Because I wrote About Zhou Xuan two days ago, after reading Zhou Xuan's biography, I was deeply attracted by Shi Hui again.
01 Everyone is a king
Shi Hua said a very harsh sentence:
People are all kings and bastards.
Man naturally includes both men and women.
Of course, Shi Hui also knows his own bias, but he still suggests that his friends still regard people as kings and bastards at the beginning, and maybe in the end, they can see a good person.
Seeing this, I was silent.
Why not?
Everyone thinks they are good people, and even the most evil villains think that they are good at heart.
Stone swing
"Shi Hua Talk Art Record"
I found Shi Hua's "Shi Hua Talk Art Record" on the Internet, and I couldn't help but sigh in my heart: Hey, the Internet age is really convenient.
If you want to read a book, it is really countless, a vast sea.
So, I opened the set of books.
02 Ishiwa's online love
I'll turn to the third series, The End of the World.
I would most like to read his essays.
I wanted to see the story of his first love he wrote.
Turning to page 259 first, the first one is the prologue, and the writing is really good. The prologue is to write why you would write with a pen, right?
Because of loneliness.
Late at night, he returned alone to his quarters, the place where he had always been called a writer.
The night is silent, in fact, it is not just silence, but the outward ejaculation of the state of mind, the kind of loneliness that goes deep into the bone marrow, the silence.
I think Jing is not enough to describe the scene at this time, Mo Ruo said that "death" came thoroughly.
A momentary thought of death, but in front of the eyes is still alive, people who have not died will not know where the happiness of death is, at the same time, only the living people understand how painful it is to live.
I also thought about death two days ago.
Maybe death could be a happy and peaceful thing.
Remember a passage about death:
One day, the master asked, is death good?
Guest answer: Very good.
The host was amazed: Why do you say that?
Guest: If the dead person does not return, it is very good to know.
Whether it is happy or not to die is not known, but it will certainly not be painful anymore.
In November 1957, when Shi Hua jumped from the passenger ship "Democracy No. 3" bound for Zhejiang and jumped into the rolling river, his heart must have been full of a sense of stability and relief, right?
However, after his death, a friend came out and said that he was the most afraid of water.
Shi Hua, how desperate are you to choose to jump into the water to commit suicide?
Keep reading his essays.
Shi Huaguo is really a very emotional man.
He was so good at acting, and he could write such touching articles.
In the first article, "The Hate of Love," he wrote about his first love. His first love was similar to our online love today. Hear only its voice, not see its people.
Unexpectedly, Shi Hua was still quite fashionable. In that era, there was an online romance.
That was seven years ago.
He was still in Beijing. One day I heard a beautiful, sweet, and enchanting voice coming from next door.
So he started singing along with the lyrics and the rhythm.
In this way, the two met through sound.
Shi Hua refers to her as the Lover of the Partition Wall.
Shi Hua thinks so, she sings beautifully, people must be beautiful, and their hearts must be kind, so I should love her.
So he fell in love with her.
Later, after traveling to Tianjin and Beijing, the two finally met and corresponded.
There were twists and turns.
First I received a letter saying that she had fallen ill and died...
For a moment the world of stone swing collapsed. The heavens and the earth are big, and they can't find a suitable place to cry.
Two months later, Shi Hui received another handwritten letter from her, saying that her friend had moved, which caused her to lose contact. That's good.
So Shi Hua wrote a letter to propose marriage, and the girl agreed.
So Shi Hua became engaged to her and invited her to come to Shanghai to marry.
Shi Hua prepared the house, furniture, bought pajamas and slippers for the girl he loved...
Everybody said, "My wife is coming soon."
He slept in his bed and couldn't help but laugh as he walked.
He laughed and laughed.
But the girl did not come, two days a day, a month, two months, not even a letter.
Finally– wait for a letter.
The girl said: Listen to a friend, Shi Hua already has a lover in Shanghai; I'm also engaged. It's all over, that's it.
In this way, the bamboo basket hit the water empty. Shi Waving's two-year utopian first love is over.
Later, Shi Hui said that the girl married a husband, gave birth to three children, and eventually gave birth to a vicious disease, was abandoned, and went far away, never to see each other again.
Went to sleep deeply,
Sleep, Hugh craving,
In order to survive,
And you have to prepare for a bigger struggle,
Because it's over tonight
And tomorrow!
There are many sayings on the Internet, after this experience of first love being abandoned, Shi Hui has since had some prejudices against women, believing that women are things that love to deceive people.
After carefully reading Shi Hui's love diary, I thought about the missed time he and Zhou Xuan had missed.
03 Shi Hua and Zhou Xuan
In fact, I originally saw regret in Zhou Xuan's marriage.
After Zhou Xuan was admitted to a mental nursing home, once a nurse accompanied her to the movie theater to watch a movie, and after returning home, Zhou Xuan wrote in her diary:
Shi Hua's acting skills are always so good. He called to say he was getting married and I wished him happiness. In addition, what else can I say, I am always sorry for people, I deserve it!
Coupled with the failure of Shi Hui's first love experience, this layer of regret has deepened.
Because Zhou Xuan is a golden voice, he can sing such beautiful songs, he looks good, and his heart is also kind.
Why do two people have a fate to know and fall in love, but there is no fate to stay together for a lifetime?
According to Chinese concept, it is probably that the fate of the two is not enough. Their fate is only enough to know and fall in love, not enough to accompany each other for a lifetime.
