I've been a naughty kid since I was a kid and always like to play with the neighbors. Among them, there is a little boy named Liu Lei, and we get along the best. Liu Lei is two years older than me and always takes care of me like a little brother. We've been playing together for 4 years and we've become close friends among neighbors. Mom always said that the two of us were like twin brothers and sisters when we were kids.
I still remember that time, our neighbors had a dinner, and everyone gathered around to take a group photo, and Liu Lei and I stood at the front. After the photo was taken, my mother looked at it, pointed at Liu Lei and said, "He is good to you, but you can't be together in the future." He's a neighbor, and he's older than you, and he's going to have a lot of problems in the future. ”
I didn't understand what my mother meant at the time, but I looked at her serious expression and was a little puzzled. Later, my mother began to frequently make excuses not to let me play with Liu Lei, and asked me not to contact him. I don't understand why my mother did this, and I don't want to give up the friendship between me and Liu Lei.
When I saw Liu Lei, he always avoided me and deliberately didn't talk to me, which made me feel a little distressed. I asked my mother if it was because of her that Liu Lei would treat me like this, but my mother just sighed and didn't answer my question.
At a dinner party, my mother suddenly asked to take a photo of our brother and sister, and she said that this photo would determine our lifelong events. I don't know what my mother is thinking, but I know that the relationship between me and Liu Lei is sincere.
Liu Lei and I stood together, and my mother took that group photo. Facing the camera, Liu Lei and I were a little cramped, but we still squeezed out a smile. After the group photo was taken, my mother looked at the photo and was silent for a while, then said to me, "From now on, you shouldn't see each other again." ”
Liu Lei and I were a little stunned, not knowing what to say. Within a few days, Liu Lei's family moved away, and I never saw him again. Mom never mentioned Liu Lei again, as if we had never crossed paths, as if Liu Lei had completely disappeared from my life.
This incident made me reflect on my own growth. I learned that parents are always looking for the good of their children, and their worries are nothing more than love for me. However, in the face of the friendship between me and Liu Lei, they chose to deal with it in this way, which made me feel sad and helpless. I don't know what the future holds, but I know that I will always miss that wonderful neighborhood friendship.
After a while, I thought that my thoughts about Liu Lei would slowly fade, but this was not the case. Whenever I walked in front of their house, I couldn't help but take a second look, only to find that the garden in front of my house was deserted and the path was full of fallen leaves. When they moved out, the whole neighborhood seemed to lose some of its life.
I tried to gain some understanding of my mother's decision, but I couldn't let go of it anyway. Gradually, I began to realize that my mother may have some unspeakable secrets deep down, and her past seems to be closely connected to the friendship between me and Liu Lei.
One day, I found an old photo in my mother's drawer, showing a young mother holding a newborn baby in both hands, and the man standing next to her was Liu Lei's father. The man in the photo looks very rusty, but his eyes are full of love for the child. It dawned on me that my mom had been watching over me because she had been through a difficult emotional experience. Maybe the reason why she rejected Liu Lei for me was not entirely out of friendship between me and Liu Lei, but because of her own experience.
I started trying to talk to my mom about the picture and her past, but she kept avoiding. I felt very depressed and had a sense of powerlessness in a part of my family that I had never been able to reach. At the same time, I began to doubt my own emotions and friendships, and I was afraid of hurting myself again when I was committed to someone else's genuine feelings.
Life goes on, and I'm slowly growing. But my thoughts about my mother and Liu Lei have always been with me. Maybe one day in the future, I will solve this problem and find the answer that belongs to me and my mother.
After a period of adjustment, I slowly got used to Xi days without Liu Lei. My mother was as good to me as before, but it seemed to be a little more distance. I think it's all because of that group photo. I don't know exactly what that picture means, but I know it changes a lot of things.
I started to get disappointed with my mom's actions, and I didn't understand why she was doing it. I tried to ask my mother about Liu Lei, but every time she avoided it. Once, I saw my cousin talking to my mother, and I secretly heard them talking about Liu Lei. I couldn't help but stop and listen to their conversation.
"How is he now?" I heard my mother ask.
"His family moved to another city, and it seems that something is going wrong financially. The cousin replied.
"That's good, so it doesn't bother our house anymore. Mom's tone was cold.
I felt heartache, it turned out that Liu Lei moved because of financial difficulties. Did Mom decide that we couldn't see each other again because of that? I was a little angry, but I couldn't do anything about it. I don't know what to do, my heart is full of helplessness for my mother and guilt for Liu Lei.
