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Preface
Who says actresses can't have a perfect life? Who says that achieving a career means breaking a marriage?
The story of Pan Hong, a generation of actresses, is embarrassing, and it has also left a lot of food for thought to the world......
The extraordinary background of Pan Hong, a mixed-race child
In 1954, a special baby girl was born in Shanghai.
She has a delicate face, and her deep facial features reveal a bit of exoticism.
It turned out that her mother was Chinese, but her father was Russian.
This baby girl is Pan Hong, who later became the "Queen of Tragedy".
Pan Hong's parents were not happy because of her birth.
On the contrary, they chose to divorce shortly after Pan Hong was born.
The young Pan Hong couldn't see her father, she grew up in her grandmother's house since she was a child, and the lack of father's love became a big regret in her life.
Her mother loves Pan Hong very much, but as a single mother, she is also under tremendous pressure in life.
Pan Hong learned early on to be independent and strong, and she knew that she could not add to the burden on her mother.
Despite living in poverty, the mother and daughter depend on each other, support each other, and live happily.
The sudden death of his stepfather
The turning point of fate came when Pan Hong was 10 years old.
Her mother's remarriage made Pan Hong feel the love from her "father".
However, the good times did not last long, and the stepfather chose to divorce Pan Hong's mother in order not to affect the family.
Pan Hong had to be separated from her younger sister, and the third sister lived with her stepfather.
The tragedy is not over.
A few months later, the news of her stepfather's death came, and Pan Hong, who was only 10 years old, had to take her ashes and embark on a train to Harbin with her third sister.
Along the way, she clung to the box containing the ashes, tears blurring her vision.
After arriving in Harbin, Pan Hong personally handed over the urn to her stepfather's relatives.
望着骨灰入土，她心如刀绞。
The young heart has endured unimaginable heavy blows, but Pan Hong has shown extraordinary strength.
She wiped away her tears, comforted her heartbroken third sister, and took her to her stepfather's relatives.
He silently stepped on the return train......
Farm life sharpens the will
After graduating from high school, Pan Hong was assigned to work on the farm.
There, she experienced first-hand the hardships of the peasants.
Every day, the heavy farm work and the task of unloading grain and oil almost crushed her thin body.
The long-term work also caused permanent damage to her spine.
But Pan Hong was not knocked down by the difficulty.
During her time on the farm, she always maintained an optimistic and positive attitude, and was active in various literary and artistic activities, and her artistic talent began to emerge.
Her enthusiasm and talent are contagious to those around her, and everyone loves to be with her.
Despite the difficult living conditions, Pan Hong never complained.
Admitted to the School of Drama, the road of acting began
In 1973, Pan Hong received a letter from her mother and learned that several art schools had resumed enrollment.
With the dream of becoming an actress, she decided to rise to the challenge and was admitted to the Shanghai Theater Academy.
In the intense preparation process, Pan Hong practiced her pronunciation and performance every day.
The heavy manual labor on the farm didn't dampen her enthusiasm.
With extraordinary perseverance and talent, Pan Hong finally passed the assessment and became a member of the Academy of Drama.
In the college, Pan Hong met Xi Meijuan, who was also a freshman, and the two became friends.
In her spare time, Pan Hong often takes her classmates home to visit her mother, and in front of her sisters, she also shows the demeanor of an eldest sister.
The leaders of the college praised her as a role model for her classmates, mature and stable, and full of vitality.
Since her sophomore year, Pan Hong began to make cameo appearances in some movie roles, laying the foundation for her future acting career.
In 1977, she was assigned to the Shanghai Film Studio and officially became an actress.
The leader of the studio once commented on her: "This girl is not simple, she has a hard work, and her eyes are full of stubbornness, she will become a big weapon in the future!"
Mijiashan appeared, and love sprouted
In the same year, during the filming of "The Slave's Daughter", Pan Hong met the artist Mi Jiashan.
At that time, Pan Hong was already famous, and her beauty and talent also attracted the attention of Mi Jiashan.
The two met in the crew, and then Mi Jiashan often took her home, and the relationship between the two gradually warmed up in their daily relationship.
In a chat, Pan Hong learned that Mi Jiashan's family was poor and went out to work early to subsidize the family.
This made Pan Hong feel a sense of intimacy, and she felt that Mi Jiashan was a sensible and responsible man.
And Mi Jiashan is also attracted by Pan Hong's simple kindness, and he is willing to be the guardian of her life path.
In 1978, 24-year-old Pan Hong tied the knot with Mi Jiashan.
Her mother was worried that the 8-year-old age difference between the two would cause problems, but Pan Hong firmly believed that if she took care of this relationship with sincerity, she would definitely be happy.
On the day of the wedding, Pan Hong made a promise to support each other and spend her life with Mijiashan.
The pinnacle of his career is coming
In the 80s, Pan Hong's career ushered in its peak.
In 1981, she won the 4th Xiaobaihua Award for Best Actress with "Du Shi Niang", and became famous.
In this movie, Pan Hong plays a woman in a green house named Du Shi Niang.
