That year, Liu Xiaoqing had just turned 20 years old. The early summer sun shines on the stage of the auditorium of the art troupe, and the air is filled with the fragrance of flowers. The rehearsal had been going on for more than an hour, and Liu Xiaoqing was leaning against the wall on the side of the stage, supporting his chin with his hands, staring intently at the boy on the stage who was seriously rehearsing - his name was Zhou Yu, and he was Liu Xiaoqing's classmate who had a crush in high school.
How many early mornings, Liu Xiaoqing stood on the rooftop of the top floor of the teaching building, looking at the handsome Zhou Yu on the playground, and the blue hair on his temples. How many midnights, she leaned in front of the small window of the dormitory, imagining how Zhou Yuliang's sparkling eyes would look at her gently.
Unexpectedly, after graduating from high school, they reunited in the art troupe.
"Xiao Xiaoqing, why are you standing here stupidly alone?" Zhou Yu's voice woke Liu Xiaoqing up. She raised her head in a panic, and Zhou Yuzheng walked up to her with a smile, "The rehearsal is over, let's go for a walk by the lake."
Liu Xiaoqing nodded, and the two walked side by side on the tree-lined path. The breeze blows lightly, and the sunlight casts dappled light and shadow through the gaps in the leaves. The lake is as calm as a mirror, reflecting the blue of the sky.
"Xiao Xiaoqing, do you remember when you were in high school?" Zhou Yu asked suddenly.
"When、Of course I remember. Liu Xiaoqing was a little flustered.
"I never told you that I liked you in high school. Zhou Yu said with a red face.
Liu Xiaoqing's eyes widened, and Zhou Yu also had a crush on her? She was a little overwhelmed with excitement, and her cheeks were slightly hot.
"I'm now a graduate and have a stable job. I want to ask you, could you consider staying with me?" Zhou Yu said solemnly.
"Brother Yu...... I like you too. Liu Xiaoqing said shyly.
The two held hands and walked slowly on the shade path. At this moment, Liu Xiaoqing felt unprecedented happiness and satisfaction.
A month later, the director of Bayi Film Factory took a fancy to Liu Xiaoqing's appearance and asked her to join the group to shoot a new play. This is undoubtedly a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for Liu Xiaoqing.
That night, she took Zhou Yu's hand and said with a serious expression: "Brother Yu, I want to take on this role, which is very important for my future development." But I have to be single...... I'm afraid we won't be able to be together anymore.
"No, I have to give it my all without any shackles, this is my only chance to get to the top of my life. Liu Xiaoqing shook his head resolutely and shook off Zhou Yu's hand, "I'm sorry, let's end here."
After saying that, she left without looking back. Leaving Zhou Yu in place, tears welling up in his eyes.
This is the story of Liu Xiaoqing's abandonment of his first love for fame and fortune. She resolutely gave up the person she really loved, just to climb up. From this moment on, in Liu Xiaoqing's heart, fame and fortune are above all else, and she can do whatever it takes to achieve her goals.
This became the root and imprint of her life.
In 1976, at the age of 25, Liu Xiaoqing set foot on the soil of the city of Beijing. I came here to marry a man from Beijing, Wang Li. The subject has good looks, a good family background, and most importantly, can bring Liu Xiaoqing the coveted Beijing hukou.
After getting married, Liu Xiaoqing was busy with work almost all day long, and all the birds were hidden. She used Wang Li's connections in Beijing to begin to march into the film and television industry. The days of filming passed quickly, and Liu Xiaoqing devoted all his energy to establishing his acting career.
At first, Wang Li could understand Liu Xiaoqing's busy work. He smiled and said to his wife: "You develop your career first, I can wait for you, and I will take care of the family."
But after a long time, Wang Li found that Liu Xiaoqing locked himself in the crew all day and rarely went home. Even if I occasionally find time to come back, I just eat and sleep in a hurry and leave.
What started as understanding turned into waiting, and waiting turned into complaining.
"Xiaoqing, can you shoot a few days less and accompany me and my family?" Once, Wang Li finally couldn't help but ask.
"No! now is a critical period for my career to rise, and I must go all out!" Liu Xiaoqing said confidently.
Wang Li's heart was full of disappointment, and he began to realize that Liu Xiaoqing did not marry him for love or family, but purely because he wanted to use his connections and hukou in Beijing.
Now that her popularity is rising, she no longer needs her own help, so this marriage has lost its use value to her.
Sure enough, six years later, Liu Xiaoqing, who had a successful career, made the decision to divorce Wang Li. Under Wang Li's pleading gaze, Liu Xiaoqing calmly packed her luggage and resolutely left the home that had given her endless help.
