"On every side of life, there are beautiful scenery."
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Original: The edge of life
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01
Boys and girls
Youth is a wonderful thing, radiating a red glow on the outside, but feeling nothing on the inside.
When Sartre said this, perhaps he was referring to his own youth.
It may also be that he sees the youth of someone or a few people around him.
As for whether these people are male or female, it should not matter.
But the youth of boys and girls is really different.
Flamboyant youth is very handsome for boys, but for girls, it often means disaster.
No way, on the way to becoming a woman, there are always twists and turns of one kind or another.
02
Teacher Lin
When Teacher Lin appeared, I had not yet escaped from my incomparable inferiority.
Moving from the countryside to the city, even if it is a small city, is still very different.
For example, I can't wipe the country accent that I can't hide no matter how I wipe it.
I began to realize that I was different from the classmates around me.
Not at all suspicious.
The feeling of not being accepted is so obvious that no matter how stupid I am, I cannot be completely unaware.
Yes, I admit that I am a country man, but I am not a fool.
I can only clamp my tail.
Oh no, it's to keep your mouth shut.
Usually this matter is still good to say, but sometimes, the mouth can not be closed, by me.
For example, in class, the teacher asks by name to answer questions.
Or, at all, ask for an article to be read aloud.
Every now and then, it's my moment of disaster.
Later, our Chinese teacher took maternity leave, and Teacher Lin, who was substitute for the class, appeared.
In class, Mr. Lin asked us to read the text in order of seating.
When it was my turn, I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't open my mouth.
Teacher Lin was not in a hurry, and just quietly watched me like that.
I opened my mouth.
Some of the classmates laughed.
Teacher Lin didn't say anything, let alone interrupt me, just waiting quietly for me to finish reading.
After class, Teacher Lin appeared next to me at some point, and his voice was very good:
"Classmate Chen Weixi, go to my office after school, room 508 on the fifth floor."
When I came out of Teacher Lin's office, I had one more thing in my hand.
A thick book with tapes in the back.
It is a Mandarin tutorial sent by Teacher Lin.
Towards the end of the semester, I went to find Teacher Lin.
There was no one else in the office that day, and I grabbed Teacher Lin's hand.
03
Basketball Uncle
Two years later, I entered the junior high school of the foreign Chinese and entered the experimental class.
I don't remember how my uncle came to our school, but he came anyway.
During a rare physical education class in the experimental class, I stood alone in the sun next to the shade of a tree.
Then I fainted.
When I woke up, my uncle's thumb was tightly pinching my people.
My relationship with my uncle began.
Rumors abounded in the class about me and my uncle, and the classmates around me pointed fingers at me.
But I saw in my uncle's bright eyes the light that belonged to me, and it was this light that made me fearless.
What kind of job the uncle is, I don't know, I only know that his family is quite rich.
His wife, the owner of the company, is quite beautiful.
Of course, that feeling was limited to before she hit me.
Oh, by the way, the uncle and wife beat me up, I don't want to say, but I have to say.
That day, she drove a brand new Audi, a haute couture outfit, and lipstick was the new Chanel.
She went straight to our classroom, and the hallway was filled with the sound of her high heels.
For some reason, I felt like she was coming at me.
She grabbed me by the hair and pulled me outside the classroom.
The students stood up one after another to watch the good play.
At such times, on such occasions, not a single classmate would stand up for me.
The school wanted to block the news, but the reporter came.
I was dissuaded.
My mother went to the principal, and when I saw her pleading, I inexplicably felt a pang of pain.
This matter ended with me being remembered.
Mom and Dad forced me to break off contact with my uncle, and then forced me to study.
Later, I became a boarding high school student and was admitted to a second school a few years later.
04
Entrance banquet
At the entrance banquet, the uncle did not appear as promised.
Towards the end of my sophomore year of high school, he immigrated to Canada with his family.
Before he left, I climbed over the wall just to see him for the last time.
It was at that meeting that my uncle promised to come back next year for my college entrance banquet.
My story, which ends with laughter and singing after the college entrance banquet, is not bad.
Although Dr. Lu, who listened to me tell these stories, seemed to be still unsatisfied, after a pause, he eased up and said to me:
"Rest assured, I'll cure you—"
I didn't let him finish speaking, so I stood beside him and kissed him on the cheek.
In "The Dog of Florence", Pang Yu uses "I" to talk to a psychologist to narrate the history of a girl's mental growth, from ignorance to knowledge, she did not walk easily.
Of course, judging in the general sense or according to the eyes of the people around the protagonist, "I" is obviously a girl who is not very disciplined, not only taking the initiative to approach the teacher, but also having an inexplicable relationship with an uncle early.
It is no wonder that the wife of the uncle in the story will come to the door and teach the protagonist a lesson in public in the way of treating Xiao San.
In the story, the protagonist is always pursuing some kind of light and shadow, a certain image that seems certain and seems uncertain, laughter, or eyes, or a feeling that cannot be grasped.
In the end, she is a girl, a girl whose youth is still early from women and early from love.
As if it were the fate of all girls, she walked forward step by step, groping, and even went on a rampage.
How many twists and turns does it take for a girl to become a woman?
How many twists and turns does a girl have to go through youth?
For this question, perhaps, every girl's answer is different, nor can it be the same.
Life Jun said
"Learning can be promoted, but what about youth?"