Mountain River University Student

Recently, there is a word on the Internet, "Shanhe University" is relatively popular, Shanxi, Shandong, Hebei, Henan, candidates from four provinces pay 1,000 yuan each, it can be 34 billion yuan, to form a world-class Shanhe University.

There are elements of bitterness and helplessness, there are elements of reality and banter, however, I, a rural student from a 985 college that came out of the junction of mountains and rivers and four provinces, thought of going to college, just like a bitter melon without a fragrance, in addition to bitterness, or bitter, there is no fragrance.

Allow me to elaborate.

I was forced to send to school by my mother, and when I was 8 years old, because my current result was not the life I wanted, I have not been able to really completely forgive this matter, or forgive or not forgive something, it doesn't matter, but I am sure that I have not completely let go of this matter, I write it, say it, express it, just hope that I can completely let go of this matter.

After all, it's been almost 30 years.

Some netizens were shocked and surprised when they heard about this, and said very justly, "What, your parents sent you to school and provided for you to go to college, and now you blame them?!" She didn't say the following words, and I was already startled, and quickly explained a sentence or two.

Therefore, even a netizen who does not know can justifiably teach you a few words, but who cares about your own life and the entire school experience? Who knows?

Saying yours is not about your survival, she is just about venting her emotions.

I didn't refuse to enroll in the first place, I went to school for a day or two, and the male teacher liked to talk to women selling things at the school gate, and he was more enthusiastic and attentive than teaching everyone to learn, probably because of his nature.

Then there was a room full of 8.9-year-old student dolls, anxiously overwhelmed in a two-sided airy classroom, you look at me, I look at you, no one is happy except anxiety.

After a comparative experience, I found that in the school classroom, it was not as good at home, so I chose not to go to school.

But the mother could not wait, school was the trend at that time, all children went to school at the age of 8, no one cared about the content of education, the level of teachers, the classroom atmosphere, students' feelings, and learning results.

If other people's children in the village were sent to school, I became this unique big rebellious person, in fact, I didn't want to resist, I was only 8 years old, I experienced, after comparing the two, I felt that the school was not as good as at home, and if the teacher was very serious about lecturing, teaching and educating people, forget it, but no, the teacher was more attentive to chatting with the opposite sex, only then would he leak a really happy laugh that could not be concealed.

That's okay, it doesn't matter, but I really can't learn anything, since I can't learn it, and I feel super bad, then why should I go to school?

So I refused not to go.

In the end, I was given only a day or two, and during this day or two, my mother asked all kinds of friends who played with me to call me to go to school, and I didn't go.

In the end, she used deception and violence to send me to school.

Tricked me into buying something for me, and I heard that I was already suspicious at the time, and I wanted to buy something for me for no reason? But seeing her deceive me so hard, I think even if I deceive, I can't buy something, but I didn't think that cheating the location is only the first step, the second step is to send it to the school, because the seller is at the school gate, this second step, I didn't expect. I was only 8 years old at the time.

Sure enough, I didn't buy anything for me at the school gate, but I wanted to send me to school, I recognized the second step of the scam at that moment, but it was too late, it was late, the moment before my mother carried me into the school gate, I found that it was my last escape meeting, and then I tried my best to break free, but was twisted by my mother on the stomach, the strength completely exceeded that of 8-year-old me, and it was also at that moment that I found out that she had to send me to school, and also found my own strength at that time, really resisted.

In an adapted sentence, when it is found that there is no other choice but to find a new joy of life in the campus and school, and have fun in pain.

I think it was from that time, after experiencing deception and violence, that my soul changed, and before that, there was no bad element in my soul.

But after experiencing this, it was not the time to kill people, after all, it really provided me with school, tuition, and food and drink, but it was really not my own choice, at that time, my choice was not to go, and at the age of 8, I was forced to accept the choice handed to me by others, and there was no other choice, I was just born at that time. I haven't thought about dying, living, and these things.

Then from that time there was a little subtle change in my soul, because it was forced to force, but it was still mostly good, but vanity, jealousy, gradually increased, jealousy has a hundred harms and no benefits, but that is not what I let grow, it grows on its own.

Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes, this statement must be true, where there are people, there are people's hearts, people's hearts are subtle, and it is indispensable to love and hate and jealousy.

For example, I don't know if the jealousy I grew up was caused by being forced to cheat into school, which left an impact on my young mind.