"Xiaoqing, I have paid my heart to you, how can you abandon me!" Wang Li broke down and shouted.
"I'm sorry, you're useless to me. Liu Xiaoqing said without looking back.
When Wang Li watched her back go away with tears in his eyes, the six years of true love and dedication were trampled on and used without attachment, as if it was empty.
But Liu Xiaoqing has no time to care about Wang Li's heartbreak, she has obtained everything she wants, this man has lost her use value, and she can decisively abandon it and start a new journey.
In 1982, Liu Xiaoqing, who was filming in the crew, met the actor Chen Guojun. Chen Guojun is handsome and rich, married and has children, but this did not prevent Liu Xiaoqing from using all means to seduce him to fall for himself.
"Guojun, I'm so scared alone tonight, can you accompany me?" In the evening, Liu Xiaoqing came to the door of Chen Guojun's room with a cloak and said pitifully.
As a righteous gentleman, Chen Guojun was still bitter and reserved at first, but in the face of Liu Xiaoqing's teasing, he was finally defeated. The two quickly heated up and became lovers.
Liu Xiaoqing asked Chen Guojun to divorce his original wife, and Chen Guojun married Liu Xiaoqing in spite of his wife's pleading.
After marriage, Liu Xiaoqing still went his own way. During a filming location, the crew came to a handsome and cool actor Jiang Wen. Liu Xiaoqing was soon attracted by his appearance, and the two secretly became ambiguously entangled.
This secret matter was soon stabbed in Chen Guojun's ear by the informant.
"Xiaoqing, you actually cheated on me and Jiang Wen!" Chen Guojun was heartbroken.
"I'm sorry, I can't control myself. Liu Xiaoqing said hypocritically.
"Can I forgive you this time, let's start over?" Chen Guojun choked up and pleaded.
"No, you're too weak to be worthy of me. Let's get a divorce. Liu Xiaoqing coldly refused.
Liu Xiaoqing left in style after filing for divorce. She no longer needs Chen Guojun as a springboard, and she is tired of his weak personality. This marriage is like a new toy for her, and she can discard it without nostalgia after the novelty has passed.
Chen Guojun is like a child who has lost candy, and he is in pain. He treated this relationship sincerely, but was ruthlessly trampled on by Liu Xiaoqing. This also made Chen Guojun difficult to let go of for the rest of his life, and Liu Xiaoqing became an eternal thorn in his heart.
In the 90s of the 20th century, middle-aged Liu Xiaoqing suffered a career decline. She was also imprisoned for 422 days for being greedy and not enough to swallow elephants and doing some shady deeds.
The days in prison were long and lonely, and Liu Xiaoqing felt unprecedented despair. At this time, a prisoner named Xiaofeng extended a hand of friendship. He treats Liu Xiaoqing like a sister, and the two of them fake love and get solace in pain.
"With your bosom friend as my companion, it's not hard for me to survive these days. Liu Xiaoqing said to Xiaofeng gratefully.
"Me too. When we go out, we will be together forever. Xiaofeng responded with a smile.
After 422 days, Liu Xiaoqing finally regained his freedom. She happily held Xiaofeng's hand and looked hopefully at the sky, as if seeing a bright future for their happy life.
However, the good times did not last long, and Xiaofeng became interested after freedom. He found that Liu Xiaoqing, who was in his 50s, could no longer satisfy his vanity and longed to find a younger and more beautiful woman.
"Let's break up, I'm tired of you old woman. One day, Xiaofeng said indifferently to Liu Xiaoqing.
"How can you do this to me? Are all the oaths in prison false?" Liu Xiaoqing was teary-eyed.
"I didn't have a choice then, but now it's different. Xiaofeng resolutely left.
Seeing Xiaofeng's back leaving, Liu Xiaoqing's whole person collapsed. She curled up on the ground and cried, finally realizing that Xiaofeng was just using her for fun. This fake love that once supported her through the difficult time is really done, but after all, it is just a passing thing.
Entering the new century, Liu Xiaoqing, who is over half a hundred years old, still stubbornly plays the role of a young girl on the screen. The crew members all know that Liu Xiaoqing is in her 60s, but she is blind to her actual age.
"No, this dress is so old-fashioned, I'm going to wear skinny jeans and a camislet with high heels!" Liu Xiaoqing shouted to the staff.
"Okay, Mr. Liu. The staff reluctantly changed into the costumes and props she had requested.
Liu Xiaoqing in front of the camera deliberately pretended to be girlish, and applied thick makeup to try to hide facial wrinkles. But no disguise can deceive the camera, which calmly records the tragic situation of a woman in her sixties.
