said to the siblings earnestly: "Life is your own, do whatever you want."
Chen Jin kept his father's words in mind, and with his vision and expectation for the future, he entered the dream art school.
From that moment on, she gave her whole body and mind to the stage, determined to break through the world of performance.
Due to the lack of acting foundation, Chen Jin is more diligent and hardworking than other art majors.
Whenever she rehearsed a new play, she always studied the role without sleep or food, often studying until two or three o'clock in the morning, and even rehearsed repeatedly alone in the empty rehearsal hall, until the teacher on duty came to urge her to rest, and she reluctantly left.
In the four years of college, Chen Jin was repeatedly selected as the protagonist with her outstanding appearance and physical condition, and every rehearsal seemed to be surrounded by a halo, and this high-profile state lasted until she graduated.
As a result, she has become a highly sought-after "little influencer" on campus.
After graduating, Chen Jin, the god of luck still favors her.
She was assigned to work in the Air Force Repertory Troupe, which brought together outstanding talents from all over the country, each with unique skills, which made Chen Jin, a newcomer, feel pressure.
She knows that if she wants to stand out in this group of talented and beautiful women, she must rely on solid acting skills and unremitting efforts.
As it turned out, Chen Jin's worries were completely unnecessary.
With her solid acting skills and unique appearance advantages, she was quickly promoted from a supporting role to a leading role.
The first drama she received as the protagonist was "Snow Peak Love", which not only was extremely difficult to perform, but also required her to play five roles by herself, which posed a severe challenge to the comprehensive quality of the actors.
Faced with such a difficult task, Chen Jin not only did not flinch, but was excited.
She knows that the more complex and changeable the role, the more it stimulates her creative passion.
For three consecutive nights, Chen Jin read at night in the brightly lit dormitory, repeatedly figuring out the personality characteristics and psychological motivations of each character, and striving to complete the seamless switching between roles in a short period of time.
The hard work pays off, when "Snow Peak Love" was officially staged, Chen Jin successfully created five characters with different personalities with her precise and delicate acting skills, and every role switch can make the audience have a strong sense of substitution, as if they are in the plot.
With this work, Chen Jin became famous in the repertory troupe and won the 5th Art Show Performance Award in one fell swoop, and her name began to spread quietly in the entertainment industry.
As his fame grew, more and more directors began to notice this budding star.
Among them, including Fan Mingren, an influential director in the industry.
After watching Chen Jin's drama performance, Fan Mingren was deeply attracted by his solid acting skills and unique temperament, so he threw an olive branch to her and invited her to join the filming of the movie "The Devoured Woman".
Although the film did not cause much of a sensation at the time, Chen Jin's wonderful performance in it once again attracted the attention of her peers in the industry, and her talent and potential were further recognized.
As the old saying goes, "It's gold that always shines."
This sentence is very appropriate for Chen Jin, although her acting career started hard, but with her unremitting efforts and extraordinary talent, she finally found her own place in the star-studded entertainment industry.
【3】
From being sought after by tens of thousands of people to being disliked by the director, the sadness and struggle behind extreme weight loss
In 1990, Chen Jin, who was only 26 years old, received an olive branch from director Shi Xuehai and invited her to play the heroine "Change" in the TV series "The Mountain Doesn't Turn and the Water Turns".
The fledgling Chen Jin quickly rose to prominence with this role, and then cooperated with the powerful actor Li Youbin to participate in the filming of the TV series "The Tide Rises and Falls".
For a while, a large number of high-quality film and television resources came one after another, and they took the initiative to knock on the door of this rookie actor.
For Chen Jin, success seems to come so suddenly and easily, and according to this development trend, she will undoubtedly become a rising star, a smash hit.
However, the reality has not developed as expected.
Chen Jin's acting career has not gone to the next level, but has fallen into an unprecedented trough.
What is the reason for this? It turns out that Chen Jin devoted most of his time and energy to the in-depth study of the role during the filming process.
She often stayed up all night studying the script, so immersed in the world of the characters that she forgot to sleep and eat, resulting in a haggard complexion and a disordered biological clock.
Chen Jin often doesn't feel hungry when she's fully engaged in acting, but once she pulls out of her role, hunger rushes over her, forcing her to overeat to fill the void.
However, after the overeating, she would fall into a long period of loss of appetite and eat extremely irregularly.
Over time, Chen Jin's physical condition gradually deteriorated, his figure was out of shape, and his complexion looked much older than his actual age.