Chinese traditional concept, it takes a thousand years to cultivate a sleep together.
But in fact, it is just a matter of creating and manipulating people.
Goethe said: It is only for a moment that the whole fate of a person's life is determined.
And it was precisely that the thing that decided to break up between Shi Hui and Zhou Xuan happened in an instant, and originally Zhou Xuan had resisted the pursuit of the silk cloth merchant Xiao Kai for Shi Hui for several years.
But suddenly, I changed my mind. Just because Zhou Xuan was lonely and lonely and sick, Zhu Huaide accompanied her, and in an instant, Zhou Xu saw Xiao Kai's "good" and "considerate", so she rubbed shoulders with Shi Hua.
Not only did the first love miss it, but the second love also missed it.
04 Shi Hua and Tong Baoling
Director Bai Shen said: Shi Hui has told him more than once that there are only two kinds of people who are the most adorable in this world: one is a mother, and the other is a child.
His relationship with Tong Baoling is, in a sense, the feelings of an adult man and a girl. When he first met Tong Baoling, he completely treated her as a child.
At that time, Tong Baoling was only 18 years old.
In Shi Wanchun's self-directed and self-acting film (Mother), there needs to be a nurse Xiaolian who can sing Peking Opera, Shi Hui consulted his friend Li Wanchun, Tong Baoling performed peking opera "Great British Festival" in Li Wanchun's drama class, so Li Wanchun recommended Tong Baoling to Shi Hui.
In the crew, Tong Baoling is still a child. In the movie, she has to wear makeup, she doesn't say makeup, only the saying in the drama class: where to dress up? The people in the crew learned to joke with her in a soft tone: Where to play it? She loves to eat iced soda, and the look of biting the straw is also childish, cute, and it is fun to watch.
Therefore, Shi Hua often said to Tong Baoquan: You are like a child.
Shi Hua likes children, and he also likes Tong Baoling like a child. The age difference between the two is 16 years, the contact time is long, and it slowly develops from like to love.
Tong Baoling likes Shi Wei's cheerful personality, humor, and dedication, and has a spirit of hard work on the stage and film art he likes, which is also praised by his peers and has a good reputation.
These children are all in the eyes. She admired and adored the man. In addition, she did not like capitalists, nor did she like Kuomintang officers, but she liked artistic men like Shi Hua, which may be related to her own work in art.
As Zhang Ailing said: It is best to have a little admiration in a woman's love for men.
For the marriage between Shi Hua and Tong Baoquan, the Tong family was initially opposed. The main reason is that the age gap between the two is too large. But Tong Baobo told her family that Shi Wei had waited for her for many years, and she couldn't just dump him like this.
And Shi Hua was particularly good to Tong Baoling, one year, Tong Baoling went to Nanjing to perform "Heavenly Immortal Matching", and Shi Hua took a night train to Nanjing to give a lecture. This move makes the child feel particularly warm and touched.
Therefore, at the insistence of Tong Baoling, the Tong family still agreed to the marriage between the two.
The marriage between the two has been after the founding of the country.
After marriage, the two lived a very happy life, after transferring together, they quickly found an apartment house in Huaihai Road, and finally had a warm home that really belonged to them.
Shi Hua has been wandering for so many years, and now he finally has a home, and everything is so fresh. He kept walking around the house, touching here and looking there.
Shi Hua bought many flowers from the market: rhododendrons, chrysanthemums, begonias... The room was decorated with colourful and fragrant aromas.
How much he loves children and wants to have a child of his own. He whispered to Tong Baoling that he should raise his child in this flower-like environment and cultivate him to be a useful person to society.
Hearing this, Tong Baoling smiled shyly, and her yearning for a better life rose in her heart.
She also sincerely hopes to have a child for Shi Hua to comfort his lonely heart.
Unfortunately, happy days always go by too quickly, and the newlyweds will soon face a big storm.
05 The End of the Stone Wave
At noon in November 1957, when Shi Hui returned home from the criticism meeting, his wife asked him what would happen to the criticism meeting, and he kept saying: Great, powerful!
It's really powerful, and those who criticize him are his colleagues, his best friends... In order to wash themselves, everyone spares no effort to write articles and criticize stones.
Unfortunately, even so, most of us have not escaped the consequences of being criticized by others one day.
People, sure enough, are all kings and bastards.
The wife said that she was going to receive a cultural delegation from Vietnam in the afternoon, and said that the aunt who invited her would come in the afternoon and let him receive it.
As soon as he saw his wife standing up to leave, Shi Hua quickly stood up, hugged her tightly, and kissed her hard.
When his wife went out, Shi waved his most luxurious camel coat, put on the high-end watch that only had six pieces in the whole of Shanghai, and walked out of the house alone.
I saw a colleague at the door asking him: Where are you going?
Shi Hua replied that he could no longer act. Finished...... Finished......
Acting is Shi Hua's life, if there is no such life, how happy is life, and what is fear of death!
In this way, he boarded the "Democracy No. 3" to Zhejiang and never returned.
It took two years for the body to be found.
He was only 42 years old, which was when a person's creative talent exploded.
Mom, give me 5 bucks, I'm going to see Shi Waving...
What lime to see, when plastering the walls let you see enough!
When I saw someone in the article saying such a dispute between mother and daughter after dinner, I smiled and the tears in my eyes fell.
Stone swing ah stone swing ~
Sure enough, people are all kings and bastards, I am, and so are you.