Anyway, when I was in the second or third grade, I secretly changed a classmate's test paper, he was the only one with a full score, and he always got praise from the class teacher, and the class teacher would say, why can others get full marks, but you can't? Then the rest of the students all bowed their heads, the classroom was quiet, no one dared to speak, as if they had done something wrong, and I saw the students who scored a perfect score, when they were publicly praised, they couldn't suppress their natural smiles.

In fact, everything is not too wrong, but I don't know where the jealousy grew, but also many, many years afterwards, I concluded that this was jealousy, at that time I didn't think about anything, and no one taught me, I directly changed his roll, and then he didn't get 100 points, he cried very sadly, and the teacher didn't believe his explanation, the same teacher, the one who likes to chat with the opposite sex.

I saw the hatred that he cried and couldn't get the teacher's trust, and I saw all this, and the moment I saw the hatred, I knew that I had done something wrong, and then I went to his house every day to play and make up for my mistakes, even if his brother twisted me hard, I didn't go home, nor did I shout grievances, and accepted that my mistakes should be borne by it.

Later, everyone got better, his brother was also admitted to college, and everyone never gave me the opportunity to express this matter in person, this time I met their 70-year-old father, I wanted to say it, but I was blocked.

I said it many times publicly in my text, but I didn't say it to him personally.

I have forgiven myself, although it was a mistake I made with my hands, although I have not been able to completely forget and let go, but at that time, I have done my best to make up for it, and the matter of stealing the scroll, even I did not know, just happened so inexplicably.

However, the matter of not going to school is really not my fault, because this matter, repeatedly told my mother, the mother's rhetoric at the beginning is, whose parents do not send their children to school? And did not say the timing, the way, the child's own wishes, why does the child have this willingness not to go to school? None of this was cared about, no one asked.

It's like, no one cares what you're learning in school, what the level of teachers is, and so on.

For example, I, from the age of 8 to 24, finally got into 985, what happened?

Later, my mother's statement changed, that is, she also agreed that if I waited for a little longer, maybe my mind would change, instead of directly cheating and forcing me to send me to school, in fact, she also tried other methods, but to no avail.

Now, I also understand, I have figured it out, but I haven't completely put it down for a while, and I don't have much else to write about, I can only write about my own experience

But what does going to school bring us?

A chance to change your destiny? Has it changed?

I can only understand now that people need a thing, or a game, maybe reading is still a good game for people, such as sports football is an outdoor game under the sun, but it is really not the propaganda to change fate, teach and educate people, I really don't think so, at least not now.

It's like a teacher, who is admitted from school to a normal school, comes out of a normal school, and then goes directly to school, elementary school, junior high school, high school, university, who goes to society? Those who go to society, the social knowledge they need, the teacher cannot give at all, because he has not really entered the society for a day.

There are too many complaints, and this hatred endures.

In fact, it's not all, just write it, longing for people to see and understand, so that it will not be so lonely.

Going to school, I came with vanity, from the countryside to the county seat, my father came to the school in the county to see me, wearing a pair of those sneakers, the cheapest thin land, I'm embarrassed, I don't know where the vanity comes from, maybe I should be ashamed of this vanity? But it did happen, I don't know how my parents worked in society in exchange for the tuition of my four children, but it was really not my choice to go to school at the beginning, and I also knew that they thought that going to school would be successful, and they wanted me to go to school, so that everyone suffered so much that they are still suffering.

For example, my tuition is always paid last, or go to other people's homes to borrow money to pay, such as dressing, such as eating, learning needs brain supplementation nutrition, I can still remember always wearing clothes that are not newly bought, including picked up, leftover by others, given by others, and a pair of jeans left by my aunt. Pant leg with flowers!

I also wore it.

But what did going to school bring me? Both the process and the result.

People think that getting admitted is the result, but it's not.

I remember when I was in college, someone asked me if I was from the county or the countryside, I didn't dare to say, vanity, I am not ashamed, because I don't know how to produce vanity, I lied that I was from the county, and then he asked me where the county seat was, and I replied that the county seat was near the station.

Because that was the only place I knew, I also saw the doubt in his eyes. He was full of doubts about my answer. Actually, I lied, but who made you inconsiderate of the vanity of people from rural origins.

It's really not interesting to talk too much.

So, at this time, when you see the four words of Sunward University again, how will you feel, and is there still banter? Are there any more to look forward to?