Lu Xiaotian was the weakest person in the whole team, dragging the team's hind legs every time, Xiao Yunjie and Yan Baoyue were the opposite, the two of them were the strongest in the recruit company, and their comprehensive strength and physical fitness were the most powerful.
Perhaps on the first day, Xiao Yunjie and Yan Shaoyue were out of the limelight, which made Lü Xiaotian feel that Yan Shaoyue was a "helpful" person, and when he fell down again, he extended his hand to Yan Shaoyue, hoping that he would pull himself, and as a result, Yan Shaoyue did not see it and ran away directly.
Lü Xiaotian did not know that Yan Baoyue's first day of appearance was not to help others, but he wanted the company commander to remember him, appear in front of the commander, and impress the commander, because he wanted to become stronger, wanted to go up, did not want to stay in the new barracks for too long, hoped that the commander would treat him differently, and he used the new barracks to show his leadership ability, ability to deal with problems, and ability to cope with changes, just to complete the propaganda of himself as soon as possible.
He did, and he managed to get Li Xiang's attention.
Don't say it's a soldier, even the usual staff also knows the importance of team awareness, but Yan Baoyue has no team consciousness at all, he thinks that he is strong enough, he doesn't need to cooperate with people, when the enemy's artillery fire comes, he will bravely catch it, without help.
Was Yan Baoyue born like this? Of course not, when I read the original book, I knew that he did not help people because the "half bottle of peanut butter" caused him too much harm, so that he could not walk out of the shadows.
He wants to be stronger, in large part from here, because he always feels that he is not strong enough to protect the people he wants to protect, and he cannot protect himself.
"Half a bottle of peanut butter" ruined a family
When Yan Baoyue was very young, his mother left, leaving him and his father to rely on each other, others had a mother to take care of him, and he only had a father, and he longed for a mother's gentle embrace.
Love does not forget that there must be an echo, perhaps his desire is too strong, and soon the heavens innocently sent him a gentle and kind little mother who loves him.
Little mother to buy him snacks, buy him toys, buy him what he wants, let him feel the love that little mother gives him, if you want to ask little Yan Broken Yue, who he loves the most, he will definitely say without hesitation, Little Mother, the father who depends on each other has to stand on the side, which shows the position of Little Mother in Yan Breaker's heart.
Before the marriage of the little mother and father, I promised Yan Shaoyue: Broken Yue, I promise you, if I really become your mother, even if I have my own children in the future, my favorite is still Broken Yue, and no one can rob you!
Little Yan Shaoyue didn't know how heavy this promise was, and Xiao Ma paid a great price for it.
True heart for true heart, the child's heart is pure, who is good to him, he is good to whom, xiaoma loves him like a real son to yan break yue to protect him, he is also like a son, think of everything little mom, love her and respect her, Yan break Yue hopes to give what he thinks is the best to the little mother, the family of three is very happy.
A year later, Xiao Ma really conceived her own child, just like she promised, she is still good to Yan Baoyue, Yan Baoyue is very happy, very much looking forward to the birth of her younger brothers and sisters, and has already thought about protecting her younger siblings in the future.
Xiao Ma likes to eat egg rolls, every time the person who spreads the egg rolls comes, Yan Baoyue will bring tools to let him help make a portion for Xiao Ma to eat, this time is no exception, but this time he added peanut butter.
When he was in line to buy, there was a small radish head holding a bottle of peanut butter, he tried it, it was really delicious, so he poured half a bottle of peanut butter in the egg roll, and happily took it home for his mother to eat.
Yan Baoyue was very happy in his heart, he thought about the scene where xiaoma ate peanut butter, and the corners of his mouth involuntarily turned up, because it was really delicious, and he was sure that xiaoma would be happy.
However, when Xiao Ma took a bite of the egg roll, Xiao Ma immediately turned pale, her throat swollen, her face began to deform, and people began to become shaky, frightening Yan Puyue at a loss.
It turned out that the little mother was allergic to peanuts, this time Yan Baoyue poured half a bottle of peanut butter, usually when she was not pregnant, the little mother could not eat a little peanut, and now that she is pregnant with a child, she cannot touch a little peanut.
Yan Baoyue did not know that he was originally kind, but he harmed his little mother and his unborn brothers and sisters.
When the little mother was sent to the hospital, there was no consciousness, the child was stillborn, because the harm was too great, the little mother could no longer have a child, how much the little mother expected from the child, and now how desperate it is to see no child.
What is even more sad is that the father received the task of the superior and must leave immediately, the doctor is operating on the little mother, the little mother has just lost the child and needs comfort, and the father is not around, leaving Yan Baoyue, the culprit and the little mother, and they don't know how to get along.
After the little mother woke up, she couldn't see the child, couldn't see Yan Baoyue's father, her heart was cold for a long time, she waited, waited until she was discharged, waited until her parents left, waited until the flowers were thanked, half a year later he came back, the little mother finally died, and when he appeared, the little mother left a divorce letter and left.
Without that half bottle of peanut butter, Yan Baoyue would not lose her younger siblings, her little mother, and her happy home.
