♪ You are so special, how can I be disappointed ♫
Every day at 9:30 a.m., Sister Yi is waiting for you here
Text | Sister Yi (Zhou Guiyi)
"Crazy" ended last night, in the words of director Xu Jizhou, this is not a cool drama, everyone is a "miserable victory".
An Xin's stubborn idealism is vicissitudes, Gao Qiqiang's obedience is changeable and rich, too many people have talked about it, today I want to talk about a little person who attracted me, Gao Qisheng.
He is Gao Qiqiang's younger brother, the proud son of the family's college student, when Gao Qiqiang is still struggling in the fish stall, being bullied, and rebelling in order to give gifts that are not in line with people's wishes but entering the police station, he is the hope of the entire old Gao family.
(The first scene he appeared in was when his fishmonger brother Gao Qiqiang entered the police station Chinese New Year's Eve, and he went to deliver dumplings with his sister Gao Qilan, at that time, he looked innocent and sincere)
He once sincerely thought that by relying on his own cleverness, he would lead his family on the road to prosperity, and he also had a unique eye for the rise of PHS at that time and seized this outlet.
But real life soon gave him a head start.
The civil servants he entertained ordered only the most expensive seafood and wine.
The classmate he thought would give him a PHS business license, and the backhand would have a high rebate.
At the critical juncture when the store was about to open, there were 20,000 vacancies, leaving the brothers at a loss. Business is not as easy to do as thought, and a penny forces the hero to death.
For these 20,000 pieces, his brother Gao Qiqiang promised the Tang Xiaolong brothers "teach a lesson, give some color" Xu Lei, the son of the underworld leader Xu Jiang, but he witnessed the scene of Xu Lei lightning fish and lost his hand to death.
Gao Qiqiang took the 20,000 yuan in the entanglement of fear, and was also chased and killed by the gangster, and since then, the two brothers have embarked on the road of no return.
Although Gao Qiqiang is blackened, it seems to be a history of the growth of a confused boy, brave and resourceful, full of passion, confidence and courage, always holding his family in his heart, and becoming more and more liked by everyone after blackening.
But Gao Qisheng kept barrage, "Daily question, is Gao Qisheng dead today?" "The audience is full of disgust for this younger brother who does not know the height of the sky, trafficks drugs, and does not listen to his brother's advice after blackening.
But in my heart, Gao Qisheng is a pitiful and pathetic person.
1. Because of high IQ and high self-esteem, there is a stronger sense of inferiority.
Life has smoothed out Gao Qiqiang's edges from the beginning, he has learned to stretch and flex, there is a numbness to suffering, and there is an optimism, otherwise a 13-year-old child with only 500 yuan will not be able to raise his younger siblings.
But Gao Qisheng has always been more sensitive, high self-esteem, proud, and his outstanding achievements mean that he has a superior IQ.
The first time he showed high intelligence was when Gao Qiqiang was chased and killed by Xu Jiang, relying on rigorous physics knowledge and making a pistol.
Gao Qiqiang did not want Gao Qisheng to meddle in his dirty affairs, until a fire reached the PHS store.
Gao Qisheng said, "Whoever touches my shop wants my life, because I have really had enough of the sin of poverty." If Xu Jiang comes to my shop, it is better to kill me. ”
These words moved and convinced Gao Qiqiang.
Gao Qisheng finally entered this abyss.
But that fire was set by Gao Qisheng himself, in order to force his brother.
In fact, his high IQ has indeed helped his brother a lot in the rise of Gao Qiqiang.
Xu Jiang and Gao Qisheng met for the first time, and he accurately used the time slot of the waste railway traffic light to design a way to get rid of the police, which also made Xu Jiang impressed Gao Qiqiang.
But such a person, because of poverty, the loss of his parents as a teenager, being chased by fear, studying hard, he has always been nervous in his heart and has never relaxed.
From childhood to adulthood, he experienced contempt, contempt, ridicule, and even the dancers did not look at him squarely.
His inferiority, gloom, and retribution, the moment when he carefully accompanied his second-generation classmates, but frantically attacked him after going out, he was already in the tube.
This scene, for him in the end, must let Li Hongwei, a villager who mocked him as a "smelly fish seller", die in his own hands, and attack him with frozen fish to leave a flaw and lay the foreshadowing.
2. I have always been sheltered by my brother, in a sense, but also suppressed to grow my personality.
Of course, Gao Qiqiang loves his younger brother very much, but I must say that my brother does not understand my younger brother.
For his brother, he felt that it was enough to earn money desperately to support his younger brother's education, and his younger brother would find a stable job in the provincial capital in the future.
From a psychological point of view, he did not "see" his brother (of course, his cultural level and economic ability really did not support him, I did not accuse Gao Qiqiang, he did his best).
He managed his brother in a brutal way, "listen to me," asking him "why do you always disobey," and "I'll help you settle things."
Gao Qisheng has always been provided for, and his position is determined to be, "always obedient", he has no right to be the master, his true self-personality has been suppressed.
The most concrete embodiment of this "listen to me" is that even after Gao Qiqiang took over Buckingham and became a local hegemon, he still hoped that his younger brother would only do PHS business and "be a down-to-earth person".