As soon as the film was released, it immediately encountered strong disgust from the audience.
"It's so scary, an old woman still wants to pretend to be a girl?"
"I can't stand it at all, I want a refund!"
In the face of the audience's abuse, Liu Xiaoqing not only did not self-examine and correct, but was even more fantasical:
"They don't know the goods! My charm has not diminished at all, and I can still play the role of a girl. ”
So she began to use a lot of beauty products, plastic surgery to polish the skin, and eliminate every fine line on the face. She is wearing clothes that are getting younger and younger, and she forcibly makes a girlish feeling.
But all this is just in vain, and after all, it can't cover up Liu Xiaoqing's inner emptiness and unrealistic and vain imagination of youth. She is reluctant to face up to the fact that she is no longer a girl, which has become a knot in her heart on the road of acting.
In 2013, Ms. Liu, 71, married Wang Xiaoyu, a businessman 13 years her senior, in San Francisco.
The wedding scene was brightly lit and flowers were in full bloom. Liu Xiaoqing was wearing a white wedding dress, and the jewelry he wore was priceless. She took Wang Xiaoyu's hand, and the two of them smiled and walked into the hall.
Guests offered their blessings and held champagne to celebrate the couple's cross-border relationship.
"I do. Liu Xiaoqing solemnly said the oath.
"I do, too. Wang Xiaoyu responded affectionately.
Rings were exchanged, kisses were given, and the crowd applauded. Liu Xiaoqing's face was filled with a happy smile, she finally found a man who was really good to her.
After marriage, Wang Xiaoyu did not treat her as cold as Liu Xiaoqing's predecessors. On the contrary, he is very considerate of her mood, often buys gifts for her, and takes her out on regular trips.
Even if she is over the age of old, Liu Xiaoqing is still the most beautiful and moving bride in Wang Xiaoyu's eyes.
"Honey, this bouquet of roses is for you. "Wang Xiaoyu is often so warm-hearted in love.
"Thank you, I am very happy. Liu Xiaoqing finally felt the warmth of being cherished.
Although the age gap is large, the two have maintained a sweet and harmonious relationship for ten years. With Wang Xiaoyu's company, Liu Xiaoqing in her later years gained unprecedented stability and happiness, and she no longer longed for an external sense of fame and fortune as before.
Looking at the tragic price Liu Xiaoqing once paid for fame and fortune, we should not laugh at her, but maintain sympathy and understanding for her life experience.
When she was young, in order to be promoted, she could resolutely abandon her sincere love. She got married for some kind of benefit, and the relationship was based on exploitation from the beginning.
After being abandoned by his predecessor, Liu Xiaoqing left an indelible wound and shadow in his heart.
As a result, she became more and more unable to face her age, and constantly tried to overcome the loss of youth through various external means. We can't attack her because of this, which stems from the knot in her heart that was hurt by her ex.
She longs to gain recognition and vanity satisfaction by playing the role of a girl, trying to make up for the regrets of life.
Liu Xiaoqing, who is now 71 years old, has finally gained stability here with Wang Xiaoyu. We should be happy for her, that she has found a partner who truly loves her and gives her security, and that is enough.
As ordinary people, we should not repeat Liu Xiaoqing's mistakes, but we also have no right to blame her choice. The important thing is that she should put aside the past, no longer covet superficial fame and fortune, but cherish the hard-won happy life in front of her.
We should also get rid of the worldly view of honor and disgrace, do good deeds in a low-key manner, and be grateful to everyone in our lives who loves us.
From Liu Xiaoqing's life experience, we can draw the following inspirations:
First of all, fame and fortune will eventually come to naught, and it is not worth sacrificing our true feelings to chase. Liu Xiaoqing once climbed to the pinnacle of his career by any means, but the high position only brought emptiness and loneliness.
The pain of being abandoned by her lover made her even more difficult to extricate herself from. Success cannot fill the loneliness of the soul, and feelings are the destination of life.
Second, we should follow the course of life and accept the changes in ourselves. Liu Xiaoqing constantly plays the role of a young girl, trying to escape the fact that she is getting older, which cannot change her life.
We will all grow old, and we should accept our destiny gracefully, and we should not force ourselves to maintain our youth on the outside. Inner maturity is the best posture in the face of aging.
Finally, be grateful to everyone in your life who truly loves each other. Liu Xiaoqing has hurt many people who have loved her, and it was not until she met Wang Xiaoyu that she knew how to cherish it. We should be grateful to our loved ones and friends who support us, and do not easily hurt their true feelings, which is the most precious treasure of life.
Liu Xiaoqing's story reminds us that fame, fortune and affection need to maintain a positive attitude in order to live the meaning and value of life.