Dictation: Li Kai
Editor|Lao Yu
"Recently, it has been cold, and people on the street have begun to wear cotton coats and down jackets, and have begun to prepare for the harsh winter. ”
When it's cold, many people must always think of their hometown, their parents and some past events.
At least in the 20 years since I went out to work, whenever the weather plummets, I always think of my hometown in the countryside for the first time.
But when I went back to my hometown today, I saw the military coat hanging on the wall, but I burst into tears, and I remembered my father, who had passed away.
When I was in high school, I had a fierce quarrel with my father because of this military coat, which broke my father's heart, but I could no longer apologize to him.
Hello everyone, my name is Li Kai and I am 38 years old.
Yesterday and Saturday, the weather in Guangzhou plummeted, and I was wearing short sleeves the day before yesterday, but I had already started to add two more clothes yesterday.
As soon as it was cold, I thought of my mother, who was alone in my hometown.
I thought I would go home for the New Year in two months, but I still couldn't hold back, and I suddenly wanted to go home to visit her yesterday.
I haven't been home for more than half a year, and I am naturally in a good mood when I go to my hometown and countryside.
As soon as I got home, my mother boiled me two eggs as usual.
Add some wolfberry, add some rice wine and sugar, and burn and cook your own firewood in the countryside, which brings a kind of fireworks.
Drink it steaming, and the fatigue of driving all the way will disappear in an instant.
After eating, I gave my mother the gifts I had brought home, and then I told her to rest and I came to clean up the house and clean up.
In the winter, my mother has rheumatism, and I don't want her to touch too much cold water.
I cleaned up my mother's room, then cleaned the living room, and finally went into my father's room.
But when I walked into my father's room, before I started cleaning, I was momentarily stunned and motionless when I looked at the green military coat hanging on the nails on the wall.
After a long period of relief, I took off my military coat, put it on myself, and looked at myself in the mirror, and I began to cry.
Because I remembered the experience of my father riding a motorcycle from the countryside to visit me in the winter when I was in my third year of high school.
In the third year of high school that year, the weather was very cold, and many places in my hometown had begun to snow and freeze.
I went to a closed school and could only go home once every six months.
I distinctly remember that it was a Friday, and I was able to take the bus home just after that day's class.
Coincidentally, it was 11:50 a.m., just after the last class of the morning, when everyone was about to go to dinner, my father suddenly stood under the flagpole of the school building, waiting for me there.
Looking at my father's familiar figure, I did not feel surprised or surprised, nor did I feel sympathy for him, but immediately gave birth to a feeling of escape.
But my father was standing there, and I had no choice but to go down as fast as I could and run in front of him.
When my father saw me coming, he also trotted at me.
Before my father could speak, I said with an unhappy face, "Dad, why are you here?"
Father: Xiao Kai, it's cold today, and your mother said that you didn't bring any warm clothes to school last time, for fear that you would freeze.
I've looked at the weather forecast for the next period of time, and the weather will continue to cool down, so I'm here today to deliver your clothes.
After the father finished speaking, he took something out of the bag.
Frankly, at that moment I wanted to find a place to get into it because I felt so humiliated.
Father and son stood under the flag-raising platform, and the father was dusty and carrying a snake leash.
As soon as my father took out my mother's pickled dried radish, I hurriedly stuffed him back, for fear that my father would come up with something strange.
At this time, many students who came and went began to look at me.
I was so embarrassed by this that I quickly dragged my father out of here and went to the most remote part of the school, never letting anyone see us again.
At this time, my father began to take out things constantly, in addition to the dried radish just now, there were also a few steamed buns, and my father asked me to eat them while they were hot, which he had just bought from the steamed bun shop near the school.
In addition to this, the father took out two sets of clothes that he wore inside, as well as a coat.
In the end, my father said triumphantly: Xiao Kai, Dad brought you a dress that can definitely survive the winter this time.
I thought my father had bought something good.
Unexpectedly, my father took out a military coat.
Looking at this military coat, I was still a little expectant just now, but suddenly it dimmed.
Because I think this military coat is old and dirty, I have watched my father wear it since I was a child, and I absolutely can't accept that I am walking on campus wearing him.
Except for the two close-fitting clothes, I asked him to take back the rest of the things my father gave me.
But my father said: No, Xiao Kai, the weather forecast says that it will be colder in the next few days, you must wear this military coat, don't dislike him for not looking good, he is very warm.
Seeing that my father kept saying that I had to return the things to him again, and then told him to leave quickly and not stay at the school.
I said to my father, "You are in such a hurry to come to school to find me, I will go home today, why do you want to come all the way?"
After hearing this, my father immediately patted the back of his head, and then said with a simple smile: Oh, Dad forgot, I am a worker, how can I remember the day of the week.
I shirked it several times and asked my father to leave through the side door of the school, and only after watching him leave did I return to my dormitory.
