Han Feng: Confess yourself

Time is a gentle hand hidden in the darkness, in your trance, it will push you to the threshold of the new year, making people sigh, sigh, count the past, and sigh.

Over the years, the claws of fate have been like shadows, never far away, life is full of holes, carrying weights forward, the body and mind are like an indefatigable gyroscope, turning rapidly, time is filled and exhausted by the busyness of day after day, the train that does not perceive time is silent, and has passed through the station in front of you for many years.

I didn't notice when the folds were deeply embedded in the forehead, the corners of the eyes, and the ends of the nose. It quietly and without a trace camped on its cheeks, and the red light constantly lit up from some parts of the body, releasing some uneasy signals.

Suddenly, I found that I was really old. "Always come unconsciously, the footsteps are very light." It is like a mite invisible to the naked eye, tiptoeing, tiptoeing, biting the skin and face without borders, with "menopause", forming two sets of carriages, driving side by side, consuming sleep and body.

How reluctant! A few years ago, when people said that you look younger than you really are, I have been confidently indulging in praise, but my mouth is saying against my heart, "Where there are, there are a lot of wrinkles." Occasionally, I will be complacent with the filter and the photos after the beautification, as if that is what I really am.

Obviously, I know that my face can't stand up to scrutiny, but I still have to comfort myself and deceive myself, which is really hypocritical to the extreme. The mirror is the most loyal viewer, showing the original face, making people unable to hide.

Years are a pig-killing knife, and time urges people to grow old! The once smooth and delicate cheeks were gone, and the body that exuded infinite vitality was not as good as before. I regret, I regret, I regret, I sigh, but when have I ever treated them well?

When you are in the workplace, in order to maintain your image, you also apply skin care products to moisturize it. After retirement, they are mostly shown with a plain face, skin care products are shelved, almost become decorations, forgotten in the edges, corners, only on certain occasions, symbolically think of them, let alone daily care and care of the skin. The home is also full of pajama accessories, a sloppy, lazy, loose look.

Whenever the lover sneers and disagrees, he also calls it "feel comfortable at will." Exercise is also three days of fishing and two days of drying nets, life, work and rest is very undisciplined. I found many high-sounding excuses and excuses to excuse and justify my laziness and slackness, and to seek balance in my heart.

If you think about it, although the time at your disposal is divided into seven or eight pieces by trivial matters such as "accompanying and caring for your mother", there are still sporadic times for sitting down to sip tea, taking a nap at will, and taking a leisurely walk. In fact, the root cause lies in the bias of ideological understanding, the psychology of vanity, and the entanglement of excessive indulgence in life.

Unexpectedly, there are old and young life stages, the burden is on the shoulders, the pressure is prominent, and the bag of the years is filled with bitterness and bitterness. I hastily coped with the rather difficult dilemma of life, neglecting the timely maintenance and management of my own body and mind, so that my state of mind was like a wild horse that was out of control, galloping wildly, and once formed a fixed behavior pattern.

Eating is always wolfing, three bites and making two bites, hurrying, as if being watched by the judges and the audience, participating in the competition. No matter which mode of transportation you choose, it is a state of wind and fire, fast horse and whip, impatient, nervous, as if there is a tiger chasing behind you, and a heart cannot really be quiet and relaxed.

It is easy to be impatient when things happen, and a small thing will cause anger and anger to people. It is even more impossible to sink down to think seriously, rationally plan and arrange idle time, and let them rush through the fingertips and pass in a fleeting moment.

Mr. Feng Zikai said in "Suddenly Enlightened": "Since there is nowhere to escape, it is better to be happy." Since there is no Pure Land, it is better to have a pure heart. Since you didn't get your wish, you might as well be relieved. ”

Now I suddenly realized: for many years, I have been caring for the elderly and worrying about children, but I have neglected to care for myself. You should be a little better for yourself, borrow a little time for yourself, prepare tea bags that are beneficial to physical and mental health, reasonably match nutritionally balanced meals, develop the habit of self-discipline exercise, read classic books to adjust your mood, regularly care and moisturize your skin, and pay proper attention to, maintain, and cherish your face and body, so that you have enough confidence and energy to take care of everything.

Walk on the road of aging, accept the reality, and relax your mindset! Sanmao once said: "The most beautiful years lie in its inevitable passage, spring flowers, autumn moons, summer days, winter snow, if they are beautiful, they are called wonderful, if they are bad, they are called experiences." The vicissitudes of the eyebrows, the frost and snow of the years are the imprints of time, it is a natural and irreversible process, everyone cannot avoid it, do not have to be too concerned, the important thing is to cultivate their inner world and ensure the strength of the body.

After being busy, reserve a little more space for yourself to think, discover a little interest and hobbies, learn to place and nourish your soul, manage your emotions, find the freedom and peace that belongs to a person, and listen to the call of the heart and body.

Even if fate gives a chicken feather, you can step on it under your feet, deal with it calmly, and clap your hands and reconcile with the wretched life. Even in the face of day-to-day chai rice oil and salt, don't forget to flip through a book you like, read other people's lives, and gain your own insights. Look at the world from another perspective, start from the present, enjoy each stage of your life, and adjust the poetry of life. There is warmth in the heart, there is light in the eyes, and it is wonderful to go out of your own.

I remember the Japanese writer Haruki Murakami said: "Don't worry too much about the present, don't worry too much about the future, when you experience something, the scenery in front of you is different from before." "Spring has arrived as promised, bow a bunch of spring, put on a spring sun, and go slowly!" Be leisurely, calm, slow down, not hurried, and pleasant. Not only to ease yourself, settle down, reduce anxiety, but also let the people around you like a spring breeze, the things encountered will naturally be solved, and the results will be doubled with half the effort.

About author:Han Feng, retired from Zichuan District Branch of the Agricultural Development Bank of China, is a member of the China Financial Writers Association, the Shandong Financial Writers Association, and the Shandong Financial Poetry Association. He loves music, reading, traveling, and likes to write some essays, entertain himself, and advocate a simple, free and casual life. Occasionally, young works are published, which is actually loved and encouraged by colleagues.

Yanagiizumi Financial Literature