For seven years, because of my participation in the filming of "body art", I have been criticized and abused, and I feel that my youth has completely gone to waste.
As the most daring practitioner of body art in China, she is also one of the most noticed.
Zhang Xiaoyu quickly became popular on the Internet in 2007 with her bold "large-scale art photos", which shocked people.
She is the kind of woman who can carry the word "nude model" and is a super popular star.
Her popularity back then pales in comparison to today's internet celebrities.
Years later, she is approaching the age of forty, yet she is still alone, living a life of displacement every day.
What has this once popular mannequin experienced over the years? Why disappear without a trace, without a fixed residence?
In 1985, Zhang Xiaoyu was born in a rural family, she is an authentic Harbin girl.
Despite his family's poverty, Zhang Xiaoyu never slackened his efforts. In the eyes of teachers and parents, she has always been regarded as an excellent child.
Zhang Xiaoyu was successfully admitted to Beihua University after the college entrance examination.
Zhang Xiaoyu's impression on anyone is low-key, she does not have any bad habits, and she completely shows a well-behaved and cute image.
She joined a charitable organization during her sophomore year and is actively involved in many volunteer jobs.
In the same year, Zhang Xiaoyu stumbled upon the field of "body art", a discovery that brought about a huge change in her destiny. The discovery took place at an event at the school.
In European and American countries, this art is very popular and has a long history.
Zhang Xiaoyu saw this novelty for the first time, but she did not think it was "vulgar", on the contrary, she developed a new understanding of the beauty of the body.
The artist's inner world is expressed through the body, which is unattainable by other art forms.
Since then, Zhang Xiaoyu has read a lot of works on the body on the Internet, hoping to gain a deeper understanding of the aesthetic connotations of such works.
After more than a year of thinking, Zhang Xiaoyu finally made up his mind to create a work of art with his own body.
She decided not to pursue a master's degree and move on to a field that few people had ventured into.
Her decision shocked parents and surrounding teachers and students, a college student could do such an indecent act?
However, surprisingly, Zhang Xiaoyu seemed to be in a rebellious mood, no matter how others persuaded, she insisted on trying it herself.
She sees the pursuit of body art as a way of self-exploration.
In 2007, Zhang Xiaoyu collaborated with a photographer to create and publish a photo album called "Enchantment".
As soon as Zhang Xiaoyu's photo was released, it immediately set off an uproar, making her quickly one of the Internet celebrities.
She never thought she would quickly become popular online, which was unbelievable.
She originally wanted to show off her "raw physical beauty", however, to her surprise, in just one day, 930,000 people searched for her name on the Internet.
Zhang Xiaoyu suddenly became popular, and was even known as the "first naked model".
What Zhang Xiaoyu did not expect was that this unexpected incident not only surprised everyone, but also made her, a college student with no background, transform into an Internet celebrity in a short period of time.
Zhang Xiaoyu himself actually shows a pure temperament and is different. However, her dress was incompatible with her original image.
The clothes on Zhang Xiaoyu's body were very weak, barely covering sensitive parts, but they were still exposed, and even took on a unique pose.
Her coquettish and pure qualities blend perfectly and are dazzling.
On the mainland, people have a low acceptance of body art, which is generally seen as a departure from moral concepts.
The emergence of such an open and bold body photo album in a traditional country is bound to cause widespread controversy.
Although Zhang Xiaoyu's photos are too revealing, she maintains a certain degree of moderation when showing, unlike the vulgar pictures in some Feng Yue films.
As a result, some believe that her actions upend the norm and show the beauty and freedom of women.
However, in the past years, many people have a rather limited concept and acceptance of women, and they believe that women should remain solemn and elegant, conservative.
Netizens strongly condemned these photos of Zhang Xiaoyu, believing that they had a huge negative impact on minors.
Zhang Xiaoyu's popularity continues to climb, responding to such a call.
However, Zhang Xiaoyu did not care about this, and even took the initiative to participate in an interview, insisting that she was just a model, had nothing to do with pornography, and did not care what others thought.
Zhang Xiaoyu in 2008, just when her popularity had not yet faded, once again released more than twenty sets of "nude photos", causing the same sensation as "Enchantment".
Whatever she does, she is constantly provoking the public.
Her popularity continues to rise, and she even once entered the ranks of "first-line actresses".
Many lingerie brands began to compete to invite her as a spokesperson, and even a Danish lingerie brand became her sole spokesperson in China.
However, this crazy popularity also greatly changed the trajectory of Zhang Xiaoyu's life.
As a high-profile figure, she is bound to face great pressure from all sides.
At first, Zhang Xiaoyu was proud of the identification of those few, but as more and more criticism poured in, she began to doubt her choice and gradually fell into low self-esteem.
Zhang Xiaoyu began to reflect under great pressure, and she wondered if she had made such a decision because she was reckless.
However, after much deliberation, I think this may be the true self, and she should bravely persist in pursuing her dreams.
However, if Zhang Xiaoyu now recalls this experience, he is likely to regret his original decision.
