I have a daily Xi where I go for a walk with my boyfriend every night. We have been in love and living together for 3 years, the relationship is very stable, we take care of each other every day, and we live quite harmoniously.
When I told my boyfriend, his reaction was even more unexpected than I expected. He behaved coldly, and even avoided talking about it.
After learning the news of my pregnancy, I was deeply confused and conflicted. I used to think that our relationship was very strong, but I didn't expect him to choose to run away from such a situation.
I tried to talk to him in the hope of finding a solution, but he avoided my calls and messages.
It made me feel hopeless and made me doubt his character and sense of responsibility.
This unexpected pregnancy plunged me into an unprecedented conflict and struggle. I miss the good old days between us, and at the same time feel angry and disappointed in him.
What's next?
When I heard the news of my pregnancy, I was torn apart. Every day I think about it and feel anxious about the uncertainty of the future.
With disappointment and doubts about him, I decided to go to the hospital for a check-up. After the examination, the doctor told me that since the pregnancy is almost two months old, there may be some risks to the body to have an abortion.
When I got home, I found my mother and told her about my confusion and contradictions. My mother touched my head affectionately and said to me, "Child, before making a decision, you have to think carefully and think about it before making a choice, no matter what you choose, your mother will support you."
After dinner, my mom and I went for a walk and we sat down on a roadside bench and talked for a long time.
With her by my side, I gradually cleared my mind.
I knew that I needed to have enough courage and determination to keep this child or make other choices.
Being strong does not mean not shedding tears, but learning to face and solve the difficulties in front of you.
The day after I returned home, I decided to look for him again, not to keep him, but to give him a settling and an explanation for myself.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know how to deal with this pregnancy, but I don't want you to affect your choice for my sake.
"I was surprised and touched by his words, and it turned out that he also had the same inner struggles as me. Maybe we all need time and space to reflect and sort out.
Now I am no longer as confused and confused as before. My mother's company and encouragement, his sincerity and frankness, made me understand that some things were not so difficult to solve.
I felt like I was being left behind, I was giving too much in this relationship, and he didn't seem to care.
Just when I was struggling with emotional issues, I received a call from a father. My father was adamant about my relationship, and he thought my boyfriend was too unreliable.
I was deeply moved, but I was still reluctant, thinking that my father's opposition also made me feel very depressed, and for a while I felt hopeless about my family and love.
At this time, I was undecided when I noticed a pain in my abdomen, so I rushed to the hospital.
The unexpected pregnancy had already left me physically and mentally exhausted, and the sudden pain caught me off guard.
Faced with the dual pressure of family and love, I felt like I was in a state of confusion, not knowing what to do next.
I know it's not an easy path, but I also hope to find a path that suits me. Perhaps, this unexpected pregnancy will be an opportunity for me to re-understand myself, my relationship and my family.
Soon, a month passed. I decided to go to him once and have a good talk with him anyway. I hope to be able to find a solution, and as adults, we should all be brave enough to face this accident instead of running away from it.
When he saw me, his attitude was still cold, avoiding my gaze, "There is no future between us, you should solve it yourself."
This sentence made me feel desperate and angry for a moment. I told him that I was pregnant with his child and that we should share the responsibility.
I couldn't control the anger and sadness in my heart, I didn't expect him to become so selfish and cold at this time.
This unexpected pregnancy made me reacquaint myself with him and made me rethink our relationship.
Perhaps, I need to start my life all over again, for the sake of my future and that of my children.
This sudden turn of events plunged me into unprecedented despair and struggle. I felt helpless and lost, but I also knew that I couldn't be trapped in this painful cycle.
What do I do next?