But I didn't think about it, not long after I sat down, there was a voice outside the door.
A classmate said: "Li Kai is here, and he is in this dormitory." ”
Then came the father's thanks.
When I heard my father's voice, I wanted to run, but my father had already entered before me.
Father said: Xiao Kai, you just listen to Dad's words, put on this military coat, don't freeze and catch a cold, you can just wear it when you go home in the afternoon.
There are also these steamed buns, Dad is not willing to eat them, and he will give them to you.
I didn't want to discuss it with my father anymore because my classmates were watching.
At that moment, I just wanted to hurry up and send my father away, so I reluctantly took my father's military coat and steamed buns, and then asked him to leave quickly.
After my father left, I put my military coat and steamed buns on the bed with a blank face.
The classmates immediately gathered around and began to joke about the military coat.
Someone said: Isn't this what the people in the TV series wear to fight?
Someone else said: I remember my 70-year-old grandfather liked to wear this kind of clothes.
Now everyone wears down jackets, who still wears them.
Everyone joked about their clothes, and some even threw them on their bodies, and there was a lot of laughter around them.
Maybe there was no ill will, but I was very sad, because I had a strong sense of vanity and a sensitive person.
I immediately got up and grabbed my clothes and walked out of the door, my father went downstairs slowly, I chased from the fifth floor to the third floor, and my father walked downstairs.
I said loudly to my father across the third floor: Dad, I don't want these clothes, the soil is getting rid of slag.
You're not afraid of being embarrassed, I'm afraid, and then I angrily threw my clothes down from the upper floor to him, and by the way, I threw down the steamed buns.
After that, he left without looking back.
But when I returned to the dormitory and calmed down, I began to blame myself a little bit again, and I didn't have a bad attitude just now.
In particular, a classmate came back and told me that I felt even more guilty after he saw his father leave with tears in his eyes.
I ran to the school gate as fast as I could, trying to catch up with my father and ask him to get his clothes back.
But it was too late, the father had already left on his motorcycle.
In the afternoon, I took the car home, but my father was not at home.
The mother said: My father and others have gone to work on a day trip, and it may not be back until a few days later.
After that, my mother said: Your father left 200 yuan before leaving, let me buy a chicken and come back to stew soup for you to replenish your body, you are under a lot Xi of pressure to study, and you can't keep up with nutrition.
At this moment, I felt even more guilty.
I asked my mother, "Did Dad say anything before he left?"
Mother shook her head: No, I didn't say anything, he went to school in the morning and came back after delivering your clothes.
But he asked me, what is a down jacket? I don't know why he asked that.
My father was away for two days, and I went back to school two days later.
In this way, the apology in my mouth was never spoken, until I came out to work for many years, and I never mentioned the incident to my father.
I always wanted to find a chance to apologize, but until my father died unexpectedly, I didn't say anything.
For so many years, I often dreamed about this at night, and I always felt guilty in my dreams.
I just went home this time and saw the military coat hanging in my father's room, and after wearing it on my body, I couldn't suppress my feelings anymore.
I sat on the bed crying and didn't notice my mother coming in.
When my mother saw me crying, she comforted: Xiao Kai, your father has been gone for so many years, and you are a father yourself, so there is no need to be sad anymore.
I asked my mother where I got this military coat.
Mother: I used to be in the closet in my room, but this year I took it out to dry it, and then I hung it in your dad's room.
When your dad was alive, his favorite was this dress, I remember that when your dad was young, he saved a long time to buy this dress, and I heard that he still asked someone to buy it.
Since you were born, your dad has not been very willing to spend money on clothes.
I heard that this dress is quite warm, you are old now, let alone wearing this dress, it really looks a bit like your dad.
My mother said that I was dressed a bit like my father, and it suddenly made me feel better.
I looked in the mirror and said to my mother, "Mom, I want to take this dress with me, and it will be mine from now on."
Mother: Your father's things are your things, take them away if you like them, don't dislike the old and dirty clothes, remember to send them home if you don't want them in the future, don't throw them away.
After saying goodbye to my mother, I went back to my house with my clothes.
After that, I rearranged the wardrobe at home to make room for my father's military coat.
The wife asked puzzledly: Why did you bring back an old dress, why don't you wear a down jacket, light and warm.
But I said to my wife: This dress is priceless, you can throw away any dress, you can't throw away this dress, I want to keep him forever.
Seeing that I was so serious, my wife also nodded and said that she would take good care of it.
Looking at my father's clothes, I began to feel some warmth in my heart, and in a few years, my child will also be in high school.
Now, I can finally understand my father's state of mind.
And I am also ashamed of who I was back then, and from now on I will take good care of this dress and tell the story of this dress to my children and grandchildren.
Finally, I hope that my experience can bring you some reference.
Don't dislike your parents, don't dislike their chatter, because they will always give us what they think is the most precious thing.