However, it must be admitted that Zhang Xiaoyu did gain attention through this opportunity that ordinary stars could not get for life, and during this period she was also invited to participate in many fashion shows.
Her figure was illuminated by thousands of flashes, and she walked off the stage wearing a sexy long dress.
People and the media talked about it, obsessed with her every move, and filmed non-stop.
In 2010, she transformed into the face of several games and appeared as a game character on various promotional posters, thereby increasing the visibility of the game.
The following year, Zhang Xiaoyu held a unique body makeup show at a zoo in Guangxi. Wearing only a little clothing, she applied paint to important parts of her body, as if transformed into a gorgeous butterfly, which brought a profound visual shock to the audience.
Visitors pulled out their phones after seeing this spectacular sight, making the entire park as bright as day.
The show brought unprecedented enthusiasm to this zoo.
In 2013, Zhang Xiaoyu stood on a street in Nanjing, holding a sign urging wealthy businessman Chen Zhuo to make a charitable donation before the "315" deadline or she would take off all her clothes in public.
Netizens have expressed heated discussions about this move, making her the focus of everyone's attention again.
Despite the skepticism about her actions, she succeeded in drawing public attention to the public interest.
Before Zhang Xiaoyu appeared, China had already emerged an actress who was passionate about body art, she was Tongali.
Once, Tongali debuted as an actress, and she even participated in the TV series "Relying on the Sky and Slaying the Dragon".
Tongali had the opportunity to star in two dramas, "Kangxi Dynasty" and "Huan Zhu Gege", except for the current one. However, she usually plays supporting roles in these dramas.
However, although Tongali did not achieve a huge reputation as a normal artist, she became popular by shooting "body portraits".
Tongali first posted a photo of herself online in 2002, and many were surprised by her photo due to her being a celebrity herself.
Once the photo was exposed, it immediately caused a huge controversy similar to Zhang Xiaoyu's experience.
Many people feel that Tongali is very shameless in pursuit of attention, even without regard for her own dignity.
In addition, her daughter's behavior also upset Tongari's parents, who at one point considered kicking her out of the house.
Subsequently, Tongali's behavior had an impact on many people, so more "body artists" emerged in China, one of which was Zhang Xiaoyu.
However, unexpectedly, just when Zhang Xiaoyu was the hottest, he silently disappeared in front of everyone's eyes.
The news of her retirement from the art world broke in 2014.
This was just an exploration of art, without pursuing any commercial interests, and the photographs were not released again.
Zhang Xiaoyu's years have passed, the years have passed in a hurry, and now he is 38 years old, and his former demeanor is difficult to find.
At the same time, more and more newcomers are pouring into the field, and Zhang Xiaoyu's popularity continues to wane.
The name Zhang Xiaoyu once caused a sensation on the Internet, but now it has gradually been forgotten.
A few years ago, Zhang Xiaoyu was determined to change the industry and start a food account.
She traveled the globe to taste local delicacies and then shared them with her fans via video.
She was connected to the world through this whole new path.
Since then, pop art has been nowhere to be found on her social media, replaced by a rich and varied picture of food.
She uses her camera to capture and preserve the charm of each dish and is happy to share her personal views on each dish.
Zhang Xiaoyu once recalled: "Art is the way for me to become popular, and life has taught me to understand the truth." ”
Beginning to find a new version of herself, she abandoned her pursuit of fame and fortune.
He traveled around the world, taking what he saw and heard in his inner world.
She began to pursue a different life, as if it was a metamorphosis.
There is no doubt that Zhang Xiaoyu's current brilliance is not as dazzling as before, but the decision she has made is the most real and powerful.
In a new way, she is creating her own brilliant chapter of life.
She was able to live a dashing life that most people can't have, in part because of the benefits of her early "sacrifices" that allowed her to achieve financial freedom.
She grew up in a traditional family, and perhaps no one thought that from childhood to adulthood, she has always been regarded as a good girl who is well-behaved and obedient.
She strives to maintain a good image at all stages of her life, both at school and at home.
However, the obedient girl made a shocking choice.
If she really stuck to her beliefs, such a choice would be understandable.
Zhang Xiaoyu mentioned her relationship problems in an interview, saying that she has not met anyone she likes so far.
At the peak of her career, she devoted herself to her work, but now she feels the emptiness of life's lack of love.
She is currently desperate for a relationship, looking for someone who genuinely cares about her and is willing to spend the rest of her life with.
We should cherish our precious years and not let our fleeting fortunes cloud our vision.
While pursuing the ideal, we need to have courage and return to reality when appropriate.
Life is like that.
Everyone has their own unique presence in this world.
Perhaps we should give more tolerance and understanding, and lower judgment and rejection of others.
Through her life experience, Zhang Xiaoyu conveyed an important truth to us:
In the journey of life, how much honor and wealth is achieved is not a measure of success. True success lies in being able to stand up for one's beliefs in the face of adversity and stand up unremittingly.
Pursuing dreams is always a good thing, as long as we stick to our original intention and embrace positive pursuits, we should not be spurned by others.