The crown of teeth, which should have been repaired for a long time, finally fell off yesterday. I should have gotten up early to see my teeth, but I was afraid of the sound of Nazziz's teeth drilling, so I lay on the bed and read a small book that I had brought with me for a long time.
The Price, a two-act play by Miller, also wrote the more famous Death of a Salesman. A simple family ethics drama about two brothers, the father failed in stock investment, the younger brother gave up his studies in order to support his father, became a policeman, and the brother pursued his dream of becoming a doctor, causing the brother to turn against him. As the younger brother deals with his parents' inheritance, he stages a calculation between his wife, brother and the shrewd furniture dealer. What struck me was that behind the story, everyone was trying to find a rationality in their lives to escape from what they didn't want to face. The younger brother in the play tries to convince himself that he sacrificed his dream for his father, and the brother is the one who has gone away and is not even willing to borrow money to help him finish his education, so he hates his brother. But as time went on, my brother "couldn't even remember anything I couldn't live with you... When you can't even hate anymore and you try to figure out why, you'll go crazy..." Ryunosuke Wasagawa said in "In the Bamboo Forest" that what you remember is not all facts, but facts you imagine. And I have always been very dark in the belief that all the good things in memory are fabrications. The meaning of the beauty or hatred in this memory lies in whether the present can be better supported by the present.
This is in line with a concept of microeconomics called "Pareto optimality". My simple understanding of this is that assuming that there are two indices of A and B, in order to improve one side, it has to lower the other side, which is a critical state. When the critical state is reached, the corresponding changes between the two sides of A and B, whether they can be promoted to the other side, it is difficult to say, reaching a critical "most appropriate" state, reaching the "Pareto optimal". When the critical point is reached, it is the most efficient state. So the choice to continue the imagination of beauty or hatred is based on whether it can make the present better!
For a Taurus, all choices are economic choices, a relatively optimal solution! Then, in order to have a good lunch today, I still had to convince myself to go to the dentist's clinic!