"Long Hate Song" is a novel by Wang Anyi, which won the Fifth Contradiction Literature Award in 2000.
"Long Hate Song" is a love song, a song full of regret and resentment, "Long Hate Song" is a poem, there is a bright youth, there is pure love, there is surging desire, and there are more human forms.
Wang Qiyao is the beauty in this song and the protagonist in this poem. She grew up in an old alley in Shanghai full of gossip.
Sixteen-year-old her out of the quiet, beautiful, and a little feminine, is a pearl in the crowded and narrow alley. Inseparable from the muddy air in this alley, her heart longed for the outside world, and she was going to get out of this alley.
Through the introduction of the cousin of classmate Wu Peizhen, she got acquainted with the director on the set, and the director gave her a chance to audition, Wang Qiyao's experience was still too shallow, and she could not grasp the role well, and this audition failed.
In order to compensate Wang Qiyao, the director introduced her to Mr. Cheng, whose hobby is to take pictures of people. At first, Wang Qiyao was a special presence in his camera.
Mr. Cheng took several photos of her, one of which was selected and appeared on the cover of Shanghai Life. Since then, Wang Qiyao has become a little famous.
With the support of Mr. Cheng, Wang Qiyao is ready to participate in the "Miss Shanghai" campaign. After the director knew, he was ready to invite Wang Qiyao to dinner and talk to her in a serious and long way.
The director invited Wang Qiyao to dinner in order to persuade her to quit the "Miss Shanghai" rematch. As soon as the two met, the director affectionately called her "YaoYao", and then said that she had grown into a big girl, which was the impression that Wang Qiyao's appearance changed to the director. The director presented himself as a brother and greeted Wang Qiyao.
Who knew that Wang Qiyao did not appreciate it, and a sentence of "the director is getting younger and younger" immediately opened the distance between the two. The director realized that Wang Qiyao was no longer the simple little girl. Next, Wang Qiyao's order was also just right, giving the director face and not letting him break the fee, it seemed to be a guest on the scene.
After the above greetings and temptations, the director knew that he was not well prepared, underestimated Wang Qiyao, and persuaded her to withdraw from the election, and his own uncertainty was even more abrupt.
Next, the two of them chatted awkwardly from east to west, and when they talked about "Miss Shanghai", both of them stopped at the same time.
Good dishes came up, and the director buried his head and just ate. Wang Qiyao secretly observed the director, ready to meet the stem he threw out. It's just that she sees the director's embarrassment and sloppiness, which makes her disgusted.
After the meal, the director relaxed, Wang Qiyao lit a cigarette for him again, and the director was quite moved, so he pushed his heart and went straight to the subject.
He advised Wang Qiyao to study seriously, there was no need to run for "Miss Shanghai", "Miss Shanghai" was just a play on women by dignitaries and nobles. But Wang Qiyao did not think so, she felt that the election for "Miss Shanghai" was a symbol of women's liberation.
And she doesn't want to be a foil, she has to compete with the daughters of those high-ranking nobles.
The director moved out the hopes and ideals of young people and the rise and fall of their homeland, and Wang Qiyao was not moved. Then she said the reason why she participated in the "Miss Shanghai" campaign, after she lost the election to the director, the director introduced her to Mr. Cheng, Mr. Cheng took a photo of her on "Shanghai Life", and Wang Qiyao entered the show business circle and Vanity Fair. At Mr. Cheng's suggestion, she began to run for "Miss Shanghai" again.
Wang Qiyao is blaming the director, and what she did today is also indirectly promoted by him.
Subsequently, the director said to Wang Qiyao with the experience and experience of the people who came over, "Miss Shanghai" is a floating cloud, and all the light under the light is vanity.
Wang Qiyao could not listen to the director's words, and she firmly advanced towards her goal. To participate in the election of Miss Shanghai, Mr. Cheng gave advice to Wang Qiyao, and he really took pains in the campaign dress; all kinds of matters involved in the competition were also taken care of by Mr. Cheng.
As the game approached, everyone was getting more and more nervous, and Wang Qiyao felt aggrieved, was this her life, her hope, all wrapped in these clothes. She wore them, and they accompanied her up to the stage, to be chosen and judged.
Does she want to give up? No, she is going to compete for high and low, she has the capital of beauty, can not waste the natural beauty, she has to use it to get out of the alley.
The final of Miss Shanghai was brilliant and dazzling, and Wang Qiyao finally won the third place and won the name of miss three.
Wang Qiyao is a beauty, her beauty is the beauty of life, idyllic and clear, small family jasper, no aggression. But the heart under her beautiful face is not easy to satisfy, she longs for the beauty of the glory, she wants to be beautiful and well-known. Is this the vanity of the beauty at work?
If you have beauty and do not have a wise heart, you will lose your mind by your own beauty.
As an educated young student, Wang Qiyao can also be regarded as having received the influence and baptism of progressive ideas. So why would she obsessively obsess over running for "Miss Shanghai"?
Although "Miss Shanghai" is not easy to be selected, once she is selected, the flowers, applause, light, etc. will be clustered together, and the vanity will be greatly satisfied. But what about after the election? What is the real value of Miss Shanghai?
We have no way of knowing, Wang Qiyao has not thought about it, maybe she does not want to think at all, she just yearns for that sense of accomplishment and the feeling of being sought after.
It can be said that Wang Qiyao pursues a shallow level of psychological satisfaction and sensory enjoyment. This is also a kind of happiness, but this happiness does not last long, and after getting it, the happiness will soon disappear.
In his book "Imperfect, Talented", Dr. Hailan said that happiness has five dimensions, namely sensory entertainment, sense of accomplishment, doing what you like, stable intimate relationships, and helping others.
Among them, sensory entertainment and sense of accomplishment are shallow short-term happiness; doing things you like, stable intimate relationships, and helping others are deep-level long-term happiness.
The director has seen so much light and vanity with his own eyes, they are fleeting, new people come and go, and in the end it is a void. It can be said that he also understood the truth of happiness in life, so he came to persuade Wang Qiyao not to wade through this muddy water, to study well, and to make long-term plans. Unfortunately, Wang Qiyao's ghost was confused and did not turn back without hitting the south wall.
The director is a special existence in Wang Qiyao's life, if she did not meet the director, she would not meet Mr. Cheng later, would she live an ordinary life like an ordinary girl?
But the moment Wang Qiyao's audition was brushed off by the director, her life changed. The director is a special nobleman in her life, he is a sober person in the chaos. However, Because of his vanity, Wang Qiyao could not listen to his heartfelt words and fell into the whirlpool of red wine and greenery.
She did not think that the desolation of the beautiful people's twilight years, "Miss Shanghai" is a high floating cloud, and she does not have a solid foundation, and how high she climbs, how painful it is to fall.