In 2018, at Shi Shengjie's memorial service, Song Yan cried heartbroken.
From meeting in 1977 to getting married in 1981,
The two men have gone through 41 years of ups and downs.
When she was young, Song Yan withstood the pressure of all parties and Shi Shengjie married naked.
And in old age, especially in the last year after Shi Shengjie's cancer,
Song Yan accompanied her husband again and walked through the last part of her life.
A year before Shi Shengjie's death, he also toured all over Heilongjiang.
It was the summer of 2017, and Shi Shengjie, who was usually unwell,
Since then, there have been symptoms of frequent low back pain.
Because he was performing, Shi Shengjie did not make a sound, but gritted his teeth and insisted until the end of the tour.
After returning to Harbin, his physical condition began to deteriorate further.
Frequent low-grade fever, but also accompanied by symptoms of nausea and anorexia.
Song Yan urged her husband to go to the hospital for examination, and the result was advanced pancreatic cancer.
At that time, Shi Shengjie was still a little confused, for so many years, his body had been fine.
Don't say that there are very few colds, even the family does not have cancer.
The doctor told him that the genetic factors of pancreatic cancer were not very obvious, and the main cause was related to habits such as drinking and smoking.
When Song Yan heard the drink, her heart couldn't help but burst with sourness.
The husband has had a drinking habit for many years.
And this habit of Shi Shengjie is related to his experience in his youth.
Born in 1953, Shi Shengjie was originally from Tianjin.
His parents were engaged in music, so Shi Shengjie also received a lot of influence from an early age.
Living in Tianjin until the age of 7, Shi Shengjie's family moved to Harbin, Heilongjiang.
At that time, Shi Shengjie had begun to frequently perform with his father on stage.
The calm was broken in 1969.
In the context of this special era, Shi Shengjie's father was not spared and was implicated.
The father then chose to commit suicide.
Shi Shengjie, who was already 16 years old, also went to be in the Northern Wilderness, where he was assigned to a shochu factory.
At that time, the job assigned to Shi Shengjie in the factory was wine tasting.
The high degree of liquor soon made Shi Shengjie dependent, and he worked for more than three years.
By the time he left the shochu factory, Shi Shengjie had already developed the habit of drinking alcohol every day.
At the age of 24, Shi Shengjie had become the backbone of the business in the Quyi team.
That's when he met Song Yan, who was also in the qu art team.
Song Yan is a native of Harbin, and she sings Shandong Qinshu in the quyi team.
At that time, she was 5 years younger than Shi Shengjie.
However, the love dou was just beginning, coupled with Shi Shengjie's talent, he soon developed a good feeling for him.
However, after understanding the side, Song Yan learned that Shi Shengjie's family composition was not good.
As a result, the open pursuit turned into a secret date.
At that time, she didn't care about the outside world's opinion, just worried that she would be criticized after being caught.
To this end, every time the two people went out together, Song Yan had to dress up.
She borrowed a military dagger from a male colleague and draped it every time she went out.
Then I put the fur collar of the big trunk up, so that I walked on the road, and I couldn't tell whether she was a man or a woman.
This sneaky date lasted for more than four years.
It was not until Shi Shengjie's family problems were resolved that the love affair between the two people was made public.
In the summer of 1981, Shi Shengjie and Song Yan finally had lovers and finally became dependents.
In fact, before getting married, Song Yan discovered Shi Shengjie's habit of drinking every day.
She found that Shi Shengjie hid the wine in the dormitory, and every day after work, she could drink a tea jar!
At that time, Song Yan advised him to quit drinking, but Shi Shengjie still went his own way.
So after getting married, the first thing Song Yan did was to confiscate all the wine.
For a while, Shi Shengjie really stopped drinking at home.
But later Song Yan learned that she could not drink at home, so Shi Shengjie took advantage of the socializing and opened up to drink with friends outside.
When they first got married, there was no house, and the two people had to squeeze into the dormitory of the unit.
Even so, Song Yan has no complaints or regrets.
During Song Yan's pregnancy, it was just in time for Shi Shengjie to tour the country.
Seeing her husband's worries, Song Yan also advised Shi Shengjie, you can rest assured to go to the performance, I will go back to my mother's house to give birth.
However, Shi Shengjie had just left on the front foot, and the next day his wife was pushed into the delivery room.
Unfortunately, Song Yan caught up with the difficult childbirth, and it took more than half a day to finally give birth to a daughter.
Shi Shengjie, on the other hand, did not return to Harbin until half a month later.
Afterwards, the father-in-law and the mother-in-law complained about him.
If it wasn't for Song Yan's clarification, he wouldn't know how to deal with himself.
Shortly after his daughter was born, Shi Shengjie became the leader of the Heilongjiang Qu Art Troupe.
He has more work than in the past.
Song Yan is still very considerate of her husband, and she herself returns from the stage to the backstage.
She was transferred from the Qu Art Troupe to the Academy of Arts and began a nine-to-five office career.
Her husband's career became more and more prosperous, and he later became one of the top ten comedians in the country.
But the only thing that made Song Yan uneasy was his drinking problem.
After learning that he often went out with friends to indulge in revelry,
Song Yan simply stopped giving him face, and every time there was a banquet, she went with Shi Shengjie.
And every time she gathered, she stared at Shi Shengjie and could only have one drink.
If he dared to pour the wine again, Song Yan would laugh and stomp on his feet under the table.
After a long time, Shi Shengjie gave Song Yan a nickname called Foot Pedal.
Although everyone didn't say it, they all knew that Shi Shengjie was watched by his wife.
So slowly, Shi Shengjie's face couldn't hang up.
Any more parties, he firmly disagreed with his wife's.
For this reason, when the two people were young, they did not have less to quarrel and even quarrel over this matter.
Seeing that her husband did not listen, Song Yan also had no way.
But on the other hand, she also saw that Shi Shengjie, who had drunk wine, did not look like his body had changed.
Therefore, in order not to affect the feelings between husband and wife, Song Yan simply relaxed.
The white colt crossed the gap, and most of the two people's lives came like this.
Who would have thought that in the year of Hua Jia, Shi Shengjie's body was still in a state of condition.
After being diagnosed with cancer in 2017, the doctor secretly told Song Yan,
Pancreatic cancer itself is a malignant tumor, and there is little hope of curing it, not to mention that this is a late stage.
So be prepared.
At that time, the doctor told Song Yan that Shi Shengjie's condition was next measured in months.
Song Yan, who was not mentally prepared, could only hide outside alone to release her painful emotions.
After that, she also tried to deceive Shi Shengjie, and the doctor said that your illness is fine, as long as you treat it well, you can survive with the disease.
Shi Shengjie himself calmed down: You don't lie to me, advanced pancreatic cancer, I still know what this situation is.
Death is nothing, but I just can't let go of you and your daughter...
A remark made Song Yan sad again.
If I had been able to watch over my husband and quit drinking all these years, maybe this would not be the case.
From the time the illness was detected, Shi Shengjie was officially hospitalized.
Because it is advanced, it has been completely inoperable, and can only be treated with conservative drugs.
In order to take care of her husband, Song Yan moved the bedding to the hospital and was admitted to the ward.
Shi Shengjie's symptoms of anorexia became more and more serious, in order to make her husband appetize,
Song Yan cooked him all kinds of porridge every day.
But even if the pattern is changed, the husband still can't eat anything.
Occasionally, if you barely eat some food, you may also throw up immediately.
This was not nothing, especially when the pain of the drill heart struck, and that feeling made Shi Shengjie even more difficult.
In order not to let his wife worry about himself, he tried not to make a sound every time he was in pain.
After staying up like this for a month, Shi Shengjie's body quickly became thin.
At that time, Shi Shengjie also had more than ten apprentices around him.
But in order not to let everyone worry, since he was hospitalized, Shi Shengjie did not tell anyone.
Until a patient who was treated by a doctor accidentally found that Shi Shengjie was also hospitalized.
The news was then posted online in late August.
When the news spread, Zou Dejiang, Li Jing, and many other disciples of Shi Shengjie rushed to Harbin.
Seeing Master's pale and emaciated face, the disciples couldn't help but burst into tears.
After they discussed, they wanted Master to transfer to a hospital with better conditions.
In September of that year, several apprentices accompanied Shi Shengjie and Song Yan to Shanghai.
When they were hospitalized, the disciples wanted to pay the master, but they were all stopped by Song Yan.
She said that now she can afford to see a doctor, and the children have a heavy burden of having a home.
The heart is received, but the money cannot be given to you.
After settling in the hospitalization of Shi Shengjie, the disciples all went back to their own homes.
Most of the following time, it was mainly Song Yan who took care of her husband.
Shanghai is unaccompanied, whether it is treatment or life, everything is handled by Song Yan alone.
Physical tiredness is not nothing, mainly because the mental pressure is too great.
Song Yan herself could not eat every day, and she often had colds.
In the month of coming to Shanghai, Song Yan lost a full 6 pounds.
At that time, Shi Shengjie's daughter and son-in-law, because of their work, could not stay with their parents for a long time.
Occasionally, the daughter and son-in-law would travel from Harbin to Shanghai to visit their parents.
Except for treatment, most of the rest of the day is spent recuperating.
Accompanied by Song Yan, Shi Shengjie would go outside every morning for a walk and then practice his throat.
Even though he was already weak in speaking, Shi Shengjie still thought that he would be able to perform on stage one day.
Song Yan often advised him not to practice, save some effort.
Shi Shengjie is often very irritable when he hears it, how can he get on stage after not practicing?
Whenever Song Yan heard this, she could only continue to hide and cry.
Every time he got angry, Shi Shengjie would also apologize to Song Yan.
Song Yan is aware of her husband's current body and mood, and she naturally does not bother with him.
After a few months of treatment, Shi Shengjie felt that his state had improved somewhat.
At first, I didn't want to eat anything, but later, at every meal, I could drink some porridge, and if I was good, I could eat some steamed buns.
By March 2018, Shi Shengjie, who felt less pain, wanted to be discharged from the hospital.
Song Yan disagreed, and had to be treated better before she could go out.
Shi Shengjie was very angry, he did not want to lie in the hospital bed all day and do nothing.
Seeing that the two people were frozen, the doctor told Song Yan,
It is important for cancer patients to be emotionally smooth, so respect his choice.
In this way, Song Yan had to handle the discharge procedures for her husband.
At that time, the northeast was still cold, and Song Yan said that she would not take her husband back with her.
The old couple left the hospital, and Song Yan took her husband to Wuxi.
The weather there is much warmer than in Harbin.
Song Yan and her husband stayed in a hotel in a scenic spot.
Although there is no convenience outside the home, what does Shi Shengjie want to eat,
Song Yan always wanted to do everything to satisfy her husband.
Half a month later, April 5 was Shi Shengjie's birthday.
The daughter and son-in-law also had a group of apprentices who rushed from all over the world to celebrate Shi Shengjie's birthday.
After another three months, Shi Shengjie also went to Beijing and Tianjin to participate in the recording of two programs.
He felt that he was in a very good state, and his wife Song Yan accompanied Shi Shengjie the whole time.
The recording of these two shows is like the final farewell of Shi Shengjie and the stage.
A month later, his health continued to deteriorate.
At this moment, Shi Shengjie could already feel that his time was running out.
He told Song Yan: Let's go home.
On August 19 of that year, Song Yan accompanied Shi Shengjie back to Harbin.
When he returned, he was taken directly to the hospital.
For more than a month, Shi Shengjie never left the ward again.
Song Yan and her daughter guarded him all day, and the apprentices took turns to take care of him from time to time.
He doesn't like to see everyone in a sad state,
So every time in front of him, everyone acted joyfully.
On September 28, 66-year-old Shi Shengjie left.
At the last moment of his life, Shi Shengjie told Song Yan:
I can't accompany you anymore, you have to be strong alone.
Shi Shengjie was gone, and Song Yan once had difficulty getting out of her grief.
Everything in the house is laid out as it is, especially all the living belongings of the husband,
Song Yan kept it carefully.
In 2011, my daughter went abroad shortly after getting married.
Now that her father has passed away, her daughter wants to take her mother to a different environment.
Song Yan originally did not want to go, but her daughter kept persuading.
However, after staying for more than twenty days after going out, she felt uncomfortable with everything.
This time, the daughter could not help her mother, so she had to send her back to Harbin.
After going back, although Song Yan still sees things and thinks about people from time to time,
Today, Shi Shengjie's death is in his fourth year.
Song Yan will think from time to time, many years ago,
Before each time the husband went out to perform, he stewed meat, bought vegetables, and bought steamed buns for himself.
At that time, there was no refrigerator at home, and the food prepared by Shi Shengjie in advance was frozen on the balcony.
Nowadays, there are all kinds of household appliances.
However, the person who accompanied Song Yan to eat steamed bread and stew for most of his life,
But left forever...
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