She could have gained a foothold in the entertainment industry with her youthful and beautiful image, but now she is troubled by her appearance.
Although Chen Jin is dedicated to improving her acting skills, in the eyes of many directors, her appearance problem is obviously more prominent.
They bluntly said to Chen Jin: "It's not that you can't act, but you look a little fat on the outside, and your complexion is not good."
What's more, he directly ridiculed: "Since you can't eat this line of youth, it's better to change careers as soon as possible, with your current appearance, it is estimated that you can't even be a nanny."
These sharp and hurtful words pierced Chen Jin's heart like a sharp sword.
From the highly sought-after heroine to being rejected by the directors one after another, this huge psychological gap makes it difficult for Chen Jin to accept.
She was puzzled, is it true that in the entertainment industry, the external image is really more important than the internal acting skills? Perhaps in the eyes of some directors, the attractiveness of the image does surpass everything.
Faced with such a grim reality, Chen Jin was deeply shocked, returned home and cried bitterly, and made up her mind to start losing weight strictly.
Not only did she insist on high-intensity exercise every day, but she also decisively quit all carbohydrates, and her diet was limited to one peach a day.
In order to suppress her strong craving for staple food, Chen Jin developed the habit of drinking black coffee, and the bitter taste of coffee made her lose her appetite instantly.
Such an extreme dieting lifestyle, Chen Jin has insisted on it for decades, and has never slackened in the slightest, and even the actors who have worked with her are amazed, saying that Chen Jin is simply "going to become an immortal", because she hardly eats any food.
【4】
Body anxiety and acting mentality behind extreme eating
In 2015, during the filming of the TV series "Complaining about the Family", an incident happened that caused an uproar among the crew and the media.
At lunch on the set, when everyone was sitting around the table to enjoy the food, Chen Jin only took out a peach and ate it alone, which made the actor Chu Zhibo and other staff members who played with him dumbfounded.
Everyone couldn't believe that Chen Jin maintained such an extreme diet day after day.
In the face of everyone's kind words and persuasion, Chen Jin not only did not change, but responded easily with the sentence "What's wrong with eating peaches, you look at the monkey", which made the people present even more stunned.
This matter quickly spread inside and outside the entertainment industry, and even worse, amazing rumors began to circulate that Chen Jin had not eaten staple food for 20 years.
However, this is not the case.
In the interview program of "A Date with Luyu", Chen Jin personally refuted the rumors, explaining that she did not refuse staple foods for a long time, but for a specific period of time, she adopted an extremely harsh diet control and exercise plan.
During this special period, Chen Jin's daily menu consists of only a peach and a cup of coffee, and she also insists that she complete a 1,000-meter swim and a three-hour hot yoga session.
Behind such high-intensity self-restraint is a little-known mental journey.
It turned out that Chen Jin had achieved good results on the drama stage in his early years and won many praises.
However, an audition for a movie role hit her hard.
Chen Jin, who was full of confidence, thought that the role belonged to her, but the director turned her away on the grounds that "your body shape is not suitable for this role".
This defeat made Chen Jin deeply feel the impact of her appearance on her acting career, and since then, she has begun to be overly anxious about her figure.
Although Chen Jin was 1.72 meters tall and weighed only 42 kilograms at that time, she was not fat by conventional standards, but because she was a native of Shandong, she was born with a large skeleton, which made her always feel that her facial contour was too wide and not photogenic enough.
In order to get more opportunities in the highly competitive entertainment industry, Chen Jin chose to shape her ideal body shape in an almost harsh way, which caused all kinds of speculation and misinformation about her eating habits from the outside world.
【5】
Chen Jin's brother and sister agreed not to marry for life, and sticking to their oath caused controversy, and the story behind it was moving
Chen Jin is not only strict with herself in her acting career, but she also upholds high standards in other aspects of her life.
She once reached a consensus with her brother Chen Zhun and decided not to marry or have children for life, and the two supported each other and spent the rest of their lives together when they got old.
Although Chen Jin is an actor with outstanding appearance, and in the more than 40 years since his debut, he has cooperated with many national male gods such as Chen Baoguo , Zhang Jiayi, etc., but there has never been any scandal, which can't help but make people curious about the reason behind it.
After some searching, people found that Chen Jin not only did not have scandals, but what was even more surprising was that at the age of 59, she had never been in love, such information was really shocking.