In the days that followed, I was in a very low mood. I am no longer as lively and cheerful as I used to be, but have become taciturn. Mom and Dad noticed the change in me and started trying to communicate with me. But every time I talk about Liu Lei, I choose to avoid it. I didn't know how to deal with all this, and the confusion in my mind grew more and more.
One day, my mom came to me out of the blue, and she looked a little hesitant: "Baby, mom was wrong, I'm sorry." I was stunned, I didn't expect my mother to take the initiative to apologize to me. She confessed that she gave up the friendship between me and Liu Lei and did not stand on my side. She admitted that she had made the wrong decision because of her selfishness, and she tried to explain to me why she did it, but I didn't listen. I just felt the grievances in my heart welling up all at once.
"I don't know what to do anymore, Mom. I really miss Liu Lei, and I don't want to lose contact with him. My voice trembled a little.
Mom was silent for a while, she hugged me and said softly: "Baby, Liu Lei has not forgotten you, and he misses you too." I would like to support you in keeping in touch. This sentence brought tears to my eyes instantly, and I knew that at this moment, the relationship between me and my mom had taken a big step. Although I still have doubts in my heart, I feel that my heart is gradually relieved.
I still remember the time when I parted with Liu Lei, I looked at the door of their house alone, and my heart ached. After that, there was some estrangement between me and my mom, although she didn't show it much on the surface. I know that she is for my good, but whenever I think of Liu Lei, I feel a little resentful.
Time passed quickly, and I grew up and entered puberty. That day, I applied to my mother for the first time to go to the cinema with my classmate Xiao Wang. I thought my mother would agree without hesitation, but she frowned and said to me with a serious expression: "You are still young, not suitable for love, and concentrating on Xi is the most important thing." ”
I was a little surprised by my mother's answer. I don't understand why she would be so opposed to my request. I tried to communicate with my mother, but she was always hesitant and didn't want to talk more about it.
At the same time, I also noticed that my father's attitude towards me had changed a little, and he always urged me to correct my behavior with a serious expression, which made me feel a little uncomfortable. This confused me, and a hint of unhappiness gradually rose in my heart.
Gradually, I noticed that there seemed to be some changes in my home that I couldn't understand. I wanted to put it all in order, but I couldn't find the right opportunity to be honest with my parents. In this atmosphere, the relationship between me and my family became a little delicate. I felt a little uneasy about what was going on around me, and there seemed to be an oppressive atmosphere at home.
I'm tempted to figure out what these contradictions and underlying problems are, but I can't find an entry point. Perhaps, only by waiting for the time will I be able to figure everything out.
I haven't been in touch with Liu Lei for a long time. It's as if our friendship never happened, but I can't let go of it. Time passed quickly, I grew up, went to college, and made some new friends. However, no matter what happened, I still couldn't let go of Liu Lei in my heart.
During a vacation from college, I went home to visit my parents. I felt like I had matured a lot, so I decided to be open and honest with my mom about why she wanted us separated. Mom always shy away from the topic, saying that I was too young to understand. This time, I was determined to ask her to tell me the truth.
"Mom, I've always been very concerned, why do you have to separate me from Liu Lei? He is very good to me, we are true friends. I said to my mother.
Mom looked at me with tears in her eyes. "Because our family and Liu Lei's family have a holiday. When you were very young, Liu Lei's mother and I had an unpleasant quarrel over some trivial matters. Anyway, it's our family that's doing something wrong. At that time, he vowed to cut off contact with the children of our two families, and never have contact with each other again. ”
I was stunned, I never thought that my parents would be involved. The friendship between me and Liu Lei turned out to be so connected to the conflict between my family, which made me feel complicated.
"But Mom, we are two children, how can our simple friendship become a contradiction between you adults? I don't think you have done it right, how can you limit our friendship because of your holiday?" I said with some excitement.
Mom wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and held my hand tightly, "I'm sorry, it's my mother who is bad." I shouldn't involve the conflict between our family and Liu Lei's family to the friendship between you and Liu Lei. You are innocent children and should not be burdened with the strife of our adults. I thought it was too simplistic. ”
I know that my mother is also for our good, she didn't sleep well all night, and she felt guilty for our friendship. I hugged my mom gently, and I saw a hint of sadness in her eyes.
This homecoming has taught me a lot of things. Conflicts between family members may implicate children's friendships, but we should treat them with understanding and tolerance. I decided to reconnect with Liu Lei, and I didn't want to ruin our sincere friendship because of family matters.