In order to restore the living state of the character, she deliberately went to the Qinglou to experience life on the spot.
Her professionalism impressed the crew, and the director praised her performance for being delicate and superb.
At the award ceremony, when Pan Hong held the heavy trophy, tears blurred her eyes.
At this moment, all her hard work paid off, and she felt the pride and pride of being an actress.
The following year, the starring "People to Middle Age" won another award and was screened in Japan as a "new Chinese film".
The film focuses on the life of middle-aged intellectuals, and the image of Lu Wenting played by Pan Hong is bright and full, which has won unanimous praise from critics.
A film critic wrote: "Pan Hong's performance perfectly interprets the inner world of contemporary women, she allows us to see,
In a patriarchal society, how does a woman express her independent personality, and she speaks for women in her own way. "
Pan Hong's tragic female images are deeply rooted in the hearts of the people and are known as the "tragic queen".
Films such as "Fire Dragon" and "The Last Queen" have further established her status in the film industry.
In "The Last Queen", she played the sad Empress Dowager Longyu, and the desperate eyes that were helpless but powerless made countless viewers cry.
At the age of 32, Pan Hong appeared on the cover of Time Magazine, becoming the first Chinese artist to win this honor.
In the same year, she was named "Top Ten Movie Stars in the World", and her achievements reached the peak.
However, behind all these honors is her hard work day after day.
She fights in the studio at night, often so tired that she falls asleep on the set.
But the next day, she will still show up in front of the camera on time and devote herself to the new day's work.
Marriage lights up red
However, behind the brilliant career is Pan Hong's gradually broken marriage.
Her crazy work made it difficult for her to juggle her family, and not coming home for a year and a half became the norm.
Mi Jiashan has begged her countless times to slow down and give her family more time.
But Pan Hong couldn't give up her whimsical career, and she didn't want to stop at her peak.
Although Mijiashan was disappointed, he was helpless.
He began to drink alone frequently, using wine to drown his sorrows.
For the sake of her career, Pan Hong resolutely chose to postpone childbirth.
This made Mi Jiashan, who longed for a child, feel disappointed.
The contradiction between the two is on the verge of erupting......
Mi Jiashan asked Pan Hong more than once: "What do you want?" Pan Hong was always silent, she knew that she couldn't give Mi Jiashan the life he wanted.
Gradually, the two began to quarrel endlessly, and the atmosphere at home became very oppressive.
Emotional breakage is an unhealable wound
Finally, Mi Jiashan couldn't stand such a life and filed for divorce.
Pan Hong was unwilling to let go, but she couldn't give up her career.
When they parted, Mi Jiashan took out 8 calendars, and the red marks painted in those circles recorded the only 380 days of time the two spent together in their 8-year marriage.
Pan Hong realized that she had missed too much.
She panicked, and she pleaded with Mijiashan, hoping to give each other a chance to start over.
However, Mi Jiashan's heart was like ashes, and he shook his head and said, "It's us who have all changed."
Pan Hong, maybe letting go is the best choice for us. After finishing speaking, he left without looking back, leaving Pan Hong alone in the same place crying silently.
That day, Pan Hong walked aimlessly on the streets of Shanghai, and the man who once brought her infinite warmth, but now, it has become her eternal pain.
In the second half of my life, I will never forget my old love
After the divorce, Mi Jiashan soon remarried and started a new life.
Pan Hong has never forgotten this relationship, she even attended the press conference of Mi Jiashan's new film, but in exchange for the other party's indifference.
The career continued, and Pan Hong began to try her hand at the role of a middle-aged person.
However, in the dead of night, she can't help but think of the past, the self who gave everything for love.
She often walked alone along the Huangpu River, letting her tears flow freely.
The night wind blew her long hair, and what she couldn't blow away was the sadness in her heart.
Take refuge in Buddhism and seek solace for the soul
In 2003, Pan Hong converted to Buddhism.
She began to spend more time with her mother and no longer blindly pursued fame and fortune.
However, the scars of the past have never been completely erased.
Pan Hong once said in an interview: "I often wonder if I could have given my family more time, would the outcome have been different?"
She can't give an answer because there are no ifs in life.
In the Buddhist hall, Pan Hong would bow down sincerely every day, and she prayed that the Buddha would give her a peaceful heart, so that she would no longer be obsessed with the past, and let her have the courage to face the unknown future.
The troubles of the world are gone, and Pan Hong has found a spiritual home in faith.
She slowly learned to let go, to be tolerant, and to be grateful.
She understands that life is a practice, if the heart does not move, the wind is helpless.
epilogue
Pan Hong used half her life to interpret the difficult balance between career and love.
Her story is embarrassing, but it also leaves a lot of food for future generations.
It is difficult to have both sides in life, and behind the choice, there is always a price.
Perhaps, we must learn to give more warmth and companionship to the people around us when chasing our dreams.
Only in this way can the flower of life bloom more brilliantly.
Pan Hong has gone through 67 spring and autumn seasons.
Despite her imperfections in life, she is still an indelible screen legend in the hearts of the public.
And those shining moments, those profound characters, will also be forever engraved in the hearts of fans.