Shen Lijun, a little girl born in an ordinary family after the 80s. Since she was a child, her parents found that she has delicate facial features and clear eyebrows, giving people a pure and lovely feeling.
Perhaps because of her genetic advantage, she quickly grew into a standard beauty. Mom and Dad saw that their daughter was outstanding, so they took the initiative to contact some surrounding modeling agencies.
Sure enough, many companies are very interested in newcomers like Shen Lijun and have thrown olive branches to her.
In 2003, at the age of 20, Shen Lijun signed a contract to become a newcomer to a modeling agency and began to shoot flat photos and covers for some magazines. During this period, she also received an advertising opportunity for a game brand.
This advertisement attracted countless eyeballs on the first day it was put on the Internet, and Shen Lijun quickly became popular on the Internet, and was known as the "predecessor of Internet celebrity".
Three years later, in 2006, Shen Lijun left the original company and officially entered the film and television industry. She has starred in two movies that have received high attention, "The 601st Call" and "The Past Can Only Be Recalled".
Although she is not the leading actor, playing on the same stage with Cecilia Cheung, Hu Ge and other first-line stars has also made Shen Lijun famous in the circle. Her acting skills and appearance have been recognized by the film side.
In 2009, Shen Lijun ushered in an important opportunity in her life and collaborated with the popular actor Louis Koo in a light comedy "Happy Family". This is also her first time as a female lead.
After the release of this movie, it received extremely high praise and word of mouth. Shen Lijun became popular with her outstanding performance and successfully advanced to the list of first-line actresses. Since then, her life has entered another level.
In 2010, 27-year-old Shen Lijun met Alan, a rich second-generation man, at a friend's wedding. The two fell in love at first sight and quickly entered into marriage three months later.
At the beginning of the marriage, Shen Lijun felt that her husband was considerate and humorous, and he was a perfect boyfriend and would be a perfect husband. After getting married, she wanted to get pregnant, have children, and get more love.
However, she was weak and not easy to conceive since she was a child. After many failures, she finally gave birth to her son in great pain.
After giving birth, her physical condition deteriorated. During the 3-month postpartum recovery period, she had dizziness and headaches every day, and her limbs were weak. At this time, she found that her husband's personality had suddenly changed drastically, and he was no longer considerate of himself, let alone raising children.
He doesn't go home at night under the excuse of being busy with work all day long, but in fact he has a young and beautiful junior outside. Shen Lijun's heart was like a knife, she broke down and cried bitterly, questioning the truth about her husband's affair.
Alan apologetically admits his mistake and assures her that he will never do it again.
In 2014, Shen Lijun became pregnant again. When she was 5 months old, she inadvertently found out that her husband had been supporting a woman for a long time, and the two had a close relationship. She couldn't stand it anymore and scolded her husband for being inhumane and filed for divorce.
Alan begs for her forgiveness, she can't bear to let her child lose his father, so she can only accept the reality with red eyes.
In the days that followed, she suffered from depression. During the day, she takes the baby to cook and do housework, and waits for her unfaithful husband to return home at night. Alan not only continued to have an affair, but also pampered Mistress in front of her.
She reluctantly told herself that she still had two children to take care of her, and that this was the reason for her life.
Children are the jewel of every mother's palm. Although life has long been in a slump, Shen Lijun will still cheer up in front of the two little lives. She will amuse them, buy toys they like, and try to hide the ugly truth in the family.
But she knew that she couldn't last long and had to make a choice.
Divorce will give you a new lease on life, and that is the easiest choice. But this means that she is reluctant to say goodbye to her child. Taking them away and leaving them because they have no financial resources, reality ruthlessly dismisses this idea.
In the dead of night, her heart is like a knife. Is it just to spend the rest of her life at the mercy of fate?
In 2018, tragedy struck without warning. Doctors diagnosed her with cervical cancer. When her husband learned about this, he not only didn't care, but also thought she was lazy and didn't work.
Shen Lijun was completely devastated at this moment, and she realized that she would not live long. What else can be done for the child before she dies?
Finally, in the early hours of the morning on a rainy day. She got up and covered her two sleeping children with the quilt and gently packed everything up. Then she wrote a suicide note, tearfully explaining her children's last wishes.
She told them to take care of each other, study diligently, and grow up happily. He also said that he would turn into the brightest star in the sky and guard them forever.
After writing, tears dripped on the paper. She crept onto the balcony and looked out over the illuminated city from 28 floors. The steel is cold, and the traffic is busy.
One day in September 2018, it was raining heavily in Shanghai. Outside the windows of high-rise buildings, raindrops hit the glass intensively. In a mansion on the 28th floor, the balcony door to the master bedroom is gently opened.
Shen Lijun was draped in pajamas and stepped barefoot on the cold ground of the balcony. She looked lonely and resolute, and looked at her feet with mournful eyes. It only takes a few seconds to jump from here and end this long and painful life.
She began to recall the joy and longing when she first debuted, when she was young and beautiful, and her future was bright. to the sweetness and happiness of marrying a rich husband, she fantasized about perfect love and family.
However, the harsh reality has made it all come to naught, and she lives like the walking dead.
In fact, she is also eager to struggle again to see if fate will give her a turnaround. After all, she was also only 35 years old and was supposed to live. However, cancer made her realize that her time was running out.
So she silently said goodbye to the children and the world in her heart.
Shen Lijun thought of the women who were violently committed suicide by their husbands in the social news, and she wanted to join them. Most of them come from ordinary families, marry rich families as young grandmothers, and fantasize about living a good life.
Later, I found out that behind it was unfathomable despair. It is this seemingly glamorous social system that forces them to a dead end. It is also those cold and ruthless men who let them die in pain.
In the wind and rain, she finally took that step...... Leaving only two innocent children, struggling with this harsh reality.