I remember it was a sunny morning, and the house was still empty, and it was just me and my dad at home. I sat at the table eating breakfast, and my dad sat on the couch with the newspaper and read.
He smiled and said to me, "Miss, do you have time to play basketball together?" I stood up, looked at him and said, "Okay, I'll go change my clothes."
When I got back to the living room, he couldn't wait to pull me out the door. We cheered all the way, and he kept complimenting me on being a great athlete.
That day, we played all morning and didn't stop until the midday sun became a little harsh.
More than ten years have passed in a flash, and I am already a woman who has been divorced three times. Every marriage was a failed experience for me, but I never gave up on the pursuit of happiness.
When my first marriage failed, Zhang Yu was always by my side. He was always there for me when I was at my worst, encouraging me with his optimistic personality and making me believe that happiness would come to me.
It wasn't until after my third divorce that I started to re-examine my life.
The conversation with Zhang Yu made me slowly understand some things. He taught me that kindness is important, but it requires a wise heart.
His words made me pause, and I began to understand the truth of life.
"Liu Yue, you have to know how to protect yourself, don't always put the interests of others first, your own happiness is also very important.
Getting along with Zhang Yu also made me re-examine my emotions. Perhaps, this time, I should think about our relationship.
Stepping out of the shadow of marriage, I re-examined Zhang Yu's special concern for me. Perhaps with his patient company, my heart has slowly moved towards him.
The mother's voice revealed anxiety: "Yue'er, come back quickly, Dad is sick."
It turned out that after I left home for many years, my father's health had not been very good. And this time it was because he had a heart attack again.
My mother looked at my father with teary eyes, and I knew the anxiety and uneasiness in her heart.
The family was again in a state of chaos and heaviness. I stayed with my father during the day and helped my mother with household chores at night.
However, my younger brother was very unhappy with Zhang Yu's appearance. Every time he saw Zhang Yu, he kept a straight face, and even provoked Zhang Yu intentionally or unintentionally.
I tried to find a chance to talk to him, but I couldn't get the point every time. I know that some things take time to change.
During the days when his father was hospitalized, the younger brother's dissatisfaction also made the family atmosphere a little tense. I tried to mediate, but my brother seemed to be more and more distant from me, and our relationship seemed to become distant.
At the same time, Zhang Yu's companionship and care also made me quite gratified. He was always there when I needed it, giving me support and encouragement.
However, his younger brother's attitude towards him has always been cold.
This family atmosphere was exhausting and I tried to find a balance from it, but it was always difficult.
But perhaps, family disputes cannot be resolved overnight.
No matter what, I can't give up on my family. I know in my heart that all of this will take time and we need to face it together.
As the days of my father's hospitalization passed, I also understood that it was not easy to resolve conflicts in the family. I need to face all this with more wisdom and patience.
However, just as I was trying to re-examine my life and emotions, an unexpected event disrupted my train of thought.
My family was not harmonious, and after my father died, my mother raised me and my brother alone. When I got divorced, I went back to my hometown and my mother didn't give me much comfort.
We barely had much contact, and our hearts were full of contradictions and estrangements.
The phone call at this time broke my plan to think about the future by Zhang Yu's side, and I didn't know whether to go home or not.
I nodded, and I knew I had to go back and see Mom, even though there was so much friction and confusion between us.
Hurrying back to my hometown, I panicked. In the hospital, when I saw my mother suffering from illness, my heart felt like it was tugging.
However, when I decided to take care of her, my mother did not accept my kindness. She looked at me with a cold gaze, without even making eye contact.
I didn't know how to deal with my mom or how to communicate with her. During my days in the hospital, I saw my mother's coldness towards me, and I inevitably felt a little aggrieved in my heart.
Soon, the news of my third divorce spread, much to the regret of my relatives and friends at home. Mom and Dad also came to visit me, and they were very concerned about me.
This time, however, they started to get a little anxious, and they were worried that I was going to be caught in an emotional spiral again.
"Yue'er, you have to start thinking about your future and stop being so impulsive. "Mom held my hand in her palm, full of worry.
"Yes, daughter, your successive divorces have worried us. You have to learn to think calmly and not always act impulsively.
Their words made me feel a little aggrieved, I always felt that my choice was right, but looking at their worried eyes, I didn't want them to worry about me anymore.
"Mom, Dad, I'll think about it. "I tried to keep smiling.
After leaving with my mom and dad, I sat alone on the couch and fell into deep thought. I understand that their worries are motivated by love for me, but my own happiness is also very important.
At this time, Zhang Yu's call came. "Yue, I know you must be very uncomfortable, I want to ask you to come out and have a good talk.
I watched the phone for a while, but finally pressed the answer button.
Sitting in the café, Zhang Yu listened carefully to my complaints and confusion.
"Yue, I know you've had enough, but you have to re-examine yourself and find the problem. Perhaps, you need to give yourself some time and don't rush to commit to a relationship again.
I nodded, deeply touched.
The conversation with Zhang Yu touched me deeply and made me more aware of my situation. Perhaps, he was right, I need to give myself some time to adjust my mentality.
However, just when I decided to live on my own for a while, an accident from my family complicated everything.
"Yue'er, you have to come back quickly, this time Dad is very sick, and we need you by our side. Mom's voice revealed anxiety and helplessness.
I didn't know what to do for a while, and the trauma of divorce and family accidents were intertwined, and I felt extremely heavy.
I tried my best to adapt to this new state and try to become the wise and kind woman in Zhang Yu's eyes. However, among the family members, a new contradiction begins.
They began to look for all kinds of blind dates, hoping that I could find a stable family as soon as possible. I understand their worries and expectations, but I don't want to fall back into the quagmire of marriage.
Zhang Yu was in a dilemma, he loved me, but he also respected my choice. He has been by my side to support me silently when I was facing the strong pressure of my family, which gave me a lot of strength.
During this time, I was constantly thinking about my life and my future, and I began to try to learn to communicate with my family and try to make them understand my choice.
And in the face of his love, am I ready to accept it?
My life has never been more complicated, but I know that these are the ways to grow.
However, the future is still uncertain, and there are many challenges and choices to face. I know, maybe that's the beauty of life.