"Don't count the cost, love is love". The familiar melody sounded, and I don't know how many people's memories were aroused.
It's a pity that Chen Lin, the original singer of this song, is not as free and easy as she sings in the song.
In 2009, Chen Lin, who was at the peak of her career, jumped from the 9th floor of the Beijing Olympic Apartment and ended her life.
seems to be cheerful and bold, what did she go through to be so resolute and ruthlessly abandon her elderly mother and die?
Perhaps, we can find the answer from her growth story.
In 1970, Chen Lin was born in an ordinary family in Qing, because there were already 2 older brothers at home, and her parents were busy with work and had no time to take care of her.
When she was 10 months old, she was fostered by her parents at her grandmother's house, and she was fostered for 6 years. I don't know if it's because of this reason that Chen Lin has developed a "pleasing personality".
Growing up, she desperately longed to be loved, and it could even be said that her thirst for love reached paranoid levels. This laid the groundwork for the tragedy of her future life.
After returning home to live with her parents, she often listened to Peking Opera with her father, and sometimes sang along. By chance, she and her father sang a piece of "Home in Anyuan" on stage, which won the love of many people.
When her father saw this, he intended to train her in singing, and also sent her to a professional school.
After several years of professional training, she has become more and more passionate about singing, and has also established her dream: to become a singer.
In 1985, 15-year-old Chen Lin was admitted to the Sichuan Dance Academy, and three years later entered the Sichuan Quyi Troupe, and became a soloist in the troupe with her outstanding timbre.
She should have lived a stable life with an iron rice bowl, but she didn't want to live her life so plainly.
Therefore, she works in the unit during the day and goes to the bar to sing at night. Over time, she gradually gained some popularity, which gave her great encouragement.
She began to believe that maybe she could really carve out her own world in the music world.
So, in 1992, at the age of 22, she resigned and went to Beijing without telling her family, and started a journey to chase her music dream.
Although the days of Beipiao are hard, as long as she can sing, she is willing. She also always believed that she would be seen one day. So, while singing in the bar, she waited for the opportunity.
After a period of time, she ushered in the noble person in her life - Wang Xiaojing.
On this day, she went to work in the bar as usual, and as soon as she opened her mouth, her voice immediately attracted the attention of a man, that is, Wang Xiaojing, one of the "four major producers".
As soon as Chen Lin finished singing, Wang Xiaojing immediately stepped forward and communicated with her. Soon, Chen Lin signed a contract with him.
In 1993, the song "I Will Never Understand Your Tenderness" was born, and Chen Lin became famous overnight, when she was only 23 years old.
Later, because Wang Xiaojing's music company was not very stable, Chen Lin, who was worried about his future development, chose to terminate the contract after the contract expired. Her life took a major turn for the better.
In 1995, after terminating the contract with Wang Xiaojing, Chen Lin met Shen Yongge through a friend's introduction and joined his "Bamboo Book Culture" music company.
After that, she successively launched classic albums such as "Afraid of Falling in Love with You" and "If You Love, You Love", her career went to the next level. At the same time, her relationship with Shen Yongge gradually changed.
Shen Yongge not only gave Chen Lin great support at work, but also took good care of her in life. This made Chen Lin, who was originally lacking in love, fall in love and boldly show her love.
Unexpectedly, I got a response from the other party. As a result, the two developed into lovers and soon got married.
In the early days of marriage, they were also very happy and sweet. However, with the explosion of the song, Chen Lin's work was also forced to be overloaded for a long time, and there was almost no time to rest.
She gradually began to have problems with her body, and once she coughed up blood directly during the recording.
It was then that she realized that something was wrong with her health, and she could no longer continue with all kinds of heavy work.
For the sake of her own health, she discussed with Shen Yongge that she wanted to temporarily retire for a period of time to recuperate and recuperate her body.
Shen Yongge disagreed, she had to continue to endure, and after her health was slightly better, she started performing again.
As a result, there was a gap between the two. Later, Shen Yongge was rumored to have an ambiguous relationship with a singer, and Chen Lin, who was physically and mentally exhausted, chose to divorce.
In fact, Chen Lin at this time has already achieved a lot, and the money she earned is enough for her to live a good life. If she can stop the loss in time, maybe she will have a good life for the rest of her life.
However, she is paranoid about love, and she is like a moth to a fire for love, although she is injured, she still has no hesitation.
Because she poured all her emotions into it, after divorcing her ex-husband, she has been depressed, has no intention of working, and has no hope of living.
At this time, her former colleague Zhang Chaofeng appeared in her life again and opened her heart again.
Zhang Chaofeng once worked as an assistant in Shen Yongge's company and also worked as a guitarist for Chen Lin, but was later fired for taking personal work and disobeying management.
After learning of Chen Lin's divorce, he dumped his girlfriend of 8 years, and often appeared beside her, shushing her and asking for warmth, gentle and considerate. With his help, Chen Lin gradually got out of depression.
Perhaps in order to grasp the only life-saving straw, she pinned her hope and love for the future on this man.
Although everyone around her told her that Zhang Chaofeng was not a good person. Chen Linyi is determined, he has to be. Soon after falling in love, the two got married.
It's a pity that this marriage pushed her directly into the abyss.
After getting married, Zhang Chaofeng soon revealed his true form, not only was he lazy to eat, but he also spent Chen Lin's money unscrupulously.
What's more, he often suspects that his wife and ex-husband are not clear, and his psychology is gradually unbalanced, and then he begins to commit domestic violence and surveillance on Chen Lin. Such a depressing marriage made her extremely painful.
The mental and physical torture also made her have the idea of suicide more than once, relatives and friends felt sorry for her, and they all advised her to cut through the mess quickly and end such an unbearable marriage as soon as possible, but she was slow to make up her mind.
In the end, she chose to give up her life.
October 31, 2009 is not only the birthday of her ex-husband Shen Yongge, but also the 100th anniversary of Zhang Chaofeng and her marriage. I don't know if it was her deliberate choice, on this day, she jumped from the 9th floor and ended her life.
After her death, her mother and brother held a funeral for her, and her friends came to mourn one after another, but the two most important men in her life did not appear.
Later, some media exposed: In order to compete for Chen Lin's inheritance, two men went to court, which was really chilling.
Now, Chen Lin has been away from us for 14 years, and Shen Yongge and Zhang Chaofeng have already lived a new life.
Shen Yongge married someone else not long after divorcing her, and also gave birth to children, and the family was complete. Zhang Chaofeng also formed a new family, with a wife and children.
Only Chen Lin's family has been immersed in pain and can't let go.
Her mother still says, "If only I could have noticed that something was wrong with her when she gave me the money."
It's a pity that no matter how much she blames herself, she can't get her daughter back.
Since her death, every Qingming and her death day, her mother will go to her tomb to talk to her, every year, rain or shine.
The bumpy life of Chen Lin, a generation of singers, came to an end when she died. But her tragedy also made many people sigh.
In fact, your life can be a tragedy or a comedy, because the director is yourself.
On the road of life, we will encounter all kinds of setbacks and ups and downs, but these are not important, as long as you don't give up on yourself, no one can give up on you.
Although love hurts people, we can not cling to others, not humble, not give up, learn to love, learn to be happy, a woman's life has firewood, rice, oil and salt under the eaves, and there should also be poetry and distance between heaven and earth.