Chen Jin was born in a happy and harmonious family of four, and she has an older brother Chen Zhun who is two years older than her.
Before Chen Jin was born, Chen Zhun was eagerly looking forward to having a younger sister.
When Chen Jin landed, Chen Zhun, who was only two years old, solemnly declared: "My sister is beautiful, I will protect my sister."
At such a young age, he showed such responsibility and pride, which is enough to see his deep love for his sister.
As Chen Jin gradually grew up, he was always the most dazzling among the students in the same grade, which naturally attracted the attention of some boys.
Once, after school, a male classmate who had a crush on Chen Jin gathered several companions, blocked Chen Jin on the road, and forcibly asked her to be his girlfriend.
Faced with the sudden threat, the young Chen Jin was so frightened that he cried.
Fortunately, Chen Jin and Chen Zhun are in the same school, and Chen Zhun, who learned that his sister was being bullied, immediately stepped forward.
Although he was only two years older than the other party and alone, he had only one belief in his heart: "Protect my sister."
Out of nowhere, Chen Zhun inspired strength and courage to successfully deter the male classmates who harassed Chen Jin, and warned them: "Chen Jin is my sister, you must not bully her again in the future, otherwise I will beat you."
Since then, in order to ensure the safety of his sister, except for class time, Chen Zhun has almost been inseparable by Chen Jin's side, going to and from school together, and visiting his sister from time to time during recess.
When Chen Jin recalled this childhood past, he laughed and said that he was like his brother's "follower", and the relationship between the brother and sister became increasingly close.
On a Mid-Autumn Festival night without his parents, Chen Zhun took on the responsibility of creating a festive atmosphere, carefully preparing all kinds of mooncakes, candies and Chen Jin's favorite dim sum to present a sumptuous family feast.
Under the moonlight, the brother and sister talked about their life ideals and future plans, and Chen Zhun suddenly confessed affectionately: "It would be nice if I could do this every day, I decided not to get married, I will always protect you and accompany you for the rest of my life."
Hearing his brother's affectionate promise, Chen Jin was deeply moved, and also responded: "Then I won't get married, just let you protect me, and I will accompany you for the rest of my life."
At the time, this conversation was regarded as a deep joke between brother and sister, however, Chen Zhun and Chen Jin proved with practical actions that their commitment to each other was not child's play, and even though they were old enough to keep this oath.
In the face of many criticisms and suspicions from the outside world, Chen Jin has always remained calm and indifferent, she doesn't care about other people's eyes, and insists on going her own way.
Despite this, when Chen Jin was 50 years old, she couldn't help but worry about her old age when she saw her father dying: "In the future, when I am old, what should I do if there is no one to take care of me and take care of the aftermath?"
Chen Jin listened to her brother's words, her eyes filled with tears, knowing that although her brother was obsessed with photography and his own life was often chaotic, he was still willing to make such a solemn promise to her, which touched her.
Many people expressed their incomprehension about Chen Jin's brother and sister's unique view of marriage, and even at the beginning of their announcement of their non-marriage agreement, some people maliciously speculated that their brother and sister relationship was impure.
In fact, Chen Jin has a clear understanding of marriage and love, even without the existence of her brother, her past experience will drive her to make such a decision.
Chen Jin's outlook on life and marriage and love, although she seems maverick in the eyes of the world, but for her, it is a choice to be loyal to her heart, and the commitment she and her brother Chen Zhun adhere to together is the most affectionate confession to each other.
【6】
Chen Jin Wugang: Tacit understanding of close friends and their own independent philosophy of life
Chen Jin said frankly that she knows that her personality traits determine that falling in love and getting married is not the best choice.
The main reason for this is that she is too independent and responsible.
On the one hand, she believes that once she establishes a relationship or marriage with another person, she must be responsible for the other party, which is undoubtedly a burden for Chen Jin, who pursues freedom and does not want to be restrained.
On the other hand, she cherishes her personal space and time very much, and does not want to be forced to compromise because she has to sacrifice her lifestyle because of love or marriage.
At the same time, Chen Jin also doesn't want her future partner to go against her heart in order to cater to her, and do some changes that are not sincere.
In her view, everyone is an independent individual, and each other's individuality and choices should be respected, and they should not be forcibly integrated because of love or marriage.
Chen Jin and her brother have the same views on marriage.