But Gao Qisheng has never been a good brother, and his repressed desire has swelled to the point that "if a steel plutonium falls from the world, the surname must be Gao."
Gao Qisheng's drug trafficking was completely concealed from Gao Qiqiang, and after Gao Qiqiang found out, he did not perceive Gao Qisheng's inner madness, and his way of dealing with it was to beat him and then rudely kidnap morally.
But from an objective point of view, this is that only the Zhou officials are allowed to set fires, and the people are not allowed to light lamps. Drug trafficking and murder, fifty steps and a hundred steps of laughter, why can the brother do whatever he wants, and the younger brother is under legal pressure?
Is he really short of money for drug trafficking?
No, from a psychological point of view, he is more like trying to prove his worth to his brother - I can also be on my own, I can be independent, I have grown up.
Gao Qisheng's self-personality is repressed from beginning to end and is not seen.
The most specific thing is that Gao Qisheng sold drugs and personally killed Li Hongwei, he had made a big mistake and could not turn back, Gao Qiqiang repeatedly comforted him to guarantee that "I will protect you and will pass", but the brothers never pushed their hearts to talk about it——
Why are you doing this? What exactly do you want? How do you feel inside? What do you need me to do, as you would like to be the standard?
To be honest, Gao Qiqiang's tacit understanding and understanding of Gao Qisheng may not be as good as his to An Xin.
3. After his sister-in-law appeared, his inner sense of belonging was shattered.
The appearance of sister-in-law Shuting, in fact, to a large extent, catalyzed Gao Qisheng to go crazy.
In the play, he and Chen Shuting have always been very difficult to deal with.
After Gao Qiqiang was released from prison, Gao Qiqiang wanted to kiss his wife, and he interrupted with a warning "hey".
After Shuting learned that he was trafficking drugs, he left angrily under the pretext of "picking up the child", and he shouted "his temper is getting bigger and bigger"!
In the car, he directly complained, "A half-old, it seems that the Gao family is her except for you." ”
Why is there so much contradiction?
The audience generally felt that because he felt that his brother could find a "better" woman than a widow with a tow bottle and a good grade, but this was too superficial a reason.
The deepest reason is that the place in the brother's heart has been replaced by a woman.
(In my brother's heart, he is no longer the closest person, but his upbringing, sensitivity, guardedness, and inability to learn to establish healthy intimacy with other people)
His symbiotic relationship with his brother is destroyed, his sense of belonging collapses, and he is lost.
And Gao Qiqiang, who got married in his first love and was obedient to his wife, was not aware of this at all. After being lonely for too long, he was finally immersed in ordinary happiness, briefly forgetting or pretending to forget, everything was complicated and cruel.
Gao Qiqiang has a certain meaning, that is, Gao Qisheng's father, who has led him since he was a child, loved him, cared for him, and did everything for him, but why did the result be so tragic?
Of course, there is Gao Qisheng's own personal problems, some kind of antisocial personality gene.
But in fact, I think that in real life, this problem has a certain universality.
Don't think that as long as the grades are good, the child is fine, on the contrary, children with high IQ tend to be more sensitive, and parents should pay more attention to his personality.
Don't make a big deal, don't let your child live the way you imagine, don't always feel "I'm for your good", because all the things that are repressed, in the end, after gaining strength, will grow wildly in the opposite direction.
Be sure to leave enough time and space, and communicate deeply with your child, not what you eat on the surface, whether you want to buy anything, but values, feelings, specific people and things around his life, deep links, you must see your child's heart.
Don't Gao Qiqiang and Gao Qisheng love each other? Loving too much, loving deeply, they live for each other, and they also take each other's happiness as the law of life.
Again, loving this thing requires a strong ability.
And people are really difficult to cover everything, strong as Gao Qiqiang, did not do a good job, well balanced, he at least has enough sincerity, but in real life, many men with successful careers, intimate relationships are actually a mess, a failure.
There is no intention to whitewash this character, drug dealers pay for their mistakes, this is the basic black and white view. But "Crazy" director Xu Jizhou said a sentence that I agree with: I want to express the unknowability and chance of fate.
In Gao Qisheng's last scene, I burst into tears.
He fled back to Jinghai and returned to the place where he grew up with his brother, because it was his birthday and he wanted to spend it with his brother.
He recalled when he was a child, the family was too poor, a bowl of pork foot noodles, his sister ate pig's feet, he ate noodles, his brother only had soup to drink, and the two looked at each other and smiled.
After secretly sending a message to the police on his mobile phone, he smiled and said, "Brother, can I eat more bowl of pork foot noodles?" ”
He knew he had come to an end.
(Many people understand this scene, why is Gao Qisheng repeatedly throwing two boards?) This is a popular divination method in Chaoshan side, a person with a high IQ, and finally desperate enough to ask fate. ）
At the end of his life, he left the world with the question, "Why did I do everything wrong since I was a child, as if the harder I tried, the more wrong I became?" ”
At the end of his life, he wanted to sacrifice his life for the last time, sacrifice it to his brother's future career, and use his life to add a little chip to his brother.
This is the ending that Gao Qiqiang did not expect, and the last words Gao Qisheng left him were -
"This time, you will let me be the master for once."