If life can be repeated, I believe that Yan Baoyue will not give the egg roll to the little mother to eat, but unfortunately there is no if in life.
The trajectory that was once left behind will eventually precipitate in the rest of life, leaving a far-reaching impression and leaving an indelible impression, which cannot be pulled out and torn off.
A bunch of peanut rice completely "ruined" Yan Baoyue
Dad finally returned home on a mission, and the family of three, who had thought it was happy, got together again, but what awaited him was happy to be broken and his wife left.
Pei Yanyan, that is, Yan Baoyue's little mother, from the initial expectation, to the full of despair, she lost patience in the waiting.
She loves Yan Shixiang, loves Yan Shixiang, she is 14 years younger than Yan Shixiang, she has been a princess in the eyes of her parents since she was a child, she has never been wronged, but here, she has changed from a princess to a "nanny", she takes care of men, takes care of children, takes care of this home, once slender hands have changed into thin cocoons, once milky white skin has become yellow, and once innocent bright eyes have become confused.
In just a short period of time, she seems to have become another person, her parents think she is happy, so they did not stop her from marrying a man who is 14 years older than her, but now she regrets it, her daughter was tortured by this man, and lost her color, but when she wanted to find someone to settle the account, people were not around, and there was nowhere to vent.
Day after day, Pei Yanyan loved this man again, and she also lost patience in the waiting, and she finally gave up on him.
When Yan Shixiang returned home, Pei Yanyan gave him a divorce agreement, and also lost a bunch of peanuts and rice to Yan Baoyue, and left.
Seeing the peanut rice thinking of the peanut butter of the past, Yan Broke Yue's tight string finally broke, he saw the peanut rice, just like seeing the younger brother and sister who had passed away, seeing the pale face of the little mother, he fell down, and from then on he was afraid when he saw the peanut rice.
Pei Yanyan is not intentional, just as once Yan Shaoyue was not intentional, just she took a handful of peanut rice in her hand, just wanted to vent, lost Yan Shaoyue's life, but she did not know, her vent, the whole tortured Yan Shaoyue for 12 years, seeing the peanut, he was seconds to instigate, his face was pale, his body was uncontrolled, his spirit was uncontrolled, and people began to become cowering and did not dare to look at people's eyes.
Once the bright teenager, once the innocent and lively teenager, once the sunny teenager, is gone.
That half bottle of peanut butter made Pei Yanyan lose her child, and also let Yan Baoyue learn a lesson and lose the spirit she once had.
Yan Baoyue has always blamed himself, because he killed his younger brothers and sisters and hurt his little mother.
Pei Yanyan lost her child, but let her face the "culprit" every day and could not vent.
Two poor people, just need a person to comfort, need a person to regulate, but the person who regulates has to leave for other reasons, and finally leads to two people to a dead end, one to love deadly, one to lose confidence in life.
After Xiao Ma lost a handful of peanuts and left, Yan Baoyue became unconfident and became afraid of peanuts.
At school, from the age of 6 to 18, Yan Baoyue was bullied, his classmates bullied him, and as long as he resisted, he took out peanuts and rice and threw it at him, making him have to obey and compromise again and again.
At that time, Yan Shixiang was to save people, so he left the mother and son who needed comfort, and now these rescued people, hearing about Yan Shaoyue, were all very guilty, they trained him from the age of 6 to give him the ability to resist, but no matter how much he learned, no matter how strong his ability was, he still did not dare to look people in the eyes, did not dare to face peanut rice, did not dare to resist the control of others.
From the age of 6 to 18, Yan Baoyue lived a very depressed and depressed life, but he could not resist peanuts.
Those who bullied him, those who said that he conspired to kill his younger brothers and sisters, all left indelible damage in his heart, they just enjoyed a mouth addiction, but they did not know that these injuries affected Yan Baoyue's life, making him dare not believe anyone, did not want to help anyone.
So when he faced Lu Xiaotian, he chose to ignore it.
Because once when he was hurt, many people didn't reach out.
Xiao Yunjie stood up and helped him when he was injured, so he always remembered him and regarded him as his best friend and truest brother.
In the end, Yan Baoyue has no sense of security, no self-confidence, he does not dare to reach out to others first, he is afraid of being hurt, he has helped many classmates, but they have no gratitude, only bullying and squeezing.
He was afraid that Lu Xiaotian was another "classmate" and another "white-eyed wolf", so he chose to ignore it.
He practiced every morning and evening, changed sandbags once every 3 months, ran in the mountains with weight every day, never slackened, his body was full of strength, but he could not vent it, he thought that he was not strong enough, so he was repeatedly bullied, so he worked hard, tried harder.
When Li Xiang asked him why you wanted to be a soldier, he would not hesitate to answer, I want to become stronger.
Everyone thinks he's strong enough, and in the recruit team, he ranks first in terms of overall results, but he still thinks he's weak and can't protect himself.
It can be seen how much the injuries he suffered as a child affected him.
Sometimes a careless word, an unintentional action, will hurt a child for a lifetime, and this harm will become more and more profound with the change of time, and it will live in this shadow for a lifetime and cannot extricate itself.