As early as their college days, the siblings reached a special pact - they decided not to marry in their lives and chose to be single until they were old.
Not only that, but they also made detailed plans for their future in old age: the older brother wanted to live longer than the younger sister, so that he could continue to take care of his sister in his later years and ensure that she was properly cared for.
For his later life, Chen Jin has a clear vision.
She plans to get rid of all the inconsequential items in her life, keep only a small comfortable house, two sets of clothes and two pairs of shoes, and live a simple and peaceful life.
Chen Jin is particularly fond of basking in the sun, and she believes that it is the best time for her to completely relax and return to herself.
Once when she went out to run errands, she was deeply attracted by the bright sunshine that day, so she simply basked in the small park for more than an hour.
Chen Jin's life philosophy happened to have a deep resonance with his friend Wu Gang.
Wu Gang's childhood experience is similar to hers, due to his parents, he grew up without playmates and was often isolated by his peers, and this loneliness shaped his calm and calm character.
Coincidentally, Chen Jin and Wu Gang both had the experience of serving in the army, and their common life background made them both develop a simple and simple attitude towards life.
In addition to the necessary filming work, they spend most of their time hidden in their daily lives, low-key and indifferent, and only when a new work comes out will the public re-remember this low-key artist.
In life, Wu Gang was known for his good temper and almost never saw him angry.
He loves cleanliness, and even if he lives alone, he can keep his home in order, which even makes Chen Jin, who is a woman, feel ashamed.
Later, when Chen Jin bought a house, he deliberately chose to live in the same community as Wu Gang.
The reason for this is that Chen Jin is not interested in the trivial matters of buying a house, and second, she learned that Wu Gang has a high evaluation of the community, and after several visits, she also felt that the environment was good, so she decided to settle here.
One day, Chen Jin and Wu Gang were photographed by reporters traveling in the same frame.
In the photo, Chen Jin took the vehicle driven by Wu Gang to the office location, and after getting out of the car, she handed over important documents such as the real estate certificate and household registration book to the clerk.
Wu Gang, who was waiting patiently on the side, waited for Chen Jin to finish the handover before slowly getting out of the car.
I saw Chen Jin naturally open the backpack, and Wu Gang casually put the wallet in it, and the two cooperated tacitly, needless to say.
Wu Gang was dressed casually that day, wearing a simple black T-shirt and a cigarette in his mouth, and the whole person looked relaxed and casual.
Although he is over sixty years old, Wu Gang's figure is not out of shape, but his hair has a few more strands of silver than before, but this adds a bit of the charm of a mature man to him.
The friendship and tacit understanding between Chen Jin and Wu Gang are vividly displayed through these daily details, which makes people can't help but be in awe of the deep friendship between these two friends.
【7】
epilogue
For a long time, Wu Gang and Chen Jin, two friends, have lived under the same roof in a low-key manner, although they are not ostentatious to the outside world, their love lives have always maintained a relatively stable state of coexistence.
For nearly two decades, they have chosen to live a barren lifestyle, a choice that has not weakened their deep friendship, but has made their lives more comfortable and comfortable.
After learning about their situation, netizens said that this pair of friends is simply a match made in heaven, and sincerely hope that they can officially come together and share their lives.
Now, they are both approaching the age of sixties, and the need for marriage no longer seems to be a necessity of life, and the relationship status of the two is enough to prove that whether they have a marriage relationship in the legal sense does not affect the deep emotional bond between them.
As a dedicated actor, Chen Jin has already compressed her personal desires to the extreme in order to pursue the peak of her acting career.
However, in the face of sincere love, it is difficult for anyone to be absolutely rational, even Chen Jin is no exception.
In her heart, Wu Gang is the "exception" that makes her unable to stay calm and rational.
Although they have spent a long time together, the absence of children has become a great regret in their lives.
Chen Jin once revealed that she would often wake up in her sleep, and the fear of death and the worry that she would suddenly fall ill and have no one to take care of her often haunted her.
What worries her even more is that there is still a father in her nineties who is sick in bed, and she alone takes care of her.
Faced with such a reality, Chen Jin knows that everything is a foregone conclusion, and she can only choose to either learn to let go and accept everything that life has to offer, or indulge in endless regret and repeatedly chew on those unchangeable pasts.
In the end, Chen Jin couldn't help but throw a hypothetical question to everyone: If time could be turned back and given them another chance to choose again, would they still stick to their original choice, live such a life without marriage or child?
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