<h2 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" > today, May 19, is the first anniversary of Ai Feng's death. </h2>
In order to remember her father, her daughter Ai Dongyun wrote a reminiscence article "Your teaching is the wealth of my life".
It recounts Ai Feng's teachings to his daughter during his lifetime.
Although there are not many words and teachings, they are firmly remembered by example.
Through the article, we see a fuller, more three-dimensional, and therefore more amiable and respectable Ai Feng.
A man, although gone, but he left a rich and precious wealth,
His life was not wasted.
His life will be remembered forever!
Your teachings have been the wealth of my life
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May 19, 2020
Daughter | Ai Dongyun
On May 19, 2020, it has been a full year since my father left us. Throughout the year, I have thought about him countless times and dreamed about whether he will be as "busy and happy" as before. After all, he is such a restless person, such a diligent thinker, especially in a special year like this year, if he is still alive, how much things will be done, how much will be said to us...
My father's departure was so sudden, really like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, he said goodbye to all his loved ones in a way that we could not accept, leaving us with endless thoughts. This year, I have also been thinking about how to commemorate him, but my father is a person who has never wanted to be centered on him and let others do things, plus my own work has been very busy this year, so on This May 19th, as his incompetent daughter, I still want to remember him and commemorate him in the way my father likes- to record.
01
My father has been very busy since I can remember, and whether I was in elementary school, middle school or college, there didn't seem to be many opportunities to communicate with my father.
Especially my father worked in the economic department of the People's Daily for several years, the two of us met every day for more than half an hour at home for dinner, he only briefly asked me about my studies, it seemed that I was not as concerned about the only daughter as others, when I wanted to talk to him again, I found that my father was very tired, often after dinner, and fell asleep while watching TV news, at this time, my mother and I went to other rooms and let him rest for a while, because every night at about eight o'clock, Father had to go to the newspaper office again on the night shift, to read the pages, day after day... So many years, including after my father retired, our family of three never traveled, and I always thought that it was a special luxury for our family to hang out together, so I never mentioned it to him. It was only when I was on vacation that my father would take me to his office, before I was still happy to hold the mentality of going to play, and then I found out that I was not going to let me play, then my father asked me to help him cut the articles in the newspaper, and then stick one by one to the small cards, a sticky day, until I was so tired that I fell asleep in his office, my father's colleagues saw me, and jokingly said: The child labor is coming again! At that time, I was young and did not know what my father was doing with these newspapers, but later learned that he had kept the articles that he thought were useful and well-written, and many of them he had collected as background information for the later writing of books. These small cards were later packed in a small cabinet made by his father himself and kept until his death.
My father was really busy all his life, whether he was in office or not, and whether it was from one field of study to another. Whether it is as a journalist, published a large number of influential articles, and wrote the "News Interview Methodology" and "News Writing Methodology", or later launched the "China Quality Miles" to become a social activist, and then later served as the editor-in-chief of the "Economic Daily", has been drumming and shouting for Chinese brands, known as economists. In addition, his father also studied and experienced in philosophy, oceanography, the development of three rural areas, ecological environment, and social sciences.
02
Father's thinking is always endless, it is never stopped. In my memory, what my father often said to me in the last few years of his life was: "I just want to think and do more things for our country while my brain is still flexible, even if a little thinking can be used in the development and construction of the country." That's what he thinks and that's what he does. After twenty years of retirement, my father has been working tirelessly.
The year before his death, just in time for the intensification of Sino-US economic and trade frictions, although he was eighty years old, his father showed the general ideological vitality of a young man. While sorting out the relics, I saw a notebook that he had recently and last used, and the opening paragraph reads:
October 1, 2018
Finally chose this day to start some daily notes, the diary stopped shortly after the start of the work, but also replaced by notes, so there were 210 subsequent notes, and later the notes also stopped.
Now it's starting again, for an important reason, an important decision, that is, from 2018 onwards, I want to stand one more stop in front of me, on the front line of the viewing.
Wrote several WeChat articles about the U.S.-China trade war. "How to Recognize and Respond to the Sino-US Trade War" received more than 400,000 hits on July 20. There is also "Why China and the United States Have Not Talked Together", "Have We Been Fooled by the United States?" 》。 There is a real lack of such articles in China today, not that I have written well, but I need this category: positive, but not eight shares. When my mind is clear, see if I can go up to the next level.
In the 40 years of reform and opening up, I am 80 years old, half of which I have spent in the reform and opening up, and now it seems to have reached a turning point.
There is a lot of disagreement, especially among cultured people. To become a real power, China still has a lot to do, and we must first think about it.
Today, the internal reference to "Views and Thoughts on Real Estate" was preliminarily completed.
And his last note was written on February 16, 2019, and his deep thinking can still be seen between the lines -
See the news of Li Rui's death today, at the age of 104. Li Rui's position in the party is not very high, but because of his outspokenness, he is politically persecuted and has a wide range of social influence.
Chinese struggle for the prosperity and strength of the country, many of them have been wronged, is it inevitable or accidental? Is it a price that must be paid, or is it possible to avoid it?
I've been in this contradiction lately.
I suddenly had the idea of writing literary works, and in this era, this contradiction was reflected in literary form.
This is what my eighty-one-year-old father thought three months before he died, and he loved our country so much, loved life, loved the land that raised him, and would have been nice if God could give him some more time.
03
2019 marks the 70th anniversary of the National Day. At the beginning of last year, when I heard that I could be invited to Tiananmen Square to watch the ceremony, my father was particularly excited, and he has been happily saying that this year's National Day is seventy years old, and our country's eleventh celebrations must be particularly grand, and I must go to the scene to experience it for myself! I didn't expect my father not to wait for this day. In order to realize my father's dream, I took my father's photo to participate in two full-process drills in Tiananmen Square before the eleventh, and when the military parade began, I held my father's photo above my head and witnessed this great historical moment with his old man!
My father never wanted to trouble anyone else, including me, all his life. I'm older, but I do a lot of things myself, and he knows I'm busy at work, so he doesn't tell me a lot of things. I am rarely found for various chores, including home decoration and shopping. The annual physical examination never tells me the time, I always go to the hospital by myself. I remember one year he was almost eighty years old, had a intestinal polyp surgery, needed general anesthesia, I actually learned about it afterwards, at that time I complained to my parents, do general anesthesia surgery such a big thing how do you not say ah! Later, my mother said that it was my father who did not let you tell you, knowing that you were busy, afraid that you would take leave and be distracted, and the two of them would be enough. Father said, don't you see that nothing is happening now? Let you know, but also blindly worry, affect the work, there is no need.
Father is like this, everywhere for the sake of others, optimistic, open-minded, in my memory, father has never complained about anyone, anything, no matter what difficult things he has encountered, troublesome things, he is always optimistic to face. In fact, my father's life was full of ups and downs, and in his "Eighty Feelings", he wrote about many things about his experience from just working to retirement. My father had several ups and downs in his life, but he always treated it calmly and smiled at life. Sometimes when my mother talks about things that were unhappy in the past, my father always says that the previous things have passed, the difficulties of the past are the accumulation of the present and the future, and where will you feel good now without the hardships of the past?!
04
Father has many friends and students, and most of them are old friends, for a long time, father and them get along very well, he used his own life to win everyone's respect. A year ago, nearly a thousand people attended his farewell ceremony, and many people still came from other places.
In the past year, many teachers I know and don't know have called me to ask about my mother and family, and I think this should be the best reward for my father's life of hard work, open-mindedness, tolerance, and helpfulness. Recently, his father's two monographs on news interviews, "News Interview Methodology" and "News Writing Methodology", were republished, which should also be the best consolation for him. I sincerely express my sincere thanks and respect to these former friends who have always cared for and supported his father!
For me, my father is a mountain, a role model, and there are countless things worth remembering and learning. He was busy all his life, didn't say much to me, and he himself often said, "This daughter of mine was raised on the stock." "Nevertheless, please believe that your teachings will always be the wealth of my life, and your spirit in heaven will be the brightest star in the night sky, forever guiding my path in life."
A thousand words, a thousand words, a feeling of longing. May my Father not be so busy in heaven and enjoy a